I've been feeling really suicidal for the past few months and I don't know who to turn to ... this world is just so depressing and it makes me more depressed every single day. I have no one to talk to about my thoughts/feelings and it is very painful keeping it all bottled up inside.. What's worse is that everyone in my city hates me because I'm white. I've been called KKK, white supremacist, racist, and other derogatory terms because of my skin colour. I can't get a decent paying job because all the good paying jobs go to women or minorities. It's tough living in a world where everyone hates you for something you can't control. I almost feel like there is no reason to keep in living.
I've been feeling really suicidal for the past few months and I don't know who to turn to...
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Adrian Wood
you should unplug from this place for a bit. Tend to your own garden for a while. Try to make due with what you have for now.
Brayden Rodriguez
Don't do it man
Levi Bennett
Leaf
Larp
Slide
Sage
KYS
Gabriel Young
I know it’s hard sometimes, but that’s when you just gotta put on them heels and fake it till u make it gurl
Alexander Smith
Sound like you need something to occupy your time user. Everyone gets down sometimes but dont let it fester. Nothing is permanant my friend.
Lincoln Jenkins
Or you know,suck it up and deal with yourself man, either one.
Gabriel Young
>Talk to a doctor.
>Succumb to the big pharma jew.
You don't have to feel this way. Legitimate depression is a brain-chemical disorder which can be fixed via medication.
Alexander Young
You want to go to /adv/ this is not the place for you
Caleb Lee
use your phone calendar to create and notify you of things to do once every 2 hours for 10-20 minutes. ie; 10min excersize, 10 min guitar practice, 10 min meditation.. don't do too much only about 3-6 different things per day or you'll get burned out. Doing those things for even a little will boost your depression since you'll be accomplishing small goals. Suicidal thoughts come when you feel useless and unwanted. Good luck, it does get better, usually.
Colton Watson
I understand your motivations, and here's the thing to hold on to: we are potentially on the edge of the greatest happening anyone alive (except for the few WWII surviving vets) has ever seen. Hang on for it; I doubt you'll regret it.
Eli Reyes
focus on yourself for a bit. take time off, watch some older movies, read some good fictional or philosophical books, work out, get a lot of sleep, and eat some good food
Isaiah Miller
This
Connor Hernandez
Don't do it. If you do, they win.
Joshua Smith
Toughen up, sissy. If you kill yourself you just prove them right, white fragility.
Charles Butler
>I've been feeling really suicidal for the past few months and I don't know who to turn to
God. Read the Bible.
Daniel Richardson
I'm an atheist
Alexander Johnson
I figured that. Watch this:
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Jason Price
ill pull the trigger on myself with you tonight user, if you want.
after this, its time for me to die cbc.ca
Anthony Brooks
I also have suicidal thoughts. But I'm afraid of the pain and trauma of the moments of death. What if something went wrong. What would it feel like? Would I regret it immediately?
Jackson Walker
Join a daily stormer book club
Christian Kelly
Then your soul is dead already.
Jayden Davis
Put on big boy pants and make change then, whiny man. At least try contributing to something.
Aaron Martinez
Make sure before you off yourself book a hotel at an event learn how to calculate bullet drop, wind resistance etc and go to a Muslim country for several months, no conversion needed the idea of you being there is more than enough, finally achieve that new high score bud! Only with your suicidal help we can finally have closed borders!
Nathan Rivera
>I can't get a decent paying job because all the good paying jobs go to women or minorities
So you're a brainlet that couldn't get a decent degree or diploma? Too stupid to get into skills trades
James Davis
Don't throw away your life like that you goof. Your life can be a major asset in years to come if things get serious or something. Plus, the white race is shrinking, we need as many of us as possible.
Juan Cook
lift weights
Mason Adams
Please try reading pic related book. I know it looks like a sort of standard issue self-help book, but it is *much* better than that.
The book is written by a gifted academic and psychiatric practitioner who has developed a method to resolved depression *QUICKLY* in patients, in contrast to the usually relatively long programs of treatment that the condition receives.
The stats show that the program he's developed is effective -- it works.
Nothing is a panacea, but consider reading 20-odd pages of this before checking out, please, user.
Samuel Hill
This OP
Dylan Anderson
I get anxiety attacks when I go to the free weight section at the local gym and am surrounded by fit guys
Jose Cox
If you are legitimately depressed I understand if you want to kill yourself. I understand that it is your choice and that you did what you had to do. Otherwise, you are being rash and I seriously suggest seeking professional help.
Liam Morgan
Then do bodyweight exercises for few weeks until you feel more confident. Most of that is mental and you'll feel better working out in public. Also remember no one gives a fuck about you especially if you have headphones on
Bentley Butler
Just stop being a pussy m8, your ancestors would be disappointed to see a beta cuck as their decedent. Turn yourself into a person that you think your ancestors would be proud of.
Jeremiah Ward
Don’t do it OP. Shit happens to everyone. I won custody of 2 kids with two different women. Best friends with the first kids mom and do not get along with the others mom. My ex wife literally makes me want to end it all too. But I then realize they would win and that is fucking bullshit. Nobody wins my game but me! You fight that goddamn shit and win. Not only win but beat the holy shit out of it. When you do that you will own OWN I say it twice; own your shit. Why end it when you can totally try being a different person. If you are brave enough to end it, be brave enough to fix it. Cheers.
William Perez
hell, you can still think. so ponder this. even if you can't believe it, just do it.
i wont tell you that things get better. you might die. and things might not get better for years.
but thinking about things in an alternative way is how you direct your ability to feel, it sets up the board.
what you feel is real, thats how the bluepills work, how the leftists work. we all do. but we have a mind.
your mind works against you. you are expecting the worst, and you do not disappoint yourself. finding threats is good, but you've become stuck. you need to power down. you are spending all this energy looking for a way out, instead of a way to cope. you can never be safe, accepting defeat is embracing peace. give yourself a rest and don't keep feeding your fears.
i suffer from anhedonia, if i feel anything it is usually bad. i have used my mind to go in my own direction, where i am numbed. i am given breathing room. you are across the board. come in my direction, you are straining out into the abyss.
i do not know if SSRIs would help you, they do not help me. even if we are a world apart, we are never alone. anti anxiety meds perhaps.
oh yeah... biggest help i had. start a journal... people are fickle. they are never there for you in the way you need them to be, and even when they are they turn out to not be what you thought you needed them to be. like... your mind sets all of these pitfalls, be aware of it.
hell. i sound like some sort of faggot or someone telling a teenage girl about handling crushes... but do get a journal. and make a point of venting into it. it is a little like prayer. you converse with yourself.
the first step of recovery is facing who you are and how you enable your condition. godspeed, soldier.
Robert Russell
Your problem Leaf, is that you're probably looking at Porn and fapping 3,4 or more times per day causing severe brain fog which is being mistaken for "Depression". The reason I know is that I used to be a Chronic Fapper just like you. Do Nofap 90 days hardmode (meaning no porn, masturbation, or orgasms) for 90 days so that you can reboot.
I am on Nofap day 53 and feel fantastic!
John Edwards
Dude, just don’t. Ending it means there’s zero chance of things getting better. Get a hobby and dive into it whenever you’re feeling shitty. I got into wargaming and it did wonders for my mental health, even if it’s a bit expensive. There’s tons of shit you can get into. Just find something shiny that looks like fun.
Tyler Anderson
Tell me how chosen one for real! How do you get rid of the poison otherwise.
Bentley Morris
Start off by building up streaks. If you're a severely addicted porn and fap addict, step one is try to go at least one week without looking at and jerking off to porn. Can't make it to 7 days, well how bout 3?
However it is more beneficial to try to build up a long streak first instead of trying to ween yourself away from jerking it.
The first serious attempt at Nofap I made it to 96 days. Then my second streak I made it to 89 days. This current streak I am at 53 days and trying to make it a whole year.
Leo Moore
I got called hitler, nazi and other derogatory names for whites just because I'm white and I have a german last name, never felt bad because of my race but still was a shitty experience since there was no one else like me, now I'll just try to move to germany or austria and forget the most I can about this shithole.
Don't worry user there's a lot of people like you out there you just need to move to another place
Kevin Jones
This user is right, but find a shrink who believes in therapy and doesn't immediately jump to medicate you except if he feels your life is in danger.
Also with an enthusiastic seconding for exercise, even if this just means going for walks. Be especially mindful of your diet and your sleep habits, as eating poorly then failing to sleep long, well, and in the dark will drain your soul like few other things in life.
Forget about that and focus on squats and pushups at home. Nice brisk walks to get your heart rate up for 20 minutes. Look for a park with some basic pullup bars to work at.
I'll add that drinking isn't a good idea for someone in your position, but as a guy who had a lot of trouble getting to sleep I find that a half dose of Benadryl with a beer gets me into a nice Xanax-like state and makes it easy to drift off. (Talk to your doctor before you fuck with substances you aren't used to, but the big warning on mixing diphenhydramine and alcohol is drowsiness and auto accidents.) Putting on some nice slow & low ambient music like Brian Eno or Robert Rich also helps.
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Note that abusing diphenhydramine won't kill you, but it WILL fuck your insides up and cause you a lot of pain if you try that. If you must kill yourself, do your research and avoid causing yourself a lifetime of pain and disability - but please don't kill yourself. We're going to need you.
No one alive will ever know for sure why we're here or who's responsible, and chances are you're right, but ditch the atheism meme and go agnostic on principle, then pick a religion anyway and practice it because it's good for you and the people around you. Didn't you see The Exorcist?
Zachary Harris
Life always has a way of making people go through really hard times and sometimes hitting bottom . Thats when you find your strength by not giving up and looking back later in life thankful for pushing on. Never fucking quit no matter how hard things get it will get better.
Dylan Powell
Thomas Rogers
Don't despair OP
Daniel Rogers
>I'm a pampered white male who was bullied and didn't fight back, it's because I'm Canadian
>I can't find a job because I'm a lazy NEET, it's too hard to try, time to pull the race card!
>it's tough living in a world where I have my own computer and I'm not on the brink of starvation
this is why the white race is dying
Joshua Morales
Just be happy. Just kidding, But in all honesty emotions are fleeting, wait and this feeling will pass.
Jaxon Brown
I got called a nigger lover. By a black dude.
Joshua Turner
>why aren't you happy in your pen, fellow white person
>just look at all these nice things we've provided for you to pass the time
Gabriel Jackson
If you are here and you believe in what we speak of here, dying would harm us all. We need everyone we possibly can scrounge together for this fight. Although you may not, all of here want a future for our children and need help to ensure those before us have the same gift we have now. May the republic of virtue and spirit of the old never capitulate to the forces of eternal night!