I'm fucking done

I'm fucking done.

I'm done with being a druggie. I can feel how clouded my mind is. I've been trying to change my lifestyle because of my views but I can't. No matter how degenerate particular behavior is, when my social circle does it I do it as well. I feel like my life has no purpose and I fill the void with socializing (parties, drugs, dumb talk). I'm done with white people who call each other nigga, try to imitate black people, call girls (sometimes girlfriends) "ma bitches" and listen to disgusting degenerate music.

But how am I supposed to do that? Those are the only friends I have.

How do I stop drinking? How do I stop fucking random sluts? How do I find a purpose in my life, instead of filling the void with temporary pleasure that quickly wears off?

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>I'm fucking done.
nice blogpost, faggot
lurk moar
>in all fields

I can give you purpose

Give me purpose then.

get a grip faggot

remove kebab

No way to efficiently remove kebab. No kebab around me to remove.

Remove everything from your life. All of it. Return to the forests and fields. Once you spend a few months remembering how to life off the earth, that void disappears.

FINALLY.

is fucking disgusting

Focus on making millions then retire and fill the void with rich people shit

I can't. I have a job. I can't just disappear from my place for a couple of months with no idea what's going to happen to me when I come back.

Read Russell Brand's new book.

>'m done with white people who call each other nigga

I'm even pissed when I see that stupid shit on Sup Forums. This is why I stopped drinking with idiots from school a long time ago. now it's only healthy food, daily vitamin supplements, amazingly tasting green tea from China and daily redpills too.

you should try the same.

Revolution?

Will it really make me feel better? Eating healthy?

also, how do stop drinking? well, strive to live a more spiritual life, find a religion maybe and rewire your brain so you slowly stop needing alcohol. go for nature is a good suggestion.

>Will it really make me feel better? Eating healthy?

Yes, obviously. I'm amazed I even have to point that out. Do exercise as well. Maybe pick up martial arts or some other stuff like fishing or bouldering. Be outdoors a lot.

That's the hardest part retard.

Go to work everyday 9-5, make your breakfast first then after work, go work-out, then read and cook dinner.

If you dont party or have fun every once in awhile, life fucking sucks and jobs drain it out of you even more

hate.

its how I quit heroin cold turkey by myself. I just hated everything, the pain, the cravings, the cramps, the sweats, people, getting the shits, then being constipated, that stink that came off of me as i was detoxing, those fucking chattery shakes. all of it, just HATE.

you can do it bro, I did and I'm a shitbag. God bless man. No matter how hard you get trolled in this thread, we are all rooting for you.

Even newer. It's about addiction.

I'm unable to follow any religion, I've tried.

I have a pretty strong moral sense but it doesn't stop me from doing these things. Because around degenerates being a degenerate doesn't change anything, I'm not hurting anyone except myself.

I'm outdoors all the time. I started going to the gym two weeks ago but nothing changed yet.

But partying isn't how I imagine a happy life. I want permanent satisfaction from living, not temporary pleasure to look forward to.

For example, I'd love to have a decent girlfriend but the only one I ever considered wife material broke up with me. And now I have no romantic feelings at all, to me all the girls are just sluts. I still haven't gotten over what happened.

I've actually been doing this, but it didn't seem to work. The only thing that happened is that the next time I couldn't resist and got drunk I lashed out at a friend of mine and called him a worthless cunt. Any advice how to control hate and not let it turn to aggression?

Thanks user

Take it easy on those pills, you shouldn't take too many of them.

We're at war.
Adopt the appropriate lifestyle. The world won't wait for you to "get a grip" and start fighting back. It will pulverise you while you are drunk and high.

It also helps to know your limit. Your limit isn't "will power", it's knowing when to stop before your body starts painfully craving more and encouraging you to indulge in behaviour that will leave you depressed and weak for days after.

Quitting is always better than binging, but, if you know your limit, you can dabble and then step back without it affecting you terribly.
Mixing drink and drugs is also extra dangerous, cause drugs can make you drink way more than you safely should because it prevents you from getting a buzz. Not mixing them may be an idea if you are at parties.

Partying and socialising is part of life. We've always done this, but it isn't wise to do this too much in times of struggle. We are currently in a very serious time of struggle.

its going to take focus, which is a motherfucker of a thing to do in the first days. but focus that anger in your mind, into an shape. and always have that shape inside of you where you can dump that rage. you will feeel like burning up, but again FOCUS. feel the burn and keep that feeling going. you wont have room for anythign else.

its sounds like zen hippie shit but it worked for me.

You have to stop "trying" and start doing.

Life is hard. It's harder when you do stupid shit,Belee dat.

So you already know you fucked up. That's good. Now it's time to step up. That's all I got man. Good luck.

How do I subscribe to this blog?

Mix bleach with ammonia,then huff it. You will get high AF.

midnight move my friend

kill your Faceberg

change your phone number

just vanish my main man

Quake 2 and 3 saved me, it was impossible to play wired and drunk.
Thank you ID software. never taken a hard drug or drank alcohol since.

Traditional catholic church.

Do exactly like you said. You act like not being a degenerate is hard desu.

The problem is, I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I know that I should stop drinking and doing drugs, but what then? I know that if I won't anything else to fill the void I won't be able to resist.

What is that going to change? I can't move out. I see all those people I'm friends with everywhere I go. I live on the south of a small island full of britbongs and spaniards, there's no way to escape a whole social circle in such a small place.

How?

It is. Especially when there's nothing else to do, because it's everywhere. Social circle, music, media.