I remember being 10-11 and kids making fun of me for being a "prude" because I didn't want to french kiss a girl I never met over "spin the bottle".
Looking back at it, this is probably around the time the brainwashing started.
To make a long story short, I succumbed to peer pressure and eventually went with the flow of obsessing over sex as the only worthy measurement of success/social status/pleasure/fulfillment.
>I became a porn addict during middle school/high school. >In my first year of college I lied to girls compulsively to get in their pants, eventually lost my virginity but I felt really disgusted inside. >Came across this board, other red pilled site. >Learned some philosophy. >Found a lot of peace in Jordan Peterson-esque approach to morality and religion
And yet, the damage has been done. A part of me is still quite degenerate and I can only suppress it for so long. I have given up porn, and I generally try to do good but a few nights a year I let my degenerate side out and do degenerate shit (hire young escorts, break them psychologically by getting them to open up to me, them degrading them throughout our sexual encounters, that I film and blog about). Yeah this is very degenerate.
I like to think I am not a completely useless drag on society though. I have a job, some savings that keep growing, I volunteer, I try to offer everyone salvation through faith, and I even began donating to a porn addiction nonprofit. With that said, my moral fiber has been damaged permanently.
I wanna get married someday (some girls in my church seem to like me), but sometimes I have doubts I can overcome my dysfunction.
Would you rather still be a virgin and not have that all that sex and sat through those awkward converations as everyone circlejerked over their sexual conquest around you? Because that's what I've suffered through...just tell me it's worth it lol
Benjamin Smith
>Why are leftist so obsessed with sex? Leftists only care about what feels good to them.
Cooper Young
If I could be a virgin again, and I also had the guidance of a church community, I go virgin any time.
The problem I ran through is that if you are dealing with the world (outside of church) everyone is extremely obsessed with sex and yeah it will make you feel awkward and depressed. Add to this something like being morally corrupted by porn and that is when you have a real problem in your hands.
Eli Stewart
yeah i got accused of being a gay alot because I wasnt interested in the degeneracy of plowing out a female ive known for an hour
i blame catholicism
Sebastian Myers
oh yeah im referencing teen year here i met my white qt wife at 18 and we been good since and have produced white children
Isaiah Myers
Wow nice life man. Were you both virgins?
Ryan White
Blame the psychoanalysts of the past (Some, not all) for creating a culture around sexual conquest. The notion that a man's ambition is driven by the sex drive and nothing else is the most tragic understatement of all time. There is much more to life than that, there are values and virtues and things to die for in this life that mankind has been fighting for centuries. I don't even know if it is a leftist ethos so much as it might be a jewish one. For me it is more important to strive for a kind of culture where women are women and children can thrive than to strive for women in general. It is the ideal that is worth dying for and in that way hedonism is an obstacle and not an achievement.
Gabriel Hernandez
yeah you're already lost,probably end up murdering or raping kids to get tha same high you get degrading sex slaves after getting them to trust you Become a monk or go into a shareblue meeting with something hard and cold
Matthew Cooper
>I generally try to do good but a few nights a year I let my degenerate side out and do degenerate shit (hire young escorts, break them psychologically by getting them to open up to me, them degrading them throughout our sexual encounters, that I film and blog about).
link to the blog?
Dylan Jones
I like my current arrangement though.
I feel I have found some balance out of it. I haven't watched porn in over 2 years. and I try to only think about sex/deviant shit when it is happening instead of pondering on it.
Faith and being aware philosophically of bigger things than just sex has also helped.
Joseph King
>link to the blog?
Is a private blog that I keep as a record of all of my experiences.
Oliver Richardson
This. I'm starting to regret my atheist phase during my late teens/early 20s.
Charles Richardson
Catholic Church.
>Missionary Position >Missionary Priests.
Obsession. And The Kid Fucking.
Grayson Moore
>early 20s
If you are much older, any comment on your sex drive/pattern of thoughts now compared to when you were younger?
Any experiences that helped you overcome this pathological thinking?
Tyler Jackson
>Came across this board, other red pilled site.
There's your problem right there. You're obviously young so following the Sup Forums of denying your sexual proclivities is not the way to go. The idea, I would suggest, is to find a balance through healthier avenues to express your sexuality. Obviously hedonistic sexual tribulations is the base expression of human sexuality but that's not compatible when trying to be a functional member of society; though neither is censoring your own sexual identity.
Daniel Wood
Because sex feels good. You fags are just mad cause you don't fuck, never will fuck, because no wants to fuck you! Hahaha, you only get one life and you're living it playing video games in a basement. I don't blame you though, if I was 300 pounds and had a 2 inch cock i'd stay locked away too. You will NEVER know the joys of having women talk about how good you fuck within a group and other women (and guys) hear too and wanna fuck.
William Phillips
I don't think there is a viable solution for me.
Without literally wrecking my life and chasing women all of the time I don't think I can express my sexuality in a healthy matter. I am in the awkward position of realizing that my behavior is degenerated yet also knowing that I can't simply "fix" it by ignoring it.
Adam Walker
Sad but true
Owen Gutierrez
Iktf. Same happened to me. This modern over obsession with sex is not natural. It isn't "revolving" either, it's plain stupid.
Hudson Edwards
>Why are leftist so obsessed with sex? Lol, sex is literally the most important thing in the world since it enables procreation and life. Just because you autists aren't getting any doesn't mean it's overrated
Kevin Rodriguez
I'm not fat nor ugly, and my dick is alright, but I don't fuck with girls not just because I'm partially antisocial but because girls nowadays are toxic sluts, especially in my area.
They're just not worth it anymore, I would much rather sit in my room and play video games with some online friends than to deal with modern day retarded girls and text them 24/7, and be up their ass 24/7. They're like pets, it's bullshit.
William Taylor
>same happened to me.
Huh interesting. Mind giving me a quick rundown of some of your experiences?
Connor Foster
It'll probably be difficult but prioritize developing your confidence and self-efficacy. Doing well at university, work and healthy living, where you challenge yourself to meet new goals, supplemented with a strong moral foundation that doesn't suffocate your sexuality entirely, could possibly help. Stick at it user, the storm will pass and new challenges will await you on the horizon. Time heals all wounds if you don't fester yourself in the past
Liam Ortiz
>Why are leftist so obsessed with sex? Because they've been utterly feminized. Women's entire worth is based on sex, and these people are just following suit.
Nolan Phillips
>Blame the psychoanalysts of the past Also, yeah, Freud fucked everything up.
Luke Watson
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Xavier Murphy
>a few nights a year I let my degenerate side out and do degenerate shit (hire young escorts, break them psychologically by getting them to open up to me, them degrading them throughout our sexual encounters, that I film and blog about). WTF?
Caleb Roberts
There is nothing wrong with sex (a lot of it or very little). Everything wrong with obsession. Its true that sex is the driving force behind most things (gaining wealth, status, etc), directly or indirectly - it's biological. But we have evolved minds, so we can do better.
It's all about balance. For some people, getting their dick wet every 24 hours is fine and healthy - because it doesn't fuck with their lives, and goals and they still control their choices. For some, needing to get a bitch once a week is destroying them - because they cant focus or produce. It's not about frequency or intensity of, its whether you master your desire, and fuck because you enjoy it (just like drinking, gambling, etc) - or you let it control you like a little bitch and bow to what other people think.
Every man should fuck women when they want - but you have to realize that they are just another thing in life, easily disposed and replaced in most cases. Certainly not the most important thing compared to your self-worth, improvement, legacy and community.
The sexualization of EVERYTHING (especially kids) is definitely a goal of ((modern)) culture. Leftist are obsessed with sex (and feelz) because their other values are so insignificant - no responsibility because they have nothing worth being responsible for.
Anthony Rivera
hahahahahahah
this thread is literally all fucking virgins, your all fucking pathetic.
Carter Rodriguez
>I succumbed to peer pressure normalfag sheep now represent the Sup Forums
fucking hell sage
Nicholas Cooper
>express your sexuality such an insufferable phrase
Xavier Stewart
Are you the guy who did the ice bucket challenge to an escort after fucking her raw in the ass until she bled?
Ayden White
Nothing special, peer and media pressure made me over valuate sex more than it's worth it. Didn't go degenerate but realized that I had a lot of things that weren't mine like looking at women asses, etc. Over time I realized it and started leaving those things.
It's no different from advertising making you want things that you don't really need or want.
That said the church goes on the other extreme, a sick over prudishness which is pretty much the same but "covert". No doubt there's so many child molesters there.
Imo sex shouldn't be over sacralized (neither as obsession or as taboo) and youth must receive education (preferably from their parents) to have a sane and responsible sexuality, and not an extreme one in either side. (In an ideal society, of course).
Well, that is kind of rooted in biology more so than any fabricated culture. I guess it was perpetuated by culture but it's no accident that men are capable of ejaculating several times per day
Levi Diaz
How many times has this thread been made today? Anyway it's pushed because oversexualization in general is bad for a society traditionally and results in the breakdown of many social norms and institutions via the degeneracy it creates, see Brazil and its obsession with ass and sex, even pushing them on public TV, and how poorly it functions, the two are correlated. On the other hand it's also retarded to autistically repress sex prudishly like Islam. A medium where it's just viewed as something normal and private which isn't to be either glorified or shamed is the way to view things.
Levi Long
You are whoever you wanted to be. You see violent stuff everywhere you look, doesn't mean automatically become a violent person.
Brayden James
Something wrong Sven? I told you I was a fucking degenerate.
Dylan Cook
Second post best post.
The fact that they care so much for what feels good to them is the reason why they're leftists. The reason why they put egalitarianism over logic is because it makes them feel good, and egalitarianism is at the base of their views
Carson Wood
Delete it. You need to slay the dragon.
Mason Baker
>Sex is literally the most important thing in the world
T. philistine
Aaron Ramirez
Red pilled as fuck answers right here.
Eli Roberts
original?
Oliver Hill
>your all pathetic >your
t. 85 iq
Gavin Ortiz
Leaf speaks the truth
Ryder Rogers
>fucking virgins Isn't that an oxymoron?
James Long
It's the r/K divide in action.
leftists are rabbits obsessed with breeding. molymeme has a good video on it
Dominic Hernandez
Dude OP. I'm so glad I did all my degenerate behavior when I was young and stupid. I've outgrown it now but not were those good times. If you are still below 30 as I'm not, go out and let loose bro
Daniel Jackson
the damage is may not be permanent.
i quitt cold turkey for 3 mounths (only made it with daily meditation)
then i thought im done with this and a few weeks later the urge hit me super hard when i was a little lonely and i relapsed again.
i was shaking like a crack junkie...
the ride never ends my friend we have to restructure our lives from the bottom up and this shit costs a lot of energy
Unless you're reenacting Daisy's Destruction or getting your neghole pozed by Jamal you're not really a degenerate , you're just a man.
You should exert some basic self control though.
> a few nights a year I let my degenerate side out and do degenerate shit (hire young escorts, break them psychologically by getting them to open up to me, them degrading them throughout our sexual encounters, that I film and blog about).
