Life is suffering

>TFW your life is so devoid of anything meaningful or purpose that you unironically hope civil war breaks out so you can actually go out and violently kill people you hate because you literally have nothing better to do with your time then throw down your life for your country and hope for a chance to die a noble death (suicide by war) then continue to try and live life lacking the ability to successfully connect with other humans around you and find purpose in a world you feel completely disconnected and isolated from because people don't understand you and you can't understand them no matter how much trial and error you go through

you should go get a popsicle out of the freezer

>civil war won't break out until you're 63 and are too old to participate and die so you'll have to actually live for another 40-50 years

i know that feel OP

want nothing more than to die in a war. i know that its not gonna be as romantic as i think, that im gonna be smeared in shit and guts, lose limbs and die in pain but i dont care. i need purpose god damn it

find one good thing to believe in and support that

and no, I'm not talking about a meme war that's somehow supposed to reverse feminism and modernity

I literally do nothing all day since I graduated college and moved in with my dad.
I've applied to multiple places that fit my degree and so far have heard nothing back, I've been here in california for 3 months and have yet to make one solid friend. I spend most of my time sitting in front of this damn computer and waste my time doing nothing while the pages of history turn and I contribute nothing.
Nothing satisfies me anymore, not even video games or fapping.
I'm so alone almost every day and so goddamn bored.

Listen to Johnathan Bowden's speeches on jewtube. They point you in the direction of a path of whitepills.

>tfw not ugly or weird enough to fit in with the outcast and loners
>can generally fit in with normies for decent period of time before my autism comes out
>always been told i’m A funny guy but when i’m not trying to be funny I give off a depressive vibe
>no friends and have never formed a meaningful relationship in my life
>had friends before but they were just familiar faces
I hate this and I have all the tools to be a turbo normie but fuck I can’t even fit in the bottom feeding scum of society I just want to go out guns blazing

Stop projecting your failures. My life has meaning. I am the unicorn.

I'm pretty normie looking enough and have been told I'm fairly attractive. My problem is that I'm such a verbal autistic spaz around people, especially women, that any normie vibes I give off are completely compromised because I'm so socially handicapped and can't discern most non-verbal communication cues.
I wish I was a boomer, or at least a gen-X. I hate how socially and morally bankrupt Millenials are.

as cliche as it sounds, the people who push you towards hatred are the same ones who want to use you, and it won't bring you any happiness. almost everyone is as lost as you are in one way or another.

I hate how self critical I am. I almost never give myself a break in my head and it makes me feel like shit.
I don't remember hating myself this much +10 years ago.

All I want is to find a woman who's kind and patient enough to understand me so I don't feel so alone.

And a job.

"you can't understand them" is just code for people don't like you

Stop being a victim

Start working out if you've got nothing but freetime. It'll at least give you goals and a reward system. That's my plan for the year. There's literally no reason why you'd regret it?

>All I want is to find a woman who's kind and patient enough to understand me so I don't feel so alone.
Do not think like this, a woman will not help you. Only you can help yourself. Work out, read, buy guns, stop watching porn, and clean your room

>Has anyone really been far as decided to use even go want to do look more like? You've got to be kidding me. I've been further even more decided to use even go need to do look more as anyone can. Can you really be far even as decided half as much to use go wish for that?

People will scoff, but start listening to Jordan Peterson. Start working out. Stop looking at porn.

>hoping a woman/job will make it go away

those are just grails you're giving yourself which you may invest too much in, the problem is you dude. All I can recommend is work on self-improvement. As little as going on walks, taking vitamins, etc. there's no problem with being lonely, life is really long and filled with loneliness.

you should start by killing yourself, user. everything else will be fine after this. you'll be in eternal paradise with your ponies and waifus and drink as much monster energy drinks as you want

I already work out, mostly pullups and running for the time being, but I just got a set of weights for black friday and I've been using those. I've actually started to make visible gains, but then my brain interjects by reminding me how much of a piece of shit I supposedly am.

Same here i would love killing my enemies and normies who mocked me i pray everyday for the day of the rope to come so i can murder everyone who oposes me and my ideology (natsoc btw) cant imagine the faces they will make when they whine about their degenerate life i will murder them in cold blood

just bite the bullet and get a chunky & homely asian girlfriend... they treat you like a god even if you're a fuckin' loser...i haven't worked in years with zero prospect of a future but i'm sitting here drinking beer and shitposting while my little cutie-gook girl is passed out on the bed next to me with my cum dribbling out of her stretched out pussy and i feel fucking great

life is pretty sweet when you just drop your standards a little

>Abused as a childhood to adulthood, stuck in this house cause housing prices are shit in Cali
>Just want to leave college
>Want to leave this whole place
>Even learning Japanese so I can get as far from this whole state and family as possible
>My dream is a quiet life without an abusive household
>Fuck even canada will do now.

1. Figure out what you like. What interests you? What do you enjoy doing or being around? Or at least figure out what you don't like.
2. Do some research, set a goal and move towards that thing you enjoy. Baby steps. Take it day by day, step by step, breath by breath.
3. Look after yourself and be kind to yourself. You deserve just as much as kindness as anyone else.
4. Try get a little better every day. Read a little, eat well, exercise. If you have more to offer you can get more back.
5. Help others. Happiness doesn't come from searching for it for yourself. You get it when you give it.

This thread is fucking comfy now i atleast know that im not alone

Kek. Top meme lad.

Lol. Fucking sick.

read the legend of sissyphus

the great philosophers understand your pain

Yo stop being a whiney little bitch. At least you're not dead or in a wheelchair or some shit. As long as you're still breathing you can do something
Now go sign up at the gym and start lifting faggot.
Everything else will fall into place.
Boost your fucking t levels and stop thinking so much.
You sound like a woman.
NO MORE EXCUSES

others feel the same people can only take being fucked over so much by (((them))) before all hell breaks lose and it will

OP's been eating poorly I see. Poor nutrition leads to mental problems like anxiety and depression.

>tfw a cashier at a fucking hotel gift shop
>not allowed to use the internet in there when no one's around so I have to stand there and twiddle my thumbs
>can't sit in a chair like they do in civilized countries because kikes think it makes us "less productive"
>feet hurt like a bitch as a result
>on top of that have to take the metro 40 minutes there (and then back) sitting next to smelly niggers and spics and trying not to get stabbed or robbed
>rinse and repeat

Life as a conservative wageslave in a big city is the worst kind of suffering there is.

Testosterone is the God hormone.
1 year ago I was pathetic, I started lifting on the regular and now I feel great.
Enjoy the collapse and fuck bitches.

I have joined a conservative party, taking part in the community and redpilling the public. I am popular in my company and people like being around me. I invest my money in crypto and will use my money to help Europe. Life is pretty exhausting but enjoyable.

I know that feel but I can use my phone. I use all the funds from my wagie job to buy guns and ammo, feels rewarding in that aspect even thought I make a very small amount of money

my heart goes out to you user
stay strong
we're gonna have our day and the bad times will be washed away
and we'll have each other

All life is suffering, user.

Use it to shape yourself into the man you want to be.