Pls halp

Sorry for attwhroring, but I need your help, int. I'm feeling terrible and idk what to do.

>11:10 PM
>browsing internet
>mother comes
>"user... I wanna talk to you"
Got immediately scared thinking about porn talk and awkward moments.
>"Why... you don't pray anymore?"
I literally wasn't prepared for that, it would be better if she asked me about porn.
>"You used to pray 5x a day, and you don't pray anymore, you don't even wake up for the evening prayer"
I used to pray 5x a day when I was about 18 or something, but after studying a lot and thinking about life, I just decided/realized that islam was a meme religion, or at least 90% of it.
>"What happened? We're muslims, user, I need to have this conversation with you because I'm your mother and I love you"
>"When I talk to your brothers they listen to me."
>"Why, user? Why?"
I started to feel bad, like I'm some kind of devilish apostate that decided to betray God.
>"Mom, not now, I'm with a headache and you know that, please don't talk to me now"
>"I will, and from now on I'm gonna tell you to pray every time I see you"

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Here's the thing, My family is sunni. A few years ago I tried hard to believe the religion because I felt like it was the right thing to do, since Brazilian culture is shitty and degenerate as fuck. I began to study the religion, started praying 5x a day (that was the biggest mistake of my life), and my family gets happy.

Time goes by and you know what happens.

Anyway, I don't wanna live near my family for obvious reasons, I want to live my life far away, in another country, with a qt, children, money and happiness (no islam involved).
If my mother realizes that's my future she'll collapse. Like, she'll cry every night until she goes to the fucking hospital for having a son that doesn't follow the messenger of God or whatever. My dudes, she might get mentally ill.

(cont.)

Problem 2: I'm stuck in this house because I can't find a fucking job (FUCKING MEME COUNTRY RRRREEEEEEE).
I'm feeling bad and I don't know what to do.

My mother thinks that in the judgement day she'll be asked by God "why the fuck your son don't pray? Lol it's your fault", and she might go to hell.

She was born and raised in the fucking countryside of Lebanon, and left school when she was a kid because happy merchants almost destroyed the whole village. I have nothing to teach her and she'll never believe anything I say.

Fuck man I don't know just tell her how you really feel about Islam. When did your mum move to Brazil? Were you born in Brazil?

Keep praying and pretend you buy into it.

My dad married her in Lebanon and brought her to Brazil with him. I was born and raised here, so was my dad, but the fucking Lebanese community here keeps coming and going every-fucking-year, so you can say this is a little peace of Lebanon.

There's also another problem, and this is part of arab culture, unfortunately. Everyone knows everyone, there are a couple of hundreds of people who know who's my family and even who am I, even though I don't really know 20% of them. If people discover this my parents will get a lot of attention, besides "oh, poor MOM and DAD, have you heard about their son".

That's why I have to fucking move far away.

She arrived in the 80's if I'm not wrong, and really thinks that maybe it's not a good Idea to assimilate with Brazilians, even the rich ones.

It's gonna be hard as fuck, but maybe that's the best solution for now.

Wow, that's an interesting predicament, hang in there

people are not that judgmental about your problems
if you don't pray you don't pray

your mom just doesn't want to lose her son, not you per se but the person she knew

don't be such an asshole you can't even see beyond yourself

Just do what every bible belt teen does.
Fake it to your family. Go through the motions, and just not talk about it outside of that.
Friend of my has done that with his Christian family, and it's worked out for him.

>be me
>be "Orthodox Christian"
>swearing every day
>drink alcohol
>only know the prayer "Our Father" and to say it once in six months
>wearing a cross as a decoration
No problem!

55chan

Tell her there can't be a God because 7 x 1 happened HUEHUEHUEHEUHEUHEEUHUEHUHEUEHEUHEUHEUHE

I thought islam in brazil was a meme.

she's mad religious though.

That's the best plan so far, pretend while I'm here. But it's hard, because when I start praying in front of them, they'll ask me "sooo... why aren't you reading the Quran".
But yeah, I think that's the only option.

Imagboard for edgy kids.

Lucky you.

do what you want but you shouldn't make your mom worry

Just reluctantly conform.
Soon or later they will take the hint that you're just not that into it. If it comes to a full blown confrontation just tell them the truth in as best a way as you can.
If it's a situation like my friend then they will eventually pick up on your lack of devotion and just let it slide by, but I don't know if that is different for Brazilian Sunnis as it is for a Christian American family.

say you've been busy or distracted with school or sth

You'd be surprised.

I hope that's the case.

Thank you for the nice words, amigos. I feel better and hopeful, and sorry for creating this stupid fucking thread.

>tfw my family think that I am very religious because I liked churches as a kid and once said that i want to be a priest
I feel your pain but there is literally no way to make it better only to make it worse. I just said that I don't want to be part of mainstream orthodox church and my views are differ. It helped a little. At least I don't have to wear cross and all that

Stand up for yourself, and tell her firmly it is your decision and not her fault.

It will be hard but only for a time, it's better than living a lie because that doesn't stop being painful ever.

queima muçulmano!! vira catolico que tu consegue emprego

Being an english teacher in korea/japan would be your best bet m8