Feels Thread

Feels Thread.

I'll start
>Be 12 year old beta fag
>Meet girl online. We'll Call her L
>Instantly love her, great relationship with her
>find out she lives across the country
>start relationship with girl in school
>tell L all about her
>I don't have feelings for L anymore
>Don't think about it much, she probably never liked me, I was a dick
>Few month pass
>13 now, other girl dumped me
>I was fucking crushed
>L comforted me, L was there for me, was always there for me
>Start talking about me going up in a couple years.
>Dad says if I save up enough he'll pay for half
>Life's getting better
>Another few months pass, Me and L talk at all times that we can, she's sweet, kind, likes the same things as me, and she listens. Something every other girl didn't do.
>I start to love her
>I find out from a mutual friend she cares about me on an intimate level
>She's 3 hours behind and is home schooled now
>We talk less and less due to her having school around time I'm home
>I meet another girl, She's amazing, 9/10, sweet, kind, listens, almost exactly like L, except there... In real life
>Tell L about her, Have to go down to Texas, it's where my mother lives, parents divorced
>I don't have a computer there, Website isn't compatible with mobile
>Ask girl out before I go, we'll call her G
>Me and G tough out half the summer, we care about each other a lot now
>Go to old friends house in Texas
>They have computer there
>fuck yes
>get on the site
>Sign on
>...
>She started dating someone.
>good for her
>couldn't help but feel jealous
>meh
>Say hi to friends
>Don't say anything to L
>Call G after, talk for a bit
>She asks what's wrong
>She's like that, she loves me so much she could tell something was wrong just from voice
>Don't tell her, say an old friend wasn't the same.
>She understands
>I get home, it's a month before school starts. With dad
>with computer
>Get on site
>L unfriended me
>I'm crushed
>Contact mutual friend, same one from last time

Bump

Pt. 2

>Mutual friend says L is angry after being dumped
>M F contacts L, we start talking again
>I go on first date with G
>See Deathly Hollows part 2
>both love Harry Potter
>She's 8/10, loves same things I do, everything like L, except L is there... In real life
>Me and L talk less and less
>I don't feel right
>I love to people
>My family notices
>I get psychiatrist, I get diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and my stress levels are those of an Adult with a hard working job
>Act normal, don't want people worried, I'm like that
>I start talking to L more, but I don't play games with her anymore
>Video games are boring
>I sell everything
>Brother notices
>I tell him about the diagnosis
>I told the psychiatrist not to tell anyone about it
>he was forced to not tell anyone due to doctor patient confidentiality
>Brother doesn't tell anyone
>Tell G, she's worried
>Tell L, even more worried
>Only 5 people on the earth know, including me
>I still act the same, just not as outgoing
>All A's, a little less fat, due to not eating
>Almost 14, L says she doesn't want to talk
>my dad buys nice necklace for G
>uses all the money
>Dad tells G about it

Cont, op im interested

Bumping a dying thread op continue

bumping for interest op

>Feels Thread

>tfw the only people I meet are online, and I eventually ignore the ones that pursue me and everyone else inevitably just stops responding to me
>tfw no job, aspirations, ability to self motivate, or marketable skills
>tfw I'm literally hopeless
>tfw I'd probably be better off dead, but am too squeamish to do it the easy way, repeatedly failed at ODing on prescribed meds, and have NEVER had a gun

How expensive would renting a shotgun at a gun range be, Sup Forums? That seems like my last option.

user just run away. Just literally walk down the street and keep going. Just go and go until you're somewhere else. Become homeless and see at least a little bit of the world

Or y'know, kill yourself

Don't have the resolve or desire. I honestly don't think there's anything in the world that could change my mind and make me want to better myself. I tried that a couple times when I was younger, I'd just come back every time. I've tried to kill myself since as young as 3rd grade. I'm not on meds anymore, and too squeamish/untrusting of any of the easy ways.

Pt. 3

>I take back the necklace
>just in case I stay friends with L
>havent hear anything from L
>I still love both of them
>Me and L kiss
>First kiss
>I get word from M F that L is thinking about suicide
>Call her, we talk and I she vents about her nephew and brother moving away, sisters are assholes, slips that she misses me
>we talk for about 5 hours, I love her
>She promises to not do anything Rash
>Don't hear from her until later on
>almost end of school year, 1 year anniversary of G and I
>She expects the necklace
>breaks up with me
>have over 1000 dollars now
>Buy laptop, contact L
>Ask her to let me vent
>She says yes and I say everything, G breaking up with me, spending all my money on the laptop, accidently slip that I love her
>She acts like she didn't notice
>We talk for another 3 hours, find out her phone broke and that's why she never called
>we stay talking for 3 months
>get back together with G at end of summer
>says sorry for being bitchy, I say it's okay
>start freshman year, I look 18, and have very hard classes (11 and 12th grade classes) so they assume that I'm cool
>Friends with everyone, hate everyone
>except G and big brother

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Pt. 4

>L gets phone and we talk on that now
>I'm almost 15, almost Christmas too
>Buy ticket on birthday, leave for all Christmas break
>Me and L kiss when I see her
>I didn't mean to, she says it's okay
>we get to her house
>it's late at night, she says that I was her first kiss.
>says she loved it
>says she loves me
> I never told her me and G got back together
>I tell her, she looks like she died on the inside
>I go to her chicken coops
>they recognize my face somehow, find pictures of me under the feeding area
>they must love me
>Only 3 things that aren't family love me. One of them chickens
>laugh
>lay down in hay
>cry for an hour
>fall asleep, wake up to G and L asking me to choose
>I can't, I love them both
>it was a dream
>I woke up and L had made food for the family
>Meet rest of family, asked why I look so messy
>Don't say
>eat and go to L's room
>lay on her bed and cry
>She comes in and asks me what happened last night.
>Tell her that I've loved her for 3 years, but have loved someone else for almost 2 years and I see them everyday.
>She understands, being home schooled and all
>Tell her that I'm dating G again
>She looks sad
>I'm sad
>we cry
>I leave the next day, it was only for a couple days.
>I'm sad
>I have to choose between someone I've known for a 5th of my life and have loved them that long, or someone I see every day.
>I can't
>Psychiatrist says I have to make a choice and not doing so could impact me horribly.
>a couple months later. 2 year anniversary, I give her the same necklace, she says she loves it
>I lost my virginity that night. So did she
>I still love L more
>I couldn't do it anymore
>I don't know how
>I just couldn't
>I didn't know what to do anymore
>I still was the most popular kid in the school.
>I hated everything
>except G and L

i dont know why i stay in this thread cause the more i read the more i cringe at this faggotry

Yup, Same here. I´m out. Op is cry baby

Pt. 5

>I started to get back into gaming, me and L played again
>I was almost 16, me and G still together
>get license
>Go to Texas for winter
>Tell family I'm going for a drive
>drive for 3 days
>Accidentally put in L's address
>I sleep in the back of the car that night crying.
>Tell parents I'm going to Michigan
>they're furious
>sister is sad
>I'm sad
>what do I do
>I go inside and L is surprised to see me
>I don't care
>we kiss
>we sleep in the same bed
>we shower together the next morning
>Me and L are perfect
>what do I do
>I go to Texas
>Say hi to family
>apologize
>Go to dad's
>Tell G the entire story
>She says if I love L, then I should be with her
>She angry but understands
>I cry
>She says to go before she changes her mind
>I don't know what to do anymore
>Me and L talk all the time now
>everything seemed okay.
>my only friend dies
>M F died
>I won't say his name but he was the most amazing person you would ever meet
>he lived in Europe, same age as me
>I buy tickets for me and L
>we're at his funeral
>L cries
>I cry
>get call from G's dad that she ran away
>needs me
>I fly back to Dad's and find her
>She was in my room waiting for me
>had rope
>tried to kill herself
>I saved her as she knocked the chair over

no one cares. seriously, nobody fucking cares about your fake story of when you were a fucking teenager. Get over it or kill yourself.

Pt. 6 (final)

>L flies back to USA, meets G
>G tells L how lucky she is
>G is sad, L is angry with me for taking this long to be honest with G
>I don't say anything
>L says she loves me and goes to my car.
>G says she's sorry for the drama
>it's okay
>G starts dating someone
>She's happy
>I still miss her, she was there
>on the way back to California, L said something I'll never forget
>"Life isn't like books. You can't be in love with 2 people, If you are, you're life will be hell and you'll never be happy. Please oh please don't get with anyone while we aren't together. This isn't a damn book or movie. No cheating. You cheat and we're over"
>I said I would never cheat
>I didn't
>I find out G's bf died. I'm there for her, a shoulder to cry on only.
>G tells L i tried to hook up with her
>I cried all night
>L blocked me on everything
>the only person that could help was gone...
>it was over
>No one loved me, I had no real friends.
>my family found out about the diagnosis
>they were angry with me, and didn't help me

I know this is a feels Thread, but the ending is happy, sorta

>I check every day to see if I was unblocked
>on one website we forgot about, we hadn't used in years, she hadn't blocked me, I explained everything
>L apologized
>We got together again

We were together for another 7 years

>when I married her, I passed out at the wedding ceremony
>from the severe stress, I had gotten very bad sores and knots in my back and I never addressed them which caused more horrible shit.
>I went sterile, and we can't have kids, and she doesn't want to adopt.

That's the Story... I hope you enjoyed....

...

Beautiful story

Feels time.
Literally this guy without all of the suicide attempts. I've had 3 girlfriends in my short 18 year lifetime, one a 8/10 who I fucked up with miserably and she left me, the 2nd a 2/10 I got with out of desperation, and the 3rd a long distance 9/10 qtpi who's recently stopped talking to me with no warning. I'm still a virgin, I have little to no friends and the ones I do have are drifting away from me ever so slowly. I want to end my life, but I'm too scared of what will happen if I fuck it up. I want to see a psychiatrist about it, but I don't want to involve my parents, as I don't have a car or a job at the moment. This stress is killing me, slowly but surely. And I want out, guys. I'm sick of being alone, the friend everyone leans on but doesn't care about, the wizard who looks out at the normal world and cries because he's never been able to be a part of it, the background character that no one likes. I'm so done with my pathetic existence. And what's funny is that apparently some people think I'm actually a pretty cool, charismatic guy until they actually get to know me. And it sucks that I have to put up that mask of "I'm fine" when someone asks me if I'm OK just so that my "friends" don't drop me like everyone else. It really sucks that I have to lie to people just to seem normal, to have to come to this board, to this website, to vent to people who probably don't give a flying fuck, just to keep from just slitting my own throat and being done with the whole damn thing. But whatever. Such is life.

Does anyone have a load of feels pictures they can dump. Especially the one's where they're someone texting someone and the response from the other person makes you really feel. Hope that wasn't too confusing. Thanks.

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I stopped caring when he said he was 13 and in love