Need to get this off my chest

Need to get this off my chest
>Be me, kissless virgin 19
>Visits family friend who got hit by a car who now has slight brain damage where she loses filter, has to relearn how to walk
>7/10 attractive
>she's extremely horny all the time, has no filter
>talks about her kinky sex a lot
>makes a lot of crude sex jokes like a kid playing CoD
>be me awkward, not knowing what to do
>she begins to touch me
>she leads me with her wheel chair to the couch
>Tells me she wants me to fuck her
>I tell her no
>She tells me she wants me to spank her
>Tells me she wants me to kiss her and bite her
> I tell her no, but I really want to.
> I really really want to.
> She tells me about her life and the shit she went through
> Realize I'm attractive to psycho girls
> Kiss her
> Bite her
> Tease her
> Still can't fuck her due to morals
> She still guides me down her pants
> Still touch her pussy
> Enjoy it
> Take hand out, say it's too weird
> She begins to suck on fingers
> Take hand out, try to change subject
> Tells me she wants to fall in love with me
> Tell her I do to
> Tell her I don't think this is right

Longest 5 hours ever.
No did not seal deal.
I hate myself
My first sexual encounter is with a girl with a brain injury.

Failure

Maybe she won't remember

Maybe its meant to be. Maybe she is ur "special" one

Why you didn't make a move is beyond me.

You do realize that because you do this you no longer consider her a human being by your and others eyes.

Wow shes unable to walk and her brain got fked up AND she got shut down by a kissless virgin

>>is autistic.
>>is a virgin.
>>rejects the nasty from a half-woman.
>>comes here and expects actual help.

look mate Im starting to think you were the one driving.

did you have something to ask?

No. Just needed to open up.

is she retarded in some ways or is it only the filter stuff?
if she can think straight just fuck her dude

>she leads me with her wheelchair to the couch

Top kek

She isn't retarded. Really just filter stuff.

faggit

I have something to tell you

there is nothing wrong then. occupy her now before she can walk again and gets cock in every corner. dude its your only chance!!!

For more shit like this see

think of her as a really good fleshlight

It started in another thread but Ill move it all over to here and continue where I left off. I think you will be able to tell which is and isn't me. To the other anons out there talking to me, thank you.

don't stress there's more interesting things in life than getting laid
>I wouldn't know
go out and fuck one then .. or a hooker
>I have enough pride to resist hookers
what's wrong with hookers? they just do their job and give you a fuck
>I would feel even more beta, I dont know I just dont think its authentic
Hooker are great in completion of an already cool sex life, but if you are a virgin, it's destructive. You can easily get addicted. Browsing client's forum ( where you can get review of escort ) you can see people who have completely give up on getting girls, and they only use escort.
oh so you want to make love, not fuck
>I guess when you put it that way
what's holding you back then
>How do I over come it
don't overcome it, you're right to avoid escort for your first time. Escort are great as a bonus, but using them against loneliness is as useful as drinking sea water to get rid of thirst
>Thanks user for trying to help my overcome my crippling loneliness
how i though you were talking about overcoming your disgust for escort. There is no magic cure to your loneliness and social anxiety etc.. it's a long hard work one step at a time, and we can't help you without you being more specific on your "condition".

YOU FUCKING PUSSY

Hahahahaha fuuuuuuck

>Honestly do know, I'm out going, sociable, a drug addict, that funny guy like most people like most of the time but I can be a bit obnoxious from time to time. I honestly don't know what I need to be doing differently.
how then maybe your just creepy and you don't realize it
>Perhaps. This was a chick I met in rehab and she seemed hella flitry

>Maybe I am creepy, I realize what I said was not the smoothest but Im only human and I know it wasn't the most autist thing ever
Fam you spaghetti'd and she still keen
>I had a feeling, initiation isnt my strong but I can make basic conversation
I'm the complete opposite...good luck anyway user, Godspeed.

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op kill yourself

fucking seriously. so fucking stupid. if I had that i'd fuck her until she couldn't walk...owait

Pussy is pussy boi