What is life like being blue pilled?

Has anyone else had a life not being red pilled? I've been red pilled my entire life, almost as long as I can remember. I read about the JQ, read and realized much of our entire foundation myth (WW2) was b.s. before I was 10 years old.

Whats it like to not be red pilled? I'm really curious to know.

before red pill: self-centered blissful ignorance
after red pill: self-centered existential terror

I was mildly bluepilled. I thought Christianity was the scourge of humanity, science is the light, Muslims are savage, socialism is good, and that black people were just as smart and capable. Well, after SJWs fucked with my video games, I digged a little deeper. Christianity has been picked apart and ridiculed by Jews with their main talking points. Jews financed the Crusades so Muslims and Christians kill each other, like every other recent war and conflict. I now understood what was meant by the banking cartel of the Jewish mafia worldwide. It seems Iran, NK, etc. have yet to fully integrate with the Jew scheme. Science is definitely the best means to understand the concrete and harder disciplines, but were compromised by cultural marxist goals to destroy white Christian purity and ethnostates. You can see this by the disproportionate acceptance of Jewish admissions to the elite of all institutions. Holocaust seems to be easiest to unpack: atrocity propaganda to obtain Palestine and take Jewish refugees of war initially refused by nations, despite typhus and starvation culling their numbers by a few hundred thousand. They made money by reparations of this atrocity. It would not surprise me if they did the same to the twin towers and the terrorist agenda to take over antisemitic nonusurious countries. Blacks were caught in crossfire. They enslaved each other. Jews saw this, shipped and sold them. Jews finance the Mexican cartel and the Opium wars to destabilize US. It is endless and war on culture.

Being bluepilled briefly turned me into an SJW.
>6 years ago, summer vacation, im 12yo, playing computer game, enters player with Anita_Sarkeesian nickname, uses female character.
>massive shitstorm in chat, all i understand is that she's outnumbered
>chatting gets quieter, but now each her teammate is playing wrong
>she leaves and never seen again
>i larp as female, name Feraluna, play the hardest games possible against fucking white males for weeks.
>become super toxic and persistent, players don't mention anything about gender cuz my shitstorm is stronger
>becoming pro gamer, each clan in the game wants a pro gamer girl
>damn
>clan members start fighting each other over telling me which clan is alpha
>double damn
>change nickname to Cyka_Blyat
>well, they accept girl pro gamers exist, mission accomplished?
>actually starting to get redpilled about feminism and leaving it forever.
>Anonymous hacktivist group linked to Sup Forums, such heroes
>Trump is supported by alt right that develop their ideas on Sup Forums
>17yo, Sup Forums newfag

this is too many layers of shitposting for me

fpbp

i sometimes wish i could go back

>You can see this by the disproportionate acceptance of Jewish admissions to the elite of all institutions

To be fair, you wouldn't think they were elite if they weren't pushed as such by their current and former inhabitants. Tons of marketing (in TV, education circles, and hollywood) was made to get you to think about le Harvard, le Ivy League, and le Stanford, and to have the reaction of a 12 year old girl seeing a pop star whenever you see any of their names. They made that happen.

I don't know, I've never felt terror knowing what I know.

Anger and frustration yes. If you are terrified of the destruction of white countries then I get that but our #1 enemy is opening a pandoras box they will regret opening. White people actually put up with their shit, the others won't. Poetic justice will be served at this point even if they tried to stop it it is too late for them, considering their numbers.

I don't think all blue pilled whites are blissfully ignorant either. Cognitive dissonance is a bitch perhaps worse than being a reformer.

the alt-right doesn't exist. it's a term made up to co-opt the right, giving it literally who "leaders" like spencer and cernovich that appeared overnight. the same was done with the "tea party", and the same will be done again.

I'm not using the word existential in collective sense, but philosophical.

you guys are such autistic retards it's fucking disgusting. how do you people even go outside and communicate with other human beings? i mean the level of aspergers it takes to genuinely believe retard conspiracy theories from the most obvious conmen like alex jones about the new world order and the jews owning the world and the holocaust being a myth, it's not even fathomable to me. I only wish autism was fatal.

newfag, alex jones never talks about jews unless he's talking about "zionism." He's relatively bluepilled, only redpilled on fitness, natural lifestyle, and globalism.

Have been redpilled on many things, including the JQ, since I was about 13 or 14.

The thing is, though, those issues kind of laid dormant in my head for a number of years. It's hard to spend the last decade preoccupied with the Jews when it seems like absolutely no one else in society is inclined to agree with you or even consider your position. But as other people have started waking up in the last year or two, it has to the front of my mind and my beliefs have been re-energized.

That's not to say that my assessment of the JQ is, or ever was, influenced by how many other people were knowledgeable of the JQ at the time. But the degree to which the JQ was accepted/acknowledged by others did, at least implicitly, play into how much focus I gave the issue at the time. Five years ago, for example, I would hardly think about Jews on a regular basis, even though I saw the degradation of society and subconsciously attributed much of it to Jewish efforts. I'm not ashamed to admit this. It's important to understand our own intellectual biases and limitations as humans. We evolved to be practical members of society, not the guy ranting on the soapbox.

But now as more people are waking up to the JQ, the issue very rapidly returned to the forefront of my mind. I'm even more acutely aware of Jewish efforts than before, and I'm ready to redpill others whenever given the opportunity.

Pretty sure only came here to troll and doesn't know what red pilling, or reality, even is. He probably thinks everyone here is a white supremacist nazi because some leftist blog told him so.

The idiocy, sheer ignorance, and arrogance, of the blue pilled left always astounds me. It's like they are afraid to pick up a book because deep down inside they know their entire world view is based on bs.

Also, Im willing to bet there are millions more like me out there in the West, who have knowledge of the JQ laying dormant in their mind, whether they are aware of it or not. Hollywood, the Media—they've always kind of known. But it was never practical for them to raise the issue or fully adopt it into their belief system, because so few other people ever raised the issue. If you look at instances of (((expulsions))) from history, it always seems like knowledge/awareness of Jewish influence sweeps across the population in question in an incredibly short time period. I attribute that phenomenon to this idea that many people already have dormant knowledge of the JQ, whether or not they realize it, and so they very quickly come to acknowledge the JQ once it becomes practical. Once a certain threshold level of the population acknowledges the JQ, it's like knocking over the first domino.
I think we might be on the precipice of this occurring in the West, or at least among whites in the United States

Anonymous hacktivists are CIA niggers.

I always felt something was deeply wrong and fucked up about the world, but I never knew what it was. That sense only grew and grew as I got older and went to college. For a while I thought I could find the answer through psychedelic drugs, and while they did show me a glimpse of the truth- I looked at all the niggers chinks and muslims walking around my school and was physically repulsed by them and how different and ugly they were (say what you will, it's a natural reflex, that's life). But I didn't really get the message until I came here. Then the think veil finally ripped.

Next time you see one of those down syndrome or other type of retards, just think for a second that maybe they're the perfect form, total bliss. Maybe you are broken.

Addendum. I'm an aspiring filmmaker so I already knew Jews ran that shit, just never realized what that really meant and that it applied to all media. Made it really hard for me to not just stare at all my classmates' humoungous noses.

Something like being drunk or asleep? Anyways its a lot easier to become “enlightened” now than it was 20 years.

Underrated