4AM

You hanging in there Sup Forums ?

Ye man im awake for 23 hours

>tfw not 4 am yet

i'll never light up the night my dudes

>NEET
>depressive
>compensates by drinking
it could be better

I dunno man.

I think she likes me but at the same time I think she doesn't. Shit's weird.

despair but also despair

About to check check on the two feral kittens down the hall. Had them for about two weeks and theyre really starting to like me. Good times.

i played video games all my life, never made friends that lasted for long. skipped school to play online games

dropped out of high school to play video games
became a NEET leech for 5 years playing video games

attempted to start a gaming channel

got a job as a plumber
work consumed my life
now video games are just casual and I get bored of them


got a new job managing a bar for my drug lord family

I'm the bar owner/bartender/boss
I hate it

I hate dealing with drunks and liars and criminals. I hate everyone being nice to me because I pay them. I hate everyone being backstabbers and thieves.

I hate the trash that goes there and the hostesses that have to endure barbarians and cheat to make money from them

its a sickening place but the pay is good enough to keep me there


I just wanted to play video games man where did my character go wrong? I dont even recognize myself in the mirror

>drinking the alcohol jew
Your own fault

>turn 21 in 2 weeks
>depressed
>work in a job that I don't like half the time
All I want to do is have a good cry
It's been years since I've cried
I've forgotten what it's like

Still broke and don't have enough for rent/student loans BUT I have a job interview tomorrow. I think things are coming up for me.

I hate my life.

No

Trig homework is kicking my ass up and down. Fucking hate proving identities, it's all the worst part of algebra and trig combined to one diseased mass

my chest has been hurting for a month now and i'm just trying to self-medicate with aspirin because i dont have health insurance

i've been preparing a notepad document telling my family what to do with my stuff in case i go to sleep and dont wake up or the heart attack that i think will hit me any minute now doesn't give me time to tell them all i want to tell them

Watch the doc Dear Zachary thatll make you cry tears of hate and anger

I know what I want to do with my life but I can't do it yet and it's slowly burning me out.
I have no money and despite applying for jobs for a year now I haven't been able to land anything that lasted for more than two weeks. I've essentially exhausted my options.
I had to take a loan out to go to college when I have absolutely no interest in getting a degree to get a job I don't want to work to live a life I have no desire for. So now I'm $10k in the hole for no reason.
So, in a nutshell, I'm doing a hell of a lot better than I have been in a long time. But there's still a ways to go.

I'm getting documents ready for work. I don't know what you fucks are doing this early

That's EXACTLY what I was looking for from Sup Forums. Wallow in your shit and despair, Sup Forumsros. You're miserable fucks, and you deserve your shit existence.

>Watching manipulative docs to make the goy scared and angry
stop

I don't want to be alone forever.

Overrated.

I have nothing to play while I'm on kidney dialysis

The fuck is wrong with you?

post pic or fake

Yes the Jews do it all, yet you post on the 4jew on the jewternet and bought a jewputer like the good goy you are.

but why
does seeing depressed people make you happy

THIS CITY
HAS BEEN DEAD

jokes on you! im happy with my shit existence.

I mean I could give you the generic advice of stop playing video games, get off Sup Forums, and be more open.

But I'm sure you've heard that enough, and you're still here, so it'll be pointless.

>I keep making memes to justify watching documentaries to fuck up with my head
whatever you want to do with your brain, if that helps you

>He gets lonely.

Sad. Real men don't feel that.

Saw a webm where someone fed a turtle a hot pepper and it spazzed out....

It's kind of ruining my night. I wish there weren't bad people.

turning 27 in a bit
realized that I am heading into the 4th decade of my life with an ad hoc plan where I live from day to day

Do you even know what it's about?

Yes, mad people doing horrible things.

Yes brother we shall rise above the jewmotions and show the visual Jew we feel not this the Jew will fall before our forth Reich

Hot sauce doesn't do shit. It tricks the brain. Nothing more. The turtle suffered, but didn't get hurt. Not physically.

I want to go to the gym
but people always tell me is basically an asshole factory.

I want to get in shape, but i don't want to be around people.

What the fuck are you waiting for ?
Go to a doctor asap, better broke and healthy than rich and sick

I have a beautiful girl next to me naked and asleep.

Why can I not sleep and why do I feel alone?

FL here just got power back from Irma today so I was going crazy with games. Tired but IDK what to do. Maybe we have some problems.

>he is so poor he can't afford 100 dollars in a few equipment to get fit at home

have to read and make a resume of a book for today.

Start building a home gym. All you need is a bar to do pullups, some free weights, and a decent bench and mat to do body weight exercises on.

Shit'll make you feel better. Do it.

Cut me down or let me run,
either way it's all gonna burn...
The only way that they'll ever learn

You don't even have to spent that much. Just go to a junkyard and find a discarded metal bar to put up, then make weights out of discarded milk jugs and sand.

...

I was depressed then "overcame" it but now I feel literally nothing.
I still get anexity attacks some times but the rest of the time I'm just numb to everything.
I'm not sure that it's better.

Because you are alone. You hope banging some chick will validate your existence when in reality it just reminds you how detached from people you truly are. That is your nature, to be alone.

Autoimmune disease

Been playing games all night. Cat is sleeping next to me while I play BoTW. Fiance is sleeping. Life is pretty decent. My only gripe is my job, but could be worse I suppose.

(old pic, but cat!)

watching silent hill 2 cutscenes.... expecting AM2R to utterly embarrass Nintendo at its own game in a few days when the 2nd metroid 2 remake in 2 years comes out.. feels disappointing man

>Finished paying off the debt in Recettear
>Got stuck on the gold rooms in Dustforce
>Only games I have left are time consuming RPGs

at the heart of the city

Which one?

i work the night shift as a dispatcher. it's soul crushing. i'm smoking a ton of weed to compensate. started going to the gym, been gaining weight because of how bad my diet's been. on my night off, naturally wake up at midnight, family is sleeping, i'm just sitting here high af losing at overwatch and getting mad. where did i go wrong Sup Forums i'm 29

holy shit user
i hope you get better. How many times you have to do it per month?

AIDS. I'm gay.

Call your student loan servicer and get on an Income Driven Repayment Plan. Tell them youre unemployed and you wont have a bill due for a year. Youll need to fill out a form, but you dont need to prove anything

Which one what?

Cats are heinous creatures.

Do you like to read book?

Disease, retard.

>because of how bad my diet's been
yeah marijuana makes you a fat fuck
Stop it

Every other weekday for 3 hours and I'm not going to get better I need a transplant

Man the fuck up.

where is the original clip of this is it as weird in the show?

I wish I could go back to early 20s NEETdom. I can't be a NEET at my age, but I hate normalfag life. It's making me miserable.

Glumerial nephritis or some shit

I have arthritis and nobody understands what it's like. I don't want to tell people anymore because I just feel sadder. Today someone told me "Well I hope you feel better soon." And a while back another person told me "Man, you don't have arthritis, isn't that for old people?"

Watching Halt and catch fire and drinking at 3:30 am. I'd say I'm running away from my problems going on 13 years now.

drugs and also any dispatcher job and alike.

that is basically selling your soul.

>halfway through second week of classes
>haven't made any friends
>end up just going back to my apartment to study because I have nothing to do and no one to chill with around campus
How do I stop being lonely?

if that's real and you are not lying I hope you find a decent kidney and get well
I'll buy you a chinese smartphone when you get better

Try being mentally ill. People think I'm lazy. MDD and BPD ain't nothing to fuck with.

>Implying he'll get better.

Try not being a beta male. I don't get lonely.

It's not hard to get a kidney you asshole

2:36AM CAD time friendo

easy solution is to live in the dorms
apart from that, you'll have to try initiating conversations with people in your classes

Obviously because their life is shit and they want to feel better about their miserable existance. Just point and laugh and move on.

EST is the only timezone that matters

I feel you man, searching for a decent job is an absolute nightmare

this

thinking about ending it with gf
I will be depressed again but this way I don't feel anything

Not him but everytime I get sad I see some pics onthe internet of people dying (accidents) and I feel happy for having internet, a console and a home

a hospital visit without insurance makes them charge you 50,000 dollars or more, depending on what you're there for.

for someone already broke, this is like becoming an indentured servant for the rest of your life.

Think I want to go back to school after being a NEET for ~3 years. Just scared I'll fuck up since I have no discipline

kill yourself

>buy MH stories day one
>super excited to play it
>open of n3ds
>get tired immediately and turn it off

Every time I try to play games for the last week or so I just get tired and not motivated to play.

>go into a hospital with no id
>collapse and clutch your heart
>get treated
>pretend to be homeless
>don't give name
>they have no way to bill you
>they can't hold you

Probably wouldn't work, but it's worth considering

Happens to me once in a while. Sometimes just forcing myself to turn the game on works then I'll get in the mood and have fun but other times I just need to do other non-gaming stuff for a bit to appreciate it more

drunk, just happy to be here with you shitstains
not that i'm not one either

Just met someone and i am honestly seeing a bit of light in all the shit around me, i want to be better because i don't want to let another chance slide but hell it is fucking tough.

I didn't know 4AM threads were still a thing. The last one, was, like, 2012 or something.

Just selected my classes for my last year at uni.

>25yo
>dead end studies
>lives with my sick mum
>haven't spoke to a girl in two years
>no job
>no money
>no driver's licence
>not even a bike


I'm taking care of my mother, cherish her until she quietly pass away, then I fucking gut myself.

I know she secrtetly thinks I'm a failure, and that's what breaks me the most.

Yakuza Zero is pretty great, currently finising it then I'm going to buy Kiwami, can't wait for 6 even tho people say it sucks

Holy shit, I mean, that's probably not true, but fuck you for saying it.

Because her body heat is too intense, and you feel alone because you're the only one awake.