I don't have any will or motivation in life, but I'm too coward to kill myself

anyone else feel the same? is it due to swallowing the red pill?

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>not turning despair and hatred into a motivational force for achieving personal goals and financial gain. Bettering ones self for an escape plan of this prison of modernity.

Get an Adderall prescription first

This guy is right OP. Life is as fulfilling as you make it. Even if you're surrounded by total shit people who don't support you, you can still work to better yourself. Work out, learn an instrument, hone a craft, further your education even if it's just through reading books or self-research.

The more interests you have the more people you can meet that also have those interests. Then you might make new friends that benefit and enrich your life.

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Shut the fuck up. Kill yourself if you're going to.

Find a hobby. Start drawing. Build RC planes and model ships. Build a scale 1:100 Spanish galleon.

>personal goals

My only goal as a teen was to get pussy, now I'm even too depressed for that

>financial gain

I don't care about being rich or poor, although obviously, if I had been born rich, life will be more easy due to not have to work/study things I don't enjoy at all. I could simply play games and spend time in Sup Forums all day until I die

Nah senpai. It's a result of the Prussian Educational System that you were indoctrinated with.

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State of Mind
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Why are you depressed? Be honest. Is it because you didn't live up to your expectations? Not enough social support? There could be a bajillion reasons but you gotta figure out WHY and correct it. If you're not personally fulfilled then you need to take steps to correct that. You can wallow in distractions like vidya and drugs and liquor and all that shit feels great -when it's happening- but when you're sober and not distracted it'll all come back and shit on you. So first figure out why you're depressed and think rationally if there's a solution to it. Even if it's not a perfect solution, there's got to be something you can do that makes your life better tomorrow than it was today.

>Every thread is either "BTFO" or "redpilled"
You feel like this because you are a meme spouting faggot.

hurry up OP, Oxygen is a limited commodity

>colonized half the world, spreading civilization, then became eternal cucks and lost it all

I'm ashamed of you, Spain.

You, the UK, and France are truly the saddest ends to any empire.
Why couldn't you be more like Rome, and end in glorious flames and battle?

You are trying to find something that's not there op. You make your own purpose in life. I'm personally agnostic but I would recommend getting involved in a church of your liking if you're open to it.

Get a hobby, whether it be lifting a couple days a week or hiking/fishing/ect. Find a nice girl that makes you happy. Everything else will fall into place.

>not turning despair and hatred into a motivational force

How does one do that?

I know ''too much'' about that

I'm not surrounded by shit people, I simply don't care/feel anything for them.

I used to work out, I had a pretty (it's still decent) body. But as I said, I have no will to keep doing it, for what purpose? why would I want to learn something new? I'm not interested in meeting new people

Mostly because I know eventually I will die, you can't avoid death (maybe billionaries would in the future) and it's not that death scares me, totally the contrary. But why would I want to keep doing things I don't like or enjoy, and having to go through suffering and pain, for what purpose? to tell people how succesful you were?

I wish I had been born back then (although I would be dead right after have been given birth) I would be an ignorant and I would simply do what ''leaders'' tell me. Lack of knowledge makes you happy

Some people need to be told what to do: go fight in this war and for my purpose. I'm one of them, I guess.

I don't believe in false idols created by our need to give a purpose to our lives. But I wish I did

Everyone has something they enjoy. You seriously have nothing at all that interests you?

Of course. If by interest you could mean things that distract me from reality or total sadness, then yeah, strategy/rpg games, geopolitics, history, read (I can't afford buying books) and doing calistheny (there are no places to do it). I also used to distract me by watching films and series, not that much lately.

I used to be the same, liquor, whores, pointless time wasting.
Reading and understanding the why's of what is wrong in this world. Knowing that one is powerless to change it directly, you stop participating in the degeneracy. Cut out all alcohol, and chasing loose women. Re-reading mein kampf. Shitposting on Sup Forums and laughing at the insane shit. If you can't laugh at the suffering of fools then what is the point? Plan to work until I can afford a piece of land in the boonies, saving money like a jew to achieve it faster. Eventually find some broad willing to pop out a few kids. Biological imperative complete, live out the rest of my days innna woods in peace. Can't really expect much better than that.

Don't waste your youth brother, you only have so much time on this ball of dirt and wax and bullshit. Change your perspective, if you are in your 20s I pray to God you don't make my mistakes and let your insight cloud your prospects and perspective. I click over to 75 as this year closes, I'm near the end of my adventure and my one regret is allowing myself to wallow in my misery of youth because I was too short sighted to see all the positive in a world of shit. Push through the last layer, fully take the redpill, your hard work and determination allows you to command your destiny, but you have to realize YOUR doing it, is what wins the day.

Do or do not, there is no try. Make this your first day you do

OP chances are you will not find an answer that you'll be truly satisfied with. Nobody knows of the greater universal meaning in life. You'll either eventually find a new purpose in life satisfying enough to distract yourself with until your time comes, or you'll fuck off and commit suicide like the innumerous other depressed fucks in existence.

Good luck. Don't wallow in your depression for too long.

So why not invest more time into those things? If you enjoy history and politics, why not study it at university? If you can't afford uni, then just buy books and enjoy learning from them.

You still not answering WHY you're in total sadness though. Depression isn't some nebulous fucking thing that strikes out of nowhere for no reason like some people believe. There's always a cause. There's always a dissatisfaction with something in that person's life. So figure out what it is CORRECT IT.

I just work a shitty IT job and play vidya games. I hoping the gaming industry becomes less stagnant , so i can have fun again.

I just gave up. What's the point it's a load of effort for nothing. Women are not worth it, they're spoiled princess sluts. I pay escorts a few times a year, then I can be free of their bullshit the rest of the year. Better just to spend your time reading, exercising and relaxing

Human desire is infinite, the material world is finite. Finite material can never fill that which is infinite. You must fill this want, which comes from something immaterial, with something also immaterial; mercy, acceptance of the world and your place, thankfulness for beauty, humility. Does this sound gay? Because you're trying to be too much of a hard ass because of Western propaganda. Be still. Your brain is like a conduit of the Creator, just relax and realize nothing matters when you die and return to the place where all souls are from. Just chill until then, be good so you can like yourself. Remember we're all just pieces falling into place

Nice words, old man. I'm 21 and I wasted already 3 years of my life. I seriously wish I had your perspective now but sadly I have the feeling that, as you said, the same will happen to me. Perhaps I will end up regretting all my mistakes (although I already do) once it is too late. But there is no will to change

>You'll either eventually find a new purpose in life satisfying enough to distract yourself with until your time comes, or you'll fuck off and commit suicide

Totally agree with you, it is how exactly I see my life nowadays.

Because I will be forced to study, memorize irrelevant things, or even false events, just to pass exams/tests not for the mere sense of learning. As I said, I can't afford them be cause I don't have a job.

>WHY you're in total sadness though

Because I see the reality behind the things.
I'm pretty sure every person that is not an ignorant, is depressed, but some of them are able to find a way about how to carry onwith that weight.

Why not go independent? Seems like the only option if you want to get anywhere these days.

The "red pill" you thought you swallowed was almost certainly just an alternative blue pill.

OK OP I want you to consider this. Reality at an institutional level fucking sucks, anyone with an IQ over 100 knows this. But that's only a small part of life. The rest is your job, your family, your friends and personal pursuits.

If the reality is your family sucks, then figure out why and see if there's anything you can do to make it not suck. If there's nothing you can do, spend less time with them.

If the reality is your friends suck, then get new friends that share your interests.

"BUT BASED CANADIAN WHO CLEARLY CARES ABOUT ME EVEN THOUGH I'M A DIRTY SPANIARD, HOW CAN I MAKE NEW FRIENDS?????"

By pursuing the things that interest you and meeting people in those spheres. Your pursuits are what will fulfill you mentally. You aren't going to get satisfaction grinding for l33t gear in some shitty MMO, that's false accomplishment. You need real pursuits and accomplishments.

OP, did you know people are more respected when they have skills? Even a shitty hobo that can play piano commands more respect on the street than anyone else.

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Seriously OP get some hobbies, better yourself, learn a skill or a craft or to do something with your hands so you feel some personal satisfaction. The satisfaction that hard work brings betterment is worth it.

man the fuck up faggot, change something and pick up new shit
get a fucking bike and ride it on evenings
try swimming.. rock climbing.. get into outdoors, fashion, drawing, shooting if possible...
literally anything else new, youll feel better

Holy shit saved. thanks leaf, maybe you'll be the reason I fix myself. I'm in the same boat as Spain

>Wahh I'm going to die so doing anything with my life is pointless
What the fuck else are you going to do? If you're not getting off the wild ride, experience it.

>I don't have any will or motivation in life

Do you go to the gym at all?

Your first task is to get your body in shape. This should help clear your depression.

After training your body you can start training your mind.

I constantly keep some sort of self improving hobby. I'm learning the stock market and day trading currently.

Thank you for your words and time, based canadian, but I simply can't agree with you perspective of life. The unavoidable gift of death will eventually come to me.

I did both things and I got bored and tired of the first one after 3 years: so much pain, time and effort invested for such a little reward.

>I did both things and I got bored and tired of the first one after 3 years: so much pain, time and effort invested for such a little reward.
what do you want as reward? what u mean?

also i feel like you are shitposting..
post pic and actually prove you are actually fit and not neet who shitposts cuz has nothing to do

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nah that's your job fagfuck

more than Colombia the shithole will ever have ever

Happiness, like everyone. But every time I finished my daily routine of working out I felt sad, I did not accomplish anything, and my body was not different at all after the first year.

You have to live around a certain way of life if you actually want real improvements. But again, for what purpose?

I'm okay with life and living
It's civilisation and having to play the game that gets me down

I feel like I'm at a cross road where any strong choice I make now will fuck me, in terms of following through with a passion of some kind.
Even then it's scarcely even passion.

I used to love to create, that always made me feel like I was moving up or forward no matter what shit I was up to.
All of the reading analysis and Sup Forums had ruined my right brain

you're 21, I'm almost 25 and with more wasted years
fuck

that girls hands and shoulders are so hot

nigger you get one shot, when thinking of giving up, think about this.
nobody is going to fix your life for you, exept you, try another kind of physical activity? to be fit doesnt mean to be some thiqq legged trex from fit. try rock climbing swimming, or even urban exploration desu, i strongly reccomend these three.

dont give up you nigger

also we all struggle my man
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you need to find the itch that isn't being scratched, my Spaniard friend.

there are some earnest people in this thread but they're telling you things that you see the flawed logic in. "How do I pursue things that interest me if I feel like this always??" exactly. You aren't going to just better yourself for the sake of it, because that very depression is making you unable to see the option as a solution to the depression.

you can't anticipate that all the bad feelings will go away if you do good things because they haven't gone away yet. if they would have that easily, just by thinking of "oh, I'll just take up a new skill!" you'd be cured.

You need to put on an album you love, smoke some reefer or drink some pints, get into a state of semi-lucidity and just think about you and what you love and what you'd miss in your unique experience as a Spanish human.

think of it like this: Spain may be boring and drab to you, but just think: you have a one in two-hundred chance of being a Spaniard in Spain. there are parts of your life that are so authentic, TOO authentic, to a point that there are other parts of the world that would enchant you if you just broke the mold.

tl;dr consider moving to a new city, state, or country. a change of scenery will take your blues away and reinvigorate life. if you are poor, even better. it is easier for the poor to move than the financially-established, who are often geographically tethered.

if my advice is shit I'm sorry. I am only giving it because I got dubz twice in a row in your thread and it felt like Kek was blessing me a bit

also Sup Forums you can fuck yourself raw for banning the word 'dubz' with an s instead of a z. some nigger got into the mods apparently

Go post on tumblr you faggot. This isn't a place for diary entries. Kys because you aren't nearly as smart as you think you are. The world is unforgiving. Deal with it.

sorry but we're having actual discussion in here instead of memes and fucko retard greentext

I understand what you guys say, and I know that the only way of getting out of depression is ''doing different things'', either by distracting yourself or improving in something so you are able feel better about yourself . Obviously if you just do nothing, your situation is always going to be the same. But I feel it is a very short term fix and I don't have a motivation to do new things, to get out of the comfort zone

I know it may sounds ridiculous, but I don't want to get out of my depression, that's how I feel. There is no purpose

Yeah, there is no purpose in life, but purpose itself is human invention, there doesn't need to be one. purpose is just a meme, stop searching for it.

26 here and in the same spot

I have never been interested in anything enough for it to serve as anything more then a short distraction. Growing pot and mushrooms for a few years really grabbed my attention. I was obsessed with better yields, better genetics, faster grow times, etc. I was always pushing, even built my own laminar flow hood.

I cant tell if I enjoyed that because I like to grow things (oddly enough ive never had a successful veggy garden lol) or because the obscene amounts of money you made from mushrooms that you can easily buy all the hydrocodone and xanax I could want

I wasted the ages between 16-24 in a haze of intoxication and of chasing the same couple women. Even stupidly married one from 20-24.

I am clean now for 2 years but still have nothing. Most women have slept with more chicks then I have (4), I have no car, the friends I had weren't friends they just wanted drugs and half of them have died anyway, I live with my father, etc you get the picture.

Even when I was a child there was nothing I ever found very interesting. Each particular sport only held my attention shortly, I have never been able to focus on school, online games were the only thing that i could focus on enough for it to server as a distraction.

My point is if you think you feel like shit now, waste another 5 years and come back and tell us how youre doing.

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That's called depression,

>get a job
>make some money
>buy small price of land in countryside
>build cabin
>get an internet connection
>garden
>raise chickens
>do some mushrooms
>hate Jews

Profit???

spain
>no jobs for low profiles
>can't make money
>you can't buy land and construct w/e you want without permits/huge taxation
>you can't get internet anywhere, law to providers is so rigid their growth in fiber optic is ridiculously low, cober network is a monopoly of a single company and there's no free market
>you can't legaly sell your chicken's eggs without breaking law, because you lack permits/sanity controls
turning jewish might have better outcome

Watch this video and grow up.

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>I know it may sounds ridiculous, but I don't want to get out of my depression, that's how I feel. There is no purpose

nope. you actually just completely verified to us (well, me at least) that you indeed have depression. and not just 'major sadness' or butthurtedness over the state of your life.

you are undergoing something pharmacological. it may be out of your control. this is why I suggested the smoke/drink, because the solution might actually be some kind of mind alteration if you are afflicted by depression for reasons out of your control. Sorry about the way things are right now. They won't continue to be, my friend, eventually

Take care of yourself, eat right, try to mix it up, read, cook, clean, watch tv, run around a bit / lift, whatever.

When you feel anxiety put on some music, stretch out, cross your arms and legs, calm your mind and notice how to jumps around like a monkey focussing on bad things after a few seconds when you try to clear it of thoughts.
After 2-3 minutes you'll be fine, sitting with your arms and ankles crossed creates that effect, you see your left side is controlled by your right brain hemisphere and your right side by your left brain hemisphere, when you cross them over they the other side takes over so you're in perfect sync.

No need for shitty toxic medicine, if you believe in yourself you can surely love to live with yourself in time.
Your body is an organism of almost 50 trillion cells, it can do quite a lot.
Repair cancer for instance once you've found new hope to live, the only thing which makes people die is because they want to die deep down inside, so the body says "fuck all" and destroys itself overtime.