TFW I beat off way to much but am having exestential crisis...

TFW I beat off way to much but am having exestential crisis, in such a heavy depression it physically hurts and can't get it up right now which is adding to it.

Why do you beat off? Just lay off the porn, get fresh air and stop eating trash food.

Porn is the same as sugar, you'll need more and more to feel as good as you did the last time. Especially when you get to choose who to watch etc.

Most people here are degenerate fucks with dicks in their hands, addicted to a pair of boobs or a dick. It's the highway to mental illness through unhealthy addiction.

Boredom most of the time but I can also be playing a game and something random in the game will set me off.

I have been eating veggie steamer bags for almost three weeks straight, mostly water to drink but I still am not losing weight.

I am an addict and even tho I recognize it, I can't prevent myself from doing it for more than a day.

I occasionally hit moments like this, hoping the pain will unfuck my brain but by this time tomorrow I will just be mindlessly yanking again.

Idle brain is a bored brain, I know the feeling, I tend to do that sort of stuff too.

Forget veggies, make meat your main meal, veggies can be a side-dish. If you are trying to be healthier, drop all refined carbohydrates and refined oils(canola & sunflower etc). These are the worst carbohydrates and worst fats to fuck you up.

Animal products contain shit ton of nutrients for brain to feel good, it is essential for good mental well-being.

Try to react on the triggers and moods what set it, realize the moment and try to avoid such tendencies. Bad habits can be made into good habits. I take walks/stretch/get fresh air in general.

Exercise is truly underrated and just walking counts as one and is generally free!

But what you describe, are you unemployed/not studying/have a lot of free time?

I don't seem to have the drive for anything any more, even if I don't cap for a day or two.

I've been eating poultry on the side but I figured veggies would be safe.

It seems to any thing that could be remotely seen as sexual that sets me off. I tried no games and just watched YouTube and watched gamer stuff all night after work. My job is hardware installation on a naval base, so I move a lot.

No, I work 40 a week, I should be ordering my security+ 501, but I was discouraged since I was studying all year for the 401 and now it isn't valid.

I have a lot of free time but nothing but video games to fill it with which I don't really care for anymore. I live with two... Friends I guess but they want nothing to do with me and his wife a tally gets angry if I try to socialize. Known both since high school (2007).

I have no self confidence so I don't feel like I would be wasting my time and just be rejected by other people if my own friends that call me family don't want anything to do with me.

Motivation is an illusion. You need self-control and discipline. You need goals to work for, realistic goals, small goals even and further in your future, larger goals. Anything.

If you can afford it, fatty beef is better than lean poultry. Contrary to old beliefs, animal fat isn't dangerous or bad for you. Beef is dense in nutrients and depending on cut, can be plenty of fat in it which means more calories. Satiety is the goal here, which comes rather quick if you have your hormones working properly.

Alright, you got a job, that's good at least. You sound slightly sexually frustrated, which doesn't necessarily need to be a bad thing, fap every now and then doesn't hurt either. Just try to limit these triggers if you possibly can.

Try picking up some sort of hobbies or interests. Study something by yourself, internet is full of subjects and something to look for. I.E. Hiking, biking around the world or bushcrafting etc. How brain also works is rather interesting. Dopamine and seratonin etc. Or some other body hormones such as leptin and ghrelin which control your satiety & hunger.

If you can get your mental well-being in check, you will start feeling more normal about everything eventually.

Sorry to hear about your roomies being kind of dicks tho. But remember, you live only for yourself and you owe it to yourself to try your best to make your life enjoyable. Some people have it easier and others harder... that's just how life is.

Hobbies, you need them.

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That's a very interesting mind set. I will have to try it.

Weird, it is always lean poultry is the way to go any where I look. My problem is on matter what I eat or how much, I am hungry within an hour to an uncomfortable level.

If I can unfuck myself and stop fapping, I would probably feel way better. Honestly other than sexual frustration, I am incredibly lonely (I mean look at where I am looking for help) and honestly really need some one in my life. Companionship would be infinitely more welcome in my life right now. Sex would be nice but I love physical intimacy.

Hobbies, well I have tons of games, which I used to love gaming but any more it is kind of meh feeling. I love fiddling with physical hardware but it is too expensive and I am now half way through the process of buying a home.

Thanks for not being the typical Sup Forumstard BTW (), it helps to just talk and I really don't have anyone else right now.

Also, been living with them for almost 3 years, renting a room. We have our share of fights and shit moments from both ends but I seem to constantly get the negativity from his wife.

I feel like I'm choking most of the time because if I don't keep myself busy, nothing but negative thoughts enter my head, you know when I'm not beating off...

I used to like chicken too, until i realized how bland it actually is. Ate fattier chicken for a while as well, such as boneless thighs, they tasted better due to the more fat content and kept hunger far better as well.
>I am hungry within an hour to an uncomfortable level.
Fat brings satiety naturally and over stuffing the stomach also activates same satiety to protect yourself from eating too much. Try giving more fat a chance, butter / fatty meats, it should up your energy and feels a lot!

>lonely
Loneliness is bad... but it can't be fixed from home sadly. Putting yourself out there in the world doesn't always work either... depending on how extroverted you are of course. If anything, you should try giving tinder a go or some other local chatting app, meet real people near you! Heh...

You should treat games as a way to relief yourself, stress or just some little enjoyment. Too much enjoyment again depletes the "dopamine" you gain eventually which is that rewarding feeling you tend to get and then feels like 'meh'. It gets like this as you get older, had the same and my brother kept telling me the same thing too. I never believed him... I did after I turned 24.

>Love fiddling with physical hardware
You like doing things with your hand. I got a recommendation. Learn to cook a nice steak. That's like super manly and tasty too! Or really just something to craft. Also GL on the new home too, saving will get you there! :)

>We have our share of fights and shit moments from both ends but I seem to constantly get the negativity from his wife.
This is very typical to be honest in a roomie/family situation. The wife can feel threatened/uncomfortable by you being in her vicinity as the home is a 'safe space' usually. Women are weird sometimes.

If you have negative thoughts or racing thoughts, I also recommend mindfulness or other sort of meditation.

Another thing is to improve your sleep quality. Lucid dreams etc can help.

I do like steak....

I actually had tinder, nearly a year with no matches...
I am not an attractive man :/

I got really into that new Zelda and Mario for the switch but something just killed it for me, idk what but I lost all interest. Maybe just play games less?

I can actually cook, I have a bunch of recipes on my Google drive but the food always goes to waste because people don't eat food at home anymore.

Thanks, the house isn't massive but it will be me and no one else. 2 bed and 2 bath, nice backyard.

I think I will look into 3d printers after things settle to help with getting a hobby.

Yeah, it sucks because we used to be all close but now he is just completely distant and she constantly gives me cold shoulder, eye rolls, etc... Just disrespectful and obvious "go the fuck away" body language. Awkwardly I've been having sex dreams about her that are pretty vivid.

Tough luck with no matches! If you want to give it a second chance, try upgrading the picture and bio a little bit to be more mysterious. I think there are some other local app's too, idk. Perhaps try some sort of an activity/gathering/club? Youth activity for one tends to have a lot of women in it.

Hype is only good for the people who sell the game. But you're right, play a bit less. And if anything... Think of it like this, invest your time into something what could benefit you. Be it a skill or knowledge or monetary.

Steam for example shows your last 2 weeks of gaming hours. 100h in games or 100h in lets say... Poker or writing novels/short stories for Amazon and profiting? I'm master of procrastinating so I devour YouTube material sometimes because I don't want to work... But having a dead line helps me do what I need to.

Home food is the best you can do for yourself, if there is too much leftovers, cook for only 1 and cook again the next day! Wee.

Sounds like a nice home and as always, it will be your home. Your kingdom. A man needs his own kingdom.

3d printing will surely be a good hobby to have if you can afford it in the first place! Not a bad idea at all!

Sounds like a very hostile environment. Perhaps try to just avoid her or well, if it isn't important to you at any given situation, ignore it? Especially since new home somewhere in the future, no need to care that much of the present company then! Nice for the dreams tho!

>Youth activity for one tends to have a lot of women in it.
With this I mean to find friendly people who usually do it because they like being a counselor. Very female dominant environment, plenty of potential!

bump

I may try Tinder again. There is also plenty of fish but it wants money to do anything worthwhile. I don't know of any social environments I would be comfortable with, I currently live in the ghetto.

It wasn't the hype really, I grew up with both franchises, childhood level stuff. Iegitametly enjoyed my time but I just lost interest... I am going to take a break for a few days and see if I can get back into them.

I don't think I spend nearly that much time in games, but I get the point. I need to order that security+ study material tonight.

I am going to invest in glass tuber ware, start cooking a meal that I can take to work for a day or two.

It is quite pretty inside, the Pic is the kitchen/dining room

3D printing seems really interesting to me, I make $3,600 a month, so I should be fine with that.

I am just ignoring them both now, I am about a month away from moving out now. Yeah, the sex dreams are pretty intense but it is for a female who I don't particularly care for right now. Fucking porn diseased brain.

Hah, yeah I figured, would be awkward for a 29 year old fat man to show up at a teen youth center.

That's a very nice looking kitchen! A lot of space to work is always a giant plus in a kitchen in my books!

>I don't know of any social environments
Hmph, perhaps be on a lookout for happenings. I live in a 'small' town in Finland consisting of 50k people, a lot of stuff to do here. Personally, I love the cold air and going in to the forests, meet plenty of people there always.

I do the same thing with games that I like. When they come out, just grind them through & then forget. Seems to be how its done now for me personally. Remember to always trust yourself and be aware of how you feel about everything, sad/negative feelings can lead into depression which is really just the same thing but without anything good... Find out what makes you happy in the long run!

>I make $3,600 a month
>I am about a month away from moving out now
Kek my man, you're doing just fine! Focus on yourself when you get the new home, with that salary, you should afford a lot of potential 'feel' good purchases to make your life easier and more enjoyable in the material sense.

3D printing sounds like a good niche for you then!

Similar boat to you, friend.
>resently quit job because sick of not getting paid and treated like shit
>only thing I enjoy was playing guitar, and my amp just broke today
>have $50 to my name
>thinking of joining army or marine corps but can’t lose weight despite working out and starving myself
>don’t even care if I get hit by a car anymore
>have lost all hope

Mfw

Yeah, it's a lovely house, and cozy. About 900 Sq. Ft. Or 83.6 square meters

I enjoy forests and wilderness but I live in a city, closest I can get is a park. I may just start going there to enjoy the outside though.

I try to stay positive but the thoughts always creep up on me. I think I just need to see a psychiatrist eventually.

Yeah, spending money won't get happiness meme aside, being financially secure with my own home will certainly lead me in the right direction.

I hope it turns out to be a good hobby for me. I want to get a PLA/metal alloy I seen on a YouTube video and print my buddy out a battle tech mech 10" figurine for a gift.

>but can’t lose weight despite working out and starving myself
Ketosis, the fat will come off like nothing after your body adjusts. Or just intermittent fasting, both are extremely efficient in getting rid of fat.

>but I live in a city, closest I can get is a park.
That should do just fine. The Japanese people are extremely chill and spend a lot of time visiting parks during their working day. It relieves stress a lot. Are you sure there isn't something of track towards a forest? Or how big city are we talking about? I can't relate that well to a concrete jungle, always forest somewhere in the +10 mile area.

>I try to stay positive but the thoughts always creep up on me.
Mindfulness. Emptying your mind is the key. Basic meditation really, just focus on your breathing in and out. And only this. In... Out... and pay attention to only that in your mind. Close eyes too if you want. This helps everyone.

Financially secure is a great step and will only get better from there as you said! Independence is a great thing!

I've also dreamed of printing figures. I used to paint those 28mm warhammer figures, that was some chill shit right there. Lord of the rings mostly though. Sounds good OP!

Eh, I wouldn't be going into any "nature trail" in this city, it's a rather large city, multiple navy bases all over the area. I would certainly just chill by the pond/ mini lake they have there, maybe do a few laps around the walking track.

I need to practice meditation, that may help.

It will certainly be nice to not worry about living costs.

I don't think I would do the tiny ones but he really enjoys it so I may do that if he requested. I definitely wanna do a giant figure for him as a gift.

Now I just need to work on that porn addiction thing. I've really relaxed since you've talked with me, which I greatly appreciate, so I think I will look into that study guide

Some normies take it as far as reading a book in public! Hehe, but anything really what happens outside the home should be good for the mental health. Add some proper nutrition to that and shit, it'll feel like you're a different person! Nutrient dense red meat and animal fat, your body will love it and brain will thank you for it!

Good luck with meditation and other future endeavors. Gifting and making others feel nice is always a good trait in a person, especially if you do it selflessly!

Good luck with fighting the porn addiction as well, it can be beaten. No-Fap is definitely a thing. I think reddit has a very active community for it.

I'm happy that you feel more relaxed, hopefully you will feel better in the future too! :)

Thanks for the chat user, you're a rarity here

About the No-fap part, I'm no saint either and sometimes fap for some hot girls of my preference, but the key is not to do it too much! Nowadays I might get the 'trigger' and look for something... but the feeling really fades off fast because you realize its just a need to please yourself. If you ever feel bad after fapping, then you know you shouldn't have done it.

That's the thing though, the feeling is always after >_

Thanks and you're welcome. There's a lot of people willing to help here but they indeed seem rare sometimes. Some other similar thread earlier had plenty of nice anons giving helpful ideas for example but they were also 1:10 in shitposters.

Yeah, there is a lot of negativity on this site, it would be nice if people like you were more wide spread.

I have a kik, freshtech88. Just tossing it out there but if you ever get bored hmu. I do enjoy talking about random shit.

Eye candy. Not giving into urges also gives you better orgasms, as that pressure to come builds up eventually.

>'blue balls' and upon release its like a fire hydrant

This community is what it is, and helping people in the community luckily is a thing too instead of hating everyone.

Don't have a kik but I can take a look into it, never really used it. I don't come to Sup Forums often either.

Yeah, I need self control badly

I made it a while ago but never really used it, and when I offer it up, don't get responses. I need to get it for one random user though. It's just a messaging app.

You frequent on steam? Better place for random chatting if anything for me. Tend to be there most often at least.

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