I fucking hate being handicapped man. spondylometaphyseal dysplasia. Have a rare variation of it. Statistically I'm one of 145people on the planet with it. My body is fucked. Short as fuck. Generally fucked.
My dreams of being a hunter is completely fucked. Never even had the opportunity to turn it down or fail at it. Just flat out impossible.
Never experienced genuine love from anyone outside my parents. People just pity me. I only have friends through the internet. Outside of the internet when I meet them in real life everything just stops. There is one guy though that don't mind but I'm not really that high on his list of friends so we don't hang out that much. It's through him I meet people on the internet.
I can't go out. I can but can't really go that far. My joints, hips, spine and legs get all fucked. I am visibly handicapped so it's not really pleasant being outside.
I'm going to try to pursue a career in flight traffic control. If I fail then that's it. This piece of shit life aint worth it. I find no happiness in it.
Would be nice to get my hands on a gun. Travel out deep deep in the forest. Off myself and just be absorbed by nature.
I've though about the afterlife. Just nothingness. The empty black void.
My first question I asked myself when I thought about it was: "But what would I think?".
Nothing. There would be no thought. I assume of course.
I don't take pics of myself. I wont even look in the mirror. If you look spondylometaphyseal dysplasia on google. Visualize a milder version of it.
Christian Scott
show me how handicapped you are and I'll tell ya if we can hang out.
Jackson Lewis
Right side is pretty much the perfect description. I wiggle around like a fucking penguin when I walk that's how you notice it.
Andrew Hall
kek kill u r self faggot
Jose Cruz
Yep
Jordan Carter
you can became a hunter of the world.... of warcraft.
if not, you can always drink tequila
Kevin Evans
Wow is fucking boring and so is alcohol.
Oliver Cruz
i would hang out with u. we could play game of thrones and you could be tyrion lanister.
Adam Cox
user why dont u dick pics.
Carter Jones
flight traffic control seems interesting, and if you got nothing to lose & this is you dream (besides hunting) then you should invest all of your free time to achieve it, good luck though
Sebastian Richardson
Dude I have lost the biologic lottery. Visualize a below average dick.
Charles Nguyen
Better than being an able bodied and being rejected by a hanidcapped chick...
Dylan Cooper
...
Ethan Bell
I guess.
Jonathan Powell
Thanks I'll atleast try.
Gavin Morris
So you're a waddle?
Anthony Reyes
As long as you fuck your sister
Carter Nelson
Aye
Cooper Perry
>But what would I think? You wouldn't think anything. You wouldn't even know. You would just be "off".
A computer that is smashed or even just turned "off" doesn't "think" anything. It's just off.
You didn't think anything before you existed. You won't think anything after you are "turned off".
Good reason to keep living in my opinion. But "off" comes any way you cut it...
Austin Myers
Walk it off ya fuckin rissole.
Parker Reed
>737dubs
Checked.
Cameron Jenkins
Why can't you hunt? You literally lay down all day and wait for animals.
I think this barrier, while having some merit, is mostly in your head.
Lucas Sullivan
Stop your crying then. You could be strapped into a wheelchair unable to even move your head. Fucking faggot.
Nicholas Brooks
You need a woman.
Jacob Phillips
do like the plane says and walk it off faggot
Brody Jackson
I agree. Most hunters sit in some shitty enclosure in a tree or some shit for hours. I would think there would be a way to put you in something camouflaged with a gun that you could shoot deer or quail or something.
Leo Thompson
Uneven ground with bumps and all fucks me over far more than our regual plain ground. More than 2minutes walking in nature fucks me for the rest of the day, and most likely for the next two days as well. If I could teleport in that would work great, yes.
David Brooks
Oh no what a fucking tragedy, you walk like a penguin oh noooo
Charles Evans
I need some fresh free range, localy produced pussy. Pulled pussy so tender it falls of the bone.
Lincoln Barnes
Welcome to the pity party. Got any complaints about your life?
Angel Gonzalez
you can totally be a hunter, just use a blind and wait. some spots you can be dropped off by vehicle and just chill in the blind and wait for a target
Jaxon Johnson
Hang in there bro. I see a lot of people here cry about their situation but yours is legit.
Since you posted this I assume you are not in a shit hole war torn country. So at least you got that going for you. You don't have to worry about survival or food.
I too lost the genetic lottery I got Marfan's Syndrome. I got long skinny fingers, scoliosis and pigeon chest. I cannot lift weights or do anything too physical.
I can relate to how you can't find genuine love cause of my freak of nature body. But I have come to accept it and just get hookers to satisfy my sexual needs.
But I sense you are very lonely cause you could not hang out or make friends with people outside of the internet.
Might I suggest taking up new hobbies? I enjoy vidya games but I find board games is great to way get to hang out with people in real life. I look like a freak but my fews friends always happy to hang out with me to play boards .
Brandon Watson
What if I fuck up and have to track down the animal after I shot it?
Justin Perez
I've got a fucking mental disorder, born with it, undiagnosed, so people look at me all the time and tell me to do shit I can't do. I used to try in vain, but now I just tell them "I'm retarded" and "fuck off".
Daniel Diaz
My friend has marfans syndrome but he also never eats. I feel like if you pack some fat on it stops being a disability.
Christopher Mitchell
and the perfect shit is that since it's mental, nobody can see it and assumes I'm perfectly normal. (Good and bad you see
Samuel Smith
Thanks man. I have thought about hookers but I'm skeptical.
Noah Stewart
Yeah I can see the how it's a good thing that its more visible and how it sort of skips the whole "I'm fucked" talk. Still would've been nice to just blend in.
Elijah Mitchell
Why are they wearing diapers on the pictures. Do you also wear diapers?
Michael Diaz
Do you live in the country? It sounds like you live in the country
Nolan Bailey
That's depressing. Life doesn't matter, and you'll lose everything, eventually. At the end, OP doesn't have to worry. We'll all be equal, in the grave
Charles Long
I do not wear diapers no.
Gabriel Hall
Ok cool but why they be wearing diapers tho?
Brandon Young
Pointing out my spelling? I'm in scandinavia and English is therefore my second language. Add onto that, that I haven't slept for 24hours which impairs my spelling a bit.
Isaac Thomas
Fuck if I know. I have a rare unknown variation of spondylometaphyseal dysplasia.
Jace Lewis
And grammar
John Harris
But admit its pretty funny they all have diapers on the pictures.
Also where in scandinavia are you from?
Luis Bell
Fucking Sweden - Malmö man. Explosions and killings almost everyday man. Sometimes my windows vibrate from the shockwave.
Jacob Long
Dude I live in Södertälje car bombs erry day
Justin Baker
are you in sac op?
Noah Rogers
Jesus kristus mannen
Jason Perez
I was like you, all worried and scared they will freak out. All I have to say just give it a try assuming you do not live in the USA. The country I am in you can get a very nice and good looking girls for $100 - 135 at the local brothels here. It's a hit and miss at times. But I have had more pleasant experiences than bad ones. Many of the working ladies are kind and understanding and will not make a deal out it and they can be quite endearing. As they they say money is the best aphrodisiac
Sebastian Parker
Let me give you an suggestion. Try psychedelics and explore the inner self. My life is shit but atleast I have my psychedelics
Evan Reed
I am very interested in going apeshit deep with stuff like that.
William Fisher
Det är inte roligt att vakna mitt i natten av en hög djävla smäll...
Jacob James
Alright I'll give it a serious bit of thought when I have slept and is fresh in the head and so forth.
Camden Butler
So do it. Im going to try mda soon. Read online about rc drugs then buy from askleopis its a swedish site
Henry Moore
Jävla sandnegrar mannen
Ethan Russell
Thanks for the advice!
Michael Harris
Np bro. But dont over do it. 1 substance a month or you can go insane if you dont have a friend with you when you trip
Lincoln Carter
Good advice especially since indeed there will be none but me.
Joshua Ross
If you lived here I would be there when you tripped
Andrew Barnes
My negro
Kevin Perry
4 shizzle
Robert Ortiz
BUT YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE RING TO MORDOR
Juan Robinson
Thanks ALL for the responses. Thought thread was going to get deleted within minutes with no responses but there you go. Sincerely thanks all.
Have to sleep now though. Enjoy your cruisin.
Henry Morales
Wanna become a cyborg? I know I do, and I'm not even handicapped.
Michael Jackson
Have you considered picking up a creative hobby, OP? Take a look at this guy, he had a very similar problem as you have and he somehow managed to transcend it: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Henri_de_Toulouse-Lautrec
Though I understand it won't exactly be your dream come true, it's the best help I can offer.
Adrian Murphy
Play some old school runescape. I can add you and help you to 99 hunter. Don't give up on your dreams bro
Noah Jenkins
hey man u still here I have a few questions
James Bennett
stop crying and get an exoskeleton
Bentley Lopez
seems like a good idea
Austin Foster
it felt to me yout main problem was walking
Ryan Murphy
so maybe get something that helps you walk "normal" as in stabilizing you
Alexander Price
>im going to try to pursue a career in flight traffic control god damn man, you must be despairingly desperate.
dont worry man, i love you for who you are
Tyler Reed
>atheist
Well there's your problem
Hudson Hill
>be me 23 wagecuck >totaly sane man >italian good loking guy 1,85 nice and very funny >still cant go out with ppl and hang out cause im depressed as fuck >i dream about be phisically or mentally disabled so nobody will judge me if i dont go outside,no responsabilty,no work no life,no friend
Dude you are lucky asf.
Asher Garcia
Then you just have to improve so much that you won't fuck up at all and become the worldst best hunter through that