I can't take it anymore what with I think about anymore. I fell for the liberal tricks of feminism while I was young and barley woke up 3 years ago when I browsed Sup Forums. I have woken up but I still have my degenerate habits. I am disgraced to myself and feel like I am on the verge of no return. I have fell for the porn meme that liberals keep pushing.
It started off normal, me being a dude I liked to see women get fucked but didn't realize what that actually meant. It made me have the most degenerate fetishes like, femdom, futanari, and the one I want myself to hang for, feminization. How do I embrace my masculine side Sup Forums. I am not asking for a tutor I am asking for a well needed friend. I need to purge this cycle that I am going through before its too late for me.
I have taken the redpills on women and such, but my brain insist thinking, why not become a woman to get those effects and abuse them? Why not submit like a dog and follow commands? I need anger Sup Forums I need a meaning to live on, and this is the last place I have come for that help. Give me the darkest redpill you have or even a blackpill if it comes to that.
dying is not a joke this world is the last we have left, before eternal punishment
everyone faces this eternal void, not just the wicked the fact is we are blind to the impending eternal doom we are slowly falling into. nobody really knows whats going on, otherwise it would be impossible to find a way out and save ourselves because mass panic and depression
also, when we do figure out how to escape this black hole we are slipping into, only very few elite will use it.
That's the reason I feel no reason to go on, if all of this is just a way to the end of life, why should I continue striving for the better of myself and others?
Kayden Gutierrez
I find you intriguing. Tell me more about your ideas please.
Jacob Williams
>why should I continue striving for the better of myself and others? because if people like you, that see the world for what it really is, start to die, then we will never be able to reclaim the rational ideology. your job is to have kids and raise them to be above society.
Luke Barnes
This gives me no reason when many others have the same function, and can do it 10x better than me. Sup Forums has turned me into an autistic soulless shell. I traded my social skills for knowledge long ago, and if other men can do it better and there is more than enough why bother. I know I must seem like a pest or just a faggot shareblue wasting your time but I need a real significant reason user, I have heard the whole family story before.
Jacob Gutierrez
I feel for you brother. I'm in the same boat. Came here about three years ago too. I used to have the feminization fantasy until I started injecting testosterone and lifting. So at the very least do various things to increase test if you don't want to take hormones. Femdom fantasy has drastically cut down. Futanari/tranny is still strong though. Both of us need to quit the pornographic jew.
Carson Davis
Agreed brother, I have been going to gold's gym and working on my body. I can agree the feeling of dominating a woman, and keeping her in place is amazing. And when she doesn't even dare stand up to you, because she knows who is dominate and who really knows more. Even now I can feel myself getting ready to workout just talking about how fucking unstoppable I would be if woman tried to take over. I am mentally unstable from all this knowledge I have consumed least to say. ENTP so that might have to do with the whole redpills breaking ENTPs especially.
Nathan Torres
Back to Hell, Satan.
Juan Evans
The knowledge can be overwhelming and depressing. Earlier I was here and I felt crippling anxiety from some of the things I was reading. I think I need to quit Sup Forums as much as I do porn. They're both addictions I'm using to fill voids, as much as I care about what gets talked about here. I bet if you stopped using the internet completely for about a month you'd feel 1000x better than you do right now.
William Murphy
this is a 18+ board. get out
Caleb Ortiz
I have nothing else to fill that void so whats the point really? Women have it 100x easier and are making it so they have it 1000x easier. I don't know if its just instinct wanting to join the public winning side. I need inspiration user thats what I crave. I am in no need of help routine wise. I could quit Sup Forums whenever I want phyiscally, but mentally I will always crave it and I want that to stop I need reason to make it stop, because I don't just command my brain I argue with it debate with it I think with it.
Logan Thompson
You get one shot at life user. Billions of years of evolution leading all the way up to you. Why waste that? Why not be the best you can be? In the end all of this stuff is trivial and a lot of it is out of your control. Be grateful for the things you have. Life isn't supposed to be easy especially not for men. Hardships make you strong. You're always being tested. Fight back. Develop your mind and your body to the best of your ability. Make your life have meaning and purpose.
Dylan Foster
This is what I needed thank you bro, anger fills me with the thought of me acting girly, or even considering crossdressing. I grew up with a single mom who didn't treat me right, and an abusive stepdad. My grandparents raised me and my grandpa died 3 years ago. What he told me is personal but its a reminder of what I mean. Holy fucking shit I just want to go punch myself over and over til I am done thinking like a retarded fucking DYLE. I have survived the onslaught of bullying, shaming, and disgust in my elementary and middle school years, then went onto HS to become a starter defensive lineman, chad of all groups, well known and liked, and top of my class in everything, also working on a music major. I went through so much shit I can't believe I would actually trade it all to lay down for the rest of my life and not get back up. Sorry for the ramble and spillage of info, I jsut needed to get that off my chest. I will remember this bro, I won't stop until I am face to face with God himself, and even then i will tell him to put me back down there even if the devil himself came to fight me. God speed to you user, and thank you for showing me bro. We're going to make it.
Bentley Powell
No problem brother. Take care.
Jacob Lee
I feel your pain friend, porn has turned me into a degenerate of unfathomable proportions, its the worst kind of jewish poison, and I don't know how to fight it, the longer I go without it or reject it the more tantalizing it becomes.
Isaiah Price
Put your trust in our great and merciful God, user. He has saved thousands of souls and will save yours as well. Pray for strength in your hours of need and pray for wisdom when you are going strong. Let Him into your heart, let peace rule your heart.
You will be purged on the day of retribution kike. many of us will make sure of that.
Jose Perez
your testosterone is low fix that first and your brain will fix itself lift weights, eat cholesterol and saturated fat, stop watching porn, get plenty of sleep
Jaxon Lee
Thanks user, I was guessing it might have something to do with a lack of testosterone. I am a child of God already brother, I have accepted him and vow to purge the infidel from the Earth who dares try to attack the true faith.
