>Be 17
>Depressed as fuck
>No gf, no friends, no dreams, family treats me like shit
>Consider seppuku
>Almost get caught, scared as fuck
>Go to psychologist
>Gives me pills and send me on my way
>Pills don't help
>Go to psychologist again
>"lol how about more of da same pills btw give me money"
>fast forward to 21st birthday
>feeling even worse
>tried to get over it and "man the fuck up"
>hahaha no
>start looking for new psychologist
>go for the span of two months, he says he's studying me to get a clear diagnosis
>he ends up recommending meditation (?) and homeopathy (???)
>I payed him a lot of money for this bullshit
>Give up
>Try to seppuku
>Get helium for balloons
>Send message to only friend to go look for my corpse
>2 am, she works so I'm possitive she wil only read it around 7 am
>Get everything ready
>Then notice
>Motherfucking valve has to be constantly pressed
>Fuck
>Try to do it anyway
>Only lose consciousness
>Wake up at 7 am
>Calls from fucking everyone
>Fuck
>cue a bunch of people talking about what to do to fix my life
>No honest answer
>Same bullshit all the time
>People come from far and wide to claim the shit I've tried and heard about already is what will fix my entire life
>feel even worse
>desperate at this point
>post on Sup Forums, /adv/, Reddit, even fucking FB
>"go to a psycologist"
>no real choice so I go to one
>get pills again
>pills make me feel apathetic
>complain to psycologist
>"how about some more pills"
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>go to yet another psychologist
>same pills than doctor 1
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I fucking dare you to tell me suicide is not my only option. I don't want to kill myself but what choice do I have, crying in bed to sleep for the rest of my life? Fuck that. It's not like I have a choice or something. I don't want to do it Sup Forums, but I can't keep on suffering anymore. Fuck life, I'm getting a shotgun or something.