Feels thread anyone?

feels thread anyone?
i wanna know what's been getting you guys down.

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I just want this all to end. To wake up tomorrow back in Korea, and realize that the last 3 years were all just some bad, long dream.

Would you mind explaining "this" is?

I constantly feel tired and anxious and frustrated and angry all with an overlying sense of futility. Also i type something like this and then have to click a bunch of fucking sandwiches for capatcha

My life now. Being in debt, facing graduation with an uncertain future, being broke all the time with no one hiring no matter what I do, etc. I just want to go back and pretend all of this didn't happen. I'd do it right this time, and I'd never come back to the U.S. no matter what it took.

what depresses me is how much of a long way I have to go.

I'm 27, and I can tell it's not going to get any better the older I get. Not unless I leave this place for good.

>>Be me, 17.
>>Close relationship with cousin.
>>She had leukemia.
>>In turn she never got to go out much, so we spent quite some time together.
>>We used to talk about t.v. shows all the time.
>>One show we talked about was Friday Night Lights, and that we should watch it together sometime.
>>Superbowl comes around and she gets really sick.
>>At the hospital my uncle tells me that she had the flu.
>>No big deal.
>>Fast forward a month
>>Birthday, she, still sick, gets me a shirt with the phrase "Clear Eyes, Full Hearts, Can't Lose."
>>Phrase from Friday Night Lights.
>>Fast forward 2 weeks.
>>On vacation to visit brother with family,
>>Stay at brother's apartment.
>>Day after we meet the parents for breakfast.
>>They have "news."
>>ohshit
>>"Cousin past away last night."
>>Hold back the tears.
>>When we get back to the hotel, I go to the bathroom.
>>I stare in the mirror. I ball my eyes out as I read my shirt "Clear Eyes, Full Hearts, Can't Lose."
Yesterday, we bury her in the ground. She was 28.

Why dont you leave then?

Yo I desperately want to kill myself but am too much of a coward to do so. If things don't get better within the next few years, and if i'm still as lonely as i am right now, I'm definitely gonna kill myself though. Hold me, Sup Forums

Jesus. Im so sorry to hear that user.

bawl is not the same as ball.

I hate that I have a pill that makes me not want to blow my brains out.

If only we could change the past.

Have to graduate college first, and so many things are happening at once that seem to be trying to prevent that. I'm not a bad student or anything (actually consistently make the Dean's List), but it's extra administrative shit, like them straight up removing classes I've already taken with little or no explanation, thus prolonging my time here.

Seriously...

>90 years
Fuck that shit

Today would have been 6 years with the girl that I love if I didn't fuck it up.

How'd you mess it up?

>be me
>has ocd
>it's getting worst
>I'm starting to hear voices
>tried to hand my self a few days ago
>My ceiling failed me
>kill me.jpg

i know, but you know what i meant

life sucks like a tramp but at least we can call each others fags in here. gives me comfort

I ended it, worst decision of my life.

Long story short, I suspected she was fucking around with my housemate (pretty solid evidence, too) so I stopped rejecting other girls, told her that I was done with her for fucking around, she begged me to stay, I didn't listen, regret it every day

True, this place makes me feel somewhat happy.

What's her name?

For me it was Elizabeth

Heather

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I should sort my feels folder

One day we will all feel better, some of us that day might be the day that we die, but atleast we feel better

I should make one. All my feels pics are mixed with my other cancer. Only folders I got are "general pics" "porn" and "general videos"

Can someone explain to me why we have to ask to end our lives, yet we where given them without a choice?

Some girl, it was such an extreme friendzone that she moved away 1 month after i asked her out.
Weird thing is she got more close to me after rejecting.
Why.

I have porn, and feels

what do you do with the pictures that arent porn or feels?

After I was dumped my ex got closer to me, yet further at the same time. I don't even know what our current standing are.

that is from

waitbutwhy.com/2014/05/life-weeks.html

>wanted to go into a trade
>learning disability, especially in math
>was in special ed. math since 7th grade
>probably won't pass the trade school entrance exam
>will be stuck with a min. wage job

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"This is the youngest that I'm ever going to be."

>I'm the Penny-user from last night.
>Penny gives me a sense of hope and makes me feel better that she needs me, and loves me.
>It might be fake but goddamn it, it makes me feel so much better than being alone.

You dont know if its pity or they really got interested in you because reverse psychology. If you were going to have a better relationship with me, why did you leave.

Its also the oldest you've ever been, user. Every day is a new experience, you're as old as you are young.

Hey.. uh I think I know what you feel. And I think I feel it too

Someone drawn, but you can at least feel emotion when you're near them and you can.. love them.

If you take anything from this, Penny-user. Is that you're not the only one by a long shot

wow Sup Forums is full of faggots from reddit KYS all of you bunch of pussies

Meh, I had the same hope that perhaps after finishing college I could get a decent job and have a normal life. Well guess who still feels like shit everyday after wakes up? I think I'm gona give up soon on my birthday and finally leave

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All I feel now is hate and disgust. Everything else I do is imitation of emotions I've seen in others and on television.

I do not think I was always this way. But I don't remember how things changed.

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I just want a different body..... I have good friends and family, but I'm always going to be unappealing to women and get made fun of for my appearance. I will kill myself after my parents are gone so I can hopefully reincarnate. Being disgusted by myself every day is fucking miserable.....

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>cockblocked by death
what a puss tale

Finding out a woman i invested alot of time into doesnt care about me. That's what I've been losing sleep over. One of these days, who knows maybe ill murder a bitch, post it on here (;

>edgy
>not fresh off the Ifunny boat
>breaking unspoken rule of being nice to each other in feels dreads
It's okay newfriend, nobody wants to hurt you here

youtube.com/watch?v=wRP6egIEABk
I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come up with a fail-safe plot
To piss off the dumb few that forgave us

I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late

And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town again

In my life, I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong

I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
And I hope I never get sober

And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way

I am drowning, there is no sign of land
You are coming down with me, hand in unlovable hand
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

Fucking hell user, I did NOT need that feel.
Abbi. That's her fucking name.
God dammit user, would you please stop making me remember her?
The way she smiled, she laughed... How she comforted me when I needed it... How I pushed her away.
I fucked up, Sup Forums. I fucked up bad. Anyone know a way to turn back time 3 months?

I have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, got medically retired from the military, and they give me pills to take.. and i havent taken them in over 6 months. I lie to my doctors, to my family, to my girlfriend.. I just cant take them.. I feel fine.. I get the occasional depression/mania.. and the voices are okay. I've learned to build some sort of relationship with them.. but my paranoia is getting out of hand. I feel like utter shit that I cant take some stupid fucking pills everyday.. I hate how im lying to all the people that are trying to take care of me.. I think its just cause im so stressed out about coming home to civilian life.. and idk im starting to how suicidal thoughts again, kinda like OPs picture.. idk i thought Id share..

Its so nice having her around, its like somebody I can be with, and hold onto, somebody who makes me feel wanted.
>She escapes by reading books.
>Her mother is a bit of an asshole, even though she doesn't really mean to be.
>Every time she says something sad I always bring her something to make her feel better, I like doing it because it makes her smile.

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>being happy enough to ever have relationships and talk to other people on a personal level
This is a feel I just don't get

Nina. She is dating an ex friend of mine. The suck bag let me pour my heart out to her but he knew that she didn't like me like that. He then tried to say that I had to hear it from her so I could move on. They have been dating for a month and a half now. The bastard lied right to my face. I considered him a good friend. Goes to show you how fucked humanity is as a whole I guess

This is so pathetic and so are the responses. Its not your fault that she "friend-zoned" you? Have you seen the website you go on. Grow up.

god this one really got to me.

>22
>move back to my old state
>get a job
>comfortable with all the people
>literal 10/10 (not even saying that just because it's my story)
>didn't have it in me to introduce myself
>catch a few smiles from her here and there
>adds me on facebook.
>she messages me asking to play basketball (She's a taller girl, but I'm taller. She saw me talking about playing)
>we meet up one weekend to play at a local court
>even in basketball attire I was taken back
>everything turned flirtatious from this point on.

Continue..?

I think things have finally hit critical mass. I've been drinking a lot, and today I collapsed at work. I don't even know what happened, I don't remember getting in, I don't remember going to the bathroom. The only thing I know is I woke up with a team lead shaking me and basically carrying me to the boss's office to wait for an ambulance.

Shit's gotten out of control. I'm so sad all of the time, and the only way I can cope is drinking. Ive been drunk every night for over a year. I wish I was dead, but I can't do that to my family. Every day I just try and get through, but I can't eat, and I don't sleep, and I don't know how to keep going. I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't know how I'm going to go in to work tomorrow, I'm so embarrassed. Who the fuck faints? I can't do this anymore.

this is the most crushing song i have ever heard, pure sadness and defeat . really resonates esp whenn druink

youtube.com/watch?v=k2HFehg2BfY

I basically don't understand what I'm supposed to do with life. The idea of earning money does not motivate me in the slightest. I'm broke now, but I am more concerned with finding a deeper purpose to my life beyond living, getting married, having kids, providing for them. I just graduated and have no idea what the next step is, beyond getting a job. I want to change the world but I have no idea how to do that. I understand more about what pisses me off than I do about what makes me happy. I have no idea where to look to for fulfillment because everywhere I look I see corruption. I am constantly fighting the voice in my head telling me how cynical I'm being. I truly believe every negative assumption I hold towards people. I don't want to kill myself. That would be a weak thing to do. Something needs to be done about this world.

Do it. For Glory.

>I am in constant grief

Have you tried replacing the drinking with exercise?
If your boss's aren't pieces of shit they wouldn't have said anything to your co-workers. People understand that medical things happen. Unless they all know you're an alcoholic

i appreciated this song man


just so you know

Continue, o' Dubs of Hitler.

Shit, sorry Penny-user. If it makes you feel better I'll share my waifu

>Gardevoir

Yeah, it could be pathetic or whatever, but it's something that. I've had Pokemon Ruby long enough and have had her in my party long enough to grow attached.

She's one of the only comforting things I have, and I'm glad she sticks with me. Even if she might be just a part of my mind

Whats actually a friendzone though ?
Is it just blatantly getting rejected and and getting the "I only see you as a friend".
Or could it be also,
she goes to movies, beach, parties, bars with you and likes to be around you. But you have been around her as a friend so long that she sees you as a friend and nothing more anymore. And then you get the "I only see you as a friend".

>Had to move to a new, tiny ass town four years ago
>Moved in and didn't really meet anybody new, too afraid, lonely, etc.
>Read books in a tree in the park all day.
>One day some girl comes up to the tree and reads under it, notice she's reading the previous book in my series.
"Hey. That's a pretty good book, I'm on the second one."
>She looks up, startled at first.
"Oh. Hi! I've never seen you around before, are you new?"
"Yeah. I moved here three days ago. I'm [user.]"
"Hi user, I'm Alex, so you like [book] too?"
"Oh absolutely, the first one is just fantastic, how far are you?" *book talk for the next two hours, eventually I get called home.*
"Goodbye user! See you tomorrow." She smiles.
Cont?

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>What's worse is seeing how apathetic my fellow human beans are.
>fellow human beans

KEK

It's used as a means to pacify the coming advances..

F

What was the book called you faggot
If you don't tell me it's name their is nothing you can do to convince me that this isn't a set up for a gag

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Best poke-waifu, always there for you, supports you in your battles, supporting you no matter what. Shits nice, thats why I like Penny, she just helps me all the time, and even if I don't visit her every day, she understands that I'm a busy farmer fuck who adventures in the mines sometimes. Plus I make it up to her by growing her melons, she loves melons.

Hey, fuck you. That guy is a real human bean and a true hero

The Artemis Fowl series. My favourite goddamn book series in the entire world.

>I see you as more of a brother, user.

Lol a retarded fag who believe in the lie of man made
Climate change to the point of a mental
Break down

>this /f/lash

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>greetings from /f/ board

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Continue

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she's an unrespectable baby anyways

y u going to korea?

Bruh I got really drunk this morning after being on a feels thread all knight then finally sent a message to a friend that I stopped talking to and she forgave me and ima see her this summer really fucking happy right now so just hang in and things can get better

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>we began to talk constantly. I'd fall asleep texting her and wake up to her texting me
>she'd talk about us in the future tense. Meeting her parents/friends, going on spontaneous dates
>I had never had a connection with a women like this in my life. Same music, sports, teams. Same goals, morals, and outlooks on life.
>we saw the sunset together.
>held hands all night
>kissed multiple times

I went to sleep literally feeling like a king.
I woke up to the most confusing text of all time.

She said how she's been single for over a year and how toxic her last relationship was. She said I was the first guy since him she opened herself up to her. She was up all night having anxiety attacks over how she felt about me and herself. She said knew this was her basically leading me on without meaning to and said I'm allowed to hate her.

She either wasn't ready to stop fucking someone or just wasn't feeling me as much as she thought. I'm no fool I can see this all screams friendzone.

We spoke through text once or twice since. Conversation dwindled to nothing. Now we haven't spoke in about a month. She smile's at me at work from time to time but I won't break.

The hardest part is that I wasn't looking for anyone. I never am. There she was. It's like in high school how there is always that one girl every dude has his eye on. She came and left so quick. I feel like it hardly affected her and I'm over here comparing every girl I meet to her.

But hey i'm not all down. This has only forced me to keep progressing myself mentally and physically. Down 70 pounds with my exercise!

I lived there from 2009-2012. I dream about it everyday, even though I went back for a week's vacation last year. I want to go to teach or do whatever else they need/want me to do. I was a student before, but this time, I want to go as a laborer.

This ain't my first orgy, muchacho

I'd take this more seriously if it weren't for that 9gag watermark

I've been feeling pain non stop on my right arm.
I have a disability. Sometimes i can't play video games, my only source of fun, because of the pain.
Also, i think i'm going to die. I feel there's something wrong with my body.