is my perma melancholic state caused by some sort of jewish trick or music? did i get programmed for this by (((others)))? it feels like there is nothing that can fix this. maybe flouride or some shitty chemical fucked my brain? simply can't stop worrying.
happy anons here, how did you fix your brain? how did you stop your akrasia?
>inb4stop being virgin
im not
>inb4 dude weed lmao
not interested in any kind of drug
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Were you in a special program in school by chance? Something like GATE?
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Wait wtf I was in GATE
no but i was #1 at best primary/elementary school in my city. all went downhill after uni
I'm on mobile can you post higher res?
Just save the picture and view it. Also look up archived gate threads, way too many Sup Forumsacks have been in GATE or related programs.
Here's another one.
Same, went to an elite school starting with 5th grade where I was programmed to be a loser.
Shills will be here soon.
Music is basically degenerate, in most circumstances. It has its place- in ceremonies and stuff
You're probably vitamin deficient, which contributes really heavily to depression. If you eat a modern died (i.e. shit) you NEED to be taking vitamins.
I was depressed for a long time until I started taking D3, and B3. Those two are key for defeating depression. Another good trick is cold showers, doesn't need to be ice cold just cool.
Be warned, when taking Niacin you'll get a flush. It will feel like a itching or burning and you'll turn red, this is normal and the really the point of Niacin. What niacin does is capillary dilation, which can cause redness. Basically
>capillaries dilate
>this itself causes a flush
>chemicals stuck in the nooks and crannies of your circulatory system get released
>body has a histamine response, which causes itch
The upsides are huge though. Reduces depression, heart disease, balances triglycerides and cholesterol, tons of shit. They've found Niacin to be effective in treating dementia and schizophrenia as well.
You also NEED to avoid taking extended release niacin, or "no-flush" niacin. They don't have the same efficacy, and are actually harsher on your liver.
With niacin you can start low, 100mg and build up, or you can just jump to 500mg right away.
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also i noticed education was very similar to g.a.t.e system of usa after reading your post. it's interesting.
im unemployed neet, #2 guy in school studied at MIT, #3 guy in school studied at UCLA, shittons of others studied in top unis too. my life is basically "what_went_wrong.webm".
>what_went_wrong.webm
Indeed. Have one archived GATE thread: archive.4plebs.org
There are many more and they all are shilled and slid.
>A few similarities about us became apparent as the threads naturally evolved;
- Blue eyes (hazel seems equally common)
- Occipital Bun (aka math bump on the back of skull = Neanderthal trait)
- Birth Complications (like weeks early or not breathing)
- Near Death Experiences (particularly drowning)
- lack of memory of GATE - (we all did many many hours there, and it's very vague)
- windows were covered in GATE classrooms
- tendency to being followed (abductions and general tracking too)
- Law enforcement being extremely lenient and easy during chance encounters
- IQ’s are often as high as 130; 100 is the average. Many have IQ’s in the genius range of 160
Other similarities, less common but still a few exGATErs agree on these too;
- Interest in /x/ phenomena
- Heavy early twenties drug experimentation period
- Forehead scars
- Early speech therapy
- First born sons
- Migraines
- Israeli art student girlfriends (not even joking)
- Meme Magic
- Premonitions/prophetic dreams
- Above average intuition
fuck me sideways... 100% match. all of them.
so I'm broken. expected
If you're seriously severely depressed I don't doubt that you're a regular porn viewer and fap multiple times a day. This over stimulation of the reward system leads to brain fog and a depressed brain.
I was in the gifted program from 1st grade til I graduated. Supposedly they gave me an IQ test when I was 6 and I scored higher than any other kid ever tested by the county school board. I don't remember taking the test though. The class was way more advanced than what the regular students got. The image is kinda accurate.
Thread I: archive.is
Thread II: archive.is
Thread III: archive.is
Thread IV: archive.is
Thread V: archive.is
Once you know the damage done it can be fixed.
Now you need to find out if you were selected for category 1 (success in life) or category 2 (failure in life).
well thought vitamin meds cause cancer in long term, is niacin any different?
hazel eyes
got bun
i born at 9 months 23 days, rib is kinda outwards
no NDE
yeah, dont remember much shit. except chess, iq test and some intelligence competitions.
dont remember windows
yeah, i once literally ran away from school, head of school chased me with a fucking motorcycle and took me back to school. they didnt tell anything to parents
they didnt tell our IQ numbers, but was #1 at math and reading
im lurking /fringe/ as we speak
indeed
no forehead scar
yeah
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no
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yeah, i literally saw a football game result in my dream and it was 5-3 monaco man city game, made betting and made good money. wish i betted more
yeah
It wasn't like that. Not everyone can be successful, otherwise there wouldn't be success.
Good luck going down the rabbit hole:
(gets juicy from thread 2 onwards)
Don't be sidetracked by the crazy shills.
Thanks
Always thought it was weird that I was considered incredibly "gifted" as a child, and since then things have been an incredible uphill battle.
Good looking white 25 y/o male working at CPA firm now
gonna check tomorrow, thanks. its 6 am here. have a good day
>well thought vitamin meds cause cancer in long term
Probably in excess, but normal dosages don't have much cancer risk and actually reduce the risk of cancer depending.
You also need to consider the fact that much of the medical community is completely under the thumb of (((big pharma))) who wants people on their expensive poisons instead of improving their nutrition. Modern diet is quite low in vegetables and greens which are one of man's best source of vitamins. There's also the fact of D3 deficiency from lack of sun, the list goes on.
If you're depressed try and think of things that modern life deprives you of and fill them. Exercise and nutrition are the two easiest things to start with. Probably 70% of the people on SSRI's could cut that shit if they worked out and ate better, but people want a magic pill to fix everything instead of having to give up their delicious poison.
Also, stop watching porn.
You are sad because you know inside that you are not living a fulfilling life and you most certainly lack discipline. I don't know what you need but your sadness won't fade until you start achieving more.