Feels thread Sup Forums plenty of pain here

Feels thread Sup Forums plenty of pain here

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I'll help you out OP.
There is a feels thread already but that one is shit.

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Come on OP, post something, you lazy fuck.

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OP is always a faggot.

Bump. I want to feel 2n8

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>be 5 years old
>be me
>vent under your bed blows mold into your sleeping lungs
>young lungs can't take it
>loving mother
>working father
>taken to hospital
>things get worse each day
>find out when you had been breathing in was getting into your bloodstream
>your blood was killing you
>"It's ok son, we'll get through this."
"Mommy. I don't think I can."
>mom cries
>family comes in over the next few days to cheer you up
>they can't, you're dying from the inside
>doctors say you won't make it another two months
>mom is heartbroken
>dad comes to see you
>dad gets the news
>see dad cry
>day after day things get harder for you
>things like eating, drinking, even going to the bathroom become battles
>Death is coming
You're not ready

>slowly but surly you give up hope of survival
>grandma comes in
>"I want you to make me a promise."
"Ok."
>"Live."
"Ok."
>Doubts hit your mind
>"Make it through this and get big and strong ok?"
"Ok."
>days get easier after that
>you get better, stronger.
>over time all the things that were hard get easy again.
>you're finally normal again.
You did what grandma asked.

>the battle doesn't end there
>three months later you have to go back
>your lungs were left damaged from the mold
>few more months of treatment
>finally you get to be a normal kid again
>mom takes you to see "Chicken Little"
>everything is nice, this is life
>lungs collapse during movie
>Mom tries to help you but she runs out of time
>you've fainted
>you're dead
>life cut short at such a young age
>you see what has been argued for thousands of years
>afterlife
>you come back
>strength is restored
>lungs healed
>blood filtered
Just like that!
>life is normal again

The user that posted this in thread before said that his Dad was an abusive drunk when user was younger.

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John Cena

And now I wish I had met my real dad. Thanks user.
>looking at picture not your text

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This wasn't a good thread, I'm going to sleep.
Good night Sup Forums

Victoria 'Kit' G.

Life isn't normal again
>You are still 5
>still just a kid
>you wake up to the sound of disney shows
>you're thirsty
>you go out to the kitchen for something to drink
>sprite
>drink some only to find out its old as the Bible
>later on stomach issues begin
>it's happening again
>you go back to the hospital
>they stick needles in every joint you have (goes on to develope future irrational fear of needles)
>you have some disease you can't spell again
>another few months go out the drain.
You're still about to die
Still on the edge of life
>"You did it once you can do it again son."
>Family stops by again
>gives you pajamas of your childhood hero, Spiderman.
>these give you the strength to keep on
>the blood thing comes back
>your blood looks like spaghetti sauce through the needle
>get moved into an oxygen tent
>have to stay in there, segregated from everyone.
>everything isn't so bad, your sister is here.
>over time people start to leave
>family stops visiting
>things get sad again
>

God dammit I think this is what I'm becoming.

Who wants a rare wojak that I made myself while I tell a story? Will write greentext if interest is shown.

Sure user. Please cont.

>sadness says
>you remember what grandma said
>you got to stay strong
>you've to get big
>then you realize something
This is your body and what's in you isn't going to kill you.
>you start walking again before the doctors say it's safe
>body is recovering faster than what it's supposed to
>you're back to life
>finally after all this suffering, after all the sad, pain filled days, weeks, and months it's finally over.
>You're finally
Normal.

okay keep bumping if necessary

pls bump while I write it. Replied to wrong person because I'm currently wasted out of my mind.

>started the day all happy
>then my gf dumps me
>I think about kms
>I find out I have cancer
>my family does not care
>I'm alone
>so I'm gonna tak my own life in 15 minuets unless someone stops me

Bumperino

how do you just happen to find out you have cancer

Never make descisions when youre sad or mad

>Be me
>16 year old kissless virgin
>Junior year of HS
>Prospect of getting a GF and experiencing teenage love starts to diminish.
>This depresses me as all other attractive girls at our school have been used before
>Attend HS at small town 50 miles south of Chicago
>Whole HS is around 1400 people strong
>Nobody in the town really enters nor leaves
>Known my neighbors all my life
>Finals week rolls around
>Neighbor's qt3.14azn daughter comes up to me out of the blue
>Asks for chem notes as we were in the same class
>Most girls would use their looks to take advantage of me because I am smart
>Begrudgingly hand her my notebook
>There was something about the way she looked at me though
>Lo and behold the next day I get notebook back from her
>First page has her number written on it with a cute little heart
>Decide to call it
>We make plans to go out and as we talk we slowly start to fall in love
>Parents were really strict about studying
>Decide to sneak out of house at 12:00AM to see the stars
>We both meet up at this little hill overlooking a pond near my house
>We both lie down in the lukewarm summer grass
>She puts her head on my chest
>The smell of her hair puts me in a trance
>She turns over and looks me straight in the eyes
>Tells me she loves me and she always has
>Try to hold back tears of joy
>We both end up staring at the sky for about an hour
>Then she stares over at me and says "I'll see you in the morning"
>Fall asleep with her in my arms


Wake up

It was all just a dream and I'm still a 21 year old kissless virgin
That feel when this happened to me yesterday night.

Dubs of lies

gaby

I WANNA FUCKING DIE

I think her name was Sogie, but it was so long ago I don't remember.

I am alone but at least I'm not a robot hopefully

same here
why for you man?

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>Be me
> Everything is going great in life
>One night you decide to pull an all nighter
> When you see the sun rise you get a proud feeling
> For a week after that night you begin to have trouble sleeping
> You think nothing of it
> The following week images appear in your vision
>After three weeks of not sleeping you begin to hear dead family members calling your name
Cont

Do it faggot.

this quote always spoke to me.

please stay

i dont have the energy to grovel at you

Every stupid night I go back to fantasizing about who I'm going to kill in a horrific fashion, and half the time I don't even want to. I'm just used to it. It's the only thing that can soothe me to sleep unless I'm fucked up.

Baited.

Born with a severe genetic muscle disease my muscles are slowly and painfully dying. I have had it since birth and I am 25 now. It started getting worse when I was 13.

At the age of 20 moved to be with a girl, she was crazy i rebounded to an even crazier chick. Ended up getting a 20 an hour job for almost a year but due to situations, my muscles and crazy chick, I ended up getting fired. Had to move back with my grandma cause my mom is dead. Currently trying to get back on my feet and am having no luck. Almost out of money and cant get hired cause I got fired for "negligence"

I WANNA FUCKING DIE

>Nights begin to get rougher
> After a few months you lose serous weight
> Start to turn to a darker personality
> Family notices somethings off
> They take you to the doctor
> After the test you are prescribed highly addictive pills
> You decline
> One year passes and it becomes second nature
> You get used to the voices
> The demonic images
> Everyday people calling your name
Cont

I taught myself how to lucid dream just to experience human connection.

Blornflorfp

No pocket

I just fucking want someone to tell me they're proud of me.

Blaming your negligence on others. Shame.

What have you done?

Maybe you're just a shit cunt that's never done anything.
I was like that once until I did shit. Now ima baws

At what point did you tell her you were moving to Midgar to join SOLDIER?

I really hate myself. I'm schizophrenic, paranoid, and have a beautiful wife.

I'm selfish as fuck.
Imagine sitting in a bedroom with a knife to your wrist and your wife waking in.

I can't sleep or eat.

Everyday he talks to me. I see people while driving on the side of the road. I'm worried one day she will get tired of dealing with me and leave.

Just got married this year after dating for 5.

I'm scared my fucked head is going to destroy the one thing that I like about myself.

Kek

Is that how it feels to be a fgt?

Who do you talk to? What does he say?

>You begin to lose what was remaining of your appetite
>Year and a half goes by
>Only sleeping 3 times a month
> Begin to lose faith in God
> Once you do Images start getting worse
>You start losing your grip of reality
> Everywhere you turn you feel something watching you
>School becomes concerned
> You can feel yourself giving away
> Life suddenly loses meaning
> Family doesn't know how to help
> Last day of school year
> Dazed and too tired to care
> Accepts awards then leaves quickly,
> Now when you close your eyes you see the images, hear the voices, and feel the hands

What?

>be me
>spend high school years with a girl
>freshman through senior you stay with her
>You think about joining military after school
>she convinces you not to
>you go about your school years and everything is great.
>one day you get a text saying
>"Hey user."
"What's up?"
>"I'm so sorry."
>you begin to get confused and afraid
"Why?"
>"I just don't feel the same for you user."
>you try to hold it in
>you get over it and go to college
cont

Hahahaha

i got 25 yesterday
im an alcoholic
im autistic
im a virgin
i lost my weed
i lost my wallet
i lost my glasses
i lost my pants
i lost my keys
i lost my cell phone
i lost my shoes
i couldn't buy booze without id (thats good actually)
bought booze somewhere else

He latches onto one thing and repeats it. Started when I was very young. Got caught in 3rd grade writing "you're stupid" over and over again in my notebook. 5+ pages of this is something a healthy kid doesn't do.

It can be anything from tv, music, shit I've read, or conversations.

This bitch had 1 job.....don't look at the camera

i forgot to say that i have schizophrenia and boarderline syndrome

fuck I need this right now. I'm suffering from withdrawal, sitting here praying for release from this awful feeling. Would make a deal with the devil to escape this fate in a heartbeat. Don't fucking do hard drugs ever

>freshman year flies by
>sophomore year comes
>you meet a wonderful new girl
>She likes magic and shit
>one night she stays at your home
>you don't live in a dorm because fuck that
>you two get drunk and pass out
>morning comes and you ask for a date
>she says yes
Cont

> 2nd year begins to end
> Still battling Insomnia
> Already been told I'm underweight
> And I'll never catch up on what I've lost
> One night I stop trying to go to sleep
> Instead something urges me to get out of bed and pray
> You get out out of bed and pray for 8 hours straight
> Suddely you begin to feel tired
> You barely make it to your bed before collapsing onto it
> Procced to sleep for over 22 hours
> Wake up with a fever and sweaty sheets
> Every image, voice, illusion, and feeling is now gone
> You're now free
Fin

Pretty much the same. I have a one year old boy too. I function very well in society, which really fucking helps.
I often think about raping or killing people as I'm have a normal conversation with them.
Is this normal?

>Don't fucking do hard drugs ever
Couldn't have been that hard if you figured out how to do so many.

*Patrick puts up arm*
Is cocaine a hard drug?

KEK

I've had the same thoughts and feelings. A npr podcast had an episode about it. The theory they talked about was it being linked to off and not being able to shake those thoughts off like a normal person would.

Silver.

Ocd*

Fuck you

Joliet?

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Her name was Erika. Always loved that name.

Phrased in the most autistic beta way possible, but I know that feeling.

true story?

1/2 When I was just exiting High School me and my twin weren't the best of friends. At the start of High School we did everything together. But towards the end... we started fading, and in 12th grade we were both fighting over a girl and who got to get her and ultimately at the end of 12th grade he got the girl and I wasn't too happy about that.

I had been friends with this girl since 3rd grade, when she first moved to our area, and he hadn't taken a liking to her since that year. Basically, you could say I was friendzoned.

Me and my brother looked incredibly alike (We're twins, obviously) and more than once she mistook me for him.

They were together that entire summer. It was absolute torture to see my brother and the girl I'd liked since 3rd grade together, kissing, hugging, cuddling. I even heard them having sex once. I'd never been so depressed and jealous in my life. That entire summer was one giant heartbreak.

Near the end of the summer, mid August or so, I decided that I'd get back at my brother. I decided that one day when he was out doing something I would dress like him, talk like him, and invite the girl over for a little "fun". She'd never know the difference.

The girl wasn't that attractive to be completely honest... but her personality more than made up for it. To be honest, I don't even know why she wanted to be with him, her interests aligned with mine much more than they did with his, but that's aside the point.

The day finally came when my brother went to hang out with his friends and I quickly invited the girl over. The phone conversation was easy enough, I convinced her to come over without any problem. I was nervous she'd notice something was off when she got to the front door though.

She came over, I tried to act as natural as I could and open the door. She said hello and gave me a kiss. I'd been waiting for that kiss for 9 years now and it made me feel ecstatic.

My dad was an absolute shithead my whole life, but this picture and the one I'm posting make it impossible for me to leave him. I feel awful for the guy, I'm the only member of his family left. I know he deserves to be sad and alone, but I don't have the heart to cut ties with him.

Plus he is actually fun to talk to, even if he was horrible when I was a kid.

Alex Rogers

Cont pls

You like dudes, that's cool man.

I never new my real dad just a horrible adoptive one who sided with his crazy wife.

>boarderline

Oh, sorry, short for Alexandra, she went by Alex.

I'm really sorry pal, that sucks hard.

end my fucking life

three close to home user

cmon man, don't be like that! you've got this whole hivemind of Sup Forums here for you

Forgot to post the picture.

That sucks bro. I'm sorry.

Everytime I see one of those pictures where a dad wishes he could be with his son or invites him to watch TV even if its dumb shit like sports it makes me wanna cry.... it is one of the only things that can make me cry anymore.

2/? Idk .She picked up on my extra happiness I guess and said jokingly, "Wow, why are you in such a good mood today?" I invited her to go up to his room and as planned, we started making out and stripping each other's clothes off.

Then she stopped suddenly and said, "You don't kiss like Michael (my brother), It's you Jeremy, isn't it?" I'm a terrible actor, I couldn't act this one off, I tried to let out a laugh and say something like, "Haha, yeah right, it's me!" and try to go back to whatever we were doing. Instead it came out like, "AHAHA, Yeahhhhhhh hahaaaaaaaa." and not nearly as smooth as I had planned. I didn't really know what I said completely because I could feel myself start to shake and sweat.

I was expecting her to be disgusted, tell my brother, and then we'd all hate each other for the rest of our lives. Instead she just told me, "I know you've liked me for some time now. I would be with you but I think your brother is more physically attractive than you." Instead of trying to explain how we're twins, I just stuttered a bit and nodded. She continued, "But I won't tell your brother if we get together this once."

And with that once sentence all of my fear was gone. I was back in the game with her. We ended up having sex, it wasn't the best, but it felt great. Even more so because I'd wanted to be with her for quite some time now. We layed there for a bit. Eventually I looked up at the clock only to realize 5 hours had passed, my brother would probably be home any second, I jumped out of bed and told her she needed to get going too but instead she layed there and told me to get back in the bed with her.