Nah, can't nap. I usually feel worse if I get little sleep, compared to no sleep. I'll just load up on caffeine before and during work. Less than 4 hours of sleep is normal for me at times
I'm sorry I make you upset because of my self loathing. I don't mean to hurt others, and especially you when I act like how I have been. It's just really hard to accept myself, and accept the fact that I'm human like the rest of us.
don't feel bad for expressing yourself on my account. I just worry about you when you're in one of those moods, I don't want you to hurt yourself or anything like that
I don't mean it when I say anything about suicide. It's just my way of coping with myself because I struggle thinking anything but worst case scenario with everything, but I'm still trying to be aware of it so I can change my behavior and life. It's just exhausting trying to express myself through arts like music, and I stupidly choose anger, self loathing, and arguing on the internet instead.
I feel like nobody on the planet actually understands me. I feel like an alien to everyone, which is why I alienated myself and waste my life posting here all day and night.
you have more in common with a lot of people than you think, you just don't have enough opportunities to actually interact with people to explore those commonalities
Most of it comes down to fear of myself. My current obstacle is learning to drive because I'm terrified of making any mistakes and being judged, the other calling people to sign up for college because I feel like it won't be worth it. I just don't know how to live in the moment, feel normal, and relax because it's impossible for me to stop thinking at all times.