OK Sup Forums here's my sob story...

OK Sup Forums here's my sob story . And I'm not underage & b8 I turned 18 this May and have been lurking since 2014(I know it's not that long)

>Live in fucked up third world country
>Live in a small ass poor town
>My family is a famous landlord family
>Parents are first cousins
>Richest in my whole class
>Get bullied mercilessly because I was shy and easily cried
>Get abused by teachers from Kindergarten all the way to 3rd grade
>Parents fight all the fucking time
>My father's father had two wives and had daughters from the first one
>My father was the second wife's only son
>My aunts and their children mock and abuse me
>Parents are too caught up in family feuds to give a fuck
>Most children get great grades because the cheap ass school is easily bribed
>There is nothing in my life except for the thousand year old cliché, a girl.
>My cousin whom well call Sara
>She is my first cousin on my mother's side
>She is the only reason I actually give a fuck and do shit

Cont? Please tell.me if anyone actually gives a fuck and I'll continue

I'm interested! This sounds a lot like the life my friend would have lived if he'd stayed in India.
Tell me about Sara!

wtf is a famous landlord family lol

Ok here goes

>Only see her once in three or two months
>Didn't even know what love was back then
>Keep studying
>My mother wants me to study in a prestigious school in the same industrial city where my cousin lived
>Give admission exam in first grade
>Fail
>2nd
>Fail
>3rd
>Fail
>My mother thinks I'm a disappointment

We are technically farmers but operate similar to feudal lords. Famous as in well known in the surrounding lands and deserts.

I give 2 fucks user plz proceed

>Two close relatives have already entered the school
>My confidence is broken down
>Give up and enter another school which actually beat the other school in grades by the time I entered
>School 2 is the fancy types that focus on allowing a child to actually believe in himself and all that
>Meet Sara almost daily
>End up kissing her on one such occasion
>We were watching the lady and the tramp and eating noodles(I know it sounds cheesy)
>Decide to kiss like the dogs
>Noice.Jpeg
>Do it for a while
>Nothing serious just experiment
>Her mother finds out
>Stops her meeting me
>Focus everything on studies
>Top in all classes from 4 all the way to 6th
>Start meeting her
>She's quite different
>Still best friends with her
>Start to fall back in class
>Spend my time on drawing and reading books
>Don't focus on the course
>Still a winner with teachers
>Enter 8th grade
>Executepuberty.exe
>Start to actually fall in love with her
>Right shitty teenage poetry all the time
>Teachers love me but I can hardly score a single A
>Loose my appetite
>Stop talking to my parents as much
>Spend more and more time in my books
>My parents think it's the books I read
>Make me spend more time on studies even though my mother is an author and both of them promote reading
>Can't focus on studies

Let me if you're there and I'll post the rest

*Let me know

Im here, continue please

Hurry up

Ok I'm back

Well I guess I was too late

Just post it i dont have all day..

Ok sorry here you go

>Think of her at all times
>Enter 9th
>Don't have a social life because autism
>I have many 'friends' at school but never go out with them
>Have studied in all boys school so no female contact ever since 4th
>Get fatter because never played any sport
>Don't take an active part in school
>Grades fall
>Parents think I'm an even bigger disappointment
>Get really depressed because my parents are disappointed in me and and I'm a failure
>But most of all because I know I'll never end up with Sara
>Firstly because she's my first cousin and even my family knows you'll have to break the line of cousin marriage to ensure no one ends up with a 'tard
>And also because she is of a family generally deemed 'lowly' or Jew-like
>Attempt suicide but end up 'rescuing' myself because I didn't have the balls to do it
>Turn towards religion
>Get really religious
>Decide to change my sect
>Parents are cool with it
>Wentbetterthenexpected.mp3
>Still depressed af
>Write more of my shitty poetry
>Try suicide again but stop just before pushing the chair because I thought it was selfish
>Tell her I love her just before final exams
>She thinks of me just like a brother
>Fuckmylife.gif

Is there more user?
Also whats ur plan now?

Btw telling her that was a mistake taking in consideration the wayur family is.. u need to look and act like a very normal and successful to try to get any pussy let alone ur cousin..

How about you go find four other ladies that are at least 25% like this dream-girl queen of all women?

That will replace her.

>fucked up third world country

in witch continent?

There's more
Can't because of my family and society

>Third suicide attempt
>No one finds out
>Decide to just pass my time in studies and prayer
>Find out she was my only motivation
>Have no goals or plans without hrt
>Start writing my thoughts in a diary
>My little brother takes it out and along with two older cousins reads it
>They find out about my feelings for her
>He hints at it and I find out
>Ignore it
>Keep going on in school
>Still a disappointment
>Where I live pre martial relationships can ruin lives
>Especially with cousins
>My mother always warned me of people who no longer talked to the family because he proposed to a cousin and shit like that
>Time goes on
>Start my last year of high school
>Third week

There's a little more

muslim country?

Hurry up i gotta work u attention whore im waiting and still wanna know whats ur plan now !

Ok so here goes

>I'm staying at my maternal grandmother's house
>Sara is staying too with her brother and sister
>Talking to her while outside at night
>About life and what we're gonna do after high school
>We just ignore my broken heart
>My brother decides to tell her brother
>Fund out because they are hinting about it
>Ignore them
>Next day
>Didn't try suicide
>Sara's mother called and told them to come home
>They were supposed to leave in three days

She asked my yesterday if I ever wrote a diary. It's all quite wierd. If my aunt has Really found out then I'm really fucked. Thus could break the whole family in two

My family is already a bit of an outsider because of a family feud over an inheritance issue. In thinking of finally an hiroing but I need you guys to talk to me last time.

I see .. ur mother is a novelist or something u said.. if shit hits the fan try telling em is an idea ur experimenting wth .. like a novel u haven't decided how to write but its from the perspective of a teenage so u have filled it wth shit from ur life mixed wth drama and shit cuz novel.. tell em you haven't decided how to write this shit so u kinda decided tocwrite some kind of diary that u will try to condense later for an attemp novel .. again cuz u mixed teen drama wth facts of the life u know.. meaning ur life.. its a shitty novel but u wanted to try it and its a hoby of yours.. so no no real falling in love wth sara.. you just picked her cuz you its the only cousin u could put on that paper cuz u get along and trust and shit but shes like a sister to you.. its just ideas for a shitty novel criticizing ur famamily ir a family like yours from a shitty thing perspective.. its a shitty excuse but its something.. maybe it may work and u are considered a exentric btch genious..

>sucks to reply at phone..let me know if have read this

Bump for interest

rape her

That's actually a great idea. I'll try that for sure.

By the way she isn't replying to my messages since last night

:-) this made me smile. hope for the best for you. good luck.

Thanks a lot

Also, be outraged that the people who stole your novel journal are not being punished for invading your privacy when they try to get you in trouble for simply writing a novel.

That isn't going to work because I don't get to throw tantrums (maybe because I never have) and because privacy is something non existent here.