Riding on a car

>riding on a car
>turn on the radio
>it's playing drone and noise tracks
>later I find out it was just radio interference and that station was just a news station

Did anything like this ever happen to you?

>be high at music festival
>watching I dont know some prog-bluegrass band at 2 in the morning
>hear a drone playing
>proceed closer to it, on the otger side of camp
>Sounds like a prelude to a Sunn O))) set
>Finally reach the source of the sound
>It's a generator
>Stay and listen anyway bc on acid
>10/10 Still the best performance at the festival

>tfw summer
>tfw have air conditioning but fridge is cold too and makes better drone music

Why didn't you just post the actual pasta

Is it better?
I don't save that bullshit. I create

>be high school student
>wake up every morning because I had to go to school
>Almost every morning, without fail, I would involuntarily make this dry gargling sound while facing down in / underneath my pillow directly before getting out of bed
>it sounded horrible and yet it sounded really good at the same time
>I would make the noise until I realized I was making the noise, then I stopped and got angry at myself for being autistic enough to repeat patterns, even when only half-conscious
>after a few months (years? I have lost all track of time since at least 5, 6, 7 years ago) it stopped completely
Sometimes, I miss those sounds.

How do you lose track of time?

>I would involuntarily make this dry gargling sound
You mean snoring, user?

Nothing happens in my life which allows me to use events as mental landmarks. Ever since dropping out of high school in my senior year (I got my diploma through homeschooling) and failing to complete multiple semesters' worth of college, I have been living (some existential faggots would say not even living, just "existing") in a pointless grey fog since at least 2013

no, the best way I can describe it is Mongolian throat singing, except totally uncontrolled, and with practically no power behind the vocals. Just a quiet, dry gurgle / expulsion of air through the mouth

>I have been living (some existential faggots would say not even living, just "existing") in a pointless grey fog since at least 2013
you alright? you have any goals in mind?

>following friends car to a destination
>hes giving me some directions over the phone
>i can hear him blasting rap music in the background
>its really distorted and lofi because of the connection and volume
>sounds like some sick industrial hip hop
i remember that trip because of those moments

Yeah dude, you good? You need to form some sort of trajectory it sounds like.

>Listening to Soundgarden's debut album after Cornell's death on Google Play
>third track, no sound
>Pressume that after second track I accidentally let it shuffle and it jumped to One Minute Silence
>nope, just turned off the sound of the tab by accident
>Meant to turn it off for my other tab where I look at videos of FUCKING
>moans of fucking cover the room for one mili second

I just need direction, which I do not have at the current time. I don't know what I should do with my life. I don't know which fields have jobs. I don't have friends anymore. It's just a feeling of constant uncertainty surrounding every aspect of my life, it's been that way for a long time now. I hate being a disappointment to my parents. I feel ashamed of myself for not having anything figured out.

>>riding on a car
Sounds dangerous. Be careful user.

fujck sorry for blog posting

>listening to the radio

Labor work is always killing it if you look hard enough, tech sector will never stop growing. Have you ever looked into coding? It's surprisingly easy to jump into the learning part of that, once you get that down it's just getting comfortable with it and then going out and looking for employers which there's no shortage of. Even in my small ass town, there's a retarded amount of opportunities for coders in web or programming.

>riding in car
>turn on radio
>hear some sort of cool post punk
>it was actually just david bowie, but the weak signal distorted it

lmao fuck working nigga, go camping for a few days if you have trouble setting goals
something as simple and primitive as
>it's cold
>oh i'll light a fire
>i'm hungry
>good thing I made this fire
works wonders

how old are you? try a manual labor job. normally that fixes people. learn the guitar too. they're relatively inexpensive in comparison to other hobbies and work as a creative outlet.

I'm 20.