Feels Thread

Feels Thread.

Let it all out Sup Forumsros

Don't have a lot but I'll dump what I've got.

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Need more feels
Yesterday I saw HER for the last time.
>Move to another country absolutely alone
>Find job but feel affraid and lonely all time
>Find out that the hottest girl in work is from my country as well
>Find out we have common interest
>Become inseparable so much supervisors watch us all the time so we can't even get close to each other to talk
>Don't give a fuck, because we were sitting together in canteen for half hour before work and on our break time
>Buy car
>Start to give her lift to work everyday
>Start to be rly good friends
>Help her out all the time, because my language is a bit better than hers
>Go together for dinners, cafe, museums etc
>Best times so far since I came to this country
>Feel happy
>My parents call me my dog got hit by car and died
>I know this is life reminding me I'm doomed for shittynes and I know that all I can do at this point is wait for it to kick me harder
>Here it comes
>The people I live with asked me to move out
>When I visited my parents for weekend I went out with friends for drinks and got beaten hard by some fags
>Look like boxer after a fight now
>But wait, theres more
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>Came back and feel like shit, tired and knowing this is not the end of my suffering
>Her birthaday coming
>Decide its time to tell her how I feel
>On her birthday I said I fell in love
>She said she don't fell the same
>Actually she thinks she loves someone else
>I play cool but I died inside
>Promise to her nothing changes
>We both know its bullshit
>She looks like she shoot guiding dog, and I look like shit
>We can't look at eachother and every conversation is awkward
>But not for long
>One week after her birthday she takes sick days
>One week passed and I have no idea whats up with her and everybody at work keeps asking me that
>I feel even worse having to say it houndreds times a day that I have no idea whats happening with her, because she won't speak to me anymore
>Yeasterday finnaly she texted me that shes going to work and I can pick her up
>When she got in the car she looked so happy
>She said its her last day in this work
>I feel my guts are flipping upside down
>Say nothing
>She seems rly happy about changing work and I know this is definitive end
>All day at work I saw her going to various people to say goodbye
>To everyone but me
>I feel like I'm drowning
>End of the day
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>She said bye to everyone and I'm waiting for her at exit
>See she has a bit watery eyes
>Ask her if she feels bad for leaving and basically some small talk
>See her answars are short and she don't feel like talking to me at all
>Die a bit more inside but at this point I got used to it
>Finaly in front of her home I just wished her good luck with new job and nice weekend and all
>She just looked at me, smiled and said "bye"
>That was it
>In her eyes I didn't deserve good bye talk
>Not even thank you for all help, driving her everyday to work, few times even when I had day off
>Just smile and "bye"
>I felt like shit
>I felt I didn't mean anything to her
>I wanted to believe she didn't gave my goodbye speach because it was too hard for her, knowing I loved her and that we can;t be friend anymore
>I wanted to...
>But voice back in my head keeps telling me that she just didn't care at all
>I just cried myself to sleep and now I feel terrible
>Can't imagine going back to workplace
>Now I'm going through hell
>I'm facing absolute lonelines in near future
>Lost my only firend and girl I loved, being forced to move out to shitty flat alone, working in place I hate that will remind me everyday about my broken heart
>Well played life, well played
>I know I will get up and I just can't wait what will you do next time to bring me down, because right here we got a fucking fatality already
>And I know that everytime it hits me harder
>Hopefully not the end yet...
When leaving she paid me for driving her to work. She haven't done that for month, because I said she didn't have to anymore. On our last ride she paid for last week.
I kept this 10L bill. This is the only thing that i have left after her.

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mfw I can't have that happen at 14 or 28 because I'm already past those, and now I have to wait until I'm 65. Dang it.

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I got sniped by widowmaker as farrah 7 times in a row and I saved my ultimate just for her but got 180 quickscoped before I could even say JUSTIC-

I was so mad I started to cry and the potg was widow sniping me then I got rested by mercy and fucking sniped again immediately after. I only work 8 hours a week and I know it sounds dumb but I saved up for a month to buy overwatch but everytime I play it makes me want to kill myself Sup Forums

>Spend years trying to socialize and be normal after years of being an internet loser sitting on forums.
>The first relationship I get in is with a total fucking psychopath who abused the shit out of me.
>When I confronted her about it she lost her shit and spread rumors I'd abused her.
>Literally fucking everybody believes her.
>Crippling depression, suicidal thoughts, go onto the old forums.
>fit right back in, make new friends, old friends remember me and welcome me back like I never left.
>Meet an amazing partner, hit it off, fall in love and am still currently in the best relationship of my life, with somebody I love so much I'm constantly thinking about them.
>tfw the love of my life was on this faggot forum all along.

I posted this story on a feels thread ages ago but I'm curious if i'm the only one.

>Who else here fell for the normie meme?

>friend

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I just don't understand what I do wrong. I'm not ugly, I work hard at Uni, I've moved out of home, I pay rent, I go out and socialise and have fun and all that shit.

But every single fucking time I try to take it further, I fuck it up. I come on too hard, I play it too cool, I forget about something or I just miss some damned cue.

I have plenty of friends but in 20 damn years of life not once have I been with someone exclusively, not once have I had someone to care for and be cared about, and at this point, I'm just dead enough inside to start not giving a fuck but not quite dead enough to not feel furious and upset by this.

I'll never know what I did wrong, or what I didn't do. All I know is, the signs are pointing to me dying comfortable but alone as the day I was born, and that fucking hurts like a bitch.

I've dreamed about her every night since we broke up... almost a year ago

I had same shit. I take it as a karma. I always run away from shit. I left behinf all my friends from early years, because I tought I found a better group. Now my "better" group is leaving me. I passed on the girl that loved me, because I tought it would be to hard (she was alcoholic and I made her go for detox, but I'm propably alcolic myself since I drink vodka everyday, so I figured I would bring her back down. So I left her). Now the girl I love said she can't love me, that there is another guy and that I drink too much. Everything you do will hit you back hard.

Up.

i smoke 2 much

Tired of just not feeling anything...
I have a girlfriend, a Metal band, a job ... and I'm just not fucking happy. Getting drunk alone everyday . Just fuck this life.

you have to deal with it, there is no permament happines. Life is struggle and happines is just short, few sec moments in it. Too bad in last half year I had just one such moment and it was 2s. It was watching girl I love getting out of my car and going to her home in warm spring wind and sun, walking between colorful flags because it was some weird ramadan or other sandnigger shit that day. Best thing I saw in my life. Too bad 2 weeks ago she said she don't love me and I saw her for the last time in my life a week ago

Fuck this world. I'm outta there.

Not feel but DAMN !

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Got off college a few weeks ago, at home for the summer. Things are terrible here; parents fight all the time, friends don't want to hang out, and I'm getting blamed for everything. The only place I feel I do anything right is work, where at least I'm getting paid to suffer. I just wish people would stop taking advantage of me and realize that I hate myself because of them, not because I "don't love myself enough."

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