I have the hardest time in my life right now and i need to share. So listen fags. I am 26 yo engineer. I finished my degree this year. So whats wrong? Everything... I can't find good job mainly because in my country you need to knew people and i am from poor family with absolutly no connection. And i am not the brightest. I have a gf that cheated on me like a year ago but i am too in love to let her go and i tried to forgive her but just cant. I cheated on her with 5 girls multiple times. Girls that i find online. I was diagnosed with anxiety disorders. Not that fagyg kind. "Oh, i can't go outside its so scarry...
" When i had an atack i always fainted. I am on medication since i lost consciousness while driving and had an accident. Nothing major but i spended 3 days in a hospital for observation. I smashed my head on the stearing wheel and cut my head open. Pills make me a zombie. I am addicted to weed. Yea, this is possible. I smoke every day for years now. Weed in my country is cheap and i knew a lot of small time dealers so i can get some for free now and then. So more zombie like life for me... I tried to do sth about it and got semi-addicted to amphetamine. I take like 2 maybe 3 times a week. Oh, but i dont drink... So thats a plus?
My life is shit. I lost almost all my friends. They grow up faster than me and some of them moved out from our city. I am lonely.
I have a gf that i love but she is a bitch and dont really care about me. We hang out once maybe twice a week. We dont have sex anymore after her cheating. I started to get rough during sex and she dont like it. So we dont fuck. But i love her. My biggest wish is to work things out but even i stopped to belive in that.
I wokr 60 h a week just to survive and take drugs. When i wanted to take my girl to the sea for summer i worked 70 h for 2 months in secret. I dont meet usually during the day so it was easy to hide that. And you knew what? The day before we where suppose to go she said that she cant pt1
I have the hardest time in my life right now and i need to share. So listen fags. I am 26 yo engineer...
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not reading all that
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Yeah you should probably just shut the fuck up and quit crying like a whiney bitch.
pt 2
cuz her best friend is throwing a party and she HAS to be there. Of course i want invited. Month passed and she was complaining that i dont take her anywhere. fml
I live in shitty apartament with 2 other people. I cant afford nothing better.
I want to kill myself almost every day.
I knew this is Sup Forums and ppl will say an hero and shit but i am in my all time low right now and need just like 1 positive comment.
ama if you want
op here. not dissapointed in Sup Forums. like always
Tl;dr
Dump the bitch and your life will get better... you cant stay in a relationship after cheating.. it doesnt work
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If you love her so much why'd you cheat on her. You did the exact same thing she did when she hurt you. Anyways things may look bleak maybe it's time to get out off your city. Hell just find new scenery and start fresh. Forgot your girl that relationship is dead. Move on and heal.
that bitch is probably the only thing keeping me alive tbh. that few hours when we dont fight is all i have in life
dude, life is shit, get acustomed to it, its not your surroundings the problem, you need to make your skin thicker
btw where you from?!
You hate yourself and do all kinds of fagyg shit to keep yourself down. I feel sorry for your gf, go and get your shit together.
There's always the option of just being friends, if you want her so badly in your life. Bottom line is what you had is dead and gone. You need to realize that and move on. You're in love with memories and the what was.
because i am also piece of shit. in my head it was like do what she did to you and it will get easier. After 5 girl i dont think so no more
Eastern Poland. Shithole
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Wtf? Get rid of your gf she's a bitch. Also get a decent job... why tf do you need to work 60h a week to afford living as an engineer in a 3rd world country? And honestly stop thinking about how fucked up your life is and look ahead in the future. Make plans to improve your life step by step. If you dont know how to improve, just ask yourself "what would a white european do if he was in my place?".
Can anyone give me a tl;dr version?
>i tried to forgive her but just cant. I cheated on her with 5 girls multiple times
i i-i-im a nice guy. Kill yourself faggot.
>I am 26 yo engineer. I finished my degree this year. ... I can't find good job mainly because in my country you need to knew people and i am from poor family with absolutly no connection. And i am not the brightest.
OP you have to DO a good job to GET a good job. 26 and you think your gonna make 100k a year, wake the fuck up, you start at the ground and work your way up, sorry your not the brightest, maybe you'll never succeed...
And you certainly will never succeed being a beta cuck, not having sex with a girl you love. You can love her like a sister and find someone to really love that will suck Your cock and clean your house.... get your shit straight or you'll end up an hero anyway
>has a degree
>can score chicks easily
>has steady job
>bitches about life
I got no friends either OP, no gf, no degree. Hell I don't even have my high school and I live with my parents. I'm gunna kill myself pretty soon, feel free to join me.
all in all he is a faggot. not faggot faggot, but faggot. you know
Smash your gf one last time, then throw her in the trashcan.
Take your medication on schedule and start EXERCISING, can't stress this enough, swim or run 3 times a week for like 20-30mins. Also start working out, buy some new cloth, get a haircut etc. to build some confidence. And eat healthy shit. No fast food, sugar, alcohol etc.
Quit the drugs, go into rehab.
After you have a rutine, find a new job and then a new gf.
its 2017, today we dont say kys, we say become an hero you fag.
Where the fuck are you?, you sound like a euro fag paying so much taxes to immigrants he cant have a life.
you dont have housing so that has to be europe
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dump the bitch you dumbass, find a new one, love is some disney bs that makes you feel sad.
that faggy things was my idea of making myself happy. it failed
no way man. i dont even like her anymore. but i still love her. pathetic
no idea. random pic from Sup Forums
because i get paid shit for hour. I started to work out. just to do shit. Now i smoke weed after work and take a bus to the gym every day. The white european would leave the country. like averybody else rom here... i dont belive that i would succed. also cant save enough money to go to germany or somewhere else and dont be affraid to lose my job and end up homeless
next time you see you girl just say "BEGONE THOT!"
I stopped reading after the third sentence.
You sound like a proper cunt
kys
Why do you lie awake about this when in 60 years or so you'll never see clouds again. You'll never feel the touch of rain on your face, or the winter breeze chilling you to your core. You will never again experience the miracle of blossoms turning into fruit, or a canopy of stars covering the night sky with thousands of far-away suns.
Let go of all this mundane crap like drugs and alcohol. Go fucking live, OP, 'cause this life is the only one you'll ever experience.
lol, oke i knew that. your country is being fucked over on the financial market, economic hit man wrecked poland to destabilized it. your industries are getting fucked by europe.
close but no cigar
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Try mushrooms, is good addiction
>germany
Wtf? Dont come here subhuman!
Also why would you loose your job? You claim to be an engineer working 60h a week for close to no money...who would fire someone like that? Why are you an engineer and still get paid shit? I dont get it... are there so many people with academical degrees in a shittier country that engineers are not asked for?
Stop doing drugs. Break up with your girl. Do something physical. (Excercise, jog, basketball, bike, whatever)
100k a year kek i make 300 euro a month
fucking easy bitches in eastern europe is like going to shop in normal country man...
perfect tldr
i smashed her last time in april. not even for my birthday. it will be hard.
i am working out every day because i have absolutly nothing better to do. so yea. i have that going for me. i tried to quit drugs but they are everywhere here. addicted to weed is shit. you dont even get high high. just little buzz or nothing
TY for your response
love is real. i want it to fade out
yea. the east ater ww2 was in soviet control. west did ok, we where left to slowly die
did it. didnt like it
i dont work in my degree. i work in small factory
pic is kasia from poland
Name, anyone?
Damn, I'm moving to Eastern Europe. Are there many nigger/jews/brownskins in Poland?
no niggers, few jews and i didnt saw anyone in burka yet
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Neato. The town that I live in (Canadian) there's like one durka durka family. They never go out in public so it's not a huge issue. Also only one nigger and her mixed breed offspring, so the whitey to niggey ratio is still nearly pure
in warsaw there is some, but like 98% is white
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OP still here?
yup
what city do you live? maybe i can help ya (warsaw)
Dump your gf
Stop cheating on your girls
Get a low-tier/mid-tier job, you can do that because you have a degree
Stop bitching because other people have it much worse
here is the deal tho, the east was left on its own, the west had massive ((($))) flooded in and got subverted, result is that the industries were never able(allowed) to get back on their feet (sanctions unfair competition)
mean while the latest eu contributions have established the control over the means of production
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Btw (((they))) turned you in to a porn addict, it is an attack on your genetics.
it depletes you and makes you docile on a hormonal basis, also causes depression as you deplete your testosterone levels and become a faggot, A emotional one as your androgen system end endorphin reward system is fucked up.
which also causes you to become depressed and because of your fix from ejaculation you become an addict whom doesnt likes anything else in the world.
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yea, this
these nudes are fucking terrible
i am living in Sejny. Near Lithuania
2%, thats how it starts, they breed like rodents, its just a matter of time.
their inbred genetics are overdominate and replace yours
sorry i have no fatty folder
ikr, thats what pisses me off
race war now
Tl;dr-ing the whole thread, only read OP. Are you by any chance from a neolatin language-speaking country?
~5,6k people? damn thats very small city
its cool to be patriotic now in poland so i am not really afraid about islamization. polish hooligans will take them out in days
nope. poland
yea. barely a "city". we use that word very loosely
yeah, but we have more and more ukrainian rats flooding in
Just read that, usually 'you need to know someone to work' means you're neolatin or from a shitty country (both?),if you were neolatin I'd have known how to help you but I don't know poland very well. Just remember that cheating isn't part of a relationship like death isn't part of life
>few jews
At least in Krakow there definitely are
Look OP ill be honest, half of more of what you are posting looks like your fault. You dont deserve shit, especially shit you dont work for, and you sound toxic to be around no wonder friends and gf are getting away. Now heres the good part, its all on your fucking head, just exercise, keep your place super clean and meditate, you can find how to do all that on youtube. And all that "i am for poland" shit is laughable, have friends from shitholes like cuba, egypt, honduras, even haiti that do fine.
Listen to this guy ^ OP you bum ass nigga
i will tell you this op. if you want to change something in your life, do it right now. and i really mean right now. call her. tell her how she killed your relationship. dump her. stop smoking weed. look for a better job. 1200zł is really terrible work.
what degree do you have? engineer? and in which technology
BTW you dont love your gf, you just tell yourself that to feel less empty. Face it you are kinda void and full of shit, so just get that together and take care of your life. Glgl, i had a lot of shit like yours and it took me till my 30s to get it together.
ok i have to go to work now. will smoke a join on a way to the bus stop and try to make myself less faggy.
So my conclusions are:
dump love o my life
work out harder
save money and move out
stop taking drugs (yea... this will be VERY hard)
have fatty folder to dump for 1 fag on Sup Forums
TY for all post. You made me a little less suicidal Sup Forumsros
idź na budowę. jak masz siłę to zarobisz więcej niż 300€ w fabryce chujowej.
Dump her or dont, she doesnt matter at all you retard, you do. You do you and do whatever is best for you. Stop using her and your pathetic love to keep being self destructive.
This Sup Forums shit is Sup Forums shit.
Keep that in your containment board.
its just facts 88 user
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25, (civil) engineer here, 2 years into first job.
You are not a self starter.
>in my country...
Bullshit excuses
Get an internship if possible or move to a country that actually has a market for people with STEM skills like the USA.
Get off drugs, grow up if you want to be taken seriously as a prpfessional.
I was in your shoes once. Sounds like you like to get high. Go drop the 25b NBOME.
Come out alive or dead.
If you really want to risk it get it in HCL or whatever and smoke/snort it. Keep your dosage below 10mg if you don't want to die, but who knows, maybe you can handle a little eyeballing.
Go MIGTOW fool, bitches aint nothing but hoes and tricks.
got dammit, jew movement created because ppl have issues with jew laws fucking men over.
lets not breed so we are outnumbered and get fucked.
ther is only one solution to life. breed. everything wil be like you and others will be outnumbered.
OP find a house where you can grow your own food, you can feed yourself and fam with 30 hours of work, you work 60 now so you have 30 hours left to ake money for rent
grow a cabbage patch or something man, cut the bad habbits, all of them including the porn addiction the weed the eating and the shitty relations that will run in to nothing but crap.
You have cheap labor all around you, why dont manufacture shit and sell its? how are the trade taxes? do you get killed on trade or something preventing you from selling shit?, if that is the case just dont pay taxes and ship that shit , keep shit of the books and some on. if you are a small producer you can sell true ebay or what evers and set up a pay account not linked to your id. with draw cash from it the end.
you could even do online work with your degree with out ever leaving your house
OP, let me oversimplify this: move on
clearly you have nothing there anymore, so just finish that relationship, stop doing drugs (I know what you mean by being addicted to weed, the bright side it has no withdrawal syndrome so make the effort), save some money and move somewhere else. A different country even, and make new friends, start over and try to be happy
my two cents
stop picking up sleazy women from dating sites
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Are you from Italy?
Oh my god sauce pls.
Become an electrician and you will meet someone who will value your engineering degree. There's more to life than girls you miserable fuck.
start at a low paying job .just because your a engie doesn't mean your going straight into engineering .you need a resume full of points first and work up to it u pratt
Try Stop Smoking weed for an year. It triggered anxiety attacks at me and after i stopped they got less and after an year i had No more. Also you dont love your gf if you cheat her. Make a cut. Maybe think about moving to an other country or atleast area. You anyway have nothing that holds you.
And year maybe stop the Amphetamine too. You will save alot of money.
wow what a massive babyfaggot are you user?
i bet you have a better life tha 95% on this site. and you still just QQ and complain. get rid of that girl. stop investing in ppl like that. wow you are so stupid for an engineer. kys
Forget the girl, it will suck at first but trust me move on. Delete her number and from all social media you have, get rid of any photos or clothes, anything that will keep you attached. You work hard and you've done alot, things will work out eventually. Look for better places of employment (not for your degree I mean for right now, your day to day) while still working. Ask around, ask friends. Exercise, cut out fast food, don't eat out, learn to cook, take care of yourself. Things will get better user, you've already done most of the grind already
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If you're EU you need to immigrate to a not shit country mate. If you're truly an engineer they can put you to work somewhere and you'll make much better money.
Force yourself to quit the weed, it's sucking your motivation and easing the pain making it easier to stay in your shit situation. You need to really feel the pain to force yourself to do something about it.
You're also young as fuck. Make a plan an stick to it. Maybe get on an anti-depressant because it sounds like you're depressed as fuck.