Humans were born, simply to be, there is no failure or success. Live your live, how you want, and you are not perfect, you will make mistakes, but the next day will come, and you must forget about the mistakes you made even 3 seconds a go and focus on what you are doing in the present.
The only thing that matters in life, is your health. Love and accept yourself 100% and you will be capable of living in the way you desire.
Finally, life is about seizing opportunity after opportunity, do not let fear of failure hold you from trying to gain the reward. Those who reach out the most, are the most lucky.
Think, of all the opportunities that you might have had, if you had gone after every single one with all your heart and efforts.
Learnt lessons, have you not, from your experiences?
Moving forward, will you rise up and push yourself to take challenges, or will you hide away, blaming yourself and avoiding the very opportunity at success that you hate yourself for not taking...
Hmm... Apply perhaps, 100 jobs, that you do not think you are capable of getting, surprised, you might be. Fail, you might, the more you fail, the closer to success, you must understand, those who do not fail, do not participate, perfect, no, none of us.