Im confused Sup Forums, im going to give you guys a very important lesson on southern European people, especially Spain

Im confused Sup Forums, im going to give you guys a very important lesson on southern European people, especially Spain.
This is essentially a feels thread, but all about me.

>Be me
>Be uncreative and don't know how to start original greentext
>Used to be very quiet and shy when i was younger
>Born in Spain, raised by English parents
>Never taught the language properly cause
>Muh spanish education
>So i was a bit far behind in properly forming conversation
>Middle School and half of High school is irrelevant
>We're now at my 3rd year of High school
>The class i was in from 1st and 2nd years has moved me
>New class, new people, decide to start as a different person
>I've learned to become a very funny person by watching politically incorrect cartoons and other racist stuff
>People are cool with it, Spain isn't very SJW
>Am fucking around during gym class
>Swinging a bat around like a moron during baseball
>I dont give a fuck
>I manage to hit a ball outside the school
>Hailed as a hero
>This was the last hour, finally i can go home
>A girl comes up to me, she starts conversation
>Asks me to walk her to the bus stop
>I dont really have friends so i just roll with it
>She says: Want to go out with me?
>Nigga wut
>cont?

Go on tapas. Italy is reading you

Well im continuing anyway, i need an outlet, and i'll try make it interesting as we progress.

Part 2
>Don't reply, just look at her
>Eventually say, are you serious?
>I wasn't really interested in relationships at the time
>Completely unprepared
>She says it was a joke
>"A JOKE"
>I'll tell you this now Sup Forums, that "joke" was the beginning of 2 years of torment and deceit for the rest of my high school life
>Interested, not romanticly, but whether that was a joke or not
>Arrange to watch a movie together at a cinema
>Next day
>We're browsing through my phone over what movie to watch
>Also ask for her number, cause thats a must
>We go, we watch the movie, thats about it, she brought a friend along so we weren't alone
>After movie ends, i buy them sweets and shit
>Im a very giving person, always have some candy somewhere
>Not fat btw i promise
>Her mom picks us up from the cinema
>Didn't really plan for this but sure whatever
>She drops me off at my place, and thats the end of that day
>Nothing special yet, its what happens later on
>Next time, i arranged to invite her to my house for dinner
>At this point im not sure what im doing honestly
>I dont have any friends so i didn't see this as a romantic thing
>I just wanted a friend
>After the day ended, i walked her home
>She had a great time, im glad
>I hug her tight, and kiss her on the cheek
>Wave goodbye and walk home
>Wait
>I kissed her on the cheek
>She was OK with that
>I kissed a girl on the cheek
>cont

I must note she was EXTREMELY close when we were looking for a movie to watch, like i could feel her tits on my arm pressing on me.

This one is a little short, but whatever roll with it
Part 3
>Im so fucking happy what is this
>I haven't felt so fulfilled in my life
>What is this feeling
>Am i in love
>I NEED TO MAKE SURE
>I arrange several "dates" with her
>Invite her to bowling, parks, ice cream
>Eventually we become real tight
>We talk every day through Whatsapp
>Nigga i think this girl likes me
>The trimester ends, i go off to Germany for the summer
>She fucks off to some village in the North
>We dont see eachother for a few months
FAST FOWARD, GERMANY WAS BORING
>4th year has started, fuck yeah
>She visits me on the first day of school
>We're duking it out on Mortal Kombat X
>I let her think she's winning and at the end i wreck her
>She's laughing constantly, how can one enjoy loosing so much?
>Tells me she fucked a guy during summer
>Wait what
>cont

Checked
Btw keep continuing OP

I dont think there's anybody here, but i'll push on to the end, its the only think keeping me from thinking about her.
By writing about her!
Part 4
I know what you're thinking, OOOH so she wasn't in love with you and she fucked somebody else
lol get over it
>WRONG
>The guy dumped her right after they fucked
>She got used real easy
>Apperantly she's not bothered by it
>In my mind, this bothered me a bit
>But... we haven't had much time together yet, i still have a chance
>I thought i could win her over with my funny personality, constant smiling and outgoing personality
>Women are even more complicated than that
>Im not ugly, im not poor, i always get told i have beautiful eyes
>So with all those factors, surely she'd fall for me eventually right?
>That is what i started to believe in the coming months
>Fast foward to November, my birthday was on the 30th
>She came with me, bowling with my family
>Half of the time we spent running around looking at all the cool shops
>It felt so romantic, we really looked like a couple together
>From anybodies perspective, just by looking at us you'd think we're a couple
>Great day, walked her home and said goodnight
>Fast foward again to December, Christmas
>We spent the day after christmas together
>She made me hot chocolate, i brought cookies from Germany
>Everything was bliss, gave her mother a gift too
>We gifted eachother christmas sweaters
>We wore them for days after christmas
>By now i was sure, this girl liked me, and i liked her
>She always smiled, touched me alot, almost as if she was fixated in me
>cont

yo op nice dubs and shit


by the way youre full of shit and ill tell you why.

so you kissed a girl on the cheek and youre actually kinda proud of it???

how the fuck you say hello to gals in spain, how do you introduce to any fucking female in spain??? 2 fucking kisses in the cheeks so unless you havent seen a single fucking soul in your miserable life youre full of shit and a retard. i hope you die.


btw nice dubs man!!

Part 5
By now we're at Febuary
>December and January were regular holidays
>We saw eachother casually from time to time
>Would usually play games on the console or PC
>Anyway, Febuary
>Im obsessed
>All im thinking about is her
>We're talking so much
>She always hugs me at the beginning and end of the day
>I've slept at her place a few times now
>She's been there with me through everything
>Im taking some anti-acne pills, but a side affect is severe depression
>But she's been there for me, and she made me feel better
>All i had to do was think about her and id smile
>I've made a few more friends now, and they all say i should go for it
>Im so ready, i cant believe i've actually got a social life
>Life was great, i was never before so happy
>But i tried my best to avoid telling her i liked her
>I didn't want this, if i could i would've never fallen in love with her
>She was such a great friend, i didn't need more
>I was young, young highschool relationships never last, i want to keep her forever
>March comes around
>I take her out to a bar and walk in the park at night
>Nothing special, where we live there isn't much to do
>So i can't take her anywhere unless its really far away in the outskirts of the city
>She's enjoying herself, so am i
>I failed to tell her i liked her in the park
>Its so hard mang
>She's so special to me, i didn't really want to ruin anything
>Infact, i never really wanted a relationship to begin with
>She was a smoker, a drinker, not a virgin and she was very young and has tried drugs
>This girl isn't clean atall, she's a party girl, we'd never be a good match
>But she looked gorgeous, i loved her smile, her hair, her eyes
>cont

Im not Spanish, i didn't bother with the whole kiss on both cheeks shit because i dont really like getting close to people's faces, im still trying to assimilate but its awkward for me.

how about your spanish education???
man youre full of shit. anyway die in a fire.

btw nice dubs yo!!!

So this is starting to look like Looking for Alaska, eh?

Nah nigga nice dubs yo!!
You don't have to believe me, i dont care what you think, i'll keep writting to the end.

Part 6
I should note again that i wasn't really interested in a relationship, thing is i was obsessed in her
and we were different in some ways, but our personalities were so similar
I secretly knew it wasn't going to happen, i had no faith in me but i went through it anyway
>She knew what i was trying to do, she just waited for me to say it
>I told her i liked her at her doorstep after the day ended
>Safest way, if she didn't like me she could retreat easily and think about it
>And i could leave knowing our last day was a good one
>She rejected me
>CRUSHED
>DEVASTATED
>What the fuck
>Why
>I mean i knew it was too good to be true, but actually hearing i couldn't have her just hurt me
>She was so flirty
>We talked so much, we were always together
>How could she not like me? Her parents approved of me, mine approved of her
>We were almost destined, what went wrong?
>I took 6 weeks off see'ing her, i was so upset
>She was my everything, i dont understand, how did this happen
>We eventually start talking again
>Gradually we get closer
>But i've lost faith in her
>No longer trust her to talk about my feelings anymore
>She's changed in a way too
>But i still love her
>I accepted i couldn't have her, but i wanted to be around her while she was still single
>She was such a nice person, she was the only person who made me happy
>She was a forgetful person in the past, but she always would apologise a million times after
>So we start doing things again
>Im happy again

Im sure everybody is gone by now, im not very good at feels threads sorry.

Part 7
However it only took 3 weeks for God to stab me in the back again
>Things were going ok
>Im starting to get over her
>I think we can just be friends again
>Just like i wanted it from the beginning
>Im happy, i can trust her again,
>And then that fateful day
>Before all this, i had difficulty trying to decide what to do with her
>I had to choose between hating her, loving her
>Staying or leaving, but she kept coming around to poke me in the back and say:
>Hi!
>Cute af
>I basically had problems figuering out if i hated her i liked her, she hurt me so much but she promised to be there forever for me
>Anyway, back to the fateful day thing
>After the day ended, cat pissed on my bed, i walked her home
>We're at the metro, talking about random things
>I noticed something
>ARE
>YOU
>FUCKING
>SERIOUS
>There's a fucking hickey on her neck
>What the absolute shit
>I was fucking furious
>I felt numb with sadness
>She knew i saw it and tried to do cute things to keep me on earth
>But it was far too late
>Everything she did and said i would die over, has now become devoid of value
>I no longer respected her
>cont

How was she flirty?

just tell us your story u Beta cuck faggot

She was always throwing complimanets at me whenever i wasn't smiling
She'd hug me randomly and jokingly say i was hot as fuck when i once took off my shirt to change.
Im doing my best to forget all of that, but she would sometimes lay her head on my arms or shoulders whenever she was bored.

A few times she'd grab my hand and just look and feel it, it honestly looked like an excuse to hold me.

Now now user, its not cuckoldry when there was nothing to begin with!

Final Part

>Reach her doorstep
>I give her the most loose and shit hug i've ever given
>I didn't even want to touch her
>Not after somebody else has
>This bitch had done things with somebody before coming to my fucking house
>She never told me she had a boyfriend
>But even if she didn't the hickey was there
>So eigther slut or used me
>I was fucking mad
>She didn't tell me to keep me around, or she's a degenerate scum
>I felt used
>I loved this girl, she was so innocent 2 years ago
>I've done my best for her, everything ive done was for her
>I helped her with her english homework all the time
>I lent her my stuff constantly
>We knew eachother's secrets and we were so close
>And it turns out she's dating a cute feminine boy face over me
>Somebody who was "pretty good looking" which is what others say about me, but i'll never believe it
>I could provide for her, i was there for her and she was there for me
>And i get stabbed in the front

Lol hahaha

I know how you feel

So the moral of the story
No matter how suggestive a Spanish girl is, you'll never know unless she tels you directly.
In England ,this would have been a green light for I REALLY LIKE YOU, but it wasn't the case with her.

I hate Spanish girls, i'll never date one after this, its become alot harder for me to take hints now, because Spanish girls are very strange, they're like desperate indians that ask too many personal questions and are horny as fuck, but aren't indians, and aren't looking to fuck.

inal Final Part
At this point, i've lost all empathy for her Sup Forums
Im crushed, i've been chewed up and spit out
I never thought id end up like this, chasing after a girl for 2 years, only to figuere out later that she may be a slut or has used me for personal gain
I loved this girl Sup Forums, so much... some of you might understand me, but i was obsessed over her
I thought we were destined, although i never wanted a relationship, i was willing to try
What do i do Sup Forums? Im pretty much over her, but she could have spared me months of pain if she had just told me about him, i didn't have to go through all that phsycological misery if i had known it was that simply done
Im questioning wether i should stay for her as a friend, or just leave her for good.
She was the only person who truly cared for me, and she still does, but i feel wierd, i just cant let her go, not after everything she's done for me.

Do an hero op cause you're a faggot.

Nah OP. You loved the girl who went bowling with you and played Mortal Kombat with you and getting clingy to you. Not the sullen, selfish bitch.

Summer is really here isn't it?
I did a similar but unfinished thread in Febuary, people were alot kinder when it was colder.

They're just fat basement-dwellers who shit on "love" because they simply can't get anyone to love them.

>nice people
>Sup Forums

yep it seems summer is here

Dont blame the girl you whiny bitch. You were the idiot. She was just beeing herself and you had 2 years to get to know her. Just kill yourself. Funny greentext tho. Thanks for the laugh