19 years old, almost 20

>19 years old, almost 20
>fucked up my first year at uni and am on academic probation
>poor as shit and both parents have absolutely horrible credit and can't cosign loans so I don't know how the fuck I'm gonna pay for the rest of my schooling
>older sister cosigned last time but I fucked my grades up so she isn't helping me anymore
>my rent is too fucking high
>if I do get loans I'm gonna be in a shit ton debt when i graduate and will be a slave for the rest of my life
>was a CS major but realized I hate it and suck at it, now I THINK I want to just get an information technology degree of some kind but I don't fucking know
>why the fuck didn't I just go to community college
>mother abused me, thought I was fine for a while but now I think it's affecting my relationships with people, haven't spoken to my mother since I moved out about a year ago, should probably get a therapist but that shit costs money
>hate being a worthless burden asking my family members for help, don't know a lot of them that well because my mom kept me away from them
>ugly
>small dick

well Sup Forums, lets all feel sorry for ourselves

ITT: Venting/feels/pity party/my life sucks
get stuff off your chest

Fuck I came on b for porn not feels

>my rent is too [damn] high

Is this you?

>Be me
>be single for 2+ years
>be lonley beta
>Was meant to go out for the first time in ages tonight with 5/10 qt
>cancel.jpg

mfw

Stop blaming everyone and everything but yourself.
You keep trying to blame your parents. How many fucking kids had poor or abusive or poor AND abusive parents and live healthy, comparatively successful lives?

Many. Is the answer.

Stop being a fucking millenial with a victim complex. Or kill yourself. Seriously, if you don't value your own life enough to overcome obstacles, no one else will care if you die.

>19
>drop out of school at 14
>5 years without leaving the house
>want to change but dont know where to start from here
>if i reach 21 years old and im in the same situation im 100% sure ill just take my own life

/thread

>be me 19
>have suicidal thoughts daily since im like 12
>dont know how far im gonna make it till im fed up
>im hoping so damn much that someone just shoots me in a fight or something so i dont have to end it myself

y didn't you include your face when?

Live at home and go to community college. 2,000 dollars for a semester instead of 10,000 dollars a semester. Also, don't be a fuck up failure. That will help a lot too.

Sell drugs. Why do you think so many people do it. It's how they survive. Even with my currenybjob I make 1/4th what I need to support just myself. Murica sucks bro. Move to germany where you can go to school for free.

It does sound like I'm blaming my parents, but that wasn't my intention. I love them both very much, my mom has a chemical imbalance and can't help how she is but she is too toxic to maintain a relationship with. I don't know my dad too well. He's an immigrant that came here out of desperation, it isn't exactly his fault he's poor. I was simply outlining my situation and explaining why I don't have money for things. You must have skimmed my post since you didn't see I admitted fault for all my fuck ups at school. Also,

>venting thread

I just want to die killing a bad guy in an epic way like throwing us both off a building and punching each other till we hit the ground.

For fuck's sake stop whinging and take a year out.

Get a proper job, and save up so when you come back you can actually study.

> I'm a poor fag
> Mommy touches me
Woah that really escalated.exe

> >venting thread
It doesn't work that way.

If you want somewhere you're the king of all you survey and you get to tell people how to act, go blog it on your blog.

>>be me 12

user if you have a decent GPA, I recommend you to move to Puerto Rico, the University of Puerto Rico is way cheaper compared to the U.S and it's good education, the only barrier is the language but with the leftovers of the fafsa you can pay some classes

Join the military active duty, get out of debt, do 4 years, get GI bill

Oh, it doesn't? I'm just trynna post feels and maybe get some snippets of advice. you don't have to stay in the thread friend, I'm not telling anyone how to act, I'm aware I'm being unnecessarily whiny that's the point of the thread. Thanks for the input tho, i guess.

Fuck you commie

>been fixated on love my whole life
>just want a girl to play with and be loving towards me
>want to cuddle her and kiss her and tell her I love her
>most girls in my life have not paid attention/rejected/been cold to me
>mfw I have such a hug heart and want to do all these things and girls don't appreciate me
>try to maintain my sense of self worth but some days it's hars
>I wonder what it's like to be held and told it will be okay
>I wonder what it's like to have her heart in your hands
>I wonder what it's like to spend time with a girl who is happy just to be with you
>been sleeping with hooked, doesn't help the pain
>sex is just a activity now, most of the time it doesn't feel special
>where is my true love?
>where is my special someone?
>why doesn't this story feel happy?