Hi. I am chronically burnout, diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder, addicted to pornography...

Hi. I am chronically burnout, diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder, addicted to pornography. That's the short version.

I'm very tired, my mind is a mess to the point where I just don't know what to think anymore, what to feel, what to do. I have serious problems to connect with other people, I'm simply very emotionally flat inside for numerous reasons, but I still feel the need to connect with something, anything. The very few interests I have had, have been diminishing in the past years. 2 years ago when I started battling with my problems I was full of optimism and hope, now I just feel void inside, like an empty shell, a constant scratching of anxiety, impulse of thought to fill the missing bits and parts with no end in sight. In the past month I've lost all willpower I had, I just can't seem to motivate myself to do anything worthwhile anymore.

Sup Forums what medication would be good for me? Maybe you can give me some advice to read something, or dunno. I tried Sertraline, but it had some unfortunate side effects. Instead of suppressing sexual function it increased, which is bad. I am not suicidal, but please, feel free to humor me to keep the thread alive.

hey try mindfulness meditation, I do 10 minutes a day and it helps to just let go and just breathe for that ten minutes, it seriously gives some good perspective

Exercise man. Get a bike.. I have literally lost my mind more than a few times. Everyone goes through shit. Fuck medication. It helped for a year then made things worst. I feel so much better off of everything. Get off the internet.

Fuck meds op they're not worth it, get a pet maybe smoke weed

What was the trigger?

How about some weed?

I was misdiagnosed with Schizophrenia which led to me being put on Zyprexa which fucked up my sex-drive and made me couchpotato. Medication won´t always help. And as the other anons said, exercise, meditate (it helped me, 20 minutes in the darkness every night before sleep), I quit porn and focused on real life. Also, motivation can be a tricky one, try doing instead of doing only when you feel the urge of motivation. Make habits. Once you do them for a couple of weeks they´ll stick. Change habits from porn, meditating ON anxiety to more positive activities. That´s my 2 cents. Hope it helps Sup Forumsro.

Take inositol and choline, harmless supplements for focus. Make sure you eat your vegetables. Get 15 mins of sunlight a day. Exercise and stretch everyday, even if its just minor. If you're just exhausted, get lots of healthy food and just rest and do nothing for a few days

meditation is the way to go i am pretty sure about that

>15 minutes of sunlight a day.

Are you crazy?

In fact, I started reading a book "The Mindful Way through Depression" which incorporates that technique as a basis for dealing with chronic unhappiness, but I just... you know can't seem to give a enough fuck to read more than 5 pages at once.

I kinda am on the verge where I feel that without medication, I am just not able to deal with myself, but that's good advice, thanks.

I'm in an extremely similar place in my life right now as well. I'm interested to what others have to say but for me it's been picking a decent MMO or something to bury your dead time in and during day light hours getting out and DOING something, anything. The goal is to stay out of your head and into the world even if it's just going to Walmart without a dime in your pocket, it's something.

Get seasalt and mix it in a warm or hot bath and make the water salt concentration the same as the ocean

Meditate

You could also do lots of drugs. That's normally how I cope wit everything

"Smoke weed". Pfft fucking terrible advice, from the token junkie. Weed might help for a couple of days, but for someone with addiction problems it'll make things 10 times worse. Don't listen too these "pot cures everything, man" types. They are usually the worse kind of lowlifes around

Sertraline sucks. Most of the time it doesn't work, its just the first thing they give out because its pretty safe and it gives them insight to your condition by how you react to it. If it works for some people, awesome, but most of the time its just a tester.

>now I just feel void inside, like an empty shell, a constant scratching of anxiety
who doesnt?

I know, he's pretty much described everyone on Sup Forums

OP here.

I tried to upkeep physical routine, a good while back I was able to run 10km in 1h with ease, went to the stadium and worked on bars, pull-ups and so on. It helps, but on it's own it's just a small improvement overall.

Don't exercise for the sake of exercising, in my experience motivation can be a real problem. Exercise for a reason. Did you run too compete or just run?

Everything is a small improvement. Nothing in life is a major improvement user. But if you do a lot small things you get it after a while. Start today and do small things to build a big fort

Alright, faggot, then tell me the real shit?

Tried same as
I'd be just happy if they made me functional even for a short while, I recently got off from Sertraline and it was pretty bad. I know the consequences, I just don't care.

been taking those little bastard for year and half. Not helping much but i think i would be dead by now if i didn't take those.

that fucked me up badly. If you have mental problems don't even think about it.

Probably, why?

TLDR motherfucker

hey I have schizoid personality disorder too. meds don't work for me and was suggested shock therapy but the place they sent me to sucked so I got out of there. I just take klonopin now for the anxiety. Exercising is good, sign up for dailyburn, it's kind of fun.

I have no interest in competing, I did it to feel better, that was my motivation. To pull myself up from shit. The 10km was kind of a goal, but after that I lost passion, I still run once in a while, but like I said, small improvement.

Inositol and choline, alright, that's something. I know the importance of sunlight, D vitamin. Generally I eat pretty healthy, junk food is a rarity once in a while.

Thanks.

fuck off

Weed actually does help once in a while, like each 3-4 months I smoke when it gets really bad. I am thinking about that now, but that is kind of a stopgap measure when I have time, currently exams are coming and it's not a good idea.

Shock therapy? Sounds cool, but I already heard it's not fun.

Dailyburn? Fuck that shit, it needs me to pay money that I don't have.

the thing with life is that once your goal stops, you kind of have to make a new one. and i think that´s why people see it as meaningless, since it never fucking stops. but try to accept it and set a new one, or do something new. I know it can be hard from time to time, but if you just start with laying ONE brick, the house will be done sometime. Then you kind of have to do it again. yeah, life is a tricky one

I will, it's not like anyone here has suggested anything I haven't already considered.

get a career. thats the best medication for you. no joke.

Basically the only thing that is going to help with personality disorders is therapy. Meds can help with symptoms, won't help with the disorder.

Once you achieved your goal you lost interest? Got to set some more goals man, keep it fresh.

Yeah, yeah, new interests, activities. Don't give up, keep going forward. bla bla bla stuff I have telling myself for a very long time.

Good advice, though I feel that I do not have enough spark in myself. I know at some point it will get better and I will try again, but I'm kinda desperate for something I haven't heard so far.

Yep, that's true. I don't currently have the money, nor the time for therapy. Best short term solution is to mitigate symptoms and acquire functionality, a good starting point has provided the most success so far.

Agree. I study medicine, but it's difficult to focus on it since I just don't have joy of life, porn addiction really fucks up my mental abilities. I need to progress systematically, one problem at a time, starting with the causes not the end goals.

yeah man, it sounds like some fucking selfhelp shit, but trust me, i´ve been thinking about anheroing so many times, but instead of staying in the same place, keep moving, momentum. and as the others say, get a career, it helps to focus on shit outside of your own head. Think about this: you only have the perspective you have now cuz you sit in it all day. you REALLY don´t know what´s out there. yeah, you can intellectulize it and shit, but you can´t really live it, if you feel me? so i guess either keep going or sit still and be the same sack of hopelessness. i know it helped me and other friends to just do random shit and make meaning out of it