I'm 19 yrs and my life is shit as fuck. I have a drug problem and a gambling problem...

I'm 19 yrs and my life is shit as fuck. I have a drug problem and a gambling problem, I don't have many friends and as you probably guessed already I'm a virgin and I've never had a gf. I

The worst thing of all is that I have very fucking bad motion sickness. Doesn't probably sound so bad but let me explain.
Everytime I'm in a car I get really nauseous and anxious. 10 miles and I almost always need to puke, and that ruins everything. If I even look at my phone or anything else than the horizon, it's time to throw up. I can't go on trips with friends because of that so I'm probably gonna lose all of my friends eventually. I can't even imagine life where I could just sit on a car and enjoy the time. I had to skip every school trip in the past, and many other holiday trips.

I've been high 247 basically the whole summer, it's the only thing that makes me feel okay without many side effects. I've tried out other drugs such as opioids but I can't afford them since I don't have a job. I also drink very often.

My browser also froze 2 times as I was writing this post but I can't afford to buy a new PC. Fuck this life, I'd trade this motion sickness for diabetes or adhd or basically anything if I could.

Get a job and try to occupy your mind with other things, as for the motion sickness, can't really help there, maybe try being high while in a vehicle?

sounds like u have a case of american ultra

Go to church for help, OP.

Yeah I'll try to get a job soon because I need something meaningful to do.
Weed helps with the motion sickness a bit but doesn't get rid of it completely, just makes a bit more easier to handle.

Probably

How on earth could they possibly help me

Try Dramamine for the sickness and sobriety for the depression

what drugs do you abuse

>19
>Gambling problem
Nigga stop throwing your parents money away

I'll definitely try dramamine out but sobriety isn't for me, at least for now.

weed, alcohol, poppy seed tea (morphine) occasionally, and speed (amphetamine) whenever I've got some extra money

you're partly right lol, I also make some money selling weed for my friends but not much.

Getting high is instant gratification if you keep doing that you'll only run from your problems never fix them and eventually the drugs stop working the way you want them to and that's when your fucked

you remind me of me when i was younger. i used to abuse the fuck out of drugs and it was fun and all that, hell im high as shit on meth right now. i never really cared for weed or opiates, they never had the typical effect on me that others loved so much.

eventually i stopped abusing drugs as much though, it had to damn near ruin my life for me to stop abusing drugs and even then it didnt stop me completely. i discovered that in moderation you can do just about anything. for example i only use meth once maybe twice a year.

dont know where i was going with this, my bad man im high as shit. i hope there was enough information in there for you to get something out of reading all this bullshit

i relate to all of your problems except for the gambling. how the fuck do you get addicted to gambling. its a fact that if you gamble you will lose money you fucking idiot

sucks to be you, user.

I have diabetes. Trust me you dont want this. I've lost my vision, my hair, and my skin.
I also can't eat like 90% of normal food that people take for granted or I pass out or die.

>lost vision
>types out paragraph with perfect grammar

I know but weed is literally the only thing that keeps me getting out of bed every morning (not literally since I never wake up before 2am)

thanks Sup Forumsro, I'm also high. I can't use anything in moderation, I just don't want to face the reality. Music and weed is the combo that makes me forget every bad thin.

Even the motion sickness?
I know that I lose money but I just try to win a big win so I could stop. I've lost so fucking much losing like a 100 bucks in a evening doesn't feel like anything anymore.

it really does indeed

hang in there, this just feels so fucking bad it feels like anything else would be better.

I guess I meant to say I am losing my vision. I''m at the first phase so my vision is just blurry, but it won't be long before I lose it completely.

Btw, there are accessibility tools that blind people can use for computers, you dip.

do you at least fap to good porn? that makes life tolerable for me.
Milf porn is my go to

Yes. Latina is my favorite category. Latina teens in particular

i like ponies...

Well to each his own I guess m8.

I'm with you m8, I've been going through a rough patch for about a year or longer now.


Unlike you though (and I don't mean this in a bad way), I used to get laid and had gfs, but I let my drug use, drinking, and laziness get the better of me.
Now I am an old, sad, fat fuck who hasn't gotten laid in over a year.

Ask me anything if you want- we are in the same boat.

Nothing wrong with that.

yay at least were all shitty together... wanna trade drugs?

Well if you like the occasional opioid. I gave up weed well over a year ago.

I drink a lot occasionally too, but I have to give it up because of diabetes.


So popping pills is all I have left.

btw Weed accelerated my diabetes, in case you are susceptible

I'm right there with you. It's family fun time at my house. I fucking hate it.

haha no in all seriousness though i would advise you to 100% stay away from methamphetamine. i dont know if you remember those crazy commercials where they had a "meth addict" doing some crazy bullshit and then the caption would pop up saying something like "doing X isnt normal, but on meth it is". yeah those commercials were actually spot on. a friend of mine witnessed someone cut off their own thumb because they were in a state of methamphetamine psychosis. its some funny shit i know but real at the same time

I've been thinking about suicide for a long time. Here buddy.

Yeah I would never do meth. I stopped doing drugs bro.

Either get sober and find purpose in your life or keep walking the path your on till you decide to an hero or get sober anyways cause you've bottomed out.

post pics of your sis please.

thats good. i always tell anyone the same thing whenever the topic arises whether or not they take me seriously just because i fell into it and i would never want anyone else to

Jesus can always help, you just have to have faith..

wait are you OP?

Also have you done meth? If so, what was your experience like?

nope he's not me
-op

poppy seed tea? do anything for you?

Craig? Lol

well I got the best nod of my life on it, so yeah.

OP here. How old are you and do your friends do illegal drus? I have the problems lots of my old friends I've known for over 10 years don't really like drug use so I can't really talk with them because I feel like they don't like me anymore

i am not OP, i have however, done a shit ton of meth. im actually on it right now (high as shit)

in all honesty, the high is great, but if you happen to take too much then youll have an overdose or slip into whats called methamphetamine psychosis, or both. ive had both happen to me and they such ass but then again its not like i wasnt aware of the possibility.

a huge problem with this drug is that it lasts too long (~12-24 hours depending on metabolism) meaning youre excessively high for a very long time, which leads to the crash. ask any meth user about crashing after a week long or more binge and theyll confirm its one of the most shitty experiences possible.

other than that, your sleep cycles will dissolve, you will stop eating as much or altogether, suffer from adhedonia, depression, etc.

oh yeah and its cheap as shit

bruh, you sound like me 2 years ago so much.
>get 1-3 1000watt grow lights
>get some seeds online, soil/fet/pots from local stores
>clean out a closet or something, place growhouse in there
i was too broke to afford weed all the time back in early uni, so i decided to grow my own instead of buying from overpriced, shady dealers. 9 months and 3 harvests later, i had about 7.5lbs of quality bud in storage and all i could smoke, so i signed up for my state's caregiver program. sold what i had at $200/ounce (local prices ranged from $250-300 usually), moved out of my parents house, and sized up my operation. it gave me enough money to support myself and have some spending money, which helped pull me from a chunk of my depression. since i wasnt a dealer per se, whenever i met fellow stoners i didnt have to worry about selling product and could just smoke and chill with them. met other people through those people, and even more from hobbies i took up with my newfound free time. if you can scrounge together a few hundred bucks, you should be able to yield between 0.5 and 1 gram per watt of lighting you use

sounds awesome. how long did it last and how did you go about making it?

I'm 25. Well I have a few friends who still do drugs occasionally, but most of my friends drink more than anything. I definitely feel peer pressure to do as they say, so if you ever plan to sober up you are going to leave some friends.

When I gave up weed some of my friends thought I wasn't cool anymore including my rooomates at the time.

thanks bro.

holy shit mate that sounds awesome. I've always dreamed about a life like that, but I've never done anything for it.
I really think I'll try out growing some day, was it hard to learn it?

Bike to get around. Good for your health too, helps stave off depression. Hard to get motion sick when you're controlling the motion. And with practice, you can bike distances you never thought possible.

I get motion sick in cars too; I'm a bit lucky in that I live in a small country with decent public transportation. I don't need cars to get around. If you live out in Bumfuck, Idaho and need to take the SUV to get to the nearest 7-11, yeah, it could be a little tougher.

Damn shit sounds crazy. I think I'll just stick to adderall.


Btw, I don't mean to be disrespectful but are you gay?
It's just I've heard meth is really popular in the gay clubbing culture especially in the west coast of the usa.

You from belgium m8?

Same where but without the motion sickness and gambling addiction.

It lasted for about 6 hours. here's a fast guide

>buy unwashed poppy seeds
>put 0,5-2lbs of them in a plastic bottle
>add some citric acid/juice
>add warm water
>shake like a mad man for 10 minutes
>unscrew the bottle a bit and pour the water into a can without any seeds getting in
>drink it

that's a recipe for od'ing.

You're lucky to be alive OP.

haha no im not gay. i think (im not sure) the reason that connection may exist is because meth lets you fuck for literally hours (which is true haha its awesome). or maybe theyre just faggots who knows

>6 hours
nice. but how much juice and water? and where do you get the seeds from? i apologize if i'm prodding too much

Netherlands. More liberal bullshit, less bombs, I think it balances out.

check em

>Belgie
>less liberal

Pick one nederlander. I want to get out of Brussels so bad, I hate all the muslims here.

Yeah I already ride a bike everywhere since I can't afford car. I will definitely increase the biking tho.

it's best if you stop all your drug related shit cold-turkey, it's only holding you back.

reach out to family or extended family to help, they'll usually oblige. family support is always important, plus they can set you up with a therapist if need be.

Alright I gotta go OP. Best of luck. Grab your dick and your balls and man the fuck up, kid. Don't let depression beat you, faggot.
Have some tits to cheer you up. :)

nah man, not really. i did a lot of reading into it beforehand, so even before we put seed to soil there was a gameplan. here are some of the important things i picked up
>get organic compost for soil. unfertilized, ideally. you can either use rockwool cubes to get the seeds to sprout, or straight into the smallest of 3 pots (5'' for seedling, 8'' for vegetation, 12'' for the flowering and harvest stages)
>for seedling, use 20-20-20 nitrogen (N), phosphorus (P), potassium (K) fert. veg uses 30-10-10, budding 5-20-5
>aim for 1-1.5 square feet per plant, maybe more depending on the strain. they'll need some room to grow
>keep temp between 75 and 85 F 24/7. dont let it go above 85 or below 75 for more than a couple minutes. humidity should be 60-80% pretty much all the time as well
>the plants need 18 hours of light and 6 hours of night for the first 2 stages of growth, and 12 hours of each during the budding stage. keeping the 3-1 ratio of the earlier stages can keep your plants vegging and increase yield, but i dont recommend playing with it for the first several grows. follow the recommended guidelines that usually come with seeds
>plants also need ventilation. CO2 needs to come in, and O2 needs to get pulled out. additionally, you may run into some problems with the lights raising the internal temperature of your grow room. to kill 2 birds with 1 stone, i got two small plug-in fans and faced them in opposite directions (blowing towards the plants vs away) after getting some tubing to fit the fan as tight as possible. the "in" fan i brought into the bottom of the room, near the plants. the "out" fan pulled air from above the lights. i figured since hot air rose and cold air sank, and that the air that's been in the room for the longest will likely have the highest concentration of O2, the air heated by the lights will have higher O2 levels and will end up rising up.
i'd recommend getting a cheap set of pH, temp, and humidity monitors. posttoolongsorry

Please, you Belgians get a few explosions and ten seconds later your government demands that everyone with an anonymous sim card line up to register. Twenty seconds after that, you actually do it while nodding enthusiastically, because Belgians get massive hardons from following rules, no matter how much they may bitch about the government itself.