I can’t take this fucking world anymore. I’m tired of technology and stupid social media bullshit becoming less and less escapable each coming year, I’m sick of all the trends and lights and noise. I’m sick of everyone trying to sell me bullshit products and ideas that I don’t need. I’m sick of the normalization of self-destructive behavior and I’m sick of feeling isolated for refusing to take part in said behaviors. I’m sick of being surrounded by ideologues in every single direction giving me conflicting messages about how I need to be living my life, and what I need to support in order to avoid being a “bad person.” I consider myself a reasonably intelligent person, but I'm hearing so much conflicting bullshit from all directions that it's demoralized me to the point where I don't want to listen to anyone or anything anymore.
I’m swamped in migraines shoulder pain, I’m losing sleep, and I feel like the relationships I have with my loved ones (including my girlfriend) are being strained as I retreat further and further inward for peace. Every time I go to a doctor and tell them about what’s happening to me and my body, they put me on these bullshit psychiatric pills that just make me feel worse, and then when I start coming off of them, I feel like shit again. I just want peace. From what I’ve been reading/hearing, I don’t think I’m alone, either.
What the fuck went wrong and how does one find peace?