I am a degenerate

Okay, here's my story Sup Forums.

I am a degenerate, by your standards. I have sexual attraction to both men and women, I almost convinced myself I was a tranny last year, I have several fetishes involving interracial. Not going to go into graphic detail, but I indulge in some pretty weird fantasies.

I've tried to repress this as hard as I can, but after looking into the psychology of people like me, I've more or less come to accept that this is simply who I am. My childhood was shitty, my father was abusive and I have a lot of trauma, which apparently causes my condition. The only thing keeping me from fully embracing myself and ceasing to feel guilty is the knowledge that the white race is at risk of extinction.

My question is, is there any place for people like me? I'm a 6", physically fit white man who is otherwise very normal. I'm extremely right wing. Can I live like this for longer by repressing it, should I just accept it and indulge it in my spare time, or should I seek help for it?

I don't want to be a degenerate but I don't want to continue living with this insurmountable sense of guilt. What is the solution?

> inb4 kill yourself

Just don't fuck kids user everything else will sort itself out in time.

>I can never change or improve
>thanks, (((psychology)))!

Don't act upon your degenerate desires irl, and try to stop watching porn. You're only bad if you ACT upon it.

> Don't fuck kids and leave religion alone, you'll do fine.

Adding to this, everyone should just stop watching porn altogether, shits bad for your spirit.

Don't kill yourself.
take that sense of guilt and turn in into rage. Rage at the way this fucked up world has treated you. Rage yourself for falling for it. Rage at the people and systems in place that allow such a world to perpetuate itself.
Take your rage and fury and let it diffuse through your entire being.
Then harness it. let your rage drive you to become the absolute best version of yourself. get a job, excel, get promoted, educate yourself. Seek truth in the world and come to the Church. use your anger to build yourself up so that you can defend people in the same position as you were in from falling into the same trap.

that is how you can fit in in the world user

Stop using the internet. Go outside.

hmmm stop doing stupid shit, forgive your self, clean up your soul, stop listening to (((psychology))) that tells you that you cant change your self or redeem your self, have your surroundings in order and peace with your past but dont forget it, exersize, pick up a western religion and yes that includes christianity (inb4 christianity is jewish [no its not and if you say that you should neck yourself]) make white babies and raise them well so that they will not turn out like you and lead the rest of your life clean so you can look at your past as just a mere shadow long gone.

Find a couple hobbies. One physical, like a sport or exercise. One skill oriented like music or art. Understand why you are degenerate. Don't over indulge in fantasies. Do what you know to be good.

I've tried a couple of times now. I went about two weeks before submitting to urges, and since then I've had brief periods of swearing it off and indulging again.

I think my biggest problem is a lack of dedication, which is caused by not enough moral support backing me up. Like, I stop masturbating and in the absence, I begin questioning why I want to stop feeling what I do.

After a while, constantly saying to myself "it's the Jews" just isn't enough.

I'm turning to Christianity right now, I've started wearing a cross on me and I'm reading the Bible. Hopefully there is where I'll find the answers.

But this somehow compounds my issues, because I feel even more guilty thinking these thoughts with the cross on my neck.

understand that the temptation isn't the sin. Its the surrender to the temptation that is the sin. just because you are wearing a cross doesn't make temptation worse. it just is a reminder, also called a sacramental, that helps to turn our mind to God

Cute blog bbg

Well now I feel better, the only "degenerate" thing I've done sexually is rimming a girl

Two weeks is good progress, but still not good enough. If you get the urge turn off the computer, and find something else to do. Talk to a friend, go for a walk, ect. If you know any close friends or comrades that can keep a secret talk to them about keeping you in check, anonymous people on the internet will have a far harder time doing it than people you know.

Porn keeps you weak, and controlled to your body. If you want to fight for the continued existence of your people you need to stop. If you find yourself not caring at least do it for your mental health, or your addiction is only going to get worse. Its good desu that you shame yourself about it, because that means your willing to improve. If you relapse take some time off the internet, if you care about the 14 words you need to improve yourself.

This is the stuff that I've been doing, and I've been getting better, i hope i helped you out.

You are a closeted homosexual. It's not going to be comfortable but you have to be honest with yourself. You've got the weight of the world on your shoulders right now but you'll feel completely free after you admit the truth.

Meditate instead, it genuinely works.

I'll pray for you user, this isn't how you were meant to be.

No. DO NOT DO THIS. fags are not and have never been a valid means of self-improvement.

>You are a drug addict, It's not going to be comfortable but you have to be honest with yourself. You've got the weight of the world on your shoulders right now but you'll feel completely free after you admit the truth.

What quality advice, they should give it in rehab!

get better.

get off his board right the fick now! you are not helping

birth of a rapist.

>being a faggot isn't a sin, actions of faggotry are the sin
^literally this. All of us have weaknesses. But it's the ones who refuse to give in that are the champions; this is the first step in transitioning from part of the problem to part of the solution. Unfortunately, denying the worst of oneself is harder for some than for others.

Keep up the good fight, and God bless.

>Can I live like this for longer by repressing it, should I just accept it and indulge it in my spare time
You should specify what sort of things, specifically do you want to get butt fucked?

Not really sure how to help, but meanwhile in pic related there is a literal paradise to escape to.

Legalize suicide pills now

I shall pray for you OP. The holy spirit will never fail you. Please keep faith in Christ words when you read them. You are a soul and I want you to be saved regardless of your earthly desires. Please read and pray. Turn to Christ please!

Have you tried a schedule of honest and selfless service for someone maybe homeless or elderly?

I say this because you probably won't crave acts of degeneracy during those moments and you can acquire a sense of wholesome direction.

Jesus Christ emphasized the love one feels in acts of selfless service.

Inb4 antichristian.slide.thread.