Feels thread? For anybody who needs to let it out

Feels thread? For anybody who needs to let it out
I just got dumped from a 2 year relationship, My uncle died, my grades are slipping, my nightmares are worse than ever, and I feel so close to suicide. It's gotten to the point where if my heart isn't racing it's weird. Help

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Nobody is gonna post in this thread but if someone is reading this and you're close to ending it. Please know that you're stronger than it and you will make it. I believe in you

Well at least you're out doing things and have a life.

I'm not doing anything and don't have a life, an empty shell worthless an UN happy

Tell me about it

Im really lonely like i have plenty of people to hang around with but idk i just dont feel dont feel complete one of my bros lets call him john is one of my best friends but idk lately ive been thinking about him and me im not gay (as far as i know never tried anything) but i think i like him and feel like if i told him he wouldnt want to be friends anymore (he dislikes the gays)

What do bros

When I was in high school, I was the biggest loser of all time. I had like 2 friends, wasn't popular and got made fun of all the time. There was a girl who had a locker right next to mine. On the last day before summer, my friends finally made me muster up the courage to ask her out. She was a latina girl and I thought that was super hot. So after going up to her, I'm literally shaking with anxiety and say "Hey-y-y-y, would you-u-u-u like to go out some-some-time."

She started speaking spanish and claiming she didn't speak English and I literally wanted to die.

When I told my friends the girl didn't even speak english,they looked at me like I was fucking stupid.

Turns out she probably knew more english than spanish.

That was probably 8 years ago. I still hate it.

Aw shit. Well I mean you need to really think about if these feelings are real or if it's maybe a passing lust and if they're really then go for it. Do what you need to do to get happiness

Fuck that bitch user

Honestly some bitches are just that. Bitches. I'm positive you'll find the perfect girl and when you meet her you'll forget about this for good

Thanks man. I've never written that story out. I'm married now and still, when I think about that day, I get super anxious and want to scream. Felt good to share.

Of course user. Thats why I made this thread. Because I wanted people to share stuff and release themselves from pain. I'm glad I talked to one person today :)

Honesty wish i could i get along with him so well we like same things and everything last week we made plans to go to the movies and only me and him showed up and we watched me before you and we laughed and joked around abd every once in a while i thoght about us being together

The outcome is not preordained.

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im currently between semesters and i honestly cannot think of a single reason to go on living. i feel like a zombie nowadays, just waking up, eating breakfast, going to work, going to sleep, lather, rinse, repeat. im too lethargic to actually try to kill myself, but i have come to terms with the possibility that i could die at any time, and i honestly look forward to it.

i also feel like my relationship is falling apart. ive been in a lot of abusive relationships, and im afraid that i might be too clingy, but my current boyfriend seems just too okay with not seeing me for weeks at a time. he takes five hours to reply to my texts, occasionally blows off our plans completely, and i genuinely dont know whats going on and it makes me feel so unwanted and unloved. and its not like hes busy because hes also between semesters, doesnt have a job, and doesnt really hang out with many people. i think about breaking up with him literally every single day, but im afraid of what will happen if i do. im afraid of disappointing him, and im afraid of being alone.

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A while ago about a year and a half me and some lads went to the mall this girl who i liked at the time went and we were talking as the rest of them were in game stop and i asked her "so do you like any one"( the whole night i was droping suddle hints like buying her a ice cream and eating next to her chating all night.ect...) and she said you promise not to tell and continued by saying it was my best friend (that night i layed in my bed alone till 4 am thinking about my life and if it was still worth it ) i hold nothing against either of them but it hurts somtimes you know because i still like her but i know she doesn't

I posted this in another feels thread about an hour and a half ago, but I'll post again to keep this thread alive.

Long story short, I've known this girl for a long time, and thinking back I've been smitten since I met her, but I only really admitted it to myself about a year and a half ago. And around a year ago I confessed to her. She said she felt the same way. Problem is, we go to different universities and plan(ned) on getting together after graduating. Here's where my heavy heart comes in, I know shes the one for me Sup Forumsros, in my eyes there has never been a more perfect creature to walk to earth. To others she's probably a 7 or 8/10 at best, way I see it shes a fuckin 12. Shes smart, funny, loyal, caring and supportive, shes always there for me and can make even the worst days be like heaven. I love her with everything I am and nothing would make me happier than to wake up every morning next to her. But what has me up at 2 o clock every night or later is the pit in my stomach. I don't think she really feels the same way. Shes always said shes bad at putting the way she feels down in words, but the dynamic between us in that respect has changed. We used to write each other sweet little love letters and tell each other we love them all the time, now after all this time, im the only one who ever writes anything mushy, and it never even elicits a response. And there have been many incidents when I tell her I love her and she blows it off completely.

Tl;dr I've found the love of my.life, but I might not be the love of hers.

Hey man, I lost my girlfriend of 2 years almost a year ago and this week I went on a cruise, really liked this girl and I ended up fingering her twice. Then I found out she did the same with 3 other guys this week. She was so beautiful and funny and smart, I'm not upset as much as I am disappointed.
What I'm saying is, life is depressing. It really fucking sucks man. And the only way to survive it is to embrace it. I smoke weed on the daily and just chill out and embrace being alone. I have feelings and things really do hurt sometimes, but I just keep on keeping on.

After two fucking years of waiting for her she goes and tells me she used to have feelings for me the first year we meet but now she doesn't.

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I know how you feel (story above you) i really love this girl but she doesnt if it helps after a while you stop caring but once that happens and you dont keep yourself preoccupied the dread sets in and its just soul crushing sadness fall right on you

Here we go, fam. This may not mean a lot to any of you, but it means a lot to me.
I just found this picture of my old girlfriend (2 years) and I the night we broke up. I had just found out she had been cheating on me, again, so I had no choice but to end it. Broke my heart. Niether of us ever wanted it to be like that, or to even break up, but I just couldn't live like that with that weight. Had to do it. I accidentally took these pictures the night we broke up, about a year ago, and I just found them. Broke my heart, honestly.

Doing a shit job at programming in school. I don't know if I'll be able to even land a job if I make it. The worst part is I love doing it, but i suck ass.

Went to community college this year and I made no friends so after class came home and played video games fell asleep and repeated. Now summer is here and I just got a job that is 9 hours a day 6 days a week and it really tires me out so when I'm off I just want to rest.
So now I'm not hanging with my friends that all came back since I'm always busy/tired.
I honestly feel like killing myself because I barely have any positive social interactions now.
Any advice is appreciated whether its how to solve my problems or how to painlessly kill myself.

If these feelings are real then it's best to talk about them

You just described my relationship. Abusive. She only cared about herself and I always felt less than human. She made me hate myself to the point where if anyone showed me kindness it wasn't normal. I didn't want to leave because I was afraid I'd never be loved again

I know how that feels. To be the friend of the guy all the girls find more attractive than you. You're not alone user

She said I was a "compulsive dater" and that I would be with any girl that wanted to be with me, and that's what I would do when we broke up. I told her that she would lose herself, as she had been waiting to do for so long. So, naturally. That's what happened. I'm currently dating a woman who I don't love, and the woman I really love is long gone. Adding insult to injury, she's the biggest slut anyone has ever seen. Really hits ya, you know?

I do really well with women im tall and handsome and outgoing but girls only really stick around if i dont care about them if i care i default to nice guy mode and spoil them and they get tired of it and fuck off its like having a buffet but only being able to eat stuff u dont really like so close to quitting alltogether

imo thats one of the worst parts about having been in abusive relationships. when youre so used to being treated like shit, anyone who treats you well makes you feel uncomfortable.

for me, im always expecting what i call The Flip. in my experience, an abuser will typically be incredibly nice. theyll act sweet and thoughtful at first and make you want to be around them 24/7. but then once youre sufficiently hooked on them, they'll turn into a monster. only youre too dependent on them to leave.

and then when im in a healthy relationship i end up ruining because im paranoid that the other person is going to Flip on me.

My ex ran towards the end was doing terrible shit. Running off with people I hate, lying to me, going out with exes and her excuse always was that they made her feel pretty. I called her beautiful every fucking day we were together and she only said that to make me feel bad. She can get anyone she wants and she knows that. So I'm the only one hurting

Same with her. All of a sudden she knows I'm not gonna leave so she does her best to hurt me in every way. Threatening to hurt herself, or cheat, and it broke me. I won't recover from that for a while and I'm so sorry you had to go through it too my heart is with you

Contributing some of what I've saved. Until I get bored.

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TO MY FELLOW DEPRESSED Sup ForumsFAGS

I have spent the last year with suicidan thoughts, nightmares, and constant depression ... but it gets better. It really does. Don't give it to suicide. I can't say that I'm over my depression, but you learn to cope and you learn to find solace in places and activities.

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She literally goes and talks to one of my friends just because he is "hot". Wow......after all she told me in the first year of meeting each other, after all we've talked about. My problems , her as well and now for nothing.

Why? Why doesn't she like me anymore? I lost weight for her... I waited for her.

Are you drunk bro?

Unfortunately no...

You gotta relax man. Now get it all out, nothing wrong with that, but you sound like you're on the verge of desperation. Find something to distract yourself and dont think about her. Get rid of everything that reminds you of her, stop talking, etc. Because you're this fucked up over her and there's no reconciliation for that. Theres no, let's be friends, at the level you're at.

Find somewhere you can talk to other women. Irl online, wherever. Just talk to other women, completely fresh and no strings attached. Keep it light and friendly. Get some contact with some women you're not trying to fuck and itll help. In time, you'll have moved on and maybe made a friend or two.

It'll get better man

>I waited for her

See, there's your problem

Thank you user, its bad ever since I had contact with her. I've had dreams where we actually got together but I've had dreams where she has broken my heart. Sometimes I would wake up from the dreams where we got together all happy but just to realize it was only a dream. I guess me and her can't be friends.

Yeah, you need to cut her out of your life. You're obsessed my man. Get some normal, non self destructive contact with women and itll help tremendously, I promise. Don't torture yourself like this anymore bro, she's not worth it

It's funny, I normally come in these threads to tell you guys to nut the fuck up and get on with life, but you legitimately seem like you're on the verge of doing something stupid.

Drunk people talk like you were. Drunk people, and people about to commit suicide/homicide. Don't let your emotions run away with you like that. Call somebody. Dont worry about sounding like a loser or whatever, just talk it out. Know when to get help.

I'm scared talking to my family about it...they will think I am stupid and I don't speak to my father as much and I feel like he will be disappointed in how soft I am. I feel like they will just say to get over it.

its gotten to the point where im dreaming about just laying with a girl. nothing sexual, just getting some human contact.

Talk to a friend then. Or a stranger on the internet. If you dont talk to your dad very often about emotions and shit maybe that'll be a heads up that he needs to listen. I don't talk to my father about feelings and shit ever, but when my nightmares got so bad I was seriously considering suicide he sat down and laid some wisdom on me. We're both macho, manly men, dont talk about that shit. But he listened. He helped.

People might surprise you if you give them a chance.

I will try speaking to my father...I might breakdown in front of him for the first time but hopefully he can help...

I wish I had never told tory koshivas what I did and it's robbed me of my life

Anons of the world, why are we self destructive

Then she came along. I was so very much in love. She said she loved me. I believed her. I would do anything to be near here. Then, out of nowhere, I wasn't important

At the point you're at you need to swallow your pride. It sounds silly but we're stubborn and try to hold on to it past the point of no return. You gotta get help.

He might tell you to get over it. It's solid advice, despite how callous it might sound. Ask him how. Focus on how to get over it, don't wallow in self pity.

>got a decent job
>good future
>no vices
>girlfriend is loyal
>good friends although not many
But what really gets me
>no one will really love me
>no one will cry over me
>no one will want me
>no one will cling to me
>no one will wish they had me
>I have no one to go to
>no one will ever be wanted by me
>I will never save a life
>I will never live a life
for as short and meaningless life is, I just want that one person who will cling to me, and cry over me, and want me.

But it will never happen. My girlfriend is simply content with me. She doesn't love me, and i don't love her. We're simply fine with being with each other. We're not happy, but we're not unhappy either. We're stagnating.

Find somebody else then nigger. You said yourself life's too short, why waste yours? And you're living life now, welcome to the party, it sucks sometimes.

And wtf is that about saving a life? What does that even mean?

Yeah man I know what you mean. Sometimes I have dreams of this certain female presence which shows me 100% pure love and shit. Makes me want to kill myself knowing I will probably never find such a girl, to feel such genuine things for me. I mean my mother is an amazing woman, but she's just that, a mother.

I need a hug yo

I've taken too much psychedelics and dissociative that it's hard for me to grasp the reality of life anymore, especially the consequences of my actions. For most of my life, I've skirted death and homelessness by sheer luck, and it doesn't seem to be running thin any time soon.
Also I feel like a horrible person for wanting my dad to die. He's done nothing but care, but something about the man makes me want to puke, and I know a great burden would be lifted if he ceased to exist.
Sometimes I want to die, just to see what it's like, but life's been too much fun for me to quit now.

Thank you for the advice user

Start smoking weed. Probably won't help with your grades but it'll clear up those nightmares.

Grow a pair, faggot. There, I shitposted which was my goal. You'll get better man, I promise. And you're welcome.

I can't believe I'm doing this, as it's very very far out of my norm, but here's an email I have for Sup Forums, hit me up if you want.

[email protected]

Now excuse me as I brace for the incoming gore, porn and CP that's about to flood my inbox.

You sound like a giant, massive piece of shit. Next time you have those feelings of wanting to die, give in to them. The world will be a better place.

Lol I will email you user if i need your help. Is that okay?

What part triggered you in particular?
Sorry I think my brain is damaged to the point where I can't register a blatant insult as particularly meaningful.
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Sure, why not. It's my birthday so I took the day off, got fuck all to do.

Does anyone know any good sad rap songs?

The part where your brain is so fucked from drugs that you want your father to die because he's some sort of imaginary"burden".

That, and your smug ass attitude and the fact that you probably think you'll live much longer because "lol luck isn't running thin" I know a lot of junkie scumbags like you, you've got about 5 years max before your in a ditch or sucking some cock in a jail cell.

People like you are parasites.

All the Shine - Childish Gambino
Lost Ones - J.Cole
Own It - Drake
Company - Drake
Real Friends - Kanye West
Idk how familiar you are with Rap, but that's just a nice starting set for you if you aren't.

I'm a bit worried lads. I had asked out a girl I've known since HS a week ago (home for the summer from college) and those plans didn't pan out. I thought she flaked. She exclaimed she had work and had to get her phone fixed, also telling me she would be off Tuesday. I decided to give her a second chance. I also made a mixtape for the hell of it. Today, after I had finished working out, I saw a fresh tweet from her saying she was going to a "Lil Uzi" concert with one of her friends in 2 days. My heart began to panic. Later that night, to be safe, I sent a reminder text about the date. No response. I'm thinking of calling her tomorrow, no fucks given. Should I do it?

Well my dad is a pretty worthless individual. Doesn't take care of himself, lives off his parents, lets his house goes to shit, only has a dog to keep him company because his hygiene is sub-par, let alcohol tear our family apart. Very few redeeming factors about the guy, and the knowledge that I share genetics with what many would classify as a piece of shit doesn't do much for the self-esteem, which would be where the burden stems from. Psychedelics have just made this feeling more pronounced.
Still sort of love him, out of like obligation, but generally I want nothing to do with what could loosely be called a man.
Hm. I think you may have misinterpreted the tone as being smug when it was a rather neutral statement, like I'm surprised I've made it this far, and probably will more-so, but yes I suppose someone like you has to struggle so yeah that is smug and the best you can do is hope I end up in a ditch or sucking a dick, when probably neither will happen.

Are you a business owner?

At least you had a girlfriend.

Also, anyone here that's dealt with this kinda shit?

Well you are a massive piece of shit. Judging others on an anonymous internet image board.

Well, I guess the Apple doesn't fall far from the tree does it shitbag?

And you keep thinking that you can live life like a retard and nothing bad will happen, it's not like millions of other people have thought the same thing and lived the exact life you're living now, right?

Junky assholes like you are all the same. Enjoy Tyrone's cock ravaging your asshole when you get locked up for possession with intent to distribute because you need more and more drugs to get high, I'm sure you'll be really disconnected then.

Seriously though, kill yourself parasite.

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the ultimate in sad rap songs

>oh noes! he invaded my hugbox!
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Move on to the next, don't live your life waiting for other people. If she was excited for your date shed have texted you back, and shes obviously already planned over top it. Don't call her just go do something else dude.

He was being an asshole for no fucking reason. I know im on Sup Forums but people dont have to be dicks for no fucking reason just because they can hide behind they computer screen.

You messed up Sup Forumsro, you gotta keep your hands off the wheel.

In some ways, sure. I inherited his predisposition to addiction and eyes, both of which are readily complimented fellow scummy people, and even some envious normies, like you I'm presuming.
You don't sound very adventurous, is this why you flare up on a person that you've hardly met?
I've already overdosed, and been in other perilous situations, but came out relatively okay. I'm sure, maybe, one day I'll slip up, but I'm not going to live my life worrying about it like some kind of coward, like, well, you.

You know prison rapes are largely mythological though. Also, why does he have to be black? And why do you assume I'm white? Are you projecting your cuckold fantasies on me?

I won't, other people would be unfortunately bummed and that tends to outweigh the vehement hatred of someone that's more invested in my the outcome of my life than I am.

How so man? Many people have said that's it's recommended to remind someone of a date, and help ensure that the date is either good to go or rescheduled.

Take it easy man, these threads get trolled to fuck all the time. Hell I've done it before, but that's another story and I was in a much worse place. Dont let your jimmies get rustled

She's not interested bro. I guaran fucking tee it.

Listen to the man, user.
I'm the dude he's insulting and I'm not even as butthurt as you.

She isn't interested, she just said to give her a second chance to makw you feel good. Fuck that hoe find another one.

Some feelsy music for anyone who wants it
youtube.com/watch?v=7kqI5fAlv5E

never had a gf and wont have one until im done with school and have a job that can make me financially stable.

I never understood why fags in middle school, high school even bothered with relationships. even college. unless you are financially stable why even bother looking? just be friends until then. girls are just a distraction from grades and your goals

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here's my story. Don't judge please. I know some of it sounds stupid to an outside perspective.
>Met girl back in December of 2014, sounds stupid but fell in love, absolutely fucking bonkers in love our first conversation.
I could just *feel* it in my... soul? body? spirit? heart? I don't know.. I've been married before (divorced) I've had girlfriends since I was 14 (not a beta faggot, from 14-21 the longest I'd been single or without a few girls was a month or so)
Anyway
>I was blind sided by "her" just.. Her. Everything she is, everything about her, she has her flaws, and I won't lie, I've hit girls before for being rude, for cussing at me, for name calling.
To quote Bill Burr "Don't settle down until you find the right one, you know she makes you wanna slap the shit out of her but you don't, there's just something about them you can't leave"
>We're together for a year, we met shortly before she went into a psych ward for depression, I was the only person who visited her, Her family is hella conservative, and hate me because I'm 7 years older than her, tattoos, long hair, general "bad boy" outside, but I'm self employed, I have two degrees and I'm doing good for myself.
>I catch her lying to me, she has Borderline personality, I know from my marriage that white lies come part in parcel to that, and I over react.
>It gets to the point where she's lied so many times, and I'm still gunshy from my ex-wife, she takes selfies whenever she goes anywhere, not because I distrusted her but because she did damage to the trust.
>We end up getting into fights, she pulls more borderline personality, bipolar shit, starts flirting with other guys behind my back, and we break up (I dumped her)
>fast forward about 3-4 months, I call her drunk on New years that year, I missed her despite it all.
>Make crude, over zealous sexual advances.
>She obviously doesn't like this.
>Admits she's dating one of her ex's.
>Fuck you cunt.
cont

I've sadly been getting that vibe. I thought I would be able to change that due to the past interest we had in HS. I thought she would be enthralled to see me after more than a year of not seeing each other. Time does change a lot I guess. I'm still tempted to call but more of just to get her to confess her true feelings or reason. Feels bad man.

Yeah but I feel its better to wait till the day of the date. Ive drove too many women away by getting worried about the date and messaging them about it. Dont worry though bro, youll have other chances. This one might not even be over. Give it time Sup Forumsro.

go for it man, worst case scenario is it doesn't work out and you'll either find someone else or work it out with her in the future. I was in the exact same scenario (sans dif schools with something else) and she didn't go for me when I went for her. after two years of trying to get her back I turned my attention to try and heal myself. Year after that, we started talking again, but on good terms. Six months later here I am, having become stronger and realizing that it's not 100% about her but myself as well.

Don't sacrifice parts of yourself for her user, that's where you start dissolving into nothing.