>Depressed atheistic nihilist at 11 to 15 with oneitis.
>Mid 2000s, pretentious atheism posting in early days of Youtube.
>Utopianist/futurist, women are better than men, all races are equal, pretty much oblivious communist by 13/14.
>(I went into puberty by 9 or 10, was pretty fucking early kid to all these crazy things.)
>2010 finally dares to go onto Sup Forums for longer periods of time, got spooked by it cause of older kids as a 11 year old, Sup Forums was our school's boogieman.
>Still didn't dare posting
>2011, learn communism is meme, everything is meme, RIP ZYZZ, you mad bro? 9gag reddit, internet gets an exponential growth.
>2012, school screwed, everything's fucked, still futurist.
>dunno what's happened past FIVE YEARS
>2013 begin to actually learn about real shit, have a thiccc girlfriend for a 1.5 years, lose virginity, best time of my life, experience sincere affection
>2014 Milton Friedman, Thomas Sowell, Fuck feminism, Media lies, capitalism and freedom, "lose" gf, really my own fault for being a loser. Short period of "women are nothing but hoes and shit", quickly realize it's just self pity and an excuse.
>2015 and 2016, NeetLife, suicide, fascism, Sup Forums, might makes right, race realism, pure fucking nihilism going full circle. No future, "live" for the day.
>Think I've heard all arguments
>2017, 21, find Jordan Peterson.
>Like revelation
>Even seeing appeal of religion. If not that, at least a belief in something, trying to climb out of the belly of the beast.
Felt like I've already experienced what a whole life could be for some people psychologically.
Guess I'm a libertarian, with a bunch of conservative values. Don't think I could ever believe in a "god", wasn't raised with religion.