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Alcoholics thread. How are you guys holding up?
Post stories/current situations
I'll start
>20 y/o
>in the US Navy
>married to my high school sweetheart
>i love her
>she loves me
>get stationed in Hawaii
>live off base because married
>nice two story house 5 min walk from the beach
>play drums in a band (my passion)
>wife doesn't mind me practicing because she is super supportive of me doing what i love
>my life fucking rocks
>no reason to be sad or depressed
>for some reason super down all the time
>drink every fucking day
>as soon as i get home from work, pound a 40oz maybe two and then sip sailor jerry's all night to keep my buzz going until i pass out
>wake up hungover every fucking day
>wife doesn't think it's an issue because i'm a high functioning drunk and good at hiding how drunk i am
>she can't tell i'm shitfaced
>she just thinks i'm buzzed
>actually black out drunk
>if i go longer than 12 hours without alcohol i get really bad headaches
>haven't gotten the "shakes" yet
>probably because i haven't gone long enough without alcohol to see if i get shakes
>alcoholism runs in my family
>can't seek treatment because military
>get kicked out if they find out i'm drinking underage
>also don't want to seek treatment because i like drinking
>terrified that this might ruin my marriage years down the road
>also potential to ruin my career
>alcohol will slowly ruin my fucking life but i fucking love it
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yeah, I'd love to go to rehab for a month
>run a concrete plant
>have trouble sleeping
>take my job seriously
>have to get up at all hours of the night
Like tonight, It's 12:30 here in VA, and I have to be up by 1 am so I'm here shitposting
>cant sleep, so I fucking chug loads of booze an hour or two before bed time
>it's making me fat, and I havent had a night without booze in years
I feel trapped by alcohol and my work schedule, feels terrible man
I just want to go somewhere were they can teach me how to sleep normally again
What's your drink of choice?
Cut back slowly. You quit cold turkey you can get seizures and die. That's what I'm currently in the process of doing.
>No friends
>Lots money
>Alone 90% of time
>Drink because why not
>End up drinking every day
>Lots of scotch
>Decide to stop
>Feel like death, like a 4x hangover for week straight
>mouth constantly tastes like blood
>feels like constantly swallowing metal shavings
>arms feel like they're attached to a car battery, constant fuzzy shock feeling
>fade in and out of consciousness
>breathing stops at random intervals (scary as fuck when you realize you forgot to breathe)
>sleep is impossible, constant fear i'll pass out into a seizure
>super hot, super cold, super sweaty
>plagued by repeating nightmares about Guy Fieri on Endor
>Sleep in 10 minute intervals
>Nights last for weeks, become delirious
Not fun. Cut back slowly, and do it before you get in too deep. The withdrawal is awful. Or keep drinking, whatever feels right.
jesus
Got my second DUI at 10am last week
Oh well
you did it to yourself
OP here
I get that tho.
I lived at Pearl Harbor a while back but had to work across the island because hur dur military
Back before my wife moved out here i would take one of those hydro flask coffee cups (see pic) and fill it up with rum and drive to work with it in my cup holder. My commute was an hour so it would be empty before i made it to work. That plus the 5 beers i had for breakfast.... It wasn't good.... I thank the lord i don't believe in that i made it out of that part of my life to now without dying, killing someone, or getting pulled over.
I live close to my work now so drinking and driving isn't much of an issue anymore
WAAAAAAAAAAAAH WAHHHHHHHHH WAHHHHHHHHHHHH just fucking quit if you don't want to be a drunk it's not that hard, I use to drink half a bottle to a full bottle a day.
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Nothing is worse than drunk driving man, Its never you that gets hurt its the mother and her 2 kids that you destroy
I am fully aware of that. That's why I'm advising OP on how to avoid potentially life-threatening withdrawal symptoms by drinking less every day, rather than just quitting immediately.
>get sick as a dog
>go a week without drinking as a result
>first time I've gone more than 2 days without drinking in 4yrs
>go another 5 days without drinking after
>floods start getting bad throughout state
>tons of people I know are losing their homes
>blocked in by floods on all sides
>stock up on whiskey and beer
>sitting here hammered and killing time while waiting to see if our apartment goes under
What part of VA man? I live in Virginia Beach aha
Why doesent he just use his fucking noodle and not drive? ive been black out and i know for a fact i would never get into a vehicle. Its all in the mindset. If you aren't willing to change you never will
fuck dude
what story are you on in your complex?
How long have you been drinking user? And how much would you drink a day?
This might be a good thread for this. I took 5 mg Percocet at5 pm and drank a beer at9, what will happen?
I live in Chesapeake. Probably 30 minutes away from you.
I have a drinking problem but fortunately it is minor so far and I could probably stop whenever.
The will to stop on the other hand...
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12-18 Budweisers a night. Case or more on Saturdays. Last 14 years not one day without drinking. Get pissed and quit cold turkey for 5 months. Start drinking on weekends angain. Now back where I started.
switch to weed and tylenol PM.
Bottom
Nothing. Percocet should hardly be in your system after 4hrs. And if you took a few and chugged them down with beer, you'd just have a good time unless your tolerance is shit.
LOG OF SHIT
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ten months clean on the 12th after years of hell. Feels good, but god I miss it sometimes.
Thank you man. I'll pray for your home to stay dry
Crazy how close we are to each other aha. Yeah I work a dock manager and make decent money. He broke up with me since she's going to college at JMU. I have money good friends a motorcycle. Still drink every night. Can't sleep without it.
So are you still able to drink at social things?
Or are you just flat out no alcohol?
Golden Monkey, noice. PA Sup Forumsro here. Live in Downingtown, right around the corner from the brewery.
Marinefag here. Talk to a chaplain to get you into a program without your chain of command ass fucking you. That's what they're good for they can't say shit unless you are about to or have hurt yourself or someone else. Goodluck sailor
went a solid 2.5 years on 60 - 70 hour weeks. stressful. unappreciated. spearheaded an ERP conversion that was going bad, getting worse, and no one was ever happy.
even though exhausted every night, i couldn't sleep without getting drunk before bed. otherwise i'd wake up in the middle of night dreaming about work and then wouldn't be able to fall asleep again. that is if i managed to fall asleep in the first place.
now, years later, managed to talk down my hours at the same place. no longer a young punk and a little seniority has its perks. work about 45 hours a week, over four days. three day weekends every week. work one day from home. work is less stressful.
but still i drink the same way i used to. can't stop now. i managed to go seven months last year without a drink, but i'm back to it again (just posted this in a different thread)...
Just recently quit cold turkey, been drinking about a quart of vodka and whatever else i could get my hands on that night for a long while now, every night was the same routine. Was super high functioning too but i needed to stop kt was killing me. Withdrawal was fucking hell though, bad cold sweats, couldnt sleep, was violently ill as well (not sure if this is common symptom lf alcohol withdrawal), but yeah. For sleep i actually turned to weed after initial detox to help with sleep because i did need to be rested for work. But now i feel really good, sleeping normally again and allowing my body to get tired on its own without pounding back booze until i passed out. In my experience, took about a solid week of withdrawal and detox to finally sleep properly again, but its crucial to keep active and busy so you expend all that addict energy on something productive to allow your body to get naturally tired. All that energy youve put towards drinking throughout the night now has to be converted into something lroductive and healthy, like a hobby or some shit, that really helps with the sleep thing i find. Because like other anons, the sleep and reoccuring night terrors and stress dreams are fucking fucked
Flat out. Had to put away everything. I was clean for a year without any AA four years back and then I decided that it was really just the liquor that got me so I went back with the plan to just drink beer and wine, which lasted for one day. Was out for two and a half years again before i scraped myself off the floor and gave it another go.
Nice man lol. Yeah its has a nice mild flavor to it for being 9 percent. I also like heavy porters aswell. I go brewery hoping in Richmond quite often
Hey retard, go into ADAP or whatever equivalent program the Navy has. Command can't punish you if you self-admit yourself into a treatment program. The only feasible way for a lot of people to kick the habit is with medical supervision. Plus you're in the Navy so it's fucking free. Man up and utilize the resources available to you or just continue to be a sad sack of shit. Alcohol will do that to you.
t. former alcoholic airman
I went about 4 months straight drinking every day. Half a 750ml of scotch usually a night (I honestly don't know if thats alot, but i'm Mr. Skeltal 6' 160lbs), plus a beer or two.
Past few weeks i've cut it to 6 IPA beers every other day, this coming week I'm aiming for none at all til Friday. Finally starting to feel better. But the withdrawal was real, went to the ER twice, they gave me anti seizure meds so i didnt die in my sleep.
OP here
It's not that I don't want to seek help for the career repercussions (that's a small part)
It's mostly because i'm scared that i will have to drop booze all together.
I'm terrified of that.
I like to drink
I don't think my problem is too serious right now. I'm just afraid of the potential.
4 months sober and all I wanna do is fucking throw it in the trash.
About 32. Started drinking pretty heavily about a decade ago.
in4 was brooding, half-fag, psycho in black with an hero alcoholic father.
It used to be just weed to make work suck less.
Enter: the crazy Bukowskian bitch-whores of life, mental illness, and all the unstable conditions of adult mental illness with little to no support. Time to drink.
I don't drink as much now. I'm in therapy, and on medication. But that lifetime of tragedy, humiliation, oppression, violence, and poor decisions is still right there waiting to be dealt with.
TL;DR= Poured booze all over my twenties to drown the fucked, and now I'm confronting all of it as if it was all fresh now in my sobriety. That kind of clarity can be really illuminating of how fucked life is, and how stupid the people you love are.
Im in the AF right now and I truly need you to listen. Alcohol is going to take away everything you love including your career, your wife, your health, everything. I work as a 4C0X1 I'm a mental health technician stationed at Travis. The Navy will punish you for underage drinking(captains staff i think its called in Navy, its called an article 15 for us) but if you self refer to ADAPT they WILL work with you. Alcohol will take away everything you love. Please get help brother I don't want to see you go down like so many others have.
Virginia dude here. You have a good life man. You don't have to quit all together. Just drink when your with friends at a get together ect.. if youre drinking alone I would stop doing that. That's how it becomes a habit. Which could potentially lead you to depend on it. Weigh the options with what you have now. Is it really worth potentially losing your marriage?
my advice is to drink for fun, and not self-medicate. My bad advice is that you can lose everything, but still find some way to get your hands on some booze to forget about it.
Ugh. I need to stop. I love booze because it's fun! BUT it allows little problems to snowball.
Ive been drinking heavily since about 2000, my life has been shit in the last few years, lost relationships, pissed away a lot of money, passed out drunk in my car, Ive lost phones, car keys, eye glasses, been in fights, Ive lost some really good jobs because of my drinking. Ive been getting a lot of weird pains along my back and sides when I drink, Ive gotten retsraining orders against me because I drunk call ex gf, I can go on and on
I have a bike too as well What do you ride?
I have a CBR300R
Yeah, being a drunk can really fuck up your relationships.
Come to think of it, a majority of the stupidest things I did as an adult most likely involved alcohol. At least you run up quite a catalog of amusing stories.
Lex a ho.
>be me 20 y/o
>boyfriend works at bar so get in and drink for free everyday
>black out 3-5 times a week
>stop giving a shit
>continue for several months, end up losing both jobs and my apartment
>have really bad black out one night, get kicked out of bar for fighting people
>boyfriend tries to take me home to go to bed and I try to stab him
>he calls cops on me and ambulance comes too, I fight the cops and paramedics
>they finally wrestle me into the ambulance and I get kicked out of the ER within two minutes for spitting on the ER doctor and trying to fight the nurses
>boyfriend is pissed (obviously) but takes me home anyways to keep an eye on me
>makes me sit outside for a while so I can sober up and not destroy everything in his apartment
>I get mad because I want to go inside so I punch his front window with my bare fist
>feel the broken glass scrape my bones, first thing I remember that whole night
>boyfriend lets me insude to clean me up and I start smearing my blood on his walls and screaming that it's his fault
>shortly after this I finally stop blacking out
>boyfriend tells me what I did that night, I'm completely horrified and have zero memory of it
This nearly ended our relationship, obviously. He is a recovered alcoholic so he understood that I wasn't going to stop until I made that decision myself, and that when you're trapped in the world of addiction you do terrible things to the people you care about. Even still, to this day I'm still surprised that he stuck around. Been sober seven and a half months now. I miss alcohol, but I don't miss the violence and chaos it caused in my life. It CAN get better, but it's up to you.
I have a 2016 fz-07 right now with an m4 exausht. I've had a 250 CBR, gxsr 600, and a r6 before this one though. It's a really fun bike though man
log of shit lol
log of shit
dumbass cracker doesnt know about ibogain aka fixer in real life,fuck withdrawl for ever ibogaworld dot com
Go talk to a chaplain retard.
Yeah I fucked up my high school sweet heart relation ship to me getting black out drunk everyone we went out aha. But like you said I have some good God damn stories lol. I still drink to sleep now but in my last relationship I was dry even at parties I would only drink like 2 beers. It was nice but damn boring
Night terrors..
Mine are cartoons... not scary, but I jerk awake nontheless. Ever get those?
I want a Harley as my next bike lol.I figured out real quick that I am not about speed, just the ride itself.
I had a friend who's not an alcoholic flippantly say something long before i ever quit, when we were talking about my drinking. She just said, "you probably know in your heart of hearts if you're an alcoholic." I really believe that to be true for most alcoholics long before they quit. Even if many need to stack up years of damage and evidence before they allow themselves the truth.
Yeah my father has an 883 sport that I've ridden and it really nice. Just make sure you try and find something water cooled. If you get stuck in traffic with a air cooled one it can get hot lol. Yeah I'm not about speed anymore either my buddy got caught racing at 130 mph. He had to pay 2500 dollars aha. Are you the guy from chesapeake?
yea... was your alcohol spiked with LSD or are you just retarded?
>I'm terrified of that.
Why? Just kidding, you know the answer.
>I don't think my problem is too serious right now
Neither did I until I was putting a gun to my head. Objectively I had no reason to feel down but alcohol does that to you over time. I've seen it destroy my sister's life, she's tried to kill herself multiple times. Same goes for my mom minus the attempts.
You've got to stop drinking for the sake of itself. I still drink on occasion but never more than a couple beers, it's just not worth it. You'd be surprised how much better you feel when you no longer feel the need to "medicate" for any reason. I refuse to drink if I know I'm in a bad mood.
I'm just kind of rambling, but that's my 2 cents worth.
When you worked at the sperm bank.
Smart to know what sort of drinker you are. I've known gals that start fights when sauced. No thank you to that.
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>>dont' care whojudes
>>drunk right now after 25 shots of fireball
>>Be me, accused of sexually molesting daughter
>>Drink every night to fall asleep, but don't drink during the day
>>just backspaced 6 times on last line
>>wife thinks I did half the accused shit, but stays with me because "He's not that man anymore"
>>can't stand living with wife who thinks I did it, but love her unconditionally
>>abuse alcohol every night, but don't use or desire it during the day.
>>Am I alcoholic?
Yes you are you are also very depressed, doesn't matter if you did it or not, seek therapy you will either kill yourself or kill your wife or both.
Just to play devils advocate I've been blackout drunk and driven around London a fair few times and nothing bad ever happened
yeah dude, get your shit together. I totally understand saucing to numb yourself, but imagine how much clarity you'll gain if you take some time off, it'll always be there after you've sorted out the minor mess of people thinking you molested your daughter.
Rodney
Were all the alcoholics taking a break with some gay porn?
Taking a break from your mom more like it
Non Drinker here I was just wondering if any of you guys ever wished you'd never started
>t. Dumb inexperienced child
Booze can make your brain do crazy shit. You would know this if you weren't a shut in or if you had friends.
>>I'm clear everyday during the day.
>>already past the suicide part, right?
>>just don't know if I can stay with someone who thinks that of me
Trust is a big part of any relationship, does she trust you with your daughter, or future kids if that was to happen? Anyone who makes you feel shitty you dont need them in your life.
As a former alcoholic I can't say I really regret those experiences, they made me into the person I am today.
Alcohol can lead you to experience many things outside of your usual comfort zone. In that sense I think it makes a person more well-rounded.
I see getting drunk as being pretty pointless now so I seldom have more than a couple drinks, if that. Mind over matter.
>sexually molesting daughter
did you take pics?
She trusts me fully, I just don't trust he anymore.
OP here
Time for a story to spice up the thread.
I'm good and drunk now. Ready to talk
>be me
>19 years old
>stationed in Flo Rida
>friends want to go to a rave in Alabama
>agree to go
>in line for the rave drink two Four Lokos and an entire six pack of beer
>get into an argument with christians protesting the rave
>get inside
>never been to a rave before and now realizing its a place for drugs, not alcohol
>holy shit the colors
>slutty drunk chicks dancing
>get some more beers
>get behond drunk
>vaguely remember wandering outside
>next thing i know i'm on a stretcher being brought into an ambulance
>my whole body is wet
>paramedics tell me that people tried to pour a bucket of water on me to wake me up
>pass out in ambulance
>wake up in hospital room
>look over and see my friend nervously pacing back and forth in the room
>"dude, where am i?"
>"holy shit, user you're awake! we need to get out of here!"
Apparently my friends were looking for me but i was too unconscious to answer my phone
Luckily the nurse answered my phone while it was ringing and told my friends where i was.
>ride back to base
>friends won't go out in town with me anymore
>constantly freak out about what would have happened if that nurse didn't answer my phone and my friends didn't find me
>have nightmares about it and mild freak outs during the day just thinking about it.
>>be me
>>be with girl for more then 3 years and have a kid together
>>found shit on my phone the first year
>>hasn't moved on
>>before 1st year she left back home without trying to tell me
>>shit broke me
>> ever since then been a downfall
>>started drinking then and pass out at least twice a week
>> made me lose alot of my closest friends
>>recently reactivated fb after last friend lost who ive know for 10 years because she told her shit
>>want apologize to old friend but gonna wait to get fucked up.tomorrow.to do it
>>gonna most likely call it quits with gf because i lost my other friend who actually listed to me vent while drunk and.has been there the whole ride through
>>miss other friend cause she was always there for me but wont talk to ke an more because it isnt the first time it happened
>>my kid makes me happy but Idk how can lost much longer in relationships
>>mfw all i do is drink and make dumbass decisions
Guys I hate to be that person but I'm in aa and it works. When I started I hated it everyday and wanted to do anything other than it and trust me i tried. But I never succeeded and I grew tired of fucking up and not changing so I said fuck it I'll rey anything to get sober
These people are happy, successful and sober, shit I never thought I could be. Been clean 45 days now and I ACTUALLY DON'T WANNA GET FUCKED UP AS MUCH AS I USED TOO
Idk try it out and also ama if you want
SAP ?
Golden monkey, good taste user!
12 steps/a gun are looking better every day
>lost 3.5 year investment (intoxicated on job)
>2 DUIs
>arms/legs lose feeling often
>shakes
>barely make 16k a year, either gonna hitchhike or tie rope
>family/friends avoid me because im toxic
at least im not addicted to meth like most of my friends
listen, as long as you're able to acknowledge how well you have it you probably can change, other than that you'd have to hit bottom; its recovery shit, not sure if its a crock of shit but i can take it, maybe
lets trade sob stories but learn nothing from it because 'boo hoo i have it worse!'
fuck off
buddy raves are for psychs,roll molly or MDA
How is everyone tonight?
what up user
how are you?
It works user, good luck. Just try it, if you decide you don't wanna get sober ypu can drink again. That's pretty much been my attitude but I'm actually changing and feeling better, fuck if I know why
Chilling counting change see if I can buy a beer from the store
Yeah, I had a fifth of jack, five or six mixed drinks, and four beers in the one hour I actually remember. Let me know when your balls drop and you can drink with the big kids faggot
Damn
Bump