Firstly, fuck off FBI. I am in a much better head space now and I do not own a gun, so get back in your van and go home.
Alright, now, AMA. Due to recent events, I felt like someone with experience in these matters could shed some light. Personally, I found him going to McDonalds afterward very relateable. Because reddit is a dick and I dont want to create an account, ask away.
Basics: > When I was around 16 thought about doing it > Through deep web found someone who would sell me a gun > Literally only thing that stopped me at the time was my lack of cash and I did not have my license yet to drive to the seller > eventually the feeling/need went away > now fairly successful college student with friends, and moderate success in the dating scene
You wanna try being legible one more time before I decide you an unreachable nut case
Nathan Young
>dude this one time i actually THOUGHT about shooting up a school, I was LITERALLY a potential school shooter, pretty edgy huh? Oh by the way FBI don't fuck with me, I was SO fucked up but I'm not now. Pretty edgy huh?
pathetic
Luis Gomez
well, I got pretty close. I got enough money to take the bus, but that would have taken all day and my parents would have found out. So logistics was what stopped me. And frankly call me an edge lord if you want as thats what I was back then.
Juan Bell
I dont understand what you mean. To me, it was pretty clear. Sure, choppy, but clear. If you need me to clarify please let me know
Isaac Scott
What's the source of your pain friend?
Liam Edwards
>Personally, I found him going to McDonalds afterward very relateable.
Jace Reyes
ah, that. For some reason at that time I felt very numb to social and emotional situation, but very connected to human things like eating, drinking, and exercise. I dont know if it was a reaction to society that made me eat so much fast food or It was stress eating or what, but very relatable as that was one of the only things that made me feel alive. The senses
Juan Fisher
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Thomas Watson
Reminds me of being forced into baseball as a kid. Long story short I got punched by a kid because I sucked at the game. I remember ruminating over going over to him and beating him with the bat. As in I seriously was going to do it and barely stopped myself. I was only 11, but life could have wound up so different.
Levi Bennett
I would say social isolation, but in particular the feeling of hopelessness. I was bullied a lot as a kid, and had helicopter parents. So stress was constant. As such, I was a constant stress ball in middle and high school, and had very aggressive behavior. From what I can make of it, mostly due to me trying to achieve my parents goals while dealing with the rejection of social fun (i.e. never had time for friends or partying, so to everyone I was a loner). Because of this, I did some very aggressive things as a youth, like threatening girls for making fun of me, cussing out kids, bulling others. That, and this website did a lot for my reputation. And I felt like I could never get my record clean, as I tried so hard to be a good kid but everyone did not like me for one reason or another. That takes a toll
Chase Nguyen
thanks dog. I think they'll find that I am very far from the situation so I am indeed happy to talk to them any time
Jacob Young
__Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School False Flag Timeline__ +Debbie Wasserman Schultz and Scott Israel want to have a second high profile shooting in their county and meet to select date/time. (archive.is/hkpKO) +Alphabet Soup gets a tip on a "suspicious comment" that N. Cruz made about wanting to be a "professional school shooter". They leave him in place to become the patsy. (archive.is/eU9Az) +Teachers receive training and are notified a simulated incident will occur. (archive.is/pJeMy#selection-2671.0-2671.178)
__Feb 14__ +Students at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School have an evacuation drill in the morning. (youtube.com/watch?v=OFly5Ut5Jag[Open] ) +Cruz shows up on campus via an Uber Taxi for unknown reasons.(archive.is/O0jbm) +Hired team of 2-3 shooters goes into the school and fires blanks with Cruz on campus. (youtu.be/zlhMGWyT_uU[Open] ) +Alexa Miednik sees Cruz during the evacuation and speaks to him while hearing shots fired elsewhere on campus. (youtube.com/watch?v=_R39tNfv_fg[Open] ) +For unknown reasons, hired shooters fail to execute Cruz and stage his suicide. +Students are evacuated and Cruz leaves campus in the shuffle. ( See Alexa Miednik interview above ). +Cruz does not know the police are after him and decides to go get something to eat at McDonald's/Subway without knowing he is the patsy.(archive.is/GOlmf) +FBI/Police arrest him as he walks down a residential street on his way home. (archive.is/8MfoN)
__Feb 15__ +Cruz is presented with a plea bargain that will let him avoid the death penalty and avoid and real investigation/trial. (archive.is/uAhPt) +Cruz pleads guilty to 17 counts of premeditated homicide even though he has not killed anyone.
__Feb 16__ +Demolition of Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School in Parkland, Fl is announced to cover up the scene of the crime. (archive.is/p6UIl)
Brody Wright
Very similar situation. Maybe its something about maturity and development of a conscience, but the act of forcing kids into things brings this kind of behavior
Kevin Russell
im not arguing if its real or not. Im just talking in general about my experience in why, if real, would nick cruz do it. This is not a debate thread
Jace Garcia
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Carter White
We're all here for you friend. What I think you need is literature that is focused on raising social status, Neuro linguistic programming, pickup artist stuff.
The Game How to win friends and influence people Basics of NLP
Make sure to have Sundays off and start attending a church/ temple of literally any religion. Start changing your sleeping hours to 9-5, get as much sunlight as possible, even if you spend all day inside being conscious for it is important. There is a lot of physiological science behind this. After creating a reading list and getting ahold of the books go to your nearest park(walk there) and reading, occasionally taking a look at the trees, people, beautiful blue skylight.
I've been there bro, I could write a book about the things I've experienced. Things I've done, things that have been done to me.
Joshua Myers
Ignore the schools, the kids did nothing. Go for the suits. Congress and shit
Levi Hall
Thanks, I appreciate it! Now I am much better, but indeed I do need to get more sleep and more sunlight. Plus, idk my struggles with women are becoming more apparent the longer I go, but really thats one of the only remnants of my struggles
Liam Bell
Good call.
Isaac Clark
Okay, I will bite your larp.
First question: Why? If your life sucked, why take the lives of others? Why not just a helium tank, tubing, duct tape and a plastic bag?
Ethan Johnson
Nofap is real friend.
PMO: Porn Masturbation Orgasm
Work to dismantle this demon. Start with porn. You'll notice how hard it is to reach orgasm without this stimuli. At first you'll remember porn scenes. Then it turns into fantasies of your co-workers, etc.
Then work to dismantle masturbation and orgasm. You'll notice personality changes within yourself. You talk smoother with women, it's like they can smell it, and physiological science says they do(data says only in ovulation but I say always). You have more energy (unconscious scarcity of extinction) motivation, etc.
You HAVE TO REPLACE this habit. You have to fill the void. My method was this: I used to get horny and watch porn/ masturbate/ orgasm. THAT was my sex life
Then: I focused that energy on dating apps, then it turned into calling the girls numbers i collected, i became smooth as fuck. Then it turned into regular sex
Kevin Young
I am pretty religious, and at the time I thought if I was going to hell for killing myself why not take others too. I didn't believe in the dante's inferno situation where certain areas of hell are worse, I kinda just assumed the worse I did would get the same result.
Cameron Rogers
See, I've heard that. I kinda want to try, but I heard its like drugs where the first week is awful and I dont wanna go through with that. But if it helps Ill consider it thanks!
Luis Mitchell
why tho? I mean whatever they'll find my record clean but still what about this makes you think I would NOW?
Josiah Rivera
no offense senpai but I feel like everyone human being that has ever existed has THOUGHT about doing something just as horrid.
Jose Moore
yea, I just got closer than others. The older I get the more I realize the same thing
Julian Stewart
Do you honestly believe OP is a real Nazi? God you are retarded.
Brayden Young
If you're a Jewish journalist and you don't have any material to write about, then you might as well pretend to be a Nazi on Sup Forums and invent something good.
