FEELS

FEELS

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can i vent?

i'm the Food Addiction Hikki from a few days ago, things aren't going so well, my feelings about food are getting more and more wrapped up with my general disappointment in my life and loneliness and i'm having some sort of breakdown right now and self harming because it's the only thing i can think of to take my mind off the urge to stuff my face even though i'm not hungry and i don't know how to handle this anymore, i've tried therapy and it doesn't help so i guess there are no answers

you're not the only one, but i found out that this place isnt for me a while ago. Before i graduate i'm relieving myself of all this pain and suffering of crippling social anxiety and depression. too many opportunities have been missed, too many people i could have liked, too many people i failed. i'll miss the humble abode that is my room however

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oh i totally agree, the hikki thing is only temporary and due to circumstance rather than social anxiety. as long as i'm living with my parents i can't leave my room except to eat

definitely looking forward to starting life soon and i hope you can do the same

this make me bad

>be me
>go shoot mudslimes
>fucking ied

this :(

>friends told me that they have no plans for the weekend
>they actually went into the bar without me
>tfw looking at snapchats and pictures of them on facebook, how happy they look and how much fun they're having without me

go fuck yourself plz

i feel you user

k

Same thing happens to me all the time.
They invite me out, and then cancel at the last moment (but they still go out anyway).
Always see though snapchat and facebook of the great time they've had without me.

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Next time, go where you said you were gonna go and see if you can spot 'em.
If they ask what you're doing, just say "I felt like going out. The fuck are you doing? I thought you cancelled."
Might make 'em not see you as a little bitch who'll just accept it. Or you could just ditch them as friends, they sound like shitty friends.

she raped?

I can somewhat manage my "food addiction" or gluttony with bubblegum, if I'm chewing on gum I can't stuff anything else in my mouth at the time, so you could give that a go

>Aunt died like 2 hours ago
>she was my fav aunt
>that's life....
I'll miss her

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yes

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Did you bang her though?

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How does it feel to be sad? Does it make you feel good in a way?

na

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>wake up one morning next to a girl i dont know
>naked
>she turns to me and says "morning, user"
>I roll with it
>she says "i love you so much. I never want to wake up without you
>we cuddle for a good hour or so
>she gets a worried look on her face
>looks at me and says "I have to go. I love you."
>wake up alone
>none of it happened
>feel like crying but feel too dead inside
>lie and sulk for the next few hours

I never thought I'd miss someone who didn't exist this much

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im so alone Sup Forums

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Saw my ex yesterday 2 months after the breakup. Went to talk to her a few hours later and made smalltalk. She didn't even bother asking how I am or what i'm doing now, Another hour later she came with her friends and joined our group (they are familiar with eachother) and didn't even say anything to me or give me one look. Why are people so cold hearted Sup Forums? I only mean well, but people seem to be emotionless towards me. Things like this seem to slowly make me want to die, since it happens more and more.

best feels :(

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No, you have dubs with you

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I'm going to go away in August. I want the time to come already, but at the same time I wish time could stop so I can just keep messing around doing absolutely nothing for eternity.
It would be so much easier if some random bullet got me in the head.

i just caved, ate until my belly hurts and now i hate myself

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It's amazing to know that there are people so much more pathetic than you

Aren't we all, really? Aren't we all just a bunch of lost little children, so very alone and so fucking lost in this vastness, just searching for love, acceptance and kindness of strangers? Searching for those who accept us as who we are but isn't that pretty hard if we can't find that kind of acceptance or even tolerance in the god damn mirror?
Be good to yourself, user. You're so alone only because everyone else is, too.

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I understand that you are sad or something, but I would much rather not have read that post.

I normally never participate in threads, but I'm tweaked out so I figure why not. I have a decent amount of friends, really good ones too. I know I should be happy and some of you fuckers have it way worse, but it's still so incredibly lonely. Like just a couple people can't really fill that emptiness when you think how small you are in the grand scheme of things. I know even my greatest plans, even if completed, will never matter. It's so depressing. The girl I love says she loves me too, but just "can't be with me yet", which I know is bullshit and I'm just going a cuck waiting on her. Everything she does is so stressful to me, and she is just negative vibes all around, but I'm somehow always coming back to her. Even out of all you hundreds of faceless anons , no one would realy care enough to even notice an attention whore like me posting in a feels thread on a speed binge. Feels bad man.

>Have to go to the doctors with mom
>need to get this cough i've had for a month checked out
>get medicine
>waiting at chemists
>friend of moms works there
>they talk
>telling her about how all of her children are working hard, getting high grades, achieving.
>'yeah mine too haha'
>lies
>we leave
>get into car
>mom cries
>doesn't look at me all the way home
>i quickly go to my room
>i hear her crying down stairs
>all i do is stay in my room
>dropped out of school
>play vinya all day, Sup Forums etc..
>feel pathetic
that was 3 weeks ago. the antibiotics i was prescribed with didn't work. getting worse. hopefully i get even worse.

Why don't you fix your life instead user? it would be much more simpler.

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Don't feel pathetic because someone thinks you are. Either fuck em, or if it realy matters to you, make them change how they think of you. Just cause someone thinks your a fuck up doesn't mean it's true.

I am lonely. And I'm sick of watching through peoples stories and seeing them with other being happy whilst I'm alone. Sometimes I think I will end up with nobody.

Go back at school, try something now you could rest when you'll be dead.

Too afraid of people to get a job
bad grades
nothing on my resume
don't want to be a wage cuck at mc donalds
while i serve people who i know. people who used to like me and think i could aspire to things

Ending up with nobody can be fun too.

Become a Hero.

Are you on any anxiety medication? Maybe go to a shitty community college for two years, get a decent paying job? Work your way up?

this made me feel really fucked up

*an hero

And what if it does nothing. i slack off during exams. playing games instead of studying.
I don't think i can trust myself enough to say that will change

It took me exactly 100 days to go from loving someone to hating him. You will find someone else

road to a 100 days, am I right people?

I kind of hate this society. It's not that I can't contribute, I don't want to. I can get rich but I'd have to work for a company whose business model is manipulating and exploiting people. I have a feeling my life is going to be either evil or worthless.

There are two types of people in the world. The sheep and the wolves. Pick which one you are.

>Become rich
>Donate

I'm jealous of seeing others happy.

That happened to me 2 weeks ago, except they didn't go into bar, but to the beach.
One of them, my so called best friend, know i love beach so much.
I thought they forgot or something, but last week we went to drink i went to pee and when i came back they were talking about it, they stopped when they realized i was listening to them.

Why ask if it happens every day?

Thats something a girl would do, i'd rather just confront them about it and/or stop talking to them tbh.

Thanks. Just a rough time, trying to loose a feeling you know

Load up on drugs, kill your friends.

I do too, it's definitely hard to change your habits. But can you afford to keep going on this way? If you have a chance to never fell that way again, shouldn't you take it?

those are not your friends user, you're better alone

and we got out number by the ugly guys losers with retarted ideas

or ugly white losers that outnumber alot of the races

Nah, have better things to spend my money on.
Ill ditch my friends tho, id rather to be alone than being the loser of my group.

Your just there to occasionally entertain them. They aren't your friends, they're your boss you try to win the approval of.

Load up on drugs.. kill your friends its fun to lose and to pretend.

Sup Forums's overboard self assured oh no i know a dirty word.

n the ugly guyas losers want to be on tv
even tho no one the ugly virgo women loser like beyonce that hurts the popular people and me and e ee killed eeffbiggie smalls

cause wanted to be on tv

What the hell are you on

but no one likes her cause she smell like shit n is uglyr r rr rr

and fuck the ugly white losers

Roll

fucken idiots with dum itiod magic that hurts nice things

I guess so...

This is just the type of bullshit people say to themselves to make themselves feel better.

shes the ugliest women alive n try to hurt e e e e nice thing ee e

so we need to understand the ugly people losers want to be on tv and have to suffer for there lamness cause the good things dont want to get along with the ugly people losers

Or to justify their actions.

"man posts drug addled rant on 4vhan 'feels thread' moments before killing 19 children at local kindergarten"

so the ugly people losers will look like frauds and lie and copy while look like frauds
and the good awesome poeple wont get no cridit
and the ugly people losers that outnumber everyone will surive
while the ugly guys losers
try to kill off the good things
with talking

>Look at me! I am random! So I am automatically funny!

even if the awesome people retire the ugly people losers will try to kill them cause laugh at them cause ugly and fraud like the ugly virgo women loser that smell like poo ee e n cant get any g ee e guys

with like things like secuity or dont want to tell e ee secrets re e e e e

what the hell is 4vhan

cause will make awesome people look bad even tho no one likes the ugly guys losers e e e eee

Guys, my perfect girlfriend just broke up with me. Im driving home tomorrow and im laying beside her, but we're obviously doing nothing. I'm on my phone and don't know what the fuck to do. My life was so empty and depressed but she kept me happy, now i know that she wanted it to end all the time.
She lied to me about the love.
She doesn't even like me anymore.
Im crushed and i know shes happy.

Anyone out there feeling with me? Also, first time posting in a feels thread, i guess...