I've got a story for you guys cause you’ve helped me through some hard times...

I've got a story for you guys cause you’ve helped me through some hard times, so I thought you guys could get some entertainment out of my misery. This is the story about my first love, how it sent me to the psych ward, how I got assaulted by a nig nog, and how I rode my bike up hill one mile drunk to eat some pussy.

I'll start from the beginning.

>Been depressed.jpg since the day I was born
>My dad never really loved
>bullied at school
>no one likes me
>the few friends i have actually hate me
>you know all that generic shit
I'm sure all you tards have experienced it
>one fat kid named Reese
>Reese is big and likable and really good at baseball
>moi ne so much pas
>treats me like shit
>everyone knows the story
>he's not even the worse to me but for some reason him hating me bothered me more than anything else
>somehow made it through junior high without slashing wrists
>really hit my stride in freshmen year
>got lots of real friends
>even get a couple girlfriends.
>meet qt 3.14 named Ally
>Ally and me become best friends in December
>start getting some feelings for her
>her boyfriend dumps her in April
>cool nig nog friend talk me u telling me how i could sweep ally off her feet
>start building myself up
>Fall hard for her
>she falls for me, but things weren't right, timing was bad
>i still regret not moving faster
>she fall in arms of catholic kid named John
>get told all about their sex life throughout the summer
>still love her
>at least I thought
>she still loved me but emotionally couldn't risk it
>finally she says she's leaving him for me
>twodayslater.jpeg
>she says ‘Nevermind’
>tell her I can't do it anymore
>end friendship
>that wasn't even the first time she done that that month
>she got some emotional problems cannot be a part of that
>my depression and anxiety was destroying me
>finally get hooked up with some meds.jpg
I'll continue if anyone cares enough to hear the rest

i'll bump for u

>Get the meds
>suddenly can't sleep
> or eat
>depression worsen
> Ally texts me out of the middle of nowhere
> says 'Me and John broke up"
>thisismychance.gif
>we start talking again
>back to best friends
>feelings still there for her
>need that pussy
>we fooled around before her and john got together
>damn them tites
>ally doesn't have those feelings for me anymore
> She just wants to use me when she's horny, but even that's not constant with this bi polar Cunt
>We start having hour long conversations at night about shit that teenagers think are deep
>really fall for her even more
>still cant sleep
>still can't eat
>still in love with her
>ally goes to a mutual friends of ours to get wasted, I go the next morning
>No one wasted
>I start slamming shot after shot
>get drunk
>ally there
>then john shows up
>fuck me.jpg

>things get emotional between the three of us
>just want to give up
>The friend who’s house we were at takes me to the kitchen
>I slam back another shot
>start crying
>friend takes me in her arms
>tell me I need to lose ally
>shes right
>decide I have to do it
>get ride home
>text her that I can't do this anymore
>friendship/friends with benefits is done
>can't keep doing it
>she calls me

whatever u do, don't brandon mills on us

Carry on.....

>she’s sobbing
>oh fuck me
>ally crying hurts something deep inside me
>she fucked me over so much over that year and a half of our friendship, but if i heard cry even to this day my heart would hurt
>I can't console her
>I start telling her that we can be friends
> no more sex or flirting or anything else just friends
>I'm going to need space
>but i think we can fix this
>She’s happy and she’s done crying
>she says she’s eating lucky charms
>drunk me loves lucky charms
>decide I'm goin’ to her house

>get on my bike
>bike one mile up hill to her house
>on a fucking highway too
>drunker than I had ever been in my life
>I had taken the same path a couple times before to get that pussy
>make it alive
>get there
>she a hot mess
>her long black hair was put into a weak pony tail
>she was in a robe and pj short shorts
>her makeup smeared all across her face
>her blue eyes look tired
>GOING SMASH THAT PUSSY.jpg

>go inside eat lucky charms for like an hour with her
>she takes me into her arms
>looks me in the eyes, those beautiful eyes
>says “I just want someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay.”
>drunk me to weak
>cant resist
> eat that pussy
> bike home
>get in shower and smell of cheap liquor and pussy
>Know as I sober up how much I've fucked up

Bump yo

>call my friend that night crying telling her I messed up and did the exact opposite of what she told me to do
>calms me down
>tells me I need to end it
>tomorrow
>for real this time
>no weakness
>decides she’s right
>decide I will end it for real tomorrow after school
>make it to the end of the day
>she texts me first
>oh no.jpg
>”My parents aren't home and i'm not wearing pants”
>”... I'll be there in 5 minutes”
>get best bj of my life 10/10
>immediate guilt
>think maybe we can still be together
>she starts talking to an autistic
>not literal,but I still got my bets he is

>they started dating on 9/11
>way worse than actual 9/11 for me
>I can't keep being friends with her
>me and her thought we were great romantics and so much smarter than anyone else
>wrote letters full of symbolism(shitty teenage type)
>write her one last letter
>its ending our friendship
>place it in her mailbox
>bike home
>the same road I traveled to fall in love with her
> emotionally destroyed
>still can't eat
> or sleep

ally is the one that need to kill herself she sounds like an attention seeking whore who loves to make drama drop that Ho and keep your fat head up user

Don't worry I dropped her ass along time ago and honestly you're pretty much hitting the nail on the head. Don't agree she should kill herself though. I hate her, but not that much.

>pushed only person I cared about away
>lose all the enjoyment in my life
>Feel alone despite lots of supportive friends and family
>all I want is her
> can't have her
>think i'm dying cause of a brain tumour(I can have some crazy paranoia in stressful situations)
>can't eat or sleep
>I plan for a month to kill myself
>extreme detail went into it
>take all my antidepressants, my mom's, and my dad’s pain meds
>My dad’s hunting knife
>break into dad’s guns
>receive 12 gauge
>get weights and rope
>go to near bridge
>take all the drugs
>tying myself to weights
>slahs my wrists
>Blow face off
>fall into water
>overkill.90000000
>couldn’t fail
>ended up failing

thread is over, op lied whole time

Wait wut?

>blow face off
>fall into water
>slit wrists
>drugs
>weights on feet
>jump from bridge

if that doesnt work, op is immortal

I know this feel

Unfortunately not
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>day I picked was september 24th of that year
>So close
>only 6 days
>Im sitting in pe one day and dick nig nog kid is a fuckin dumbass nigga
>We have to run extra cause of Nig nog
>I'm pissed
>mutter that nig nog was a dumbass to myself
> his best friend heard me say this
>go back to gym locker room
>His best friend(Raven) come up to me and asks why I said that
>trying to explain
>shoves me straight to the ground
>wtf.wtf
This gets a bit autistic
>start sarcastically fake crying
>gets up and jogs away
>not run or walk
>jogged
>yes I know I'm autistic
>go out back door of locker room
>realize its cold as fuck outside
>knock on door to be let back in
>Raven is standing there with another Chad
>Ready to be beat to death
>takemenowjesus.gif
>let me in without a fight
>raven leaves his ending remarks, “I don't why you gotta say stuff like that user behind his back… like grow a pair and say it to his face”
>Icanfixthis.jpg
>nig nog walk by right then
>call him a dumbass
>Thought I had solved the problem
>obviously had not
>I'm in the future now too Sup Forumstards
>go back to changing
>nig nog pushed me down without my pants on
>shitshitshitshit.jpg
>yell just fucking kill me already
>don’tcutyourselfonthatedge.gif

confirmed immortal greek god

Never got there my friend.

Can be general feels thread if anyone wants it.

I wish.

>all the emotions hit me hard
>start crying
>think he may actually hurt me
>praying he does
>out of nowhere
>not a noise made
>flys in outta nowhere 200 pound Reese
>He scares nig nog off
>picks me up and bro hugs me 8 times and gives me a pep talk
>holy shit
>finish changing
>go home
>start thinking about stuff
>Despite it all decide I need to still pull the trigger
>ally texts me

...

To clear up confusion that was just the plan. I never got that far.

God tier thank you very much.

>fuckme.jpg
>Long ass text about how sorry she was sorry for being so ‘toxic’ and fucking me up and all that bullshit
>realize how much I had been hurting her
>break down
>imafuckupandalwayswillbe.jpg
>she broke me as a person right then and there
>tell her the plan
>i'm too tired to broke, to weak to keep going
>crisis team called
>my parents told
>they start preparing to send me to the hospital
>sit down and talk to my dad about fixing our relationship
>He breaks down and starts crying
>”user this might be sad, but I really don't have any friends anymore… Anyone really, but you are the closest thing I have. I love you. Please don't leave me user. “
>Just thinking about it makes me sad
>fix our relationship
>go to hospital
>work everyday to get better
>make it and survives
> not only did I survive, but I lived and I still live every single day to the fullest

>It wasn't easy and for the first couple months after the hospital shit was hard
>Learning to cope and deal with everything.
>I had to take everything one day at a time
> At first hated moving so slow
>realized I was living life better because of it
>was improving
>”Yesterday, I was the least shittest version of myself so far. Tomorrow, I'll be the best version of myself up until this point.”
>Gay quote I tell myself
>Work towards that goal everyday
> Been 1,349 days(As of 6/4/16) since that day in september 24th in which I planned to kill myself

Thanks for reading. The fact you made it all the way through this, means a lot. I hope you got some enjoyment out of my pain. It makes it feel like maybe all that pain was worth it. Just to make a couple people smile. I want everyone to know suicide isn’t the answer. It never is. Rage against that dying light. Keep fighting. Never stop fighting. That is all.

My story is pretty much the same as op's just that I didn't want to kill my self. I just supported this attention whore cause love blinded me.

It's okay dude. Love can blind even the strongest people.

That's the thing I want to be the strongest person for the people I care about but when others use me because of this it makes me feel empty and I just move on to go through it again with better hopes

One day user you'll find the right people. I know it's hard to believe, but I've been used a million times, but have found those people who there for me and want to be there for me without expecting anything else in return. One day my friend.

Yea I know that there just gotta wait

Don't just wait. Search out those people and kicked the assholes to the curb.