I want to 1488 but some of the worst people in my life are white people

I want to 1488 but some of the worst people in my life are white people.
How do I rekindle my love for the white race when my parents abused me, left me to rot on the streets, and my white friends were materialistic faggots who only cared about muh, dick and playing video games 24/7?
I just hate everyone right now and have no motivation to make anything that would help our race(though I could)

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Same here. I want to begin socializing again, but I live in a majority white area and these people are just absolute fucking dogshit.

Meet up with like minded people.

Become an Uncle Ruckus for white people

You have to find a brotherhood, a group of men you can trust. Fascism is men banding together not some stupid state religion or the illusion of white unity (it doesn't exist).

Holy shit I should do this.

Help yourself by improving yourself. Get into shape, always strive to educate yourself further, and make good choices to advance your position in life. Like-minded people will appear when your mind is in the right place. Once you have that then you will be in a place to help other whites.

Go somewhere where you are outnumbered by niggers by 90%, the 10% of white people will feel like family

I found a discord but it's beginning to be this competition for who is the best.
I'm slowly shrinking back into my shell.
I'm more happy being alone.
This world chewed me up and spit me out.
Can't get into shape.
My wrists and knees are fucked up exponentially.

What others have said, you need to find like minded guys. Keep in mind that the 1488 crowd is cluttered with weirdos and edgelords so it might take a while before you find decent people.

>My wrists and knees are fucked up exponentially.
Is there absolutely no way you can stay in shape?

Read Nietzsche. Your willpower is dead. Start with Beyond Good and Evil, then The Genealogy of Morals.

It's hard, I know. Men are feminized in a literal sense, their emotional life is exclusively connected with women and they are taught to have contempt for brotherhood even if they tell you something different. It's harder to form a gang than finding a good wife today, men are isolated and atomized, their private spaces destroyed. They fear being branded as gay, misogynist or fascist.

No.
I'm not a fat fuck but I can't exercise.
Just working is guaranteeing I'll have osteoarthritis for the rest of my life.
I used to love running and lifting, until they fucked me up.
Now I'll never be able to do either again.
I just look back on my life and see nothing worth living for, nothing worth fighting for.
Thanks, that small flicker of hope may be what I needed.
Seems like it, I even have the setback of being second born, naturally more feminine.
It all just seems pointless to me, and I get pissed when people diss me, makes me not want to talk to them ever again, even if it's just "banter"

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Same. White people, at least in America are terrible people. Rich and poor, but mostly the rich since I have met some super down to earth poor white people, usually they are gen X, rarely they are boomers. ALL wealthy white people are full of shit though and most are pussies too, ESPECIALLY baby boomers. It's funny how they look down upon their kids the same way they do everything else. I have had so many friends be kicked to streets by their wealthy boomer parents for the most petty reasons, mean while Ling Ling and Pajeet's parents are breaking their necks just to ensure their success. I had an Indian friend in high school who was cartoonishly spoiled by his parents; he's a rich dentist now.

>My wrists and knees are fucked up exponentially.
My ankles are starting to angle inwards a bit, and I have flat feet.
Heard these things were bad, how fucked am I?

I'd go to a doctor, helped me get closure.
Finding out what the US government wastes our tax dollars on has really made me want to give up.

Accepting basic truths like the existance of race doesn't have anything to do with 1488. this is part of the programing to associate and cause self-association..

>Here, have these torches and Swastikas. Go march around and chant shit, make sure to smile for the cameras, goy!


Stop thinking like a woman. The first thing you started talking about was YOUR personal experieces and how things have effected you personally.

how about removing yourself from the situation and rely on the effects to the entire world?

The common concerns and issues brought up here aren't "National Socialist" exclusive.

>You know, these groups like the Trilateral Commission and the Council on Foreign relations seem to control major aspects of policy... and this think tank, Project for the New American Century, proposed in 1999 a "new pearl harbor" to institute a balance of power in the middle east among other things, and the founding members went on to serve in the white house, one of which being 'ol Bushy Jr

Oy vey you NAZI!

>hey why are we funding terrorists and wait this doesn't make se-

Oy vey nazi


You retards are just doing it yourself with the 1488 shit, are you retarded?

You're not the only one, but there is deep longing for it in every man, that's why so many isolated dreamers come here fantasizing about unity and masculinity. Normally in an age like ours there would be many conspiracies by such gangs to overthrow the regime. It's politically dangerous when men organize and maybe a reason why it is suppressed.

This is what we know as race realism. It's why whites adopted Christianity. It worked... for a while.

They were all victims of cultural marxism, user. You need to learn about it.

they're only the worst people in your life because you're too dumb to realize you're a nigger and they hate your kind, go larp as white somewhere else boy

A fucking fatass white guy literally stopped my freedom of speech because I didn't want to accept their LIES about muslims being a race.

Try walking laps in a pool. Increased resistance from the water and low/no impact. Eat a healthier diet. Read philosophy and science. Leaen a new skill. There are a lot of things you can do.

sounds like you have some shitty genes, perhaps kys

None of that would restore faith in my race.

Not all whites are good people. Not all shitskins are bad people. It's all about ratios within those groups.

join military, pick up a sport, go to local bar, join a startup company or whatever else comes to your mind.

I haven't met a single one worth their salt irl.
All of them have let me down.

At a certain point cultural marxism does not explain child abuse. His family might just be terrible people, despite c.m.
here's my blog:
>my parents had their first child
>high likelihood this was accidental, don't think my father was hankering to have kids
>mother goes from ambivalent to "I must have this child"
>problem is my father is a bit of a cuck and has a generalized problem of being an ass/being a fuck up
>other problem is my mother thinks itty bitty babies are ccuuutteeeeee but has no real nurturing instinct, she's low empathy and thinks that life in general is a miserable Bataan Death March
>thus my sibling is born
>I don't know what possessed them again or why father didn't get a vasectomy but 2.5 years later I came along
>my sibling was 19 months old when I was conceived, that's old enough to tell if children are right for you
>my entire life I was resented and verbally torn down constantly, ended up being exposed to my parent's inappropriate fetishes. there was small amounts of grabbing/pushing/hitting and neglect.
I left at 18 and have been no contact with my entire family since. My parents were fucked up, proceeded to keep the child, knew what they were getting into, then had another child. Then they treated us like shit for entire upbringing. Cultural marxism didn't cause all that. Some people are just sick and sometimes that sickness just gets passed down. If white people act like niggers and don't own their shit they're not really any better.

It will. Put yourself in the right place and the rest will follow naturally.

where the fuck do you live?

We all know this deep down: we are lonely, we have no real friends, and an idea of the "white race" is attractive because it gives us membership in an exclusive tribe, something we all are missing in real life. We aren't star athletes, we aren't CEOs, we don't make girls swoon, we aren't famous writers or artists, but I'll be damned if we're not WHITE!
Truth is: the white race doesn't give a shit about you. Go ahead and sacrifice your reputation, your money, and your life for the white race. See how much it gets you back in the end.
You win the race war: you're walking down the street and all you see is white people, everywhere, proud of being white. You smile. Then you realize: you're still the same fat fuck with no friends that you were before. That white girl you were talking with the beautiful Aryan features? You just noticed her walking home with Chad.
What do you do? Well, you want to share your satisfaction with finally building a white society, so you go and log into this Internet website to share war stories with others who fought so hard for the white race...
Meanwhile, Chad is fucking that girl, and you're still a virgin. But hey...at least we won the race war.

You're projecting about yourself.

And it shows because you said your parents left you on the streets to die. How the fuck can another human being leave you on the streets? Just get the fuck up and do something, you're not a fucking dog.

Holy shit dude, are you me?!
Same state as those Columbine fuck-ups

It's not about race, dude. It's about the factors that matter. IQ. Culture. Being civil. The identitarian "white is right KEK1488" shit is not helping whites or Anglo-Saxon culture. In fact, it's fueling the enemy.

Culture is a biproduct of race.

I was with you until you started spouting Chad memes.
I have sex regularly, but get pretty depressed by how shallow the girls are.
It's sad mate.
We're living in a dying culture, it's all "bix nood n sheit witey" or people trying to cut you down from every possible angle.
All I want is to exist.

You don't need other people.

You're right....I'm more comfortable drifting off alone.

Sucks you had shitty parents, but Colorado is a great place to grow and explore. If I were you I'd try to move to Boulder or Fort Collins and just work a basic job for a minute while you figure things out. Go hiking, do some outdoorsy things.

I know a lot of really great people in Colorado, you can find similar people. Just stay off colfax ideally

Before I'm misunderstood, what if blacks didn't have high crime rates and low average IQ's?

Now, I know that's not the case, but going down the road of "our group vs the others" is not a rational path.

That's quite the false statement. I can point to numerous examples of the same races assimilating into or developing their own wildly different customs and cultures than their own race in different places. I'm sure you'll see this.

Sounds like you need to take the Rational Black Pill, OP.

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Lindsay Zywiciel has a lot of words of wisdom to share. Plus she's a babe.

My point is to treat people as individuals, not groups. It's fine to accept that race exists and genetic differences are plentiful. But treat people as individuals.

>fucked up patellar tendinitis knees
>go hiking!

I'll have you know I ended up in Denver after leaving my family at 18. I am not from Colorado, I was born and grew up in the pacific northwest but for various reasons ended up in Colorado Springs and then Denver as a homeless teen. I know my time there is colored by the harshness of being homeless but if I may suggest why you're so miserable?

Everyone I interacted with in Colorado was really fucking weird. I've lived in various states since I left, I've spent extensive time in Illinois, Pennsylvania, Arizona, Mississippi and Texas. People in Colorado are by far the weirdest and frequently disagreeable. The only group I could compare them to is Californians.

The people in Colorado always seemed a bit out of it, slightly dazed, there was always a current of low frequency hostility emanating from them, from the homeless kids I slept alongside to the case managers to the clerks in stores. YOU HAVE TO GET OUT OF COLORADO!

I'll keep talking to you, one sec

You are acting like a moon cricket and bitching like a shekelless kike. Hard work can get you all you want. Prioritize your time and utilize the superior white IQ.

I went to college in Boulder and there is no way you can just move there and "find a job and figure things out". Cost of living there is getting ABSURD and Google is about to move thousands of employees there which will jack up the price of rent even more. Not only is the rental vacancy rate less than 1%, it's the number one city in the country for underemployment. So if you try to get a job in a restaurant you're gonna be competing with people with college degrees who don't wanna leave the town after they're done with school. You need to be making at least $45k to live on your own in that town and even then you will live paycheck to paycheck.

Yeeeeeah...I still kind of want our race to exist though and civic nationalism is threat to that.
Woah...what if I'm weird and disagreeable too...?

So have some white kids. Be a respected member of your community. Do your part and stop bitching. You can't prevent people from fucking.

understand that if those whites hadn't been corrupted by Jewish BS they would have treated you much differently

I used to live in Colorado and now live in the Pacific NW and I basically agree with this. People are very very opinionated up there it's weird. People still are opinionated where I live now (Portland) but Portland doesn't seem to have the... hyper-competitive vibe to it that Denver does even though the cities are similar in other ways.

I can prevent nonwhites from being in my vicinity.

>some of the worst people in my life are white people.

this is what someone who has had no substantive contact with dindus says

My dad forced me to be around one of the worst dindus ever when I was 12
found the cuck porn soon after that too.
Made my head a little messed up to say the least.

Do yoga and Meditate

I have met jems and turds from all walks of life. Jews got the most turds tho desu desu

It's ok. I want to kill my liberal parents as well. I might even do it one day.

Yeah... I've been in other major cities that have been very fast paced and competitive too but it's like Denver is jittery, competitive yet trying their absolute hardest to be nature loving yuppies who scream tolerance. Not a workable combo.

Maybe you are but you sound pretty young and everyone is product of their upbringing so don't sweat it. You can become something other than your upbringing (please note this does not apply to a lot of demographics however).

Race realism and most stuff Sup Forums's redpills are about are spot on. But for you it's not just faith in your race that's been cracked and torn.

Your faith in your race, basic civility, decency and goodness have all been shattered. All the same applied to me. I have not regained them either. But stay with me for a moment.

These things are illusions, dreams and happy fairy tales. I've been repeatedly exposed to the absolute low end of humanity. I am from white parents and yet they tortured me for 18 years. But a nonwhite will always be more suspicious at first. I am different from them as they are from me. We are "other." When anyone is "other" tensions arise. The solution is NOT to make everyone one brown-ish mix either considering how much more violent the brown-ish generally are.

You are on a path of seeing past the veil. I thought to myself, how much of what I thought was bullshit? Parent's love, equality, life is generally good, people are generally good, my race is generally good, the agenda the public school system injected into me, what society has imprinted onto me, on and on. I have purposely spent a lot of time seeking any illusion of mine and testing it, shattering anything that could break. (cont)

Yeah the wealthy have let this country down big time desu desu desu. Ppl too preoccupied with pleasing themselves in general. Not enough love.

Or get an hgh prescription

Funnel all your hate towards the jews.

Your parents were influenced by a shit society which was created by kikes.

I realized the most universal connections between all life is suffering and death. There is nothing more universal among us. We could understand each other perfectly because our pain has been so similar. It's the root of empathy. But suffering is what also differentiates us; I don't understand your physical pain with your joints. If suffering connects us yet also makes us unique, death unites us all and is the same state we all have. Death is the only true equality.

You've simply grown up and in a family and condition that is bubbling over with suffering. You've seen past a lot of bullshit so you're naturally bereft. Pain doesn't necessarily mean you run towards it or away from it. Pain is pain, it's as simple and complex as that. Everyone has their own personal relationship with pain. Some broken people want to be whipped and some cause further pain but avoid it themselves.

You will (likely) be happier and more fulfilled when you accept existence as bloody and painful as it actually is rather than any fantasy. Your parents loving you was likely a fantasy you had/have. All children have this fantasy at some point in time because without it your hindbrain knows you can easily die without their love. But here you are, suffering mightily because you didn't die.

To 1488 we'll have to cull the undesirables

Same 90% of American white people are scum now.

That sounds pretty amusing actually

>i saw a story on CNN about that and decided to claim it happened to me on Sup Forums
ftfy

So....the solution is death?
Not kidding, I have to wake up and go to gayass "therapy" because of it, or they'll kick me out.
Should I just go to the UCLA?

Would you really put it at 90%?

We're fucked then.

You're a nigger aren't you?

You worst people are either Mexicans, blacks, or Jews.

The worst people*

It it for some people. If you look at the sum of your life and existence and find it wanting it logically follows to check out early. I think it should be everyone's right to end their life without having to resort to making a public spectacle of themselves or dying in agony. Not everyone revels and splashes around in their personal relationship with pain.

However, that's not what I think it always the solution. I think radical acceptance of the self and radical acceptance of the nature of reality is what you likely need first of all. Could you expand a bit on your whole situation that requires you to go to therapy? Also, your life now in general, rough ballpark of age you are (under 26, under 21, etc) and what's going on in your life. You're in college, studying what?

*not what I think is always

ITT: The extreme cognitive dissonance that comes from following an ideology for losers (National Socialism)

basically do oc in real life and you will be loved. When you are loved it's easier to give love back

Look into Evola's threefold concept of race. Biology is only part of the equation. A "based black guy" could be considered equally European to a white Communist, but they both lack fundamental racial components, genetic in the former and spiritual in the latter.

i'm not convinced, you're in therapy for your autism and mental illness

I'm over 21, under 26. I'm going to college for CS because I want to make robots to replace Mexicans and a great video game that will hopefully allow me to fix my wrists and knees.
First day of English class I called the teacher on her bullshit for trying to say muslims were a race and said shit about zionism.
Now they're making me go to therapy super early tomorrow and it sucks, they're just fucking around with me b/c they can.
I work a shitty job washing cars because I have to kneel and use my wrists a lot.
I have no friends, love interests, or family.
I like to draw but haven't had the motivation to, seeing as how my right wrist hurts the most out of everything. Above all, I just want to help my race and live in a homogeneous community with redpilled individuals.
I'm interested in hearing more of your story as well as your perceptions and examples of more undesirable whites. Perhaps some stories of when you lived in CO?

Stop living in a shithole, I'm moving away from mine in a couple months

We won.
She lost.

No, they sent me to a therapist who basically said that I have a right to freedom of speech and if it was a black guy saying what i was saying(but for his own race) he'd be fine.
Now they're just tugging my chain and sending me to different therapists, seeing how long they can fuck with me until I drop out or transfer. Just for daring to speak up about this bullshit.

Just because whites are the best race, doesn't mean you have to love all white people just because they're white or think that your white family/friends represent the white race. Fucking dumb prick.

If you'll read the thread there's lots more examples of the whole society being rotten to the core.
Governmental corruption.
Pollution.
Unnecessary competitiveness.
People just wanting to piss people off for the hell of it.
Dude. You have even have a Muslim Mayor and people voting for your eventual death. How could you not see the prominent evil eating away our race from within?

OP is a liar. Niggers and Mexicans are the worst people. Kikes are the secret bonus worst people if you've ever had the unfortunate opportunity of ever dealing with them.

white people are /yourguys/. ideologically, temperamentally, culturally, everything. you won't find the same cohesion in any other group, that's just the way the world is. look around if you need to, I can tell you with certainty there are still pockets of whites who haven't succumbed to modern decadence. obviously they're not in the open anymore.

as for nihilistic and depressive feelings, do something fulfilling. don't fall for the hedonist's paradox, something will come to you.

Ok, maybe you're not fake.

Yeah, race traitors are in some ways the worst because they've given in to vanity. They want to seem so progressive and heroic to society that they become faggoty cucks because it's an easy way out.

picture or it didn't happen, right now you're at a solid 1/10 for poor larp

Do you have any contact with your family? If yes, you will need to cut all ties with them. It's not about avoiding pain they cause, it's more they see things in a very distorted way and it infects anyone they interact with. If you haven't already gone no contact with them then you will need to do so asap.

Conceal your power level. You know the score, you know the agenda. Universities are monolithic cesspools and you should know better. Consider a trade job or seeing if the Navy, Air Force or Coast Guard can accept you with a medical waiver.

I can tell you about my mother.
>I am 18, about to graduate
>Go out with a friend and accidentally fall asleep at their place
>Go back fast as I can, it's past midnight
>Go to my room as quietly as possible but my mother gets up anyway
>We proceed to have a conversation through my bedroom door, I don't want to open it as I can feel her fury already
>Conversation about how I'm not going to be spending the summer with friends or having fun
>She caps it off with, "I don't care if you're miserable, all I care about is that you slap a smile on your face when I walk through that door everyday."
I left the same day, by late afternoon I was gone.

Story from homeless youth shelter in Denver:
>A few white kids were juggalos
>One was named Mike, he seemed ok
>One night during the shelter's dinner he says, "Look at this."
>He pulls the severed head of a duck out of his pocket
>I was very startled and he later apologized but still
>He wasn't on drugs/drunk during this
>Mike later starts coughing up blood yet continues to smoke cigs (nearly every kid in the shelter smoked)
>One day he leans over and lets a stream of bright red blood out of his mouth at the bus stop, it splatters onto the pure white Colorado snow
>I see him later sobbing hysterically in the shelter's office while the clueless, upper middle class white female staff hover over him not sure what to do
>Mike ends up with terminal cancer
>

This. Like it or not, Mexicans, Niggers, and mudslimes will treat you far worse and will never accept you. I grew up around majority spics, and they are some of the worst people ever. If their population overtakes America it will be absolutely fucking horrible. They hate white people and they are blood thirsty savages to their core.

>my white friends

Fake and gay

>Implying nigger friends would help you when everyone knows they can't do empathy

Sage

you're mom sounds like a cunt, but we need more backstory, plz continue user

So you grew up in LA? LA is one of the worst fucking places in the US. Spics everywhere and all the whites are faggoty liberals. Yes, LA needs a good nuking.

what the hell do you want me to take a picture of?
Think I could go to the UCLA with a solid case?
I will.

Oh man, my mother's miserable cunty self being a Sup Forums entertainment feature kek

Let's see... family stories or homeless stories (which is where I got redpilled hard about nonwhites ahaha)?

tell us family stories, this sounds good

>some of the worst people in my life are white people.

This has been my experience too. I live in Los Angeles. The hispanic folks are all nice and the white folks are all idiots.

No, I grew up in Colorado.
I'm talking about the United Civil Liberties Union.
But they seem like Kikes.
both sound good

Association.
My bad.

the truth is, most people on this earth are dog shit no matter the race

that's why (insert race here) supremacy is a dumb idea

I do, sort of. They must have realized their errors because I get calls and texts from them every single day.
I rarely ever respond though, keep remembering when my Dad choked the life out of me.