She is beautiful. How does it feel not to have a beautiful girl in your life...

She is beautiful. How does it feel not to have a beautiful girl in your life? I think about this everyday and it is killing me.

hi

>I think about this everyday and it is killing me.

the obvious solution would be: stop thinking about it

are you the G sad user? I am the other G user who never had a gf, have not seen you here for a long time. but anyway, I am mostly numb to it now, it used to hurt my heart and make me break down, but I don't feel anything any more. it is basically merciful since I see too much beauty I'll never be able to touch ._.

More recently, I have been thinking of this. Although I get along with girls, my anxiety makes me ponder the though of if I am socially inept. Thus, being a deterrent for seeking relationships.

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Beauty.

That's not exactly easy.

I am indeed the sad man. I am not numb. I desperately crave love.

Well at least you KNOW girls.

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More please.

The reason losers like you never get any girls in your life is because you don't do anything but think about them. Try being interesting.

me again
I wish I could just not wake up, have literally zero desire or motivation for anything any more and long since given up on being loved :(
in fact I barely feel any pleasure from looking at pictures of such lovely people as G, any more

Sounds liek you already know how it feels, why are you asking

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well, i wasn't born with Chad genetics, and my girlfriend is a 6.5/10 in the looks department with great humor, great friendship, great loyalty, and all around a nice girl to match it.

therefore, OP, it doesn't feel all that bad to not have a 10/10 babe. just accept that you're stuck with the cards life has dealt you and you'll be a lot happier in the long run

she's like 14 right? She looks so mature for her age.

Why save new pictures then?

She is 17. This photo taken the other day.

I think my girlfriend is beautiful but every time I look at her all I can think about is how much happier she would be with someone else knowing that I'm a piece of shit that doesn't deserve her

A realistic user? On Sup Forums? Wtf?!?!

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kek that's pretty pitiful, man

It's all about the looks.

I'll be your girlfriend user.

It's in no way about looks you cretin. If you opened your eyes at all you'd see a ton of ugly dudes with hot chicks and hot guys with ugly chicks.
It's about not being a fucking loser.

I mostly stay out of public and don't talk to or see many girls any more but I still like to look at them
and it's a collector habit, mostly something to pass time with and feel better, though I rarely ever look at the pics after saving them initially except for when I share them on here and other places

They're called trophy wives.

werd meng

I have too many g pics. It's so messed up.

Here's a real question - when's the last time you actually went outside?

I am out at night.

I am the one who asked how you had pics even I didn't a few months ago, because I had a lot
but in Apr I had a bit of a breakdown and deleted nearly everything on my drive including the G stuff, haven't had any motivation to rebuild most of it

I just stuff it in one folder. We will be dead someday so what does it matter?

So you'd know that most people are average-ugly looking right? And the good looking ones end up with average-ugly ones because there's more of them. And that no "trophy wife" would go to the shit bar or whatever you'd end up going to at night.

Do yourself a favor. Go to the doctor, get some meds for your obvious depression, get some interests or hobbies or something, and stop this shit.

I'm not getting anti-depressents. I need my libido. It's all I have in terms of enjoyment. The meds are not magically going to transform me. What hobbies? Girls don't have much in common with that shit.

yes true, however organizing is just old habit of mine and saving everything together always caused filename changes because of duplicates so it would get too messy
organizing is another way I pass time, one of the only things I feel I have control and progress over I guess

I really like your pics btw, you always surprise me with a new or rare G pic

It's just a pain sometimes finding the right one.

Been on antidepressants for years, if anything the only sexual side effect has been being able to last longer.

You're right meds aren't going to magically transform you. You need therapy too.

Here's another part of your problem. You see the woman stereotype on tv and movies and you think "well that's all there is!" It's like the only two types of men being Chad and beta. It's retarded. People come in all different gradients with all different interests. My current gf and I clicked over going to the same concerts, then she showed me some of her shit (history major) and I showed her some of mine (writing) and suddenly bam relationship.

Stop being a 14 year old.

I appreciate your help but I fear my hole has been dug too deep. Maybe there has to be losers for there to be winners in this world.

That is literally the definition of depression.

Point is, you've got two options. One is you fix it the other is you shut the fuck up. You are making the choice to not try. So stop talking about it. If you were trying then bitching about how hard it is being you at least has some merit.

reminds me of the hockey mask from Friday the13th movies
I wouldn't mind if G killed me tbh.

How many different guys do you think have penetrated her?

Depends what orifice we're talking.

>cake reconfigured with makeup

I guess I should shut up then. It just gets a bit too much somedays. Horrible cycle.

the novelty of dating a beautiful girl wears off pretty quickly.

Give an estimate for each.

Like I said, fix it

I haven't been suicidal in over a year. It's worth it

I feel the way way most days.

Can't motivate myself to do anything.

Look at people who seem better than me and just feel worse.

Even though I don't feel sad now, I feel that I am depressed truly.

had a few gfs that were way to beautiful for me. at least I thought that.
Problem is that I cant hold any relationship for long
longest I had was 2 years
reason could be the sex, I suck at it

A dozen times oral. Three times penetration of vagina. Dan.

don't worry. if that's how you think, she'll eventually leave you for someone better. Trust me, I destroyed a perfectly wonderful 5-year relationship that way and pretty much guaranteed that I'll never be a father since I'm an old shit. I advise you to find a therapist and start working on your self-esteem so you don't make the mistake that I did.

pic very unrelated. it's Alyeska from suicidegirls.

2 years is a long relationship. What kind of yardstick are you guys using on yourselves? They're goddamn unrealistic.

I once saw a cute couple out and they both were doing naughty things in public. I felt bad for being the loner. I think they went in a public toilet for kinky sex.

>tfw no kinky gf

>20 dollars says user is under 30

I'm not op, I'm the other G guy here, but you really should tone down the tough love shit when talking with people in their state of mind, it does not help at all (assuming you're actually trying to be helpful)

his ideas on the drugs have full merit, they are not magical, they are hastily prescribed from retardedly fast diagnoses and that's assuming someone can afford the fucking fees to see a psychiatrist or buy the meds in the US
I have been on 5 antidepressants and mood stabilizer over period of years and tried different therapists and methods of therapy, it barely affected me in any way
and also like op mentioned, many of that type of drugs destroys sex drive completely, it makes your mood a dull lifeless grey purgatory to where you're just stable enough to not kill yourself

>dem coffee stains

was the longest by far.the other ones just lasted for about halb a year. THe problem still remains: losing a gf shortly after she realizes something I dont really am sure of.(maybe sex)

you'd be wrong.

born the year Elvis died. saw ET when it came out at the drive-in with my parents.

Nicely worded. Yes, I don't want my emotions neutered and brain pops. I feel the issue can ve fixed without chemically altering the brain. Unfortunately we live in a society driven by social media now so girls have easy pickings. They realize there is always a Chad online. I refuse to take any meds.

This is Sup Forums, not your therapy board. I'm trying to be realistic. As someone who's spent the past 15 years suffering with depression, anxiety, bipolar, etc, I can tell you that anyone who's posting pictures of some chick and going "oh I'll always be lonely" needs a hard reality check.

Life sucks. I'm saying this as someone who's been up and has felt better for quite some time. But pretending that there's some super happy reality that others are living is only making shit worse on you (plural you). You all need to see the world for what it really is. A challenge, where even this "perfect girl" is really just a human being with her own set of problems and annoying quirks.

Once you get past that you'll stop needing some ideal to make you happy, and you're going to realize that what makes you happy is entirely dependent on you.

Yeah I'm waiting for her to get bored of me now it's only a matter of time really. Have you gone to therapy does it work?

satan trips

So all of your relationships have been normal for someone in their 20s. Congrats!

Here's an idea, maybe you just didn't have matching personalities. Or you didn't communicate well. Maybe the only reason you think it's sex is because a large part of how you react to women is based on porn, which - hint - isn't real.

This

what good is your libido if you're too autistic to talk to girls? jacking off to pics of some 15 yo celeb?

no girl wants to be with a sad cunt, so find something fulfilling to do with your life, get confident, and the girl situation will work itself out. you need a change of mindset. it rarely happens though, everyone seems to have a natural proclivity to focus on either neg or positives in their life, so even you somehow managed to find yourself knee deep in poon, you'd still be a sad cunt. man up or stay in the basement.

Life is more than just girls.

>I'm incapable of writing a number
You're also slightly older than I am. I haven't even realistically considered having a kid yet, and I full intend to.

You're waiting for a self fulfilling prophesy. And therapy is like anything else, you get out what you put in.

Oh so your emotions aren't already neutered? And you didn't post a few posts up about how you're destined to be a loser?

You refuse to take meds because you refuse to admit that your unhappiness is your own problem. You'd rather it be the rest of the world's.

hmm. it can but it takes time and commitment. you have to find the right therapist, for one. sometimes you just don't connect with the therapist as a person, other times they use an approach that doesn't work for you. the other issue here is that self-esteem is a core belief, formed over time and usually when we're very young. changing that can be very difficult.

there's a book you might want to take a look at. it's called the SELF-ESTEEM WORKBOOK by Shiraldi. It might give you some ways of looking at things that can help you.

it's ultimately about mindfulness. a workbook can be a start but changing the way you think about yourself doesn't happen overnight. working with a therapist or in a group therapy setting--or pursuing a spiritual path with a strong mindfulness/meditation component--is probably the best way to address this issue.

not a doctor or a therapist, just my thoughts on the matter. ymmv.

well not quite normal. had first gf pretty late for a "normal" person
I am not a big porn watcher, so that can be ruled out too.
tried a lot in bed but for some reason it was never good enough

well, I haven't given up on it entirely, but I recognize that the chances are smaller at this point than they were in the past, and with each passing year they get a little smaller. I'm single at the moment so, barring any accidents, it's going to be a year or so. I'm also currently finishing grad school and my residential and employment situation are fluid. Not in the best position right now to attract a woman interested in starting a family. But you never really know what's going to happen.

I dig this user

Have you tried communicating with your gfs/lovers? You're probably over thinking it. P in V and work the C until she Os.

You're a man (can produce offspring until death) who will soon be getting a masters and with it presumably better employment opportunities.
How is a kid not in your five year plan?

talked about it a lot
tried to do as she told me to. Still I feel I did something wrong
Also I think I never mad them go "O".
My last gf even admitted that she faked the orgasm. bad times

trips followed by quads. I am on fire today

Eh, if she faked it that's on her. I'm never going to understand why a woman would fake an orgasm. Way to deprive yourself of pleasure.

it was and it is. however:

(1) I made a poor choice regarding my degree selection. At the time I entered school for my PhD, the job market looked good for my field. With each year that has passed, the market has gotten worse and worse. At this point, jobs in my field are more difficult to get and the expectations for entry are higher. This changes the 5-year plan and decreases the likelihood of finding a marriage-oriented woman in the next 2 years. I take responsibility for my poor decision--I learned a lot from it that I can pass on to people younger than me, which is good, but as for me, I'm relatively fucked compared to my colleagues who understood the game better than I did. The irony is the mistakes I've made will make it harder for me to get into a position to mentor younger students. Nobody's fault but mine.

(2) Also had to adjust the plan when my relationship imploded. We were on track to be married and start a family. In the middle of our relationship she was diagnosed with bipolar. That made things difficult and on top of my depression--untreated at the time--things did not last. Again, my fault.

(3) 200k in debt. Poor decision making that I have learned from but a huge liability on the dating market. I'm almost 40. It will be hard to pay back loans, save for retirement, AND provide for a family.

My 5-year plan at this point is focused on finishing my PhD, making myself competitive in my field, securing employment, and then figuring out a financial plan so that I can retire at 70.

None of this means that the situation is hopeless, but it is challenging. I assume that women want men to be the primary bread-winners. It's going to be a while before I'm ready to be that.

not mad about it, not sad about it, not blaming anyone for it. but I do recognize the situation for what it is.

look. seriously. her orgasm is her responsibility, not yours. your only objective when you're having sex should be to have fun experiencing each other--i.e., the "process" of sex rather than the outcome. otherwise it's just a machine-like task and you're nothing more than a dildo. if she wants a dildo, she can order one from babeland.

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Hey OP, I used to be a beta faggot like you. But you know what? I stopped caring about it. I fucked plenty of 4s and 5s while I was in undergrad getting an engineering degree. I got a good job in a nice city after college. I took care of myself and made sure I was a good friend to the people I met. I made good money and eventually I started going to the gym regularly, eating right and doing active things - joined a co-ed soccer team, joined a running club, which led to me meeting more people and hotter chicks. All the practice I got from my time banging 3s and 4s and making friends and being a cool guy who know was in great shape and had a lot of money led to me banging 7s and 8s and eventually led to me meeting my wife who's a doctor pulling in $300k+ and is a 9.5 in the looks department.

So basically OP, don't sweat it. Take care of yourself first, bang your 2s and 3s but don't commit to them. Eventually things will fall into place and you'll meet your Disney princess, you faggot.

Thanks user. I sure hope so.