Anyone out there anywhere near close to becoming a wizard?

Anyone out there anywhere near close to becoming a wizard?

I'm 3 years away from hitting 30 as a virgin, does anyone know if your hormones eventually just drop and you just die inside and don't care anymore or does it just get more depressing?

3 years is a lot of time. have hope user ffs

I turn 37 this weekend, though tbh I look weirdly young for my age, and I was drunk/stoned for about 13 years, so I'm fairly immature as well, despite my high IQ.
Actually I'm not sure what you're asking.
Yeah, your hormone levels drop as you age, but it's not that simple. Don't you know any older people who aren't dead inside?

How immature exactly?

Also** your hormones never completely go away I don't think. It peaks around 23ish and slowly declines

Is it true that if you don't use it you lose it?

To an extent, muscle atrophy being a prime example. It is a good way to look @ things, but for the most part, yes. Even ur dick might shrink if u Dnt use it

I feel dead inside already and I've had sex with various girlfriends over the years. Life is inherently depressing and the structure of modern society more than compensates for the improvements in living standards over the years.

Well, I'm 37 and I'm on Sup Forums...
Nah, I'm a special case (aren't we all?). I'm an odd mix of really together and really messed up, I'm in therapy at the moment after a BAD breakup late last year, and I had an atypical but serious drinking problem.

Incidentally, tbh, sex is not even all that great in the first place. If you want sex, pay an expensive escort. She will be far more attractive than any girl who would date you if you aren't an 8/10 millionaire. The main benefit of having a relationship is more about companionship and emotional connection, but women tend to burn through men pretty quickly in modern American society so idk how attainable that really is anymore.

You don't die inside as much as you grow up and realize the reason you're alone is you don't try to change your situation

im starting to feel sort of dead inside already, for example when I was in my teens to start of my twenties I wanted so bad to meet a girlfriend and went through lots of rejection over and over, tried bars, asking girls out at work, got a few pitty dates but I realized im just really ugly and instead started focusing on the gym instead of trying to get a date, then I just sort of slowly started to except that I'm not attractive and part of me sort of died that wanted to try anymore but I still feel sort of sad about it, does that desire to still want to have someone ever go away?

Being able to maintain the ability to love (in a non-obsessive way) is more important than getting laid with regularity. If you can love and desire a woman, you can have great sex, well into later life (provided you have physical health of course).

what If you can always get this but then it is never returned, and you have to experience someone you care about fucking other people and wanting to hang out with you all the time but not being attracted to you?

Tell us more about yourself OP

just an average shut in retarded faggot I guess

No, I think most people want companionship and always will. The thing is that girls are two things at once: they are sexually-attractive romantic objects and also potential partners in life, and the desire to be with a girl is always a mix of these things. You have to somehow sort out your personal priorities and what it is you actually want in a companion. I'm dealing with this stuff right now, actually. Some people seem to have no problem with it; I've nothing but problems with it, which is how I'm even able say this, because I'm learning the hard way.

What do you want before you die OP?

inner peace, maybe general happiness without feeling sad very much, I feel though that if I finish life without experiencing love it might have been a waste not knowing what it's like, but if I could stop feeling sad about it, I probably wouldn't care

Than what kind of person are you that's preventing yourself from achieving these things?

I'm not really sure, I sort of intermittently feel sad and have tried to achieve love to the point where at one point in my life I was spending the majority of my free time trying to meet women, but it just sort of eventually seemed like a futile task and I attempted to switch my focus to the gym and lost about 100lbs, tried to meet women again and got a bit of a better response but still failed and just came to the conclusion that I was just too unattractive for any girl to like me as anything more then a friend, and then when I think about that I get in sort of a perpetual loop of feeling sad, but It is hard not to think about that, which would be somewhat related to the original op because I want to know if it ever just ends naturally when you stop thinking about it and that part of you dies if you can't fix the problem by finding love

Let me tell you mate, your physical attractiveness isn't the barrier you think it is. I'm a pretty good-looking guy (not in a model/actor way, but good-looking none-the-less) and it's never been any help in getting the girl I want and never made much difference to the way I approach women. Nor should it. The girls who are first attracted by looks are not the one's you want to get involved with. The girls worth being with want a guy who is relaxed and cool with just being themselves. That's the shit you need to work on. If you can improve your body by going to the gym and eating right, that's great, but what you really need is to be happy. If you can be cool without the girl, the girls will come. And if you want to approach a girl, don't be afraid of rejection. Girls have their own issues, believe me. If they reject you it might be because they're fucking stupid.

OP, if youre not a fat dweeb then you are close to becoming a legend. just go for it. just in case get a vasectomy.

Nah bro, that train passed me by 21 years. After that life was good and the never ending fuck fest kept on going till I got married and had kids. Now pussy is most temes just a luxury that I can only dream of while I man handle my aging womb warrior.