I see

I see.

I ruined the thread, Badger.

There wasn't much to ruin.

And I ruined it anyways. I spoiled all the fun and it's all my fault. Isn't it great?

I just posted pictures of garbage over and over and made people deal with it.

I am ecstatic.

I'm losing my mind and I can feel it and I can't stop myself and I'm scared.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

It is frightening, but you'll notice no great change in the end.

What mean you by this?

I feel like I'm being watched all the time. I can't sleep because alarms keep going off.

I should go lie down and stay awake for another four hours. But what's the fun in that?

It's pretty hilarious that the Sup Forums furry community has the biggest drama queen attention whoring edgelords

badger delete this thread

It'll pass. You might feel like you're losing your mind, but regardless of what happens, you should be able to recollect yourself after a while.

[words]

It'll never pass. Each time it gets worse and worse.

[:^)]

What mean you by this?

Have you ever heard the parable of the woman and the snake?

Have you ever heard of suicide

And yet here you are still.

Did I tell you to reply to me? No.

Suicide? Suicide? Suicide? Suicide? Suicide?

Only because I can't afford a gun.

Suicide? Okay.

I didn't know one needed permission for that, that's a new one to me!

Falls are only effective about 31% of the time. Poisoning/ODing 2% of the time. Asphyxiation less than 1%. Guns are the only pretty much guaranteed method with all guns being about 80% effective. The numbers fluctuate based on the individual types of firearms, with shotguns topping out at just about 100%, small caliber handguns being much lower.

Nah, I'm just deliberately being a cunt.

Oh I'm sorry friend :((((( let me suck your dick to make up for it
You don't need a gun

I'll suck your dick for wanting to suck that other dude's dick

Sure, but to do it another way you gotta be pretty tenacious, which I'm not.

Go parachuting, but don't open your thing.
Have family claim faulty equipment and cash in on your death.

I'd really prefer you didn't. I'm not good at receiving blowjobs.

Also hey squoshins, I thought you were gone.

I don't want money to be made. Nothing should come of my end but the end itself.

Eh. Computer blew a capacitor in the PSU so I needed something to do.

Anime threads are enjoyable so I stuck around there mostly.

I call dibs on your paint stuff then.

Besides, there is much work to be done before that time. Much work indeed.

Ayy, that's why you need practice, so let a barrage of gay faggots from Sup Forums suck you off, including me

It's going to be burned in a big fire. So sayeth the law.

Why are you doing that? Can you do that?
You exercise today?

YOU NEVER ANSWERED MY QUESTION AND I DON'T LIKE IT.

UGH

Nah. I won't be starting daily work outs for a month or so.
I might be changing jobs so I'll figure that out first.

I posted a pic of a guy on Growlr in the anime threads and they thought it was me 'till I posted a pic of myself.

I thought you didn't care what others thought?

Why did you do that?

I want to know why you said what you said.

And I'll have those buried in a box in my place.

As a joke. Then people took it seriously and I'd rather not be known as a fat lard.

I'm quite proud of my frame at the moment.
Regardless of any changes I want for it.

You're killing me, James.

As for my body, throw it in a dumpster somewhere.

Only if you spread my remains at Disney land should I die first.

Oh, and I don't want to be cremated.

Well all the stuff you've posted is pretty bare in the detail. you get the form done then you move on. never completing something. You also said you don't know what to do. you take drugs or want to take them and you smoke alot. this information allows me to make some guessing to your personality.
Heh, well be proud of yourself and make yourself the person you want to be. and keep working towards that goal.
see what i mean fool

You give quite a bit of encouragement for a stranger.

he means that there are people who show up in these threads to jack off and they can't because everybody is too busy being edgy and avatarfagging

Well it's either that or berate toy like nibi.
What would you rather hear?
I know what i would want to hear.

Some comedian threw his son's foreskin into one of the lakes at Disneyland.

Bare in detail? What about this painting? That's got a lot going on in it. I don't see what you mean at all.

What means by you this?

I don't know man.
Being berated by NIbi is a total turn on.

But I enjoy the kind words.
You have quickly become an enjoyable face to see.

Why?

Cause tradition states you have to bury it somewhere special. So he threw it in one of the lakes.

Wait, they don't just get rid of it?
Where is mine I wonder?

What detail am i missing from this?
If you like that sorta demeaning words as you why not find a dom top to serve?

If you do a traditional Jewish one you do.

The subtlety of the color and forms.

I kid.
Nibi is just an angsty wag. He called me a pedo for some reason. I think it's funny when he cherry picks insults.

I don't mind a dom, but first I have to actually become inclined to actively pursue a relationship.
I have one in the works, but that's a ways off.

i just want to jack off and i can't because of this discourse about how shitty your upper-middle class suburban life is

>Jewish
Fuck. I was raised Christian.

Then go to a dedicated porn site?

I'm lower class and live in an urban area.

They burned it, man.

Well what's it called then?
Yeah it's funny, but he still needs to learn that bantering take more than just random insults all the time.

Damn.

He seems repressed.
All of his reasons to hate me seem somewhat inane.

why are you fags posting pics of mark from sparklehorse? he killed himself to get away from people like you

What's what called? The painting? no.6 or Untitled no.6

It's whatever.

He killed himself because he was severely depressed and his life was falling apart.

Well he's not found himself yet it seems and is lashing out. he must have hated himself for quite awhile to get to where he is.
Have you been reading up on nutrition yet?
So you just did some painting for no reason because you have no direction.

Rest in peace, Kurt Cobain.
We shall miss you.

I have been. I might try to start eating fish.
Powerlifting seems to be what I should do as well.

stop this. go for a walk and think about becoming a better person

Haha Exam time!

GOOD LUCK KALDIS

Don't be a retard and panic like I use to.

power lifters are strong as fuck and can convert to a body builder fairly easy. just make sure you have adequate rest between sessions.

Thank you domes

>what are things I cannot control for 400

I'm thinking one day of lifting, one day of rest.

SQUASH DO POWERLIFTING

STARTER STRENGTH TO CONJUGATE

chet panics when he examines flies

You can control it. It just may take practice for some people.

I WANT TO LOOK LIKE I"M SMUGGLING HAMS IN MY ARMS

I just panic when I realize I didnt memorize the correct equation

Ill do my best Chet

THERE ARE SO MANY OF THEM.

Then there's the guilt. I have killed so many thousands. All dumped in ethanol.

It's all anyone can expect or hope for.

I am on the eighth painting. I have no direction in my painting except the painting itself. Painting is both the means and the end, I am exploring and expressing ideas I cannot otherwise express through the act of painting itself. The physical art object is only left as the evidence of the process. And when I say eighth, I mean of these paintings. I also have two drawings like this. In addition to that I have some 15 paintings and twice as many drawings in the method I worked in just before.

What you are calling sparse are the still lifes and possibly the heads/Venuses. The still lifes I don't spend time on, I do them because I don't have to worry about if it works or not. I put the object in front of me and it's just me, and the object, and the sketch I am making. I don't get hung up on those, I do them for the enjoyment of doing them, for the pleasure of exploring the object's physicality. The sculptures have to be vague, they cannot exist without the vagueness. Pushing them beyond that point causes them to break, not physically, but as a work.

It is impossible for me to become better. Only less bad.

Just don't forget your core.

truly heartless

you fokin better mate, ill fokin neck yeh if ye dont

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Your porn folder is wonderful.

The still like you mention have much more detail than what you put on canvas. I know that for sure. I don't know how long you've been at it but you should go back and add more features to it.
usually once a form is down on paper the details just come naturally.
I added some more tigers recently.
Thanks for the words of encouragement

It's only heartless if I didn't feel remorse. I said do feel it (but I don't really and I'm actually like the Mengele of the Drosophila world).

When is the exam?

>And americans begin to wake up

>americans begin to wake up
>americans begin to grab a brush and put on a little make up

The point isn't the detail, the point is the pleasure of the exploration of form. The simpleness of the sensation of seeing that object and painting it. I intentionally choose objects without a lot of stuff the get hung up on. This bottle, for example, had a label on it, and as I was exploring this bottle the label also had to be explored. I try not to spend more than two hours on these since that is the limit of my joy. Any longer and it isn't fun anymore.

Cats are heartless creatures

Oops wrong pic

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Cats were behind the Columbine massacre confirmed.

They are harbingers of Armageddon but you cannot resist their fluff or cute little faces.

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What do your badger eyes see?