How does Sup Forums cope with an existential crisis?

>be me
>took a shit ton of lsd
>tripped balls
>visual hallucinations at the beginning
>started feeling depressed about 3 hours in
>paranoid/deluded thoughts
>started questioning everything
>convinced i was god experiencing reality forever in eternal meaninglessness
>6 months later feel like killing myself
Any advice?

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Start reading. I'd start with Meditations and The Wisdom of Insecurity, they discuss different ways of looking at the human condition.

>stop being a fucking retard
>get a job

Already have a job faggot

That's not an existential crisis, that's a bad trip. Got to be grounded and have a strong mind to do acid

>be me, arachnophobe
>tripping balls at night in a new mown field
>piles of cut crass turn into huge armoured spiders, pulling themselves out the ground
>every instinct saying 'run'
>calm my breathing, hold on and tell myself it's not real

that feeling never goes away. acid is a deeply personal, introspective drug. the ego is completely removed for a brief time, forever altering your perception of reality

Yes, I have one, stop taking LSD you fucking degenerate.

huh probably don't take anymore psychedelics if it made you want to kill yourself. When I take LSD, i'm totally ready to die but not about to do it myself. Can you really not deal with the fact that nothing really means anything? you've gone 6 months without doing yourself you can get over this

You took LSD and fucked up your brain. Good job idiot. Don't pretend you didn't know the consequences.

>The Wisdom of Insecurity

My favourite philosophical/psychological book of all time. Stuffed with gems. Watts is a bro.

>convinced i was god experiencing reality forever in eternal meaninglessness
>6 months later feel like killing myself
>Any advice?

Experimenting with your understanding of reality is a sign of intelligence, user. Even if it was through drug use, changing how you view yourself in the grand scheme of things is a sign of a good intellect. You can do two things in this regard:

>Experience yourself existing in a different way than you normally do through the use of drugs, meditation, ritual and etc.
>Think and contemplate about yourself and what it means to exist

You feel bad because you have not thought about the experience enough. You havent through enough about who you really are, where you really exist and what the nature of reality actually is. Think and then experiment, but think moreso. Give the drugs a rest too.

>temporary chemical alterations = fucking up your brain

O I am laffin

Mostly distracting myself with ironic memes. The redsuppository of meanglessness has destroyed my anus.

Whats fucked up is that I'm experiencing depersonalization on almost a catatonic scale. It's hard to get back to normal when I can't trust myself. I've also fucked my mind up because shortly after I started reading sam harris on determinism which fuels my despair.

I learned about the real causes of WWII. Live changing stuff.

>Tripping without a bailout

I've only done acid once, and during that I found my view on life while sitting at the shower. Quickly got out, and wrote about 35 pages about it on paper.

Might continue it at some point but dont feel like taking drugs, makes my mind very tired for a long time after.

But as someone already said, probably just a bad trip.

yeah.. don't do LSD.

That's blue pilled shit when you begin swallowing some of the philosophical red-pills.

Nigger I've take hundreds of trips...

Read philosophical/psychological books before bed. Do sports, til you're red and wet af. And look at that tree, what does it do, it's just there, it doesn't complain, it's just there, and it lives, and it's just there.

You fucking hippy, please don't spend your time staring at a tree

Get a waifu and have some children. You will find meaning in life when you have to provide for and defend your children.

I have done enough acid to kill a bunch of elephants, most people are too weak minded for it, some people can't take it, they go potato disconnected in thy bubble. Remember, that tree is just there.

Back in the 90s some bros and I decided 2 of us would take roughly 10 hits each and the third would video tape us and try to coerce us into meaningful things, like writing. We decided that afterwards we give it two weeks before watching, reading or talking about it to allow our minds to readjust.

Could watch more than an hour of the footage because of how disturbing it made me feel and all the writings were of OPs sort. Fookin wacked m8.

No, fuck the tree, just observe what it does.
Does it moan, does it think about how shitty is fucking life is being there 10/10, no, hes just a tree, he does tree things, I guess you need to find out what a human is !
Calling me a hippy, please now.

But it never questions its existence...

Because it's just there and it does what it's supposed to do. Being there.

Try ODing on Dramamine..

Drugs are degenerate. Did you learn nothing in your life?
Start reading more. Exercise (hitting the gym is optional). Masturbate without pornography. Find yourself a white girlfriend.
Maybe your brain will fix itself, maybe it won't. This is the price of being stupid.

Keep doing drugs till you die, we don't need you

thats what happens when you take too much, or take it in a shitty setting. you got a taste of the real reality but with no guidance. No ritual, no poetry, no sacred space or music, no outdoors . just some dingy apartment

Never trip without sedatives or antianxiety meds or booze to knock you out or take you down.

Kundalini yoga
It's not a meme

>"LSD causes madness" meme
You already had some shit in you if that happens.

take again and have a good time it will straiten you up

(take with friends)

Ask the President about it ; SNL skit. 3 min. mark.
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Stop doing drugs like a degenerate.

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My writing wasn't exactly sane either. Very disturbing ideas even though I didn't feel bad when I wrote it.

God forbid if someone ever reads it.

i recommended taking some ketamin

>took a shit ton of lsd
Fucking off yourself, you stoner piece of shit

>real reality
So being god experiencing reality eternally with free will or meaning without any type of alternative is the real reality to you?
Okay faggot keep believing in your boogaloo bullshit

no*

Bad trips can fuck you up, no joke.

I know some people recommend staying away from psychedelics after a really bad trip, but What helped me out of a slump was taking a medium dose of shrooms and going trail running.
One of the best experiences of my life desu.

nice pic too bad it has demon sigils in it

You're almost there. Now read Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind by Shunryu Suzuki and meditate for 30 mins every day, then try again. When you break through the clouds you will know

Like I said, you got a taste. but with a shitty setting, your enhanced awareness was running your ego amok which caused paranoia and delusion. Only through proper setting and/or ritual should these things be done. There is a reason why mystics have always prescribed teachers to help their people along the path.

If some weak ass acid brought you on your knees, can't imagine how you'll handle the King.

Reminder that LSD is almost never LSD, it's incredibly difficult to properly make and most people just sell you research chemicals, there are hundreds and hundreds of them and they're unpredictable, some are nothing some can easily kill you or fuck your brain chemistry up. Probably 4-ACO-DMT or some NBOME or 2C or something. Stay away!

Thank you for this post leaf

Who cares if nothing matters? Learn that value is subjective to the individual.

>God experiencing reality in eternal meaninglessness.

You're exactly right.

Look into Buddhism. This is the root of their belief, and the rest of it revolves around how to escape from that endless cycle of reincarnation.

For the existential crisis, I'd reccomend traveling. No tourist traps. Go places where no one speaks English (or French)
Go to weird countries in the Baltic, go to rural Finland, go to Hungary, go to places where people live lives in a way you can't understand, and see how comfortable they are with it, yet you feel some sort of connection. Have drinks with someone you can't speak with, buy an old man a drink in a weird country, see how you feel about the people and get some perspective.

Drug addict kids crying. Seizure and die Try working getting no where and have the nigger irs wAnt every penny from you.

Personal progression pieces i got out of lsd was to read more, eat more real food and stop smoking.

more like Hinduism; Brahman. not really "meaningless" though

embrace the absurd

It's good to have benzos around when tripping for this exact reason.

You should start by never ever posting anything related to reddit and memey on this board, and go back to rebbit you fucking faggot.

Also fucking taking lsd? really? you really are worthless, go ahead and kill yourself, you are of no use anyway

only a goy could be this fucking stupid. you made the grand realization and found it meaningless. go fucking kill yourself and face oblivion faggot, you dont deserve the logos

Can confirm, I traveled by motorcycle through the middle of fucking nowhere jungles in Laos, Cambodia, Vietnam. It really gives you a new perspective on life, when you visit those little mountain villages where the people live in bamboo huts with dirt floors and no electricity. The little kids run up to you and stare curiously, because they've literally never seen a white person before. And the people of the villages are the most genuinely friendly and caring I've ever met. They live on tiny farms, and most have never been more than 30 miles from where they were born. Yet they have something that we don't have here at home: A true purpose in life. They all have an important role in keeping the village alive, and they find genuine happiness in their day to day lives. There is no crime, the kids run freely and no one has locks on their doors. The men farm, hunt, and cook, the women herd cattle, harvest produce, and collect firewood, and the little kids help out with everything.

After that trip, I truly realized how fucked western culture has become. We live completely purposeless lives, and our society is full of dishonest people (even family) who will steal from you and hurt you at the drop of a hat. Meanwhile, these dirt-poor farmers in Laos who live on less than a dollar a day are willing to give food and shelter to a complete stranger, and help in any way they can, while asking for nothing in return and refusing to accept payment of any sort.

>pic is northern Vietnam on the border of China

>verb the noun
That's not how the Absurd works, user

read about absurdism

Nigga who the fuck wants to be a tree.

Lifes fucking pointless. Either conform to this game humans made trying to get money or just fucking kill yourself

It usually goes away by itself after like a week

>6 months later feel like killing myself
oh shit you're fucked I guess

Protip: Holotropic Breathwork is just as good as LSD and a lot safer

* Get out of bad trip by stopping the hyperventilating

* Control degree of intensity

* Do it under a Grof-trained supervisor you have help on site.

Highly recommend. It may be a good way for OP to get fixed up. It is really good for depression, existential issues, fucked up childhoods etc.

You are right about the reddit faggotry, OP is a piece of shit.

But you are wrong about the LSD. I think that experimenting with reality is good for you. Just dont take too much or you will have a shitty experience and learn nothing.

In my young days i took shrooms, lsd and that kind of shit and was a good learning experience. I woudnt do it again, tho.

Your consciousness is a transcendent form of God. What you experienced was a lucid nightmare. Hell is real, hell is an eternal lucid nightmare. You experienced a taste of that state but you were not actually there.

Do not take your own life as your will actually go into an eternal lucid nightmare (hell) if you do.

if every white goy did a reasonable amount of pure lsd all the weak betas would kill themselves and the alphas would clean the world of shitskins within 6 months

>tfw masturbating to porn on lsd
it's fucking unreal

Having a "bailout" is a coward move. Be man, face the unknown with bravery!

There is no need to use LSD, or any drug for that matter, already doing that means that you need an extra to enjoy or escape reality, which means you can't appreciate the beauty of life, it is full on faggotry that should not be tolerated.

Try watching a sunrise in complete silence and tell me tripping balls like a fool is better

You have a very fucked up idea of what LSD does.

I love idiots who parrot "common knowledge" and have no idea what they're talking about because they don't have the balls to experience it for themselves.

>posts reddity and mordecai
you should kill yourself

I don't think I've ever had a depressing trip. I've had bad trips, but never long term and not depressing.

Were you on SSRIs?

Pic related was this morning, you don't need that crap

Try taking 300 coricidin triple C's.

lol you dont know shit about lsd faggot, whatever shitty little research chemical you did was NOT lsd

Is not about "needing an extra to enjoy or escape reality"

Is about discovering yourself, im not talking of being a junky... kill those shits. Im talking about shatering your mental process to see the world from another angle without the mental baggage that shapes your normal mindset.

If you cant tell a diference on this things, we cant have this discussion.

>take lsd
>brain goes stupid
>think it means anything
I will allow that your impairment allows you to see the world differently, but most of that is because you were literally mentally impaired.

>took a shit ton of lsd
stopped reading there

get your boss's boss's job.

That is because you don't need that perspective that is being distorted by substances, you can clear your mind and see for yourself the true beauty of life, using drugs just corrupts the true way to see things

>thinks lsd functions by impairment

lol white goys get everything they deserve

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Get on your knees and pray. Ask Jesus to save you from your own stupidity.

lsd synthesis needs reagents that are hard find , like aluminium lithium hydride

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if you are deterministic you literally are not at fault for anything so why worry?

HINT: You must live life as if it were not deterministic, It is the only way to be sure.

accept jesus as your savior

people need to take a break from themselves time to time bro

I second this. Camus' the myth of sisyphus deals with the question of suicide in a world without meaning directly.

You shouldn't have taken so much acid.

Man up and get over it you worthless piece of shit.

>take mushrooms with Brazilian foreign exchange girlfriend and best friend
>eyeball about 4 grams each
>powderize mine and chug with orange juice
>in ten minutes completely leave reality
>they think I'm dead
>grip couch for my life, think I'm literally going to die
>entire life flashes before my eyes
>every experience in my life becomes judged, like St. Peter at the gates of heaven
>completely shatter my ego and perception of self
>convinced my girlfriend kissed my friend, even though nothing like that happened
>4 hours of hell and torture, such intense sadness and pain I will never do shrooms again

wew lad, psychedelics are insane

Become a Stoic, and set tangible goals for yourself.

Noice pic
sauce?

This is baisically why I quit doing the stuff. Hate the inevitable depression and paranoia that comes with it fucking with my anxiety