Fuck. Addiction/Recovery Thread?

Fuck. Addiction/Recovery Thread?

clean off everything 9 months

>Addicted to chicken noodles
>Cause several holocausts if does not constantly eat chicken noodlies
>FUCK YOU MUM I WANT MY FUCKING CHICKIE NOODLIES
>FUUCKINGG RRERRRRREEEEEEEEEE

was an alcoholic last year. spent over half a year completely sober, and started going full alcoholic again a couple weeks ago

stop. go to a meeting.

How I quit was set goals for each month I didn't smoke and I would relapse every now and then but I'm offically clean now

I went into treatment for snorting pills/dope. Clean for like 4 months, used once about 5 weeks ago -- Took responsibility for it. Would have relapsed tonight but dope boy missed my text... Saw it as divine intervention, if you will. Can't stop craving.

NA fag here. 5 years sober. Quit doing smack 10 years ago, but started drinking again after a while. Turned into an alcohol :( Doing pretty good now. 5 years feels like forever, but also not that long. Hard to describe.

Whenever I think back to being strung out, it was just so fucking horrible. And any time I see "drunk man kills 3" I just thank god I was so fucking lucky. Like some off duty cop in NYC just killed some people. Fuck that could have been me.

you got some numbers? call some people. the urge will let up after a while. Are you program ( aa / na ) ?

7 months off the juice for me. Fuck, I miss it!

Go to a meeting bro. Call someone tell them how your feeling or shit do what your doing now. Fuck that shit. I used to do smack every day for years thinkinng about it makes me sick. gotta get to that point tho. Even now i still have moments where it crosses my mind but thats what being honest and having a sponsor is for..

i never believed the NA shit but now im pumped about it and generally have a good time with it.

really? why'd you quit?

Smoke weed erryday. Going to quit hopefully for college. I'm going to miss the music most of all

haven't smoked weed for like four days straight, I'll have to treat myself for that, with a nice big joint of course.

Was ruining my life, both at home and at work. Really fucked up at work, and basically was facing the sack if I didn't clean up.

I do AA/NA but I'm in an organized IOP program on suboxone -- so i shouldn't have cravings at all. It's not even about getting high... I can't explain it, exactly. Self-sabotage, I guess. Things are good being clean, but shit really hasn't gotten better. I'm not like 'dry drunk' or anything, but like, I just pictured myself in a better place if I was sober and I don't feel it.

I've talked to people.. Honestly, tonight was a win. I felt great for a while knowing that I walked away. I could have picked up elsewhere, I could have called my dude instead of texting him -- It would have been easy but I resisted it. I'm just like stuck in that train of thought.

9 months off heroin. Proud of you all.

the world still sucks when your sober. It's not like your only problem was using drugs fam.

Also get off that suboxin shit. Fuckin garbage.

worse then dope imo

Just hit my 3 years clean of of oxy / other opoids.

I went cold turkey, no help. I still smoke cigs and weed.

Quality of life is much improved.

same here man 9months. Life is so much better. Now im just addicted to 2d girls and anime, kekekke

I'm actually kind of pissed I let them put me on subs. I just wanted any treatment I could get but now I feel almost as trapped on subs as I was on dope. Only now I don't pay for it. I see the doc on Thurs, I'm telling her I want off the shit.

My wow addiction is giving me less time to provide love to myself.
>MFW when only having enough time to wank 3 times a day
Curse you WoW addiction

18 months clean, used once (emotional, relapsed) 18 months ago, and clean 2.5 years before that. 4 years total with one use in there. Drugs suck.

Stay on them for a few months while your life improves. Get a job. Pay off debts. Clean things up in your personal life. Do a medical detox when you need to come off subs.

I just wanna say that i didnt expect this much support in a shit hole like Sup Forums goes to show you. theres ppl out there who care enough to write something positive.

Fuckin' holo. Better than coke.

i got put on vivitrol. No feelings of being high and deep down i know it will suck if it try to use. Plus u can jump off and on it. So say you get off of it. Say some tragic shit happens and your getting worried your gonna use u can take it and your good for a month. Just kinda a helper. I dig it.

On a vacation in Ocean City, Maryland with my girl.
Didn't take weed or cigarettes with me.
Weed really isn't addictive, it's more of a personal want to smoke, but FUCK ME I want tobacco.
I'm a gross motherfucker that rips up cigs and puts the tobacco on top of bowls in my bong, and on top of that I smoke cigarettes themselves.
Nothing can compare to the rush of tobacco. I have vodka but drinking isn't nearly as fun.
Still have about 2 weeks of vacation to go. On day 5 without any smoke. Kill me

So you like Vivitrol? How are you doing with cravings?

i'm having too much fun with it. besides, i'm still highly functional, and i'm not at the point where my life is being hindered in any significant way by it

It really means a lot that so many people have jumped in. Sometimes it's easier to put stuff out there when you're anonymous. It helps a lot. It really does.

None bro.. 9months in.

I dont even notice the vivitrol

But i mean if i start workin a stupid program and being dumb im gonna wanna use something. So its more of a mind thing i just know that if all else fails that vivitrol is there to stop me.

yes holo is the shit

this is oc i made .

That's brilliant. Props.

what kind of guitar is that?

a cheap useless but sexy squier strat

Whats the best way to get around the time release mechanism of oral morphine?? I've got some of the capsules with the tiny balls inside if this helps...Zomorph I think they are called.

Cheers.

Haven't smoked weed for 3 weeks, today is the first day I haven't been angry as fuck. Literally could've ripped off someone's head most days.

i've considered becoming a full stoner, is it worth it? i've smoked weed at most a few times a week for 2-3 weeks straight

Depends on the person. Makes me paranoid and generally intolerant of family and friends when I come down. I don't think it's worth it.

Quitting made me feel like I had splinters in my brain for 2 weeks and I acted irrationally a lot.

Stay strong bros.

I dont drink. Smoked weed maybe 5 times in my mid teenage years. But, other than that don't do shit. I have gone through multiple psychiatric medicine withdrawals, 2 cold turkey, so maybe I can relate a bit.

Drinking is fun for a while, but eventually drinking for alcoholics or people who cannot control their intake affect their life choices. It's easy to say fuck everyone, "im right" but it takes a man to say look I have a fucking problem and I need to counter this. I don't need a fucking substance to make me feel okay at night, I don't need a substance to talk to girls anymore. I NEED ME. MYSELF. The one who was born within me.

I have smoked everyday for the past 5 years and just a few days ago I realized how much of a problem I have. I've spent more that 10 grand on weed, bowls, and shit like that I've turned down jobs that pay double what I do cause I can't smoke. I litterly cried last night because I hate myself for wasting so much money on it. The mental withdrawal sucks so bad I wanna kill myself just so I stop craving smoking a bowl. I litterly have to drop all my friends because they all smoke and being around or even talking about it make the temptation to smoke to much not to. Weed made me waste 5 years of my life I'll never get back. If you only take one thing from this it's moderation spend more days a week sober than not it will help you in the long run.

Drank like I had to because I felt like I did for 7 years or so. Swollen liver, fucked up my galblader or so says the yellow creeping back away from my sclera. My Doctor says they can't see it, but I have high bilirubin. Oct of 2014 was my last drink. And June 14th 2015 was the 3rd birthday of my family's bar. It was also the two week birthday of the new bank account I had to open when my mother staged a coup with the landlord to convince him I was the reason we were $20k in the hole to him for rent.

We just passed the 4 year mark, and tonight actually I checked the mail and found our renewed license that I was able to pay for after hauling the business out of ~$50k debt. I've gotten 2 raises and the worst mistakes I have to worry about now are hiring shitty staff that chase customers away until I fire them and pick up a bunch of shifts.

I bartend and own a bar for a living and I don't touch the stuff after a crippling physical dependency.

Make yourself afraid of nothing but yourself when you don't respect your challenges.

why not buy a pack of cigarettes sir?

what's the mental withdrawal like?

Thank you for being so honest bro, and honestly go easy on yourself, the fact that you have acknowledged it is much farther than some people dare to go. People become addicted to things for comfort and pleasure, so the more you do something the less comfortable you feel when you don't do it. And vice versa, to break a habit- so stay strong and also chillax, find the right balance :)

Quitters.

This shit right here is powerful, I'm glad I read that, and I'm pissed the media will never pick up your story. I;m pissed at myself I have to come to Sup Forums to get stories like this, even if they are fake.

HEY BITCHES
ALCOHOL IS THE BEST

I've quit smoking weed a few times now after smoking 20 cones a day for more than 10 years straight. It's rough. I had a few beers and codeine pain killers each day to ease the yearning. But once you get through it it's like a natural high all the time, for me anyway. Wish I could have one every now and then but I don't want to go through the rough patches again.

I currently have to take a low dose of benzos for anxiety, and man I can feel it if I miss a dose. I don't know how people who abuse them do it. Honestly kinda pisses me off too, knowing that a lot of people really on them for anxiety while others get a fake diagnosis to abuse the shit out of them

Terrible constant depression mixed with mood swings and complete loss of my appetite I feel nauseous just trying to chew food and swallowing it is imposable because I almost puke when I do

I am sorry for what happend to you.

I am currently entering college for the second time and I guarantee alchohol will be introduced once again. What are some ways to continue on my life course with out circumstances from outside interfering while still remaining fun or open to fucking women?

Funny meme, however not everything in life is a meme. You seem to come on here to berate and make fun of people rather than dealing what is in front of you. How's that mom of yours? How are you siblings? When's the last time you were thankful for your life and what exactly is in front of you? You're entire argument is off a miss spelling. KYS

was the nausea sort of like an imaginary dizziness in your head or was it real queasy-about-to-puke kind of nausea

This

Real queasy about to puke kind. I have dry heaved from it because of the fact there's nothing in my stomach

Dude I actually just tried to get a giggle out of you. Sorry that you took it the other way but developing a sense of humor about lifes strange ways is what helped me in making things seem manageable or atleast tolerable.

Hope you do well but I won't an hero just now or any time soon.

>Can't stop craving.
10 years off oxy here. Will wake up tomorrow wanting it just as bad as I did on day 1. It is the first thing on my mind when I wake up, and the last thought I have at night. Get used to it. It never goes away.

Anything you need booze to do isn't worth doing.

The way I see it, without it, fun stuff may be less fun but depressing, stressful and arduous things are orders of magnitude easier to deal with. Also, long term? What do you gain from booze? What's the ROI? More friends that don't really give a fuck about you because they vanish once the party stops?

You find out who your real companions are when you stop drinking and look around to see who's helping you figure your fucking life out.

Anyone who isn't associating with you because of lack of booze is missing out on who you are anyway. Including yourself. Fuck em.

jesus christ i didn't know weed could do that to you

Shiiit man! Never touching that stuff. Thanks for the heads up.

1 year off oxy.. My connect got locked up and I decided to quit cold turkey after that. I was taking upwards of 100 mg a day.. Smoking K9's too. I had terrible withdrawals for months but I finally got over them. No cravings after that either. I guess I don't have too much of an addictive personality?

same, if you put a pile of oc 30's in front of me right now i would happily kill myself with it

The nausea didn't last more than a week for me, after that food was ok. Just had to stick to bland stuff.

Started going to AA 5 weeks ago. Not touched a drop since. Feel amazing. No fog in my head, no hangovers. Got motivation, focus and drive.
The realisation that i was an alcoholic was probably one of the things to ever happen to me.

Yea just because something doesn't have anything addictive in it a mental addiction can still form and the withdrawal is just as bad as if it was physically addictive

Sometimes I wish it were fake. When I have to skip a paycheck because it's slow and the debt my mother left us by embezzling hundreds of thousands of dollars while mentally abusing myself and my brother, and exploding on us once we started to unravel her coils of manipulation and malice as she slipped further into the clutches of booze and ADD meds while blaming the flailing business on me to everyone she ever met.

The most true thing I've ever experienced is the victory of truth and honesty over deceit and greed. My own mother turned against me and wove a web to try and tangle me in, to wrap me up in a cocoon with her failures and feed me to them hoping to reveal a second chance at my sacrifice.

And she was sorely fucking disappointed when I maintained my own path, patiently and honestly. Fuck liars. They can build walls and summon shitstorms a thousand times bigger than you can dream of, but neither of those things can stop a stream that wants to become a river.

I've been coming to that conclusion, but it's tought coming to that conclusion alone without any help...the only thing I miss out on, is just meeting women, at bars or parties...but I know random encounters that dont have any alc are the ones I really should care about. It's a tough cycle man, and I'm lost.

Make sure you find people outside of AA who provide the same buffer. Just people who want to be YOUR friend. Someone who can ignore booze when you're hanging out saved my life.

I find it funny how you actually think I would care about you getting a giggle out of that. Do whatever you want with your life man, I could care less. You continue to neglect problems in front of you to post on a internet chat board. Good on you man! Finally coming out of your shell!

Commendable. I enjoy reading stories such as yours. They are diamonds in the rough here on the Tranny/fur porn extravaganza that Sup Forums has become.

It's hard to find people who have similar interests to me when I'm sober. I've been retooled into a person that maybe I don't even know. It's really hard admitting that I was wrong and alcoholically fueled to believe in things that I may not or may believe in

I talked about making you laugh you idiot. Are you retarded?

>You continue to neglect problems in front of you to post on a internet chat board

Never did m8.

Coming at it from the other side here as someone who has only drank twice in their life:

All of my now-former friends are huge into drinking, smoking, partying yada yada. I have my own nerdy interests like anime and manga and I have a blast enjoying them on my own.

It really is good to be alone sometimes.

It's easy to feel that way. But you're only going to catch what's attracted to your bait.

Fuck people, right now. Set some goals for yourself, and you'll meet women in your career field. You'll find a woman who wants to date you that you met in an office, or in a lab, or wherever you work. Not because she was drunk and you made a shitty joke about breaking bad. But because she saw YOU moving forward in your life and she wanted to ride shotgun. The same with your friends.

You have no reason to listen to me. But your alternative is to keep explaining to yourself and others why you can't win.

What's that?

I'm quitting the booze after tonight, going cold turkey for a month so I'm not craving it while I'm in this meditation course for 10 days. its called vipassana for anyone interested.

Yeah, so explore that. Cause guess what? Now you're stoking your own fire. You get to *actually decide* if you are interested in something. And you get to discover that shit like you were a kid, but with an adult wallet and brain.

I always thought I couldn't actually draw or paint. Turns out I was wrong and I get to practice without having my motivation siphoned by booze.

Right now you have to recover emotionally and so does your life. The people you call friends, like scabs, will slowly become less attached, and eventually you won't notice it but they will be gone. That has to happen and it's gonna be slow and depressing. But afterwards you get to realize that they don't even fucking know you. You were just a face in the blur that they call "the weekend."

Fuck em. You make friends with yourself first and then you two will meet people who you like.

And also I'm 19 so spending 10 grand if not more on that while keeping a roof over my head and food in my stomach was impossible half the time I wouldn't eat because I would rather spend the money on weed and still keep a roof over my head

Why is is that you two have given me more value than any rehab or AA system has given me? I really am trying to show how appreciative of you two. You have brought me to tears and happiness. There actually is an exit to this hole that I currently am in, and it feels great hearing people that can give me advice to my situation. I want to thank you personally.

Fuck guys, I cant discreet. Have no money but this can't stop me. Fuck that shit, I just can't.

They are both me, lol. I'm the guy with the bar from earlier in the thread.

I've had a really unique ride through being an addict, having addict parents, one of whom died, and recovering in the most hostile environment imaginable for an addict; a bar where I answer to nobody.

I've had friends and an amazing girlfriend help me through this shit and every day continues to be a tremendously heavy lesson in how to keep living.

You aren't alone. You aren't the only one and you damn sure aren't the worst off. People like us can make it.

Find a hobby bro. It's not worth the small time frame that feels good in your life, and it solely is a result of whether or no your drank or got high

I haven't found any of that just yet. I'm pursuing pre-law while having a graphic design business on the side and I have no found any of that at 22...Im young and I will continue trying my best.

Thank you. I've gotten more support out of that paragraph than I have out of anyone in real life and although your just some random stranger on the internet it means more than you think. Thank you

I'm back on meth, was 3 years off it. When I got dumped I didn't see any reason not to. It's getting bleak but I'd rather have nothing and be miserable than be a thief or scoundrel. I'm gonna get a job just to smoke a fuckton on the reg but hopefully I'll get caught in a crisis or die to avoid the years of walking corpse. I hate everyone I have to deal with because of it, but im at the mercy of these little callow people. Where can I find a recipe?

any tips for dropping friends? they are highschool friends so it shouldnt be as hard but it is still hard for me

If you are trying to return to that childlike wonder or that wonder that you had while during a relationship why go back to a substance or false feeling that never wants you to return to those genuine feelings that were once YOU feeling YOU?!

Please do. I don't know you, and I'll likely never meet you, but I'll remember you. Don't let me down.

Ugh, you are kind and wise. I do want to pull myself out and be high on the accomplishment. Doing the world's work for it and smoking the hope from my head.

Not really you just have to do it. A few people I just flat out stopped talking to and ignore all there calls and the rest I told I stopped smoking and can't be around it and they just said there not gonna stop and it's all they really do so they chose the weed over me and told me without directly saying it

Opifag here. Havent touched a real opiate since late march. Been on bupe maintence since . Tapered from 8mg to 2mg.. I dont feel too bad but all in all im scared to jump off all together.

Advice?

Smoking the hope from your head...it's hard but worth it...you are currently in a state of constant bewilderment, misleading and constant bullshit...what if I told you the world can be yours, the world or personal bubble that you imagine in your pipe filled dreams, well you know what? IT CAN...If you want it. Drugs are the easy part, drugs make you feel like you accomplished everything, like it is all okay..like you are the god of your universe...well you know what? You are star matter....you are next to worth it..get on your fucking saddle and saddle up...you can pander to the lowest denominator of yourself and be a pussy who depends on substances to change his psyche and world around him. Or, you can take life by the balls, and begin to enact changes that change your world that you see now into the one that you see in your mind....

Just showing how pathetic the friendship was at first? MAn I hate highschool, forcing us into bullshit at a very young age man. Now, we're here having to sort out the details...Oh well. I'd rather know about it than falling for it.

For anyone who's interested the song "wake up- madchild" made me realize my problem and is worth the listen

clean on heroin since 1/20/14 recently passed 2.5 years. for the first year didnt drink and also stopped smoking pot but i was on suboxone. Now i have 1-3 beers every month or two and smoke weed slightly more often. Best advice I can think of is make friends with other sober people and completely cut out anyone who will make you slip up because it will happen.

tl;dr
got off heroin 2.5 years ago.
I can answer questions or give advice. not perfect but i have experience and know anything can help

Is anything that you are scared of worth it? Sobriety? Talking to a girl? Pursuing a passion? It will be hard, but nothing worth doing is hard..just realize how rare you are in regards to galaxies and planets...you are a conscious sentient being on a fucking planet talking to others from states or countries away from you discussing your problems...is that really worth taking a simple pill that has been invented by other humans ( starmatter ) DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO IN YOUR LIFETIME.......