She asks me to take her to get her meds and set up a bank account

>she asks me to take her to get her meds and set up a bank account
>she cannot set one up because she doesn't have a id because her license ran out 8 years ago (she is 28) and she never renewed it, also she would have to go thru the driving process again.
>she bawwed and said she wanted to wash her hands clean of life

>A few days later it's xmas eve,
>she wants me to drive her to the slummy part of the count
>she begs me for two days and tells me how much pain she is in and how getting H will ale her pain
>got rhabdomyolysis in september
>I cave after she writes me 6 simultaneous paragraphs
>she wants me to drive the back way
>she wants me to get money out in the gas station in the home town
>says she is going to meet her friends to get this hook up
>I comply and she doesn't show up for 10 minutes
> I get worried and go out
> I still don't see her and it's been an hour
>I finally see her, she is with a band of disheveled, wrinkled bums and she screams at me and asks where I was.
> Apparently I was too far down the street and she bitches at me for a few moments
>she proceeds to kiss tongue one of the bums and tells him merry xmas
>She says she was one of the friends of the bum she was going to marry before he died and did all that crazy shit to her
>get back to her place, finally and she wants to show me a documentary about drug use
>she goes to the bathroom for awhile and when she returns she is all woozy
>she spills her coffee and says don't worry about it
>her eyes roll back in her head and she starts snoring, I say her name after ten minutes
>I ask her about this and she says this is the time of the day she goes to bed or whatever
>she esscorts me out making sure I don't say anything to anyone
>On christmas day I knock on her door and no one is home
>four days later she was found dead

This is the biggest fuck up of my life and I feel terrible

That's her

good riddance

Fucking brutal

post her nudes to assert your dominance over her

Not your fuck up

Sucks that your fucked up, junkie friend/lover/whatever died from her own bad decisions.

I'm being completely serious too. Good friend of mine was a junkie and it killed him. But thats what happens with junkies.

Her life was on a downward spiral, but I lost my virginity to her by cheating on her boyfriend awhile ago. Idk man.

sometimes the trash takes itself out.
god I love darwinism

she ain't in pain anymore man. take solace in that.

You might have enabled her a little bit, but she would've done this to herself anyway. At the point she was at, she was using you and anyone else around her to get what she wanted. You couldn't have changed anything that happened.

If it helps, she probably did realize that you cared about her, and on some level that must have meant something to her. She was too far gone to do anything about it, but it is what it is.

She's a tragedy OP, but she's not your tragedy.

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Post vag pics plz

yeah she od'd 3 times in 2017 and during the conversation she told me that she learned from her mistakes. The reason she was using was supposedly from the pain from years ago of being raped in a drug deal gone wrong and having sciatica.


She said I was someone she could depend upon, honestly she was really fucked up; but I really did enjoy my time with her.

Just another one biting the dust
Thats the way of life user

I am not sure if there is an anything after, she said when she od'd she didn't see anything beside the dark.

cause you already know she going to hell

I'm sorry, man. She's no longer in pain.

Meh, one less drugged up bitch to breathe our air

Fuck, I hope not 2nd circle?
Lust?
Idk man.....She stole alot, had sex for money a couple of times, but she was really nice otherwise.

she deceived you dumb ass. She never cleansed herself of her sins and she will linger in hell for eternity.

She's Satan's bottom bitch now

every other girl said it wouldn't be right to
be with me because I was "handicaped" or some shit. When I did it with her, it wasn't to score, I really felt connected. Idk, she was everything I didn't want in a woman, but I was drawn to her.

>She never cleansed herself of her sins and she will linger in hell for eternity.

I'm sorry for your loss user. It is okay to grieve. The important part is to understand it isn't your fault.

>She never cleansed herself of he
dammit . Is there anything I can do?

that's a man

Dude like she kissed that homeless guy, it was to get what she needed. You're just too autistic to see it. If she loved you she would have opened up but to her you were nothing more than another abuser that will use her for her goods. So now that I think about it, you are part of the reason why she died. Your desperation to lose your virginity was far greater than your humanitarian aid for this woman. You must go to church tomorrow to repent in hopes to save her soul. Light a candle for her.

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yep, realize she's just worm food or a pile of ashes, smoke a joint or something and move on

Dubs, truth?

i wasn't even trying to lose it to her, she just opened her door wearing a bra and I was shocked. Soon after we went for a walk and she wanted to shower with me. I honestly knew her for 7 years before I had sex with her.
Also that was 2 years before this happened.

Idk man, I am just stressed.
that's the thing I don;t even do drugs

>I don;t even do drugs
now could be a good time to start

If you're serious...she was a fucked up individual that led a fucked up life and died as a result. It sucks whenever someone we knows dies, especially if the dick was involved and the emotions that will go with that, but at the same time, this was just some fucked up chick you fucked that happened to die while you were still associating with her. It's sad. Go boo hoo...and move on. This wasn't your mom, sister, or aunt, just be glad she didn't drag you down her rabbit hole and fuck your life up as well.

Don't listen to those faggots telling you to turn to drugs. That is nothing more than the devil tempting you. I have a feeling she has been in many abusive relationships where she had to use sex as a resource in exchange for "comfort". Don't lie to yourself if you never thought about fucking her silly. She was broken and needed support but because you fucked her, I felt like she could never trust you again. I could be wrong but that;s the only thing that makes sense. This discontent feeling that you're going through is probably her spirit floating around. She will not go into the light. She cannot go into the light. You must bury her if not already and you must ask a priest to say the rites. Only then will she be allowed to leave this miserable world. Please do it for her sake. What is her name so that I may say a prayer for her soul?

Life is about the people you meet and how they influence your life. Apparently, she was very influential to OP's life so stop being a buzz kill.

This user speaks truth

I feel for you man. Gulianne was a pretty cool chick. Not super respectful posting her nude though.

Time to masturbate to her in her honor

her adoptive name was julianne
but her real name is jade

>she was very influential to OP's life
all the more reason OP needs to recognize what she was so he's not influenced by more fucked up people

It isnt your fault man. Im 3 months clean after 14 years on that shit. ive seen a lot of mother fuckers die. Junkie chicks usually find sad saps such as yourself, and just use you for someone to call and use when needed. if you tried to do anything about it she woulda just pushed you out. people quit when they are ready, no one can "save" a dope fiend in that way, drug addicts can only help themselves. hell ill prolly be back on that shit in a couple months, fucking sad ass post is giving me a hell of an itch.

>That is nothing more than the devil tempting you.

Get an HIV test. She's a junkie

So are you Alex or some other dude?

Post her nudes

get every test

Spotted the old fag. You're doin god's work son

Okay I will pray for her soul tonight. Please have a priest say rites so her spirit may move on. They are more than happy to guide you if you aren't familiar with the process.

I don't have nudes. I'm just curious if I know OP

straight up man, she was setting you up to get robbed and last minute changed her mind and sucked cock for her H. thats why the deal went weird the way it did. your lucky those junkies didnt murder you and her whore ass saved yo lifes. let her rot in the dirt junkie bitch dont meen nothin to no one and she shouldnt meen shit to you either autistic fuck

>What is her name so that I may say a prayer for her soul?
By say a prayer you mean dox his ass right?

way ahead of you m8

What the fuck do u feel bad about 100% her choice. She would have done what she did to you to anyone. And she did!

Not everyone has malicious intent and can differentiate genuine posters from others. You're obviously trolling.

I am not saying who I am, but I am not alex, he is broken dude. He was bad for her, he was addicted to alcohol and it didn't help her heroin addiction.

They actually had her fuck dudes in front him

Ive been a heroin/fentanyl addict for 3 years now and if ive learned anything its that you cant blaim yourself everytime someone dies from this drug. Ive lost more people i love than i ever thought possible and if i blamed myself for every single one that i gave dope to i would never get out of bed. You havta keep going, life doesnt give any other options but to keep going

If that was the case(not OP), there is hope for Jade. She still had a ray of light in her heart.

Dude dont fucking do it u dumb ass it's not what you want! Deep down u know. Its just your demon trying to get his way! Don't fuckin let him! 14 years is too long. I made it 3 to 4 fuck that shit

I loved her, despite her effections were spent on alex. I offered to move her out, but she wanted to stay in NY because that's where the drugs were. She was living in the park for a month before finding a place.

>believing that relationships aren't give and take
not saying that abuse doesn't exist or isn't wrong because it is but let's face it sex is a currency just like everything else.

More nudes OP?
Fucked up girls are my favorite.

>sex is a currency
It is, I never said it wasn't. A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. Just like in Syria where the aid workers were having girls fuck them for aid(food, clothes, water) instead of just giving it to them. It's pretty sad when I think about it but it's reality.

I dont plan on using or want to again, but no suboxone and no methadone = a sad boy.
Started shooting oxy at 13 and dope at 15, tried to stop so many times. i just dont put a relapse above myself and neither does anyone who knows me, but ppreciate the positivity man, so far so good app says i been clean almost 2k hours so thats somethin.

I drove her dude, she would have had no way to get out there.
thanks man. I feel bad because she said she was in so much pain.

who is this?

Moar

Show that crack pussy.

yeah op, it's best not to worry about it. they would have found a way eventually. I have lost a lot of friends to fent/h and several that have relapsed and od'd right after using again. Everything says is true. There's no way you could have known what would happen and like you said you were trying to help. You also said she wanted to wash her hands clean of life so maybe you actually did her good and she's in a better place now.

the junkie had it coming to her

RIP

I hope so honestly, I hope that darkness she saw the 3 times she OD'd before was just before the light.
Her life was so fucked up, she kept getting raped and thrown into psyche wards holy shit.

How did she get into whatever she was on?

>she writes me 6 simultaneous paragraphs
can you post that?

it isn't clear
some say her adoptive brother shot her up and she once said it was a dealer she was dating when she was 19 when she got kicked out

This is why I fuck tweaker chicks.

Can't stand nodding out, sloppy, depressive, lazy bitches.

Much rather fuck with high energy hoes with senses of humor who cleans my house and cars for dope.

I also like to pay for them to have them pull all their teeth when they start to go. Toothless dome>>>

I know like 5 chicks who are just like Ops chick. I pretend to be friends with them. I listen to their problems, pick them up and give them rides, give them little gifts now and then, but what I really do is wait for them to pass out and fuck them up their asses and cum inside them. That's all these druggies are good for

jesus dude

This guy, he gets it.

That's an addict mentality. The last person in the world to ask drug advice from is an "ex addict". If they had a fucking clue what they were talking about, they never would have been addicts in the first place. You can absolutely force someone to stop using. If they have insurance, you drag them up to the doctor and get them a Naltrexone implant or a vivitrol shot. That'll stop them from using. I promise you that.

I don't think I can be friends with an addict again. THis shit is extremely painful

You're fucking retarded dude, how many addicts have you known? Yeah you can force an addict to be sober, but only by keeping them away from drugs, they will use again if they get the chance. And those shots you are talking about don't work forever.. are you going to keep them locked up and feed them your drugs instead? wtf. Also, you can use on naloxone, it just takes a lot and it's even easier to od from respiratory depression.

Dude, a word of advice in life. You only need to worry about yourself. You are your responsibility, they are their responsibility. Don't live through others, you need to live through yourself.

You're a spider hiding in human clothes

More like a rapist.

Did you meet her on Backpage?

no she lived one town over.

It's such an odd friendship but I wouldn't mind hearing more stories.

>once drove upstate when off her meds because she thought the planes were chasing her and lived naked in the woods for a week.

>fucked a chinese store dude for rent for awhile
pic related; flipped her shit at him bc he asked for sex
DO YOU LIKE IT WHEN I MAKE YOUR PENIS HAPPY?!

>House hopped in 2013-2016, and she was stuck in a half way house for awhile

>worked at a brothel for a bit in NYC, and did everything

>dated a bum 46 YR OLD in 2017 for 3 months, and became homeless bc she couldn't stand the chinese dude,
who was supplying her with H, she fought him and beat his ass

He later died of an H over dose

PIC RELATED

>her boyfriend loved to be cucked and she fucked several black dudes in front of him bc he liked that

>she once did porno in Newburgh

>she lived in rockaway beach with a dealer for awhile


>she street walked in Newburgh at one point I think like 2011


She lived an eventful fucked up life.

quite the adventure for sure. Any more nudes?

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any pussy pics?

Dude, dont blame yourself. Junkies die eventually and the only one who can stop it is themselfs. Had i good friend die from an Subutex OD 3 years ago with some other friends in the apartment, i wasnt there but i met up with them the next day and one of them wanted to go score more because that was the only way to stop the emotional pain. Thats the moment i realized i dont want to do drugs anymore at all and now i been clean for almost 3 years. A beer once in a while but never getting drunk thats the furthest i will go because i know if i get drunk that leads the other stuff aswell..

Dont blame yourself OP, addicts will do drugs until they stop by them self. Even if u didnt drove her she would have found some other way to score.

You shouldn't feel terrible. She dragged you into this, giving you almost no choice but to support her and she ended not just her life but ruined yours too to a degree. You did just fine, it would have happened with or without you.

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god, i would love to see her broken by a pack of niggers.

moar plz....

Fpbp

OH SHE SAID SHE WAS GANGRAPED BY BLACK DUDES IN THE WOODS WHEN SHE WAS 11, but she wasn't sure if it happened or it was a dream

>raped in a drug deal gone wrong
Literally? If so, do tell

did she get passed around? She reminds me of the kind of girl that would fuck on a dime.

Any with her pussy shaved and face?