I've been a lurker for close to 8 years, I've posted here 3 times over the last 2 years and everyone asked me to update them on whatever happens next.
TL:DR
>I'm 28 >dying of cancer (non hodgkin's lymphoma aggressive b cell) >crippling PTSD >will likely die this year, Don't have longer then 20 months at most per all my doctors Just wanted to update you guys that this will likely be my last post, I'm getting sicker and weaker. I really doubt I'll make it to the holidays, Let alone next year.
Just wanted to tell all you guys you gave me years of entertainment and laughs when all I wanted to die is cry like a bitch, Thank you.
Never change Sup Forums
Asher Moore
I will remember this
Jace Gomez
getting that med card?
Sebastian Roberts
I've had it since 2013, Those are just my previous two renewals
Luke Lee
Didn't know you before. But good to meet you. Goodbye my new acquaintance, try to be as comfortable as possible.
Elijah Lopez
good riddance fag xdd
Isaiah Cruz
tits or gtfo
Logan Collins
what was the cause of your ptsd? were you a marine?
Hunter Johnson
Thanks.
I plan to be
Brandon Diaz
God bless also tits or gtfo lol
Henry King
Cant you just say no to cancer? Why u gotta die like if i had cancer id just tell my brain and shit to stop and remove it. so unneccessary
trihard in the chat btw
Blake Perry
Godspeed OP
James Price
Checked
Grayson Stewart
No I was shot during a robbery at my old work, I used to be a armed guard at a precious metals refinery.
Sorry I blurred out "during" on accident, I'm drunk right now.
Jacob Wood
Op is litterally the canver yhat is killing Sup Forums
Don't go quietly into the night, op. Rage..... Rage harder than you ever have before.....
Rage into the good, good night.....
Matthew Turner
not a grill
thanks, See you on the other side
Brayden Anderson
Godspeed user, i wish you the best
Ryder Perez
Also this...... this guys girlfriend.......
This guy is user. user is all of us, to includr you. Op
Evan Young
Hyah OP, I too am a long time lurker Stay here until the thread dies, answer the questions, hang out with the Sup Forumsros Tell me, would you like to be remembered? Even in a small way? I know it would comfort me to know that at least one person will remember my existence every year or so
Christopher Jones
Worth a shot lol seriously God bless go in peace
William Clark
OK.
It would be nice to be remembered I guess, I think anyone would want that in a way.
I know for sure my parents will remember me so besides them it really doesn't matter if anyone else does. They are really the only thing that matters to me
Aaron Mitchell
I plan to.
Thank you
Jackson Bell
What's your name dude. I will remember you and have a toke every day on this day for you. I will set up a google calendar alert and everything.
Alexander Perry
See you on the other side Sup Forumsro.
Thomas Taylor
lol that's not necessary.
My name is Ryan
Smoke a bowel/do a dab for me tonight though
Thomas Phillips
See you there.
Blake Davis
I'm sorry for the diagnosis, hopefully you can stay as comfortable as possible, godspeed Sup Forumsro
Oliver Nelson
Having a drink for you tonight Ryan, all the way from England.
Julian Watson
Thanks man, Appreciate it.
Cheers!
Logan Garcia
No problem dude, drink yourself stupid, you need it more than me mate.
Robert Gray
Fake and gay.
William Green
If you still have months left to live, you might as well keep coming to Sup Forums. Why would you stop? We might be able to cheer you up.
Also I'm unsure but I think I may have seen one of your threads before.
Caleb Smith
>on Sup Forums since 2009
Fucking newfag, that's when Sup Forums started dying.
Dominic Ward
All right Ryan, you're in my pocket watch. Everytime I'll open it to read the time, I'll remember a Sup Forumsro Tonight I'll be drinking to our lives, and our eventual death See you on the other side
Isaiah Gray
Trying to spend time with my family.
I can feel it in my body I don't have long, I am so tired and weak all the time I can barely function a full 10 hours.
That means a lot to me, not to sound day but that is really kind man. In a weird way that makes me happy some stranger will always remember me. Thank you
See you on the other side Sup Forumsro, Hopefully It's better then this side
Caleb Scott
What are your views on death and afterlife? Obviously this is something one would give a lot of thought in your position.
Justin Johnson
I don't believe in an afterlife or a "God". But I think death is often less painful then life for people with terminal diseases
Even if I wasn't dying of cancer, I can't say I would enjoy living another 40+ years with PTSD.
It really takes It's toll on you alone
Luke Roberts
Much love brother
Grayson Sanchez
To our lives, and our eventual death. Gonna bun a zoot to those words aswell Sup Forumsro. Take it easy Sup Forumsro and see you on the other side.
Levi Rivera
Sup Forumsro, this is the first time i've actually felt emotion when I was lurking. I'm so sorry for the diagnosis. I really do hope you enjoy your final days with your loved ones.
Tyler Mitchell
Much love.
I'm trying, Thank you. See you on the other side Sup Forumsro
I sincerely appreciate it, I am doing my best to stay positive and focus on what is important (spending time with loved ones and staying in the right frame of mind).
See you on the other side
Ayden Brooks
Love bro cheeish the small moments
Tyler Brown
It means a lot that you appreciate it, this place is (was) the family and friends I never had. Honestly, my fondest memories have all been spent either alone or with anons, and I'll cherish them until I die. Don't fret if you feel that it's been changing, deep down its still the board we know and love
Owen Price
lucky, you get to die without committing suicide.
Caleb Roberts
All flowers wither Ryan. To live is to suffer. With all it’s highs and lows. You are merely returning to before you were born.
Jacob Gomez
lol dying of cancer is way worst.
>5 minutes at most of pain if you hang yourself >years of pain from cancer
Your lucky, Not me
That is true, Good analogy.
Still kinda scary a little though
Nathan Cox
are you scared OP?
Kayden Gutierrez
OP got cancer from lurking Sup Forums too much
Jose Gomez
>little time left to live >posts on 4chin >nothing of value is soon to be lost.
Blake Sanders
you're not dying, just going back to where we all came from
..you're going home
Gavin Cook
Same here Ryan. I will remember you.
Josiah Morales
Jesus just cuz you're on 4chen doesn't mean you can show sympathy. You don't have to be an edgy faggot all the time.
Charles Young
That post with the xdd was clearly ironic, bro.
Lucas Johnson
We are your family. Your real family. Your only family
Aiden Phillips
WITNESSED Ryan!
Ethan Harris
Dabbing for ry ry tonight.
Rest in peace.
Isaiah Hernandez
What were your symptoms? I've had swollen lymph nodes in my neck for a year, the doctors keep telling me its nothing but im not convinced. Did you have any other symptoms? And are you sure you're dying? I heard that aggressive non hodgkins was curable and that indolent forms were harder to cure.
Luke Evans
I RECCOMEND EATING PSYCHEDELICS YOU WILL ACCEPT DEATH PEACEFULLY
Camden Green
have you considered trying heroin? just for 'fun'? that's probably the first thing I would do if I knew I was going out.
Nothing but love Sup Forumsro. And don't worry, Sup Forums will never change
William Brooks
MI fag?
Which dispensary do you go to? I head to the jazz club and the reef.
Benjamin Hernandez
the way I look at it Sup Forumsro, nothing bothered me 1000 years ago so why the hell would anything bother me in a 1000 years. death is just returning to baseline.
Dominic Sanchez
> die a Sup Forumstard reborn an hero >> rip in peperoni OP DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU DESU
Grayson Brooks
Sorry to hear that, Ryan. I hope that you can find a little comfort in the thought that if there's something to come after life, you'll find out about it pretty soon. I hope life's not to harsh to you until then!
Brandon Ortiz
Come on OP, show some love for those who you love. Give us a good show. I believe in you!
Wyatt Moore
If I were you, I'd pay for a plane to fly across a beautiful landscape and I'd jump out. If you know you'll die weak and in pain, why not go out on your own termes doing something awesome. That's what I'd do, I'm even planning doing this if I get old enough that life isn't worth living anymore.
Dylan Parker
I know, I'm kinda ready.
Thanks man
Means a lot, Seriously.
I agree, We are all family.
Thank you.
I attributed most of my symptoms to stress and regular aches and pains, The one that made me go to the hospital was extreme fatigue. It's curable if It's caught in time. I was way past that when I found out I had it
I wish I knew where to buy them
I have a lot of prescription opiates and opioids that I'm prescribed. I don't enjoy the effects of them, It makes me 10x as tired as I am now.
I wouldn't try street heroin, No.
Yeah.
I don't go to a dispensary, I just but it from a grower.
I've been to the jazz club before though, They are expensive. Go to dream on 8 mile in Detroit.
20/g shatter, 160$ozs, 20 1000mg vapes
Jacob Campbell
WITNESS HIM!!
Austin Gomez
Thats how I look at it
Thank you
I considered killing myself, But my mother is already such a wreck. If I killed myself I am 100% sure she would kill herself as well, She is very stressed and couldn't handle that.
I don't even know what she is going to do when I die, All I can do is tell her It would hurt our family if she killed herself because I know she has considered it.
Kayden Lewis
...
Oliver Ross
OP I know this probably doesn't make a lot of sense to you but I'm kind of envious. I wish I just had months to live but I'm too much of a pussy faggot to become an hero. Don't get me wrong, I'm not happy that you're dying. I just wish I was.
Daniel Bailey
Wow man. You're a real trooper. Gl in the afterlife. You're going to get a kick out of watching the world fall apart from the sidelines.
Jacob Roberts
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Nolan Hughes
Like how many years did you have these regular aches and pains? Yours was in stage 4? How far did it spread and have you tried any clinical trails?
Andrew Taylor
Why do they spell marijuana with like marihuana?
Leo Sullivan
user, do your best. Lurk, sure, but get out. enjoy your time with those you care about doing what you love. Don't let your final days be drowned out with the intense, uncaring, joyless nihilism this place infects you with. Do what makes you happy. Godspeed, user.
Kayden Jackson
See you in the next life OP. If you run into a guy named Herb up there say hello from Luke.
Justin Turner
Well at least when someone says kill yourself, you now have acrral reason to do so.
Nathan Taylor
I've just recently lost someone very close to me due to Cancer and I know the struggle it pits on the relatives as well as the pain and sickness you must be in OP. I wish your family the greatest of health and for you I hope you make the most of what days you have left. You will be remembered
Blake Flores
You might think you do, But until you actually are you would probably wish you aren't.
It's a sobering experience being told you are dying and there is nothing you can do, It's words you will never forget being told.
Thank you, God speed
I'll look in up, OK.
I want to say around 5 or 6 years.
Yes I was in stage 4 when I found out. It spreads very rapidly apparently.
No I never tried any clinical trials, I quit chemo a few months ago because I was sick of wasting my time knowing it will only extend my life maybe 10 months. It makes you incredibly sick
I don't know
God speed, Thank you
Fucking way she goes
Thank you, Will do
Alexander Williams
No way making her understand that it's the best thing for you to do since you're basically doomed? You're a better man than I am, I wouldn't be able to just wait for death, even for the people around me. I'd do it just to feel like I have some kind of control over my life.
Jason Kelly
Drinking for you tonight!
Godspeed OP
Justin Morales
How did you find out like how were you diagnosed?
Ryder Butler
Farewell, Sup Forumsrother.
Bentley Rogers
Don't give up, man. Keep fighting. Fuck cancer. That bitch kills enough people.
Thomas Johnson
Drinkin to you tonight Ryan. Live your last moments here as you wish.
Ethan Richardson
Ride on Sup Forumsrother
Ayden Ramirez
Live stream it faggot
Josiah Martinez
Can do Ryan can do
Gavin Mitchell
try a diet with zero carbs, cancer can only live on sugar
Asher Martinez
Gonna go sit on the roof with a cigar, and a glass of the most expensive whiskey I have in toast to you, Sup Forumsro. See you on the other side, Ryan. Godspeed and good luck.
Mason Wilson
Hi Ryan, my name is Dave.
Joseph Nelson
You can get 1P-LSD online legally. They're exactly like LSD to me. An amazing experience Sup Forumsro, try it. God's speed man, hope everything is smooth and as comfortable as it can be.
Xavier Howard
What stage cancer, and if it's spread, where to?
Brandon Evans
Witnessed. Sup Forumsrother.
Cheers. Drink another for me too man. Fuck cancer
Jace Myers
Godspeed and take care Sup Forumsrother
Wyatt Fisher
we love you man
Xavier Martinez
Sounds like you are in a shitty position right now, I would not try psychedelics unless you want to have a bad trip.
Jeremiah Nguyen
Seriously, if they told me i had 20 months to live i would head to Vegas.
(For the GAMBLING and WHORES god dammit)
Connor Diaz
lol
Jordan Bell
Can you still get an erection, OP? If so, have you gotten any pity sex? That's something I'd be going for in your position.