I'm sorry, user, I really am.
I can relate.Here's my story and advice :
I caught my first ex-boyfriend with a hooker in his bed.Can you fucking imagine me opening the door and seeing them there doing the stuff?
I was shock, I thought I'm dreaming, the whole universe collapsed, I couldn't sleep well for few months, everything that reminded me of him(places,songs,pictures,etc) brought me intense emotional pain...I couldn't even attend certain places sometimes...
The second one : used to hit me , he beat me up once because ''he's the leader in his house'', I was so broken that I didn't say a word and I believed I deserved it :(
His beatings made me depressed, suicidal and one time I wanted to kill myself....guess what he did..
: He left me...he left me broken, vulnerable, hurt....he left me and the next week he was into another relationship...
user, please, listen to us. You're young, the odds are in not in our favor because the younger you are the most lonely you are.Studies have said that the older you get the more chances you have to find ''the one''.
user, please, listen to us : go out, get a hobby, DELETE EVERYTHING about her, block her everywhere. If her future dates ignore her she'll come at you but don't accept her because she'll going to break up with you again at some time in the future.
Go out, find a hobby, dance, walk, do jogging, pain, listen to music, DISTRACT your mind.
We, as humans, are built to heal if we forget the thing that used to hurt us.
Now, I've been in a relationship(2 years) with this turkish handsome man who treats me like his little prince (yes, call me a fag), he's loyal, faithful, honest, kind, gentle, and I return the favor infinitely.
C'mon, user, you can do it, we all can.