Been feeling incredibly black pilled recently. (This is completely politically related...

Been feeling incredibly black pilled recently. (This is completely politically related, I'm dealing with the mental fallout of political bullshit)

Pic related is how I feel, and how I've felt for the last month or so.
Over the last year and a half, I've tried desperately to get a movement off the ground here in leafland. I won't name which movement because I have been covered in the papers and I don't want anything linked back to me as a person.

I just can't do it anymore. A year ago I was putting up weekly podcasts, I had the fire in my belly, I talked about it all, the Jewish bank gangsters undermining and plundering our Nations from within, the fact that Canada spends 23 billion dollars a year to import non-Whites when the Ukraine had 2-odd million displaced refugees in need of asylum and a safe haven, our laws, homosexuality, degeneracy, abortion, the need to facilitate White Life through strategic incentive programs rather than waste our tax dollars on the 3rd world...
There wasn't a topic I didn't cover.

The podcast got shut down.
The blogspot got shut down
Our website got shut down.
Our twitter got shut down
Our youtube is completely shut down

I've burned every bridge I have in the pursuit of truth and justice for the White Race and I have nothing to show for it but a failed Party, an empty movement and I'm just tired of fighting Marxists and the Judaised "Alt-Right"

The whole world is against us... even pedophiles have more public sympathy than we do... and yet I would die for them, all of them, I would... I love my people, I'd give my life for them... and they just spit on me...

I can't even cry, I just feel depressed and anxious... all the time.

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youtu.be/VqF49VQ5PH8
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abd-ar-Rahman_III
youtube.com/watch?v=ZAXG6LwrAk8
youtu.be/3_xkZmIRtrM
twitter.com/SFWRedditImages

if at first you don't succeed try try again

I want to, but at the same time, I can't help but look at the present situation and it all seems so futile.
Yes people are starting to wake up, slowly but surely, but they will never do what needs to be done, they will never institute National Socialism... every other model, every other theory has back doors which freely allow the Jews and their lacky's to inculcate themselves into any movement... Libertarians are seeing this happen to them and have been for a long time. Hoppean economics serves the Jews, there's no way to prevent monopolies from forming which destroy the middle class...

What's the point? I'll either end up living in a communist shithole or some "libertarian" will charge me 5 dollars per toss of bread to feed privately owned ducks on a privately owned pond while he drops acid and fucks his own daughter because "muh liberty"

You got burned out too early. Things haven't gotten bad enough and therefore no one will accept you. Don't worry, the time will come, as it has over a hundred times throughout history before.

I'm not worried that it won't come. I'm worried that I'll be long dead before it does. At the current rate of decline here in Canada, it's a genuine concern. People here aren't even like the Swedes. Many are far worse than the Swedes, even in my tiny town... a town of about 3000 people, the local school has all the flags of the world assembled outside but not a Canadian flag, and this is normal here, this is accepted, this isn't even questioned...

I believe we live in a Communist dictatorship already, a dictatorship that parades itself as a "democracy", we're told how our lives are to become, we're told that we're mortgaging the futures of the unborn, those who are damned 30 years before they're even given life to a Nation which is not their own... and the people accept this... they don't fight it, they don't reject it...

I'm worried that the time for arguments and diplomatic solutions died a long time ago, and the only recourse is revolution, and no one will entertain that notion... they'd rather slip quietly into death while the world around them burns.. rather this than die for their Sons and Daughters, and their unborn grandchildren.

I'm scared.

This. Your brothers are out there. We are just waiting. Imagine how bad Hitler felt after the beer hall pusch. It is 1923. 1929 is coming fast.

Also our Hitler has not arrived yet. Hitler came out of nowhere and so will our new savior. I think of Trump as our John the baptist. He is just ushering in a new era where anything is possible.

I know exactly how he felt. He refused to eat, he was so depressed and miserable.. But Herr Hitler had the advantage of learning that his attempt had made him a local hero, it renewed his vigor and he committed himself to winning power through the democratic system.

I worry... constantly... in this era of instant information, where anyone can be right for 30 seconds, and ignore any argument by turning their computers off, where we've been completely divorced from ourselves, where personhood and personality are so unraveled by technology that Herr Hitler himself could reincarnate, and no one would notice.

My loyal Party Members recognize me as something different from any other Party leader here in Canada, I can't tell you how many times I've heard that from people who have left other groups for mine.

I could be Adolf Hitler or Jesus Christ (obviously not really) and no one would notice, no one would care, the truth drowned out in a Huxleyan "Brave New World" of trivial and frivolous information.

Go back to Europe where you belong whitey

My Canadian kameraden, my "Volksgenossen"... The Party has 12 loyal members. Everyone else has abandoned the Party for fast talking salesmen and empty promises. And yet I hear it constantly "The (Party) platform is like nothing I've ever seen before, I was with (Other person) for years and I knew when I found you that this was something special)

Hell... I wish I could talk to those people about what I'm going through, but I can't I have to be this strong, infallible, unbendable, fearless, courageous leader... and I'm not, I'm just as fucking terrified as they are.

Have you ever read fight club? Tyler Durden starts a social club and turns it into a revolutionary movement. The National Socialist Party was also a Social Club. If men(and women) had a social event to go to I think they would. I know I would. Everyone is looking for something tangible. If you offered that and built on it, maybe you could be our new savior.

And there's another thing. I don't understand Canada's obsession with making Parties. There are dozens maybe hundreds of small groups and none of them want to work together over some stupid, ridiculous difference in platforms or policies. Half the "parties" here have no defined platform at all, and I created a complete economic, social and cultural program from scratch, from the ground up, and it is universally hated by the Marxists, the Liberals, the Conservatives, the "White Nationalists" and everyone except for dyed in the wool National Socialists, TRUE National Socialists, who don't use Herr Hitler's work as a vehicle for hatred and idolize the 1939-1945 era but those who understand the era of 1933-1339, and everything Herr Hitler tried to achieve and build for his people.

Everyone is obsessed with violence, hatred and stupidity, they don't want common sense solutions.

>The National Socialist Party was also a Social Club
It pretty much started with the Thule Society didnt it? A who's who of what would become the Nazi Party.

I've tried organizing several events, social events mind you, not strictly political, none of these speeches and rallies which I think are premature and serve only to damage the movement as a whole, it's completely embarrassing to see 10 or less people waving flags around screaming about a revolution.

The problem is funding. The (Party) takes in around 60 dollars a month in donations. At this rate, we'll be able to rent a conference hall sometime in the next 10 years.

Not to mention the fact that Canada is so geographically spread out that half of our membership aren't even in the same location.

I know, I know, "excuses, excuses" I'm constantly trying to raise funds to get something together. Even if it's just a simple mixer/get to know each other event.

Drink two litres of green juice (spinach cellery etc)
one litre of orange juice (carrot/pumpkin etc)
one litre of purple juice (beetroot etc)
one litre of red juice (strawberry/grape etc)

and you will be cured

Several members of the NSDAP were members of the Thule society, but Herr Hitler wasn't. Herr Hitler joined Anton Drexler's DAP which later evolved into the NSDAP under his stewardship. The Thule Society incorporated into the NSDAP, they all knew one another. I believe Rudolf Hess was a member of Thule.

Hitler went to Munich. Location is everything. Don't forget that the Nazis were laughed at for a while too.

That's very true, but I wonder if they were shut down at every single turn. I'd rather deal with violence than a complete media blackout. Naturally they faced real violence, the Communist Jews who started antifa and Die Rote Fahne and the SDP carried out a revolution, actual civil war... I'd prefer that to the bullshit we're facing today.

If things don't pan out, just collect an armory and prepper stuff and hope for a bosnia2.0 so that we can start the ethnic cleansing.

You may be right, we may never live to see the day where NS is reborn and properly realized somewhere in the world, but we have to plant the seeds. If not for our own sake then for the sake of our descendants. We have to preserve the knowledge we've gained and pass it down to give future generations the chance to realize national socialism again.

You need to move to the largest white city available and start spreading leaflets and having speeches and stuff. Ground game is where it's at

It's funny, I have said that to a few of my inner circle, I say
>We have a solemn duty to preserve the things which the Enemy seeks to destroy, if not us, then who?

There's a very real possibility and it's one that I've considered that the only way we'll see National Socialism rise again is if a group of dedicated individuals can pool enough resources and settle a township somewhere governed by the principles of National Socialism. It may be the only way to prove it's validity to the lemmings who barely believe what they see and believe none of what they hear.

Even my small town of 3000 people has been inundated with enforced integration. Some 3 dozen Negroids wearing very obviously city style clothing, fancy brand names, make-up typical of the big city, etc... they got subsidized mortgages. There's no such thing as a big city here that is also White.

Sorry you’re feeling down user. Thanks for trying something to make the world better.

The jews shit on the Nazis from the very beginning. Every Newspaper and Radio show shit on the Nazis.
>They are not laughing anymore meme

You'll find life's meaning living in the countryside with a healthy family. If a career is enough to satisfy you that's because you've become a materialistic insectoid. Focus your efforts on what you can personally change, that begins with resetting your priorities. You can build your ideal family yourself, and if you're sucessfull at it other people will have a reason to trust you and allow you to have greater influence in those surrounding you.
For starters, read the stoics. A breakdown of their overall thought might be a good introduction, try A Guide to the Good Life, the ancient art of Stoic Joy, by William Irvine. But proceed to read the actual stoics later, as he is a bit partial every now and then. Read, listen and care about what can positively change your life. Apply this to books as well, many people lose themselves in useless books used as brain porn. You don't need to read all philosophers from the Greeks up until today. Read what you're sure will deliver. The Greeks and some Romans(that includes the stoics) will make you mentally and spiritually strong and give you a framework upon which to adequately judge what comes after as worthy or not of your time.
Change your focus from piling up more and more material belongings and strive for family and independence.
Modern politics are a waste of your time. This isn't a black pill, on the contrary: the greatest hit you can deal against the corruptors who rule the modern world is to oppose their order, that means following the above. If you have the time also read Evola, but don't go straight for Revolt, you need context. Many don't understand him because they think one of his books is enough. See pic related. Also keep in mind he is all about uncovering traditional knowledge from the past. Be wary of the likes of Guénon, he's sketchy.

If you're not there, we'll ne even weaker than before.
Don't put that much energy on propaganda, it is too difficult right now.
If it is your vocation, try using different methods. Not machiavelian ones, just "sneakier" ones. Drawings, graphs, stuff that seems like nothing but can make some people laugh then think about it.

Focus on becoming a better person, don't think too much of the other.
Save yourself before trying to save others, and never forget that if there is a conflict one day, our own people will be the worst enemy since they don't know what is good for them anymore.

Take some time for you, learn something new, could be an artistic discipline, cooking, gardening, whatever you feel like doing.
Read some good books, watch some Shakespeare's plats etc.

You can give up externally, but keep that fire inside you, under a coat of ash, so you can make a fire anew when you feel like it, just with some wood.

Just like Goebbles you will overcome this sadness. Joseph gave some advice about how to overcome it in writings, they are as follows
>1. Be good to everybody, especially to mother, father
>2. Do not talk much, think a lot.
>3. Be alone often.
>4. Try to make your peace with life.
>5. Get up at 8 and go to bed at 10.
>6. Read and write the bitterness out of your soul.
>7. Take plenty of long walks, especially alone.
>8. Do not neglect your body.
>9. Try to come to terms with God.
>10. Do not despair.

man the fuck up lmao
also have a cute NS rori to give you strength, do it for her :3

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The doom of a nation can be averted only by a storm of flowing passion, but only those who are passionate themselves can arouse passion in others.
>T. Hitler

You're absolutely right. Thank you, and thank all of you for the words I needed to hear. I will take a few weeks to myself as per
And I will refresh myself and come back at it with renewed vigor and determination.

It may not be the time for some things, but it is always the right time to inspire our fellow countrymen to act in their own best interest.

I have been thinking a lot about the "Freedom to do right" idea and how best to distill it into a few short words, I'll slap up posters and have my Party members do the same.
If they are not ready for anything else, they must always be ready to do what is right. I think my Party will shift it's vision for now to one of anti-degeneracy pro-clean living, which is what we've always talked about but not exclusively. The people aren't ready to address the Jewish question.

Thank you Sup Forums You've given me a lot to think about.

Remember that the people who hate you for your beliefs are vicious, that won't change. They're perfectly fine with censoring you and destroying you in any way they can. You have to keep working hard to teach people your ideas even if it means struggle, of course there is going to be struggle, remember the people who want to censor you? They're evil. Of course they will do things like this.

You must learn to welcome struggle, each time you are knocked down that is an opportunity to grow stronger. When they make you struggle, they don't know it, but they are giving you a gift by making you stronger.

Feelings are for faggots. Either shut the fuck up or kill someone.

You're right, absolutely right. And I think, as I've reflected on a lot of the things that have been said in this thread, it wasn't so much the censorship that bothered me. In fact, I look back and feel a modicum of pride that mentioning the party name on facebook or posting an image of our flag will get your post deleted within a few hours by Zuckerbergs automated bots, no... I've reflected and I understand now, it is as it has always been, pic related.
"the more I argued with them"

It's not being shut down, it's the endless cycle of insanity, and how heartbreaking it is knowing that it is mostly MY own people who are advocating for their own racial suicide... that is what got me, it's not the blacks, we have few of them, it's not the Arabs, they don't argue, it's the White, European Gentile which has been inundated with the perversions of the Jew who cannot even bring themselves to admit that "decolonization" means "get rid of White People"

Ask the Japanese to rule your country again you second rate gook.

It's not all over. We're out here, but we get censored too. They spend millions to make us feel alone and abnormal. Love you, bud. Enjoy life

Take the SIEGE pill. Revolution now, Maple-man.

This
The world right now isn't quite ready for the return of fascism, its waiting for the right circumstances to happen in order for it to begin. Like how National-Socialism originally started in Germany. When the people have lost everything and have nothing to turn to they will return back to what is right, but more than likely this wont happen in our life time.

Also user, I don't know if this is an issue you have, but try to make politics a part of your life but not the only part even though this is very important.

Most normies aren't against you, just ignorant of the problem. Try to find side projects and interests so that you aren't totally wrapped up in the success of this political movement. Because this political movement isn't going to feel highly rewarding a lot of the time, it's going to feel like no progress is being made sometimes and that will be draining. If you have other interests you're also working towards then it won't matter so much when you get censored or deplatformed because your core focus won't be on politics. Try socializing with normies without judging them or seeing it through a political lense. Just go out and socialize and have fun, laugh off the politics.

Again I don't know if this is an issue for you but it was for me a while back. I got really into Sup Forumsitics and it made me depressed, have more hobbies and I'm a lot happier.

I am, now, exactly where I planned to be 8 years ago. I know it seems like a long time, but try to wait 14 years. You'll know when you see me.

It makes me happy to think that our people someday will look back at this clown world nightmare we live in and be glad for what we did.

Or sad that someday the world will be so bleak that these were the good old days.

Every single one of us should be trying to fill his boots still though. We should all try to embody his brilliance. The man built himself up to a level where his oratory skills were seemingly super-human. He didn't wake up one morning to find himself suddenly blessed with the ability to speak to the heart of matters with such incredible precision and charisma. He focused on his philosophy, he focused on these issues and educated himself and he focused on what motivates him; the betterment of the German people, and the human species as a whole.

Have you ever had that uniquely gut-wrenching fury consume you when you hear the latest news in the ongoing genocide of our people? Particularly if it's a case of jews blatantly gloating in our faces about their hand in all these schemes? You know the feeling? Let me remind you; youtu.be/VqF49VQ5PH8
It's a powerful feeling.

I'm sure Hitler focused on that feeling a lot, enough to hone it into a weapon against his enemies as a way to build himself up. Imagine honing that feeling, focusing on it and using that feeling as a tool to motivate you in every single waking moment of your life. I'm sure that's a part of what Hitler must have done to achieve the seemingly super-human level of determination he had.

Hitler literally sat in Berlin while sentencing his people to die in hell millions of miles from their families and their homelands.
He was not much better than Stalin in this regard.

your flaw was being so open about it. the left is in the position they are because they spent 50 years making moves in the democrat party and getting professors, judges, etc. in place.

you need to take the long view, get into a position of authority and subtly red pill people while looking and acting moderate.

read the book related. It will open your eyes. Politicians have been playing the same tricks for 2000 years.

He proved his worth as a soldier in world war 1. Two iron crosses and other decorations.

It was never going to be easy user. Realize that. And don't burn yourself out. This will be a long process, but steady progress is being made.

keep fighting.

Thank you user. I've felt down lately but you have given me hope

is he playing taps or is that a mariachi?

I don't know whether racism is good, myself. I'm actually part Jewish. But I know this. You're part of a racist movement way, way bigger than you could possibly understand.
Why is Sup Forums, an anonymous chatroom, full of racists? Are people on Sup Forums really that different from ordinary people? I know this is crazy, but I suspect not. I suspect the vast majority of ordinary people, whether white, black, Asian, or Hispanic, are privately racist- that the racism on Sup Forums is something omnipresent that gets expressed here simply because people can express themselves anonymously.
I'm not sure whether it's a good thing for white supremacy to continue, myself, but I don't really have any control over whether it continues or not. Simply put, white people are privately, secretly LOVED and WORSHIPPED by the entire world, and there doesn't seem to be changing.
The caliphs of Spain and the Ottoman emperors LOVED white women, long before modern white supremacy. Enormous numbers of people of every race want to marry white women and men, too.
This means that EVERY race wants white people to continue to exist. I don't really know why, but it's obvious. People want white people to exist, so they will continue to exist. Take comfort in this, at least: no society has ever ceased to exist when the entire world wants it to continue.

be patient leaf

here's a quote from Ataturk I horribly translated especially for you at 6am. read it

>"You don't compliment anyone to be great , you don't deceive anyone. You will see the real purpose (what country needs) and you will walk towards that purpose. Everyone will be against you, everyone will try to stray you away from your path.However you will resist, they will also put infinite number of obstacles in front of you; you will see yourself as small, not great, weak, without tools, as nothing, believing that no help will come from anywhere, you will overcome these obstacles. After that, you will laugh at the faces of those who call you great"

this man fought against impossible odds, made a fucking joke out of jews, fucked commies and islamists over, revived turkic nationalism when all turks were brainwashed with ar*b tales, changed alphabet, changed the way people dress, shut down all mason lodges, gave women equal rights before most of western countries and much much more

he did it all with zero manpower and zero resources, just remnants of a dead empire after a world war and an independence war. everyone, even his close friends called him delusional when he told them of his plans

don't fall into despair leaf. god will be with you if your intent is pure and your motive just. just don't let fear and hatred cloud your mind

we already lost canada. its over. trudeau sr ensured its death decades ago.

Nonsense. If you aren't willing to fight for your country until the last of your fellow compatriots has fallen, then you've no business being involved in any political movement, much less have the audacity to blackpill your fellow leafs.

Let me give an example.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abd-ar-Rahman_III
The Muslims take over Spain as a brown race. They love white women, and keep them in harems. A pessimist would have said that this meant the Muslims wanted Spain to turn brown, but they had NO intention of making this happen. After a few generations of interbreeding, the caliph of Spain is said to have "white skin, blue eyes, and an attractive face".

We've lost the territory known as Canada, not the people. There's a reason blood comes before soil.

It's the blues my man

what is your party called? How can we help it?

I'm not going to name the Party here, unfortunately, not where people can see my weakness and doubts.
As much as I would love the support. If you're in Ontario, Quebec, New Brunswick or Alberta keep an eye out for National Socialist posters.

Find others who feel the same way. Then fuck this world up together.

>The podcast got shut down.
>The blogspot got shut down
>Our website got shut down.
>Our twitter got shut down
>Our youtube is completely shut down
That means you're on the right path.
youtube.com/watch?v=ZAXG6LwrAk8

Dont worry user, as your picture also demonstrates, things are often darkest before the dawn.

The key fact you need to understand is that not all white people are in fact worth saving. Saving white Leftists? No, youre doing it wrong. These people need to be the first to go. However, do not lift a finger against them yourself, let the shitskin migrants and immigrants do the dirty work for you- and believe me, they will. Your problem is patience, be patient, and let these things come to fruition naturally. You bit off more than you could chew and the redpills you dropped were still a bit too bitter for the public to digest at the time. Just wait, be patient, follow news and politics, but do not participate yet- like a hunter stalking its prey, you must wait for the perfect time to strike.

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I am absolutely assured of this given the fact that the blogspot was not heavily racialist but only fully expanded on the philosophy and program of the Party. There were extensive blog posts expounding on each point of our manifesto, describing National Socialism and the failures of Marxism.

I wrote a small speech the other day about the rapes and murders of American whites by illegal Mexicans. About the traitorous Democrats sacrificing our daughters for people who care nothing for us. I felt powerful when I read it to myself. It was the realest moment of passion I've felt in a long time.

The tides are turning. Reason is going to swing over to our site, all we need to do is to support it. Don't go out spilling negative comments over other people, embrace what you love about us. That's the magic of "it's ok to be white" and that is a message that can prevail through the leftist shit storm, which is trying to blow us away. The message just needs to establish itself and the next generation will see things differently.

looks just like David Hogg

Record yourself and post to YouTube. Every effort helps

If you are feeling down, all you have to do is go on Grindr and find some cute guys to cum in your mouth and in your beard. Nothing soothes me like foreskin and cum.

you fail when you give up

suck it up faggot and keep doing it

the entire white world is awake, keep up the good work leaf

It will come bro, it will. Everyone around me is sick of it... all of my friends, my co-workers, my family.

It's a matter of time.

I think I will user

>kpop loving faggot expat
kys

Goebbels is literally every Sup Forumstard
Well, every antifag too I suppose
We're all fucked, huh
I hope you young fucks don't burn it all down

"Neither pleasure nor pain should enter as motives when one must do what must be done." Julius Evola.

Devote your being to this, I understand it's hard in it's immediate sense, but it must be done by any means and without regard for the superficial, subversive sensibilities and codes of today's co-opted culture.

This isn't a mere social issue, rather it's a genuine struggle for survival.

Don't wait for a saviour. Become him.

>Mfw I realized the white race wasn't worth saving

Be honest how sexually active are you? I think I'm going to prescribe you pussy once a week

Gobbels wasn't a bi-gendered dildo licking tranny enthusiast

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Also plan on being shut down again, have backups of everything.
Care to elaborate on this though? Was it some kind of third party hosting, like wix or whatever flavor of dreamweaver people are using these days?
>>Our website got shut down.

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Apathy to your destruction is no better than direct involvement in it. You may as well be dead.

Wonderful, keep'em coming

Every social phenomenon here is downstream from the U.S.Canada is going to have to wait for a strong movement from the states before the plebs here feel allowed to follow suit. Just wait a while.

you have to organize locally face to face, not over the internet.

Yes, it was a third party hosting company. I don't personally know enough about hosting a website or developing one and even if I did, I don't own a server. I'm also paranoid of leaving some vulnerability which would open me up to being doxed.
We didn't use Wix as it is owned by some company in Israel.

Oh man I’m in Quebec. Where in Quebec will these posters be put up?

Post a link. I'm interested

Never give up friend we are here for you. If you need to take a break from it do so, maybe take it easy, relax a bit, gather yourself, all of us are working for a common vision. Where your efforts have dissipated, others have broken through and are taking affect. Never despair!

youtu.be/3_xkZmIRtrM

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>checked
lift weights and meditate.

Just south of Montreal near Brossard

Do you have cancer? Serious question

Why? Because we've been betrayed by our own?

Perhaps you got BTFO one too many times, wannabe Joseph Jr.?

Also, I think it would help to try a different approach than the standard podcast route. Get involved in the arts or performance and try to create something avant garde and daring. I a thinking of getting involved in the city's poetry scene and performing poems that are far right.

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