Developed a cuck fetish, help me

I had a long term girlfriend a few years back and we ended up breaking up. She ended up dating one of her beta orbiters for a while. For some reason this destroyed me for I had never experienced someone I love move on so quick. I have an issue where I tend to get fixated on negative thoughts and of course all I could think about was the the fact that she's going to have sex with another man. I couldn't seem to sleep at all. One night in my anxiety fueled frenzy I figured if I jerked off to the thought of it, I wouldn't be so upset anymore. It didn't help, but now it was the only thing I could get off to. I didn't even know cuckolding was a thing, but I later found out that is was, and at this point I started getting turned on by the idea of betrayal. I had conditioned my brain to be sexually aroused by the thing that upset me the most as some sort of fucked up coping mechanism...

Now it's years later and I don't even give a shit about her, but all that happened is I developed a fetish for interracial (because that's the most common type of cuck porn) and being cheated on. Once you start indulging in a certain fetish too much, it becomes a habit, your brain builds neural pathways dedicated to that shit and associates it with sexual gratification.

I can get off to other things, and I've tried nofap, but the only thing that illicits strong orgasms is BBC. Someone help. this is fucking gay and I hate it.

Someone please give me advice, idk why but this seemed like the best place to vent this.

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Get off the internet. Buy or download an online child filter which has a password and close your eyes while typing the password so you can never know what it is. Also get a gf and a job.

I have a job, I wish it were that easy to just get a GF like that. I dated a few girls the past few years but I can't get emotionally invested, it seems. I've got a lot of issues I think I need to work out.

The child filter thing is a good idea, though.

Have you tried BBC sissyhypno? It's way more exciting than cuck fetishes.

Why is this in Sup Forums? Could just get rid of porn?

yeah i jerked off to shit like that maybe a dozen times. Obviously, the point is that I DON'T want to jack off to stuff like that.

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I recently saw someone post something similar here. I honestly don't know why I posted it here specifically.

The only thing left to do is kill yourself.

Oddly enough, same issue here. Im lucky I have a decent enough amount of guilt in watching this degenerate shit that its massively declined my fapping frequency. Recently, my laptop failed as well, and resorting to mobile has been reintroducing me to mainstream porn. Sometimes, its our issues thats fix our issues.

This is less for you but more for a guy who was addicted to blacked. I think people in this thread could benefit from hearing it though.

If you pay close attention you'll notice that the pleasure is fake as fuck. Especially if you've ever pleasured a woman before. It's also very dehumanizing to the black actors because it treats them like a complete animal sex toy. As someone who showered with multiple men including black ones average song size is relatively equal at least when flaccid. The only reason people find it attractive is because of the camera, production, and acting quality mixed with the fucked up "bestiality" taboo. People worry way too much about penis size, as long as you're over four inches you'll be able to pleasure most women just fine if your a generous, confident lover that pays attention to how your partner reacts. Most people can even hit a g spot with their finger if they try. Also, most vaginas are the same size, and tightness has more to do with how excited a woman is and not how much sex she's had. Think about it, if a kid can come out of it and it can still be used for sex then a penis can go into it without destroying it. Don't worry so much about sex, pay more attention to the kind of woman you want to be with and you want raising your kids. That will be what matters most to your long term happiness and success.

Due to the way human psychology works, the reason you find it arousing is because it's stereotypically prohibited and because you're associating sexual gratification with it Pavlov style.

This is how foot fetishes and the like get started; people don't usually take shoes off in public, so it's somewhat taboo, and all it takes to associate it with sexual gratification is glancing at the feet of a woman on a porno mag a couple times, and BAM! Foot fetish!

Given that, I think what you need to do is find something just as depraved and degenerate and start associating sexual gratification with that instead. That way, you can phase out your interracial cuckold fetish by substituting it with something else. Whether it's cute traps, gore, or vore, you should be able to use it to get rid of your previous fetish.

Good luck, and godspeed, user.

Thanks, I have nothing wrong with penis size and I'm aware that the average penis size for blacks and whites are just about equal. I guess it's just more of a "you whacked off to this specific thing so many times that it's now a habit + it's taboo"

ty for the kind words my friend

Every time I feel more guilty than the last, that's helped me stop. But sometimes I feel like I get turned on by the guilt because it's "wrong"

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social_engineering_(political_science)

I sort of have the same problem except in reverse. I've been using my dick size to attract middle aged women in cuckold marriages and arranging to meet and fuck them while their husband watches. The only reason I'm doing this is because I haven't gotten laid in like three years.

Still have yet to actually go through with it, but I probably will just because I'm too autistic for Tinder and OKC.

So you're using the "remove previous habit with new one" model. That seems like the most effective way to do it. I was actually considering this earlier today, but I really don't want to get into something I'll be even more ashamed of.

I read this, in the last post you made.

I could probably do something like this. where do you arrange these meetings with 40 year old women? I always get looks from them when I'm at work and got called sexy once, so it seems like an option.

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>get a different fetish
no stop, thats not very helpful. Optimally, he needs to find another woman to get his sexual gratification from, but...lets be honest, he's a Sup Forums cuck. Your suggestion does give me a good idea though. If you can increase the gratification payout for less taboo porn via edging, nofap, maybe drugs/alcohol, you might be able to recondition back to where you were.

here is what i think from a biological point of view.

you want strong men to breed your wife because its in your DNA to see society improving. if you like watching fat guys getting beaten up or white woman getting raped by monkey's. its basically the same thing. you have something primitive in your brain that makes you think society should be purged from weaklings and alphas should endure.
if you ever thought about sucking a black dick its because of that reason.
i suggest you snap out of it as soon as you can

Fetish websites, there's many different ones. The thing is, some of them seem very, well, off because often times their profiles will be like "my husband doesn't get to do x but my lovers can," but honestly, if it gets my dick wet, might as well.

This is what I've currently been trying. I like asmr videos and some of them are pretty sexual. I ended up fapping to quite a few "lollipop eating" videos and "banana eating videos" because I want to kind of step down into stuff that's less hardcore. Either that, or I jerk it to hentai like I used to when I was like 13

mods do your jobs please

No problem. If I were you I would focus on building yourself into the person you want to be and disengage your focus from sex. Women will come on their own in time, and a lot of people are single so it's nothing to be ashamed of.

One thing that helped me is that one week my sleep schedule had been really irregular due to unrelated events, and I felt so shitty before the fap that the guilt afterward felt soulcrushing. I've never really gotten off to something being wrong though, so I suppose there's still the possibility that would create the opposite response in others.

Yeah, I actually just bought a weight bench and am trying to find new hobbies to get into.

I once had one too. Believe me Sup Forums is not healthy considering how much the shit is posted here so stay away for about a month.
Also although it may sound edgy your mind can only feel like doing something when it's too late so begin punishing yourself(physical if necessary) when you actually are in control of yourself. When faced with short term pleasure of masturbation your mind wont find it worth the punishment PROVIDED you are resolved to punish yourself(cutting a cross into you can let you carry your sins around as a constant reminder if you are a Christian).
Believe me you won't get over this naturally. Some things are more important than fitting in so have faith in yourself if you choose to do this.

youtube.com/watch?v=4yH47XI3fCo&t=4s

"I would like to end on a more serious note tonight, and just really beg everyone here to please, just wipe the white race from this planet. This isn't a joke, this isn't a part of my act, I am just asking each and every person here, if you know a white person, if you see a white person, please kill them. If you are a white person, please kill yourself. I don't know how much longer I can go on knowing that the scourge that is white males exists on this planet."

- Louis "Cuck King" CK

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I USED TO LIKE HIM.

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why?

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>Someone please give me advice
join the libs or kill yourself

this was 5 years ago, mind you. I just liked the fact that he said nigger. I was blue pilled as fuck back then.

Im actually ashamed for him. I really did like his comedy, but he always had those moments where liberal apologies were in the undertones. Never thought he'd fall this far.

Improve yourself in other ways. Increase your own self worth. This will greatly lessen the desire to fap to degenercy. Learn a new language, how to play an instrument, read high litterature, learn to build things, fix things, how to garden, how to weld, whatever. Any new skill releases a shit ton of endorphins and boosts your pride.

This does many things. It enriches your life, makes you more successful, makes you more interesting, and chemically trains your brain to derive pleasure from doing productive things. It starves the degenercy until it withers away into dust.

Stay strong user and make shit.

Thanks for the kind thoughts, that's probably my biggest issue overall right now, the fact that I feel as if I'm not achieving anything

What is high literature ?

Dying to hear your definition.

Get a good white girlfriend
Realize that all the pleasure in blacked is puraly fake
Stop thinking about it or you become a beta fag

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If you want a hobby thats easy to stay motivated with, think of something simple that you like, figure out how to make it, and get to it. I recently started homebrewing my own beer, and my first batch could have tasted better, but I already know what to do to improve next time. In the meantime, I had 24 22oz bottles to enjoy with friends and family. The equipment for a 5 gallon batch is around $100-$150 dollars, but you can cut down ingrediant cost to have made up the loss in a few batches. Would def recommend.

Im so high I thought I was reading an average askreddit thread. Op, commit suicide

I thought about doing that many times in the past when my porn "adiction" was worst but you can always uninstall the program so it's useless.

oh that totally defeats the purpose, then. There's always a way around stuff like that.

>Im so high