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Come on in Sup Forumsros

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Where's that guy that was "spilling 11 years of repressed feelings"? Keep going, man.

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Still looking for that texts from dad picture.

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I'm also wondering. Are you here bro?

We care. Alot.

My head hurts from crying too much, I can't really cry anymore. I'm starting to feel anger, ive never felt this before? What can I do?

Drinking some cinnamon tequila on this hot sticky night; anyone see any good movies/shows lately

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Not that user, but did say I'd post my story in the next thread, so...

Prologue:
>Start in late 2008
>Be 23
>Mom's been dead for two years now
>Hated my father because reasons
>Living mostly with grandmother
>Getting job training for residential maintenance
>Fucked up and finished in only 8 months
>Employers want 2 years experience
>Fucking recession
>Took advantage of training program to start at a community college
>Seemed legit, though
>Had a plan:
>My ex lived 300+ miles away
>4+ years of a relationship and we'd been in the same zip code for only 3 and a half months
>Transfer to a school near her
>Effectively get a degree in Whitenighting
>Yeah, complete faggot, I know
>Everything was coming together
>For the first time in my life
>I was taking charge!

>Oh, you poor, dumb bastard...

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Damn. Dammit... dammit.

user who just told a close friend about his problems over Snapchat here, she just sent a picture of her with her friends dunno what if she even read it...

Go for a walk. Listen to some music. You'll make it.

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Ok that legitimately got me. A lot of my family members worked as nurses in nursing homes and this shit always made me sad. Seeing people degrade into nothingness in their own minds while the people working there (usually the activity directors) treat them like this is just heart wrenching.

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>January 2009
>Ex catches pneumonia...then her favorite uncle and grandfather die within the month
>She's understandibly frustrated
>I'd become more distant lately
>I can't multitask for shit
>Seriously, I can't talk on the phone and surf the internet at the same time
>Relationship goes to reactor meltdown status
>We tried to salvage it
>May rolls around
>Got the summer all planned out
>Uncle (who has power of attorney over grandma's affairs) won't let me stay there anymore
>Panic sets in
>I don't know how to adult!
>Relationship finally dies for good at the same time
>No reason to transfer schools now...or even keep going
>Get a contact with a guy fixing up apartments for work
>Make a deal with another dude to room with him
>This works out for about two months
>Turns out, dude wasn't paying the rent
>No idea what the fuck he was doing with his money
>Gonna get evicted
>Dude skates out; flees to North Carolina
>Also, did something very stupid at work; got fired
>Yeah, this ain't gonna end well...
>Call this older chick I knew
>Last hope
>Turn for advice
>She offers a deal
>She and another couple were getting ready to move into a bigger apartment
>They could throw me a bone to get me back on my feet
>I agree; they agree
>We move in together August 2009

Will do. Maybe I'll just listen to music and talk with you guys. I feel like I have a purpose here. What's up with you

Go on a serial killing spree and completely consume the bodies of your victims.

damn that was fucked up.

I was thinking about that. How did you know I've been thinking of doing something like that to feel something?

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Reminds me of:
> the one's that smile the brightest... are the loneliest...

I have a stupid smile on nearly the entire time I'm awake. Glad I have somewhere where I can return to normal: looking sad. Thanks for being here, guys.

No problem man. Glad to have you here

I'm the user that said never open up to others, they'll just abandon you...

I'm sorry, but that was exactly my point: they don't understand. They don't care.

But we do...

>Ten months of hell
>Melodramatic? Yes
>Accurate? Indeed
>New survival plan: keep going to school and use Grant and Scholarship money to buy me time
>Only a minor setback
>We can recover
>I seriously underestimated my expenses
>Barely was able to keep up with rent (and, a couple of times, wasn't)
>Ran out of food more times than I can count
>Went days without eating
>No bus fare at times
>Had a bike for a while
>Would bike a 4 hour round trip to go to classes (and be out of the apartment)
>Even in January and February
>At one point, the bike broke down
>I could scrounge enough change most days to ride the bus
>Except for those two Saturdays I had to walk 6 hours...for a class that was WALKING tours of historical sites.
>What about roommates?
>The couple were chill
>Dude was firm, but fair with me at all times
>His wife was a wonderful woman but plagued by a myriad of mental illnesses
>Docs had her on so many different medications
>First time I experienced someone in the "drug zombie" state
>Still, overall good people
>The chick I met before...dear God
>Complete turboslut
>I think she wanted me for some fucked up reason
>Came home drunk as shit in the first month
>Begged me to fuck her
>I wouldn't
>No condom
>She won't help me find one
>Finger her off
>She doesn't remember
>Glad I didn't
>She's also ultrafertile
>Already has three daughters
>Got pregnant a month later
>And she's bipolar
>And she's off her meds
>They'll affect her breast milk
>Oh, dear God, that woman...
>Psycho doesn't even BEGIN to cover it

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all of my keks.This just reaffirms the futile/existential posts ITT

Yeah, I agree with you now. I guess I'll just act like I didn't say anything and move on. I care about you too man.

Poor Julius. Really glad he got a birthday card from Sup Forums tho

Shit like this always gets to me and I hate it.

Is the 29 year-old guy who lost his girlfriend of 10 months here? Do you think you'll ever get over it?

wanna share some music over plug.dj? Maybe we can get other anons in

Haha... listening to music and talking with you guys. Just came back from the bar with some "friends". I just can't stand it. Am I the only one who's so broken on the inside? Everyone seems to have life figured out... but me. Well, but us.

this?:

Someone out there knew who I was. Who are you? I swear I will know you, just give me a hint man.

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What do you do when your social awareness is keener than everybody around you, and they treat you like a fool?

That story hurt.

I'm on mobile dunno if I can do it as much. I just like listening to the hotline Miami 1 and 2 OST mainly its my favorite game and has some great artists. What's your favorite music, user?

>Meanwhile, having trouble finding work
>My work experience is spotty at best at this point
>Can't even get an interview at the corner gas station
>I'm not looking very hard despite the urgency
>I'm too terrified to ask places if they're hiring
>I have zero confidence that I am a marketable individual
>It snowballed out of control
>I'd be hiding from that psycho bitch every waking moment
>I'm still fuzzy on what I must have done to earn her ire
>Still, I can't stay at the apartment much longer
>Need work
>Freeze up looking for work
>June 2010
>Come back from morning "hiding" at the library
>The wife gives me a very concerned look
>"user, we have to talk..."
>See, I'm not on the lease
>Somebody snitched I was there
>Three guesses who
>Either I GTFO or everyone's getting evicted
>So I packed what clothes and books I could into my couple suitcases and

my pillow
>The couple expressed their regret that shit went down the way it did
>I understood
>It's my own fault
>They drive me out to the only homeless shelter in the county
>I'm able to get in
>That was the only night I've ever actually cried myself to sleep
>Come close a couple times before and since
>This was it, though
>Game Over, man

End Part 1

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Fuck everything.

>ONE MAN WOLF PACK

Just found out I'm probably the only person who snaps her, but I'm setting myself up for disappointment

This is my story. Who are you? You're the only person who knows I really need help.

This picture always gets me. The slumped posture and downward direction of the face of the person in the wheelchair just says, "I'm beaten. I'm done. I died a long time ago." Reminds me of when my mother was in a hospice July 2015. She had a Stage 4 Glioblastoma for 3 years. Nursing homes and hospices alike are just miserable waiting rooms into nothingness.

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here you go, my cathartic pals.

I'm liking this so far

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Join if you'd like. Chatbox is on the right

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Sorry for the harshness... but that's the way it is :(

Good luck, Sup Forumsrother. I wish you all the best.

have you ever thought about the possibility that Julius might be a known rapist in his neighborhood?

you know, just putting it out there.

Gomorrah ( italian pretty good show )
Narcos ( about Pablo Escobar that was trying to be a good guy to help the people from his country then they destroyed his dream really recommend it )
Movies
The Purge 3 kinda gory and weird
Breaking Point I liked it because of the adrenaline rush they had
Have seen a lot of movies probably serial killers have more of a social life than me.

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Ok, if it's formatted for mobile I'll see if I can join

Yeah, greaf is... amazing.

Holy fuck guys that was me

Where did i leave off?

oop got me

Yeah... thank you.

I don't understand what's happening here

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is anyone else just sitting here crying on and off?
im having such a shitty day.

Hey user, mobilefag reporting back
. Near a lodge so no computers. For this website it doesn't work on mobile browsers. Is there anything I can do? Id hate to leave out alone

Kek, me too man,me too

zombies

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Shit i used to chat a lot with my friend Soph to the point where she started to like me asuch as i did, and idek what happend but one day in january she changed her mind and ruined me, that little screenshot brought me many memories

Here Sup Forumsro where did i leave off?

Hmm... well, that's very kind of you.

I was so excited when I first joined this new fad. Gave away my username to everyone I could think of. Almost zero conact. It became a window that would show me how much others were enjoying life. I uninstalled it shortly after...

Fuck

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Still isn't mobile friendly? Is there an app for it?

fuck man

Jesus Christ, this is just sad. We live too long now, we should be able to at least sign a paper in our life time granting a humane way to put us down like an animal. No excuse for us to be in this miserable state of escaped death.

Yeah dude, but nobody texts me so I use snapchat so I can kind of force people to talk to me, dunno it works better than texting at getting responses.
Glad I could make you feel.

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Well I tried it, and it said something that they're making an app and it's not done yet, and I had to get onto a computer to use it. So sorry user. Anything I can do man?

>At this point, I've got nothing
>I had even lost my wallet three months ago
>My licence had expired in that time, anyway
>So, first thing I had to do was get my ID back
>Shelter wouldn't let me stay without photo ID
>No money to my name
>A certain agency could possibly help, though
>IF I have a recognized disability
>Well, shit...
>I had talked many times to the couple (especially the wife) at my last apartment
>She had suggested I seek professional help a couple times in all seriousness
>All right, I'll jump through the hoops I have to
>Not expecting anything
>I'm not sick
>I'm just a colossal faggot
>Still take it completely seriously, regardless of outcome
>Come to find out...
>Well, congrats, user
>You're NOT a colossal faggot, after all
>You're a colossal faggot with a documented illness!
>Go me?
>So, anxiety severe enough to "have a significant impact on my quality of life" is good enough to start rebuilding my life
>Wait, what?
>This opens up a whole bunch of help I can access
>Start seeing a therapist
>Get a case manager to help out with paperwork and navigate the maze of services
>Get a job coach to help deal with problems finding work
>It's a slow process
>Still feeling like shit
>Shame piling on shame
>I keep freezing up when deadlines are involved
>Somehow, everything comes together at the last possible second
>First to a sort of halfway house
>Finally, a housing assistance voucher became available
>Income based
>Designed to act as a 2 year buffer to full self-sufficiency
>Finally find a suitable apartment
>Move in Feb 2011
>Had nothing but the clothes, pillow, couple blankets, and an old desktop computer at first
>No furniture
>First apartment is always shitty
>It turned out to be
>But it was MINE

that. that is down right horrible! you give up your live to help someone and they just stab you in the back why? what benefit did it get you? did those years mean nothing to you? i hope she dies a horrible death from like cancer or beheading or something like that just cause thats all she deserves

>be depressed a few years ago
>i like cars so ill become a mechanic
>go to school for it
>do final internship
>realize i will have to do oil changes for years with shit pay and have pay my own tools
>go work in a factory because i dont know what to do anymore
>do 6 months ,about to become permanent employee but get fired right before christmas
>im pretty good at pc related stuff so ill become a IT Technician
>go to school for it
>1st internship at dream job
>more school
>2nd internship at dream job
>finish school
>get a job there
>still feel empty
>buy a nice car
>feel nothing
>been 2 years at a job that my younger self would be stoked about
>buy a nice truck for winter
>still feel depressed

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Yay, he's back :]
You left off at:
> mother struggled with meth.
> wanted to push on to be role model for little sis (god bless you user)
> got into fights & hated every moment of that period

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I know she cannot read this by any means but i gotta say she was the most important person for me and i never got to meet her, i miss her so much. I miss the days when it was normal to hear an "ily" coming from you and also feel like you actually were into me.. shit i got so obsessed with your little eyes and your lowkey happy smile

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Man, I agree. That's so fucked up. Shit like this happens too often.

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>Things looking up
>I'm still a bit hard up for food
>Hung in there, though
>Finally got a job
>Shitty fast food job in mall
>Fuck it; I can do this!
>Went into it full of enthusiasm
>Crushed immediately
>I'm only guy working the lunch rush
>Fries, sandwiches...everything's my job
>Cannot keep up
>Other guys can
>Sure, they've got experience...that's what it is!
>Year goes by
>Still cannot keep up
>Failure to live up to own standards crushes every day at work
>Job wears thin
>No other options, though
>Grin and fucking bear it
>Tried to develop a social life now that I've got income
>Start chatting with young dude who closes
>He eventually suggested I come to game night
>"Wow, I've got friends!"
>Haha, not really
>Dudes were more interested in tripping than any games
>Partied with them a couple times
>Found I don't like parties
>Too self-conscious
>Eventually had a falling out with them
>Spazzed out over wanting game night to be Serious Business instead of me watching them trip
>Still chill with the dude from work, though
>Despite this, I find myself craving human contact

Anyone got his twitter, blogger, or youtube. I wanna send him some love.

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>Well I tried it, and it said something that they're making an app and it's not done yet, and I had to get onto a computer to use it. So sorry user. Anything I can do man?
Use Overchan. I'm always on mobile, I have no computer. You have to recaptcha literally every post, but it works.

god damnit user, i just stopped crying and dried my eyes off and now this shit makes me cry again what tlthe fuyck

I needed that thank you