anyone extremely insecure about their intelligence? I've always being told I was smart growing up and most of the people I interact with seem to be less "aware" than me - that is in terms of politics, pop culture and tech literacy. Then again most people I interact with are complete normies divorced from internet culture.
Despite being told I was bright, I've no accomplishments as an adult and the older I get, the dumber I'm feeling, the more I think what was said of me in the past were just false flattery. I mean, I dropped out of college and spent the last 7 years wageslaving in unskilled labor, I'm almost 29. I've done nothing with my life, it's shit.
I've being thinking about starting to learn programming and doing gamedev because that's what I've always wanted to do. But, my selfesteem is crushed from years of depression and failures and neetdom.
There is this constant thought in the back of my head telling myself it's too late and I am too dumb and it will be just be another aborted attempt. But I don't know how many more years of low pay wagecucking I can take before I walk in front of a bus.
I feel trapped in this mental prison, I've no social support either so Sup Forums seem the best place to ask. I'm just scared of failing.