Stories of ex's who you could have had an amazing life with but somehow everything got irreversably fucked...

Stories of ex's who you could have had an amazing life with but somehow everything got irreversably fucked? Let me hear it, feeling down

>be me
>meet this small blond girl at work
>8/10
>go to mcd together after work
>get to know each other
>one night we go to a tea place and i end up going back to her place
>she say : hey user are you interested in anyone else but sabrina at work
>tell her im interested in her
>silence for about 5 minutes
>do you wanna come to bed with me user ?
>get in bed with her, we kiss and cuddle all night long
>few months later we move in together

listening

>one day her dad come to our place tells us to sit down
>we sit down
>proceed to tell us Elodie mom just anheroed
>girl friends in tears i know the feel dad anheroed a few years back
>go to her shitty hometown
>then it starts going downhill
>her dads keeps making retarded comment on how people who do this have no courage and shit
>get in a fight with her dad because of that
>stays calm after that
>few months later she brings up that she didnt like how i talked to her dad
>tell her i didnt like what he said

Did she have a bad realtionship with her mom?

>we have several fight after that in the following months
>she decides to move back to her shitty hometown i go back to my dad house which i now own
>meet up with her for summer vacation
>notice her attitude is crazy shitty
>tell her best friends about and she tells me i should talk to her if i feel something wrong
>she dumped me in about five min when i told her i didnt like the way she was with me
>then proceeds to tell me 2 thing she thinks doesnt work and then says she doesnt wanna talk about it

she was not in good term with her mom but regretted not talking to her for so long after that to this day she still thinks one of the reason she anheroed was the fact she didnt talk to her

>meet amazing girl at work
>we hit it off, spend so much time together
>sex was amazing
>met her parents in Kansas
>we moved into a nice apartment together
>plan on buying a house
>my family didn't approve of her
>friends hated her
>they said I was moving too fast and that they don't even know her
>we did move in together fairly quickly, like 2 months into the relationship
>she wants to have kids and settle down
>I want to go to grad school
>she gets upset
>I get upset about her wanting to dictate my life
>I pack my shit up and leave when we get into more arguments
>she finds another coworker to bang and she settles down with some dude in accounting
>I'm still single, a thousand miles away in a grad program
>sometimes I wonder how my life would be with a wife and children

wanting to have kids and settle down with someone after only a few months of dating is a huge red flag. There was a reason your friends and family didnt approve. Dont think of her, think of all the money you saved from the inevitable divorce those relationships almost always end in.

>be me
>14 at the time
>hook up with a girl who I make laugh regularly
>super cute even now
>since I'm a betafag she treats me a lot
>takes me out a couple times
>get depression
>start telling her I need her a lot more
>apparently won't let her sleep
>her parents bitch at me
>as far as I know she still loved me and I still loved here
>still kinda love her now
>depression gets worse
>she talks to me less and less
>break time at school
>on the field
>she comes up
"I need to talk to you"
>shit
>breaks up with me because "I can't be there for you like you need me to"
>basically "I can't be arsed to care for you"
>get extremely lonely
>best friend done with my shit
>lose most friends
>still depressed to this day
She basically fucked my life over.

how old are you now ?

I dated this boy in high school, first guy I have ever really loved. Dated for about a year. I was head over heels the whole time but he would sometimes get really annoyed that I was still in the "honeymoon" stage after so many months. I thought... what's wrong with being lovey and cute if you fucking love them? what's wrong with showing it? Idk. It's the longest story in the world and my current boyfriend who hurts me sometimes is going to pick me up soon.

20. I still think about it and it makes me cry. We could have had something.

>Be 2011 ish
>Meet some girl through friends
>She's a few years younger but seems interested
>Hang out for a few months etc. Get closer
>Start to date but I don't tell friends
>Learned there were a few rumours about her, stood by her and dispelled the rumours
>Turned out to be fake rumours but no one believes her
>Anyway, causes divide between her and my friends
>They find out, oshit.jpg
>Don't want to be a cuck so I regrettably pick their side
>We hack her FB when she's on holiday, hand out her pword
>Someone changed her profile pic to her in lingerie found in her messages
>Shit generally hits the fan
>Feelssobadman
>apologise to her, her family etc.
>We start talking a few months later again
>She starts to like me again but doesn't tell me
>Some fucked up reason me and a friend organise a threesome with her
>Morning after she tells me she really likes me, I reject over some stupid shit

>Jump a few months later, 2013ish
>Start talking again but undercover because of my new gf
>Find out she has a bf
>Kindajelly
>She pours her heart out to me some days, friendship starts to build again
>2014 comes, we're super close again as we were before
>Has another bf just as I end it with my gf
>Still kinda jelly, but oh well
>Tells me her bf is a cunt, I console her for another few months
>Start to feels again because I know I can treat her better
>Breaks up with bf, moves somewhere random and hooks up again
>Only lasted one summer so meh, time to make my move
>Find out she's with the cunt ex, I still stand by her and console when needed etc.

>2015 comes and feels are still there
>Don't say anything because she's with bf and I don't want to loose her as a friend
>Often argue with myself whether it's love feels or best friend feels
>Still don't know to this day
>Recently told me the only reason she did the threesome was to get closer to me
>Feelseverbadderman
>Breaks up with cunt bf
>Still think about her everyday
>Still talk to her most days

Could be continued

fag/ tits or gtfo
did you ever try to hook up with anyone after ?

Some emo girl but I found out she was cheating on me with some 17 year old. We were both 15 at the time

Sounds like YOU fucked your life over, you let depression take over and I'll bet you were a whiny little 14 year old cocksucker, and she was a young woman growing into a body, had male attention from every angle and thought "Now why would I stay with this loser"

can't I fucking talk without needing to show my tits? Christ you people :/

cont plss

nope

At this point I had gone through 14 operations on the stomach and a hernia. I missed a lot of primary school and I didn't have time to develop social skills. So I guess you're right

sad

dude don't let young love story get you, get out there go see people spend time with your friends

I've been trying but now I'm an anti-social mess

>be me
>be 15
>have small group of edgy friends
>have shitty gf with major attitude problem
>friends hate her
>hang out with her because shes always with me
>friends worried, try to convince me she's a bitch, I don't listen
>gf eventually cheats, leaves me
>devasted because beta faggot
>get consoled by friends, one girl in particular
>years of friendship become more intimate
>says she'd liked me for ages but was always with bitch
>feelsgoodman.jpg
>still beta ex feels though
>have a great two months together, then ex arrives back on scene
>within a week go back to ex
>cute friend devasted
>ex goes back to being same old bitch shortly after
>didn't speak to cute friend for years, recently got in touch and is now married and lives hundreds of miles away

She's still cute too, though this was about 5 years ago and I've always missed having her around. Regrets man.

>got a gf
>show her my neighbor friend
>the one i don't like come to us and i don't want that
>she become depressive
>have to help her everyday for the same problem then yesterday
>become pissed off
>another girl seems to love me
>break up and go with the next one
>she cheat on me 7 day after
>my ex show up with the dude i don't like
>loose contact with her
>try to recovering contact with her (like 7 or 8 year after)
>found her facebook
>told her in private message that i want to see her a make my apologize (cause i broke up with sms, she call me crying that she could change but i told her is finish nothing is possible)
> she told me i probably make a mistake because she don't remember me and she block me
>try to recontact her with another account
>no respond
>send her a pic of us
>get blocked

>fuck

Even with dubs, you're still a faggot.

Listening

Will do, need to get it out of my system anyway. There's not a whole lot more to continue to

>Few weeks ago was her b'day
>We're still very close friends, as I've mentioned
>Regards me as one of the other 1 or 2 people who she can really trust
>Go to her uni flat for her b'day
>Knew something was up with her and her cunt bf, they split a few days before I later find out
>Slept in her bed the whole weekend but nothing happened
>Not even mad, was just nice being with her since I moved away
>Remember falling asleep watching Pokemon just looking at her
>Was debating on telling her how I feel that weekend

Past 2 ish years as been rough in the sense of the feeling I get when I think about her, I've kind of gotten used to it but it just gets me down. If I tell her how I feel it's be so out of the blue and weird, I wouldn't know if it would ruin our friendship or not. I'm pretty sure she's not interested in me like she used to be which is a shame. I haven't really thought about anyone else in that kind of way because I can't, feels like I can't get over her even if I try.

bump, enjoying this shit

Wow the white knighting is real

>Be 24
> GF is 21
>Gf found butt photos I got off FB wall of one of our mates.
> My view is love and lust are diff.
>Doesn't talk to me for 2 days
>Breaks up via text
> "Cant sleep next to you knowing that you find our friends attractive and wanna bang them"
> Goes to another state to be with family
> I drop off her clothes with her roomies
> Find note saying how she over-reacted and lost the love of her life and wishes the best for me
> Get text day telling me she is miserable and how she doesn't have friends and is an accessory to me and nobody likes her (BS she has friends, not many but a few)
> Tells me she will wait even 3 years for me to decide if I want to be with her
> Feelsbadman.
> Dont know what I want atm
> When its good its great
> When its bad she ignores me for days without reason and Ill find out its something trivial like when I asked her to not leave wet towels in my carpeted room
> Can see my self with this girl but...
> she doesn't like talking to my friends at social events
> Never talks about problems until she blows up
> Moving to Japan for work in 2 years

While I wouldn't normally advocate getting drunk as shit and spilling it, it seems in the case she probably wouldn't take it too badly.

Got for it user, she might feel the same. You might not die alone.

tell her then if it doesnt work it doesnt work and you can move on if it does work your wish is granted

first day here?

nope just didnt observe that much cancer in a while

>says isn't first day on Sup Forums
> says those posts were the most cancer seen in a while

Pick one

Trips of truth checked

Thanks for the advice anons, trust me I've been over this in my head a million times and countless times where I've been drunk and nearly told her. I don't think it would be authentic though, I'd probably just keep quiet since I'm used to these feels, it's just nice to talk about it I guess

I agree, let her know how you feel user!

Check'd

You'll regret that shit user.

Right when you're watching her walk down the aisle with another guy, you'll regret that shit.

dude that bitch was crazy, listen to the people close to you more often, because you have shit judgement and are probably retarded

That's my worst nightmare tbh, I guess when it's put like that it's better to do something than regret it forever

mostly surfing rekt thread not much cancer there

gj dodging responsibility you whiny faggot.

>edgy

Precisely. It's better to look back and regret saying something, with the alternative to you not doing so would have left you feeling bad anyway.

Otherwise, you'll spend the rest of your life wondering if you could have been happy if only you had the balls to say something.

Desperate dude. Tits is only when they're looking for attention.

...

bamp

>Be me, junior year, High-school
>Has a couple of good friends from 7-8th grade band
>Leave band at start of HS
>Still talk to old friends
>One of friends recently broke up with bf
>Other old friends tell me to ask her out
>Do
>Dating for three months
>New friends are edgelords like me
>They don't like her so much; she's a normie
>Winter break
>Stop talking
>Back at school, walking her to 1st period
>"Sorry user, I thought about it a lot, I like girls."
>"Ok"
>Walk back to newfriends
Cont.?

>Be 23
>Meet amazing woman in Uni, she's 29
>We have an amazing relationship at first
>She's intelligent as fuck but has a tendency of going full chav whenever something doesn't go her way.
>I finished law school and moved to work in a pretty damn prestigious law firm, money was shit at first but prospects were good
>She is NOT ok with this and continuously berates me that I'm running away and I'm ruining our lives.
>I miss her despite this
>Get engaged with her to show that I'm serious about us and I want her in my life
>I buy a small apartment near my job with my dad's help, neighborhood is kind of shitty but the people there are nice
>She'd insult me again and again every time we spoke, calling me a cheat and a liar and that I was wasting our money
>I bring her to spend a month with me and show her how things are going
>I get her a job within the same building I worked in so she could help with the bills and stay permanently and live with me
>She tells me that they didn't have anything
>They tell me she refused the job after they called her congratulating her on getting the position
>She goes back to her hometown and intensifies her going full apeshit
>I felt torn and tired, hours were really long and I didn't have time to deal with this shit
>Get full blown depression
>Try pulling through it and ask for a better position within the company with a better salary
>They give me a position working with one of their best clients
>Money is good!
>She says I'm a joke and that I'm greedy and didn't care for her.
>Depression sets in harder
>Can't let this effect my work
>Can't let this effect my work
>Can't let this effect my work
>Madness mantra ensues
>Shit kept happening every time I went to visit her
>Last time she says that she's fine when I'm not around and gets ill when I visit "Why is that, huh user?".
>Calls me a lying sack of shit when I say we're not going to my mother's place because I had a surprised planned for our anniversary.

Continue?

Met a girl online. It was going great. We exchanged pictures and liked how each other looked. We got sexual with pictures and over the phone and were super compatible. She flies up to see me and we spend a few amazing days together. She goes home. After that she says her family wants her to break up with me. I'm overweight, not religious, and in college without a job so they hate me. She starts to listen to them. She gets religious she is less and less available. She can't talk to me or call me in case her parents find out. She starts agreeing with her parents. She starts getting more religious. The sex side falls apart. She changes, wants me to loose weight go to church and get a job. I'm in college and apply places but can't get a job. I exercise and do start losing weight. I won't go to church. One day she calls me a horrible fat slug godless half-man and never speaks to me again.

Cont.

She didn't fuck your life over. You fucked your life over and you can unfuck it.

She didn't cause you to get depression, but it certainly drove her away after a while and you're blaming her for it?

You really are a betafag.

never went formal but it checks

>met a girl 9/10
>I knew she was trouble but wanted to get dank puss
>we both are kinda shy, but we speak all the time the first time we hang
>Things keep going like this for a couple of times, everything is great
>Turns out she got a boyfriend a boyfriend, so i kinda take distance but still chill
>Everytime we hang is like a dream, talking nonsense, laughing at stupid shit
>I even draw ourselves as cute characters out of fun
>Like all those cliche couples you get from any teenager book
>Is like a dream come true, It's what i always wanted
>Fall in love forreal after 7 years
>I can see the feel is mutual but never make a move because i respect a bro's property
>They finally break up
>That day she invites me to hang
>We made out a couple of times, spent a great day at her sister's birthday
>Then she kinda disappears
>Can't get her to reply on any social media
>The couple of answers I got were 1 word shit
okay maybe she's bussy
>Sis tells me she kinda spent the day with somebody else
herewego.jpg
>finally arrange a day to hang
user i like you a lot, you are perfect but i wanna stay single for a while
>Okay got it
>We still have some great times
>I had to leave town for summer holidays
>When I came back we met again, we ended up making out again
>And then disappears again
>again, after a week we talk
user this is who I am, I always screw things up, I wanna be single and have fun, but I love what We have and I don't wanna lose you
>what the fuck
>She says she will explain things on a letter
>Waited that letter for 3 months and cut contact for the sake of my mental stability
>She got a boyfriend inbetween
???
>1 month later that we hang and she show's me a sketch of the letter she was writting and how she was gonna give it to me
I already heard that miss
>The letter never showed up
>She still messages me sometimes trying to get me to chat but the feeling is kinda gone
>Or probably i-m really hurt and dont wanna risk it again

>Walking back to friends
>One does heart-sign with hands
>Laugh at myself for being a fag and falling in love
>Couple of months later
>We have classes together; try to ignore each-other
>Be high
>Walking to 5th class (second to last for the day)
>She's standing there with oldfriend girls
>"user, I made a mistake. Give me another chance?"
>"Let me think about it, meet me after school."
>We talk after class
>She's crying
>"user, I could't be with you because I can't trust men."
>"Why"
>Tells me she was raped as a child in mexico by family member
>Crying whole time
>"Ok, we'll give it a second chance."
More to come if anyone cares

Missing a bunch primary school is a shitty reason to blame one girl that you can't get over. No matter what happened you she didn't ruin shit. You're 20 and not in primary/high school. You have all the tools to create a new life but won't move past fucking 14 because she hurt your feelings. Just fucking accept the bullshit you've been handed and live your damn life.

Not exactly fucked up cuz I did it to myself but I was in a relationship for 2 years, first year was great second one we just made eachother miserable, she leaves me because shes happier around her friends than around me

I'm sitting alone in the dark day in and night while she's out having fun, I know she misses me but I also know we'll never get back together because neither of us want to, but it feels really shitty because I thought she'd always want me back if I made the effort to do so

Then she went to bible school

>meet cute girl
>on tinder
>instant connection irl
>spend every day together for weeks
>6 months in
>few small fights, nothing huge
>everyday relationship stuff
>she's going to college
>done LDR before so I can handle it
>gets to college
>joins a sorority
>develops shit attitude
>I'm petty and mean
>give her what she gives me
>try to fix a couple times
>each time she comes home it's amazing
>finally have huge fight
>calls me and talks to me for three hours
>whole time asking if we can be friends and shit
>no.jpg
>kept trying to get me to break up with her
>told her she had to break up with me if she wanted out
>I was fine being with her
>breaks up with me finally
>posts pic with another guy thirty minutes later

Dude was wearing a Doctor Who shirt, so I didn't feel too bad.

>At this point I'm at my lowest
>All I do is study and work and I resented talking to her
>She realizes it
>Starts saying she loves me and she wants to have children with me
>begs me to work on our relationship
>Accuses me of being the source of our problems and I was so out of it at the time I believed her. I wanted things to work
>Visit her again
>Have pregnancy scare
>She calls me every name in the book and says I fucked her life again.
>At this point I'm completely numb
>Realize the massive beta I was being
>Start cheating on her with another girl I met who was the complete opposite and brought me out of my depression
>Break off the relationship with old gf
>Takes it well at the time
>cut to the end of the year and the law firm I was working in nearly goes bankrupt due to massive economic crisis within the country.
>Lose job but had enough experience and savings to land on my feet
>Gf recommends I go visit her abroad
>When ex finds out I had a new woman she takes the nuclear option. Burns me to all my friends and family
>Would've worked if I cared
>tries emptying my account
>Bank manager prevents her (always be friends with your manager, kids)
>Being with gf was so good I stayed an extra 3 months abroad.
>Left the big city and came back to my old home, left the apartment with my dad (he likes the big city)
>I'm a freelancing whatever legal job I can find and I'm currently taking over the family business, we own a huge dairy farm but my mother's getting old and it's been hard for her to run it on her own.
>GF is coming in a few months so we can get married
>Already got us a house and I just need to save up some more to get it fixed up.
>Ex still stalks my mother and me.
>Fuck it, I'm going to give my wife the life she deserves with a house and a dairy farm in full swing.
>I take pride in nowing my ex is STILL salty about it and knows she fucked up and this life would've been hers.
>Not anymore, bitch.

cont.

>month later
>she's talking to me again
>meet up
>kiss and make out and shit
>things okay
>both crying
>don't even make the week before huge fight
>it's over again
>talk back and forth over next few weeks
>on again, off, on, off
>finally just tell her I can't handle it
>block her on everything

She changed as a person, I changed as a person. Shit happens. I know she probably fucked the dude she ditched me for while she was with me. I'm not bitter over any of it. I still miss her over two years later, I haven't been in a relationship since.

I can't commit to anyone if they don't hold my full attention, full interest, and she did-in all the most intriguing, interesting, sexual, romantic, and intellectual ways I could ever dream of. Truly, she's my greatest love.

Sounds similar to mine. I feel ya

>We're going on for another 6 months, things are pretty great when she's happy
>Edgelord friends make me ultimate edgefag and I have to walk on eggshells to keep everyone happy
>In class with gf, we're making fun of other friends and each-other
>She makes some jokes about me, use same joke on her
>She gets real upset
>After that class
>Oldfreind tells me she cried over it
>Apologize pouring my heart out after school
>Hits me with the "It's fine."
>Won't talk to me for three weeks
>Try to walk her home after school
>Tells me to not do it
>"You take to long to meet me."
>Couple of months later. things "ok" but obviously it's not working
>Depressed because trying to balance edgelords and her
>Go out of town for weekend with dad and bother for family stuff
>Left phone
>Texts from here
>"We need to talk"
>Fuck
Cont.

Im a new fag so idk how 2 green txt. Im in grad school about 2 years ago, i met this unreal 9/10 chick. So i made my move. But im a fucking beta, good thing i can make her lol sometimes. We dated for about 2 months. I broke up with her. I was moving back to west Philadelphia, born and raised, on the playground where I spend most of my days, chilin out relaxing blaying b ball, i thought it was cool. Til a cuple of guys that were up to no good, started makin truble in my neighborhood. I got in one little fight and my mom got scared and said ur moving with ur uncle and auntie in Bellaire.

Do not get back with her.

Kinda jealous of all of you, I went to a religious school, and during my middle and high school, I never saw any couple. They even implemented the fight between gender, in grade, in sports and even in behavior. They fucked everyones mind and I think both sides were frustrated due to the picture teachers gave to us.

I was homeschooled in a very thoroughly Christian household. You can find love by not being an asshole.

Kek you didn't saw that story was fag and gay yet ?

>Text her
>"What's up?"
>She explodes at me, trying to shit on my whole existence
>"You never talk to me"
>"You're never there for me when I need you."
>You don't even love me"
>Tell her about how she visibly recoils when I try to touch her
>Tell her about how she didn't talk to me over a joke
>Tell her about how I always message her at the same time every day and ask her about her day, etc.
>Tells her that if she's so mad she should end it
>"Ok, It's over."
>Years later
>Still angry about her being mad at me for her bullshit
>Only talk to girls just to fuck
Any advice Sup Forumsros?

Forget it, not worth your sanity. Most people are who they are and change comes from inside. Love is like credit. Past experience is a good indicator of future behavior.

If you do talk to her again, don't expect some magical cathartic moment. Keep communication short and supervised. Even then, I don't recommend it.

Met her on R+R and hit it off.
Woke up together. spent some time together, learning about each other and all that new age shit (subtext: fucking like bunnies, watching Buffy videos and getting drunk) She's a nurse, I'm a kind of reservist (Not full-time military, not even officially part-time military, it's a bit complex, but it's IT hardware stuff, I'm not some spook or spec-ops type)
Felt right.
Spent some more time together before I fucked off 10,000 miles away for six months.
Kept in touch absence makes the heart grow fonder, all of that shit.
I get back, we hook up again. She's the for me. I know it. I buy a ring.
Fucking Yugoslavian civil-war happens.
She goes to Sarajevo with MSF.
She got killed by a sniper.

No you prick, you DON'T get to blame HER for YOU fucking your life up.

You went to college and STILL don't know the difference between 'lose' and 'loose'?
Fucking kill yourself you fucking horrible fat slug. YOU ARE A FILTHY, DISGUSTING LARDBODY, PYLE!

Stop being depressed and people will enjoy being around you.

You lost your best friend, your potential girlfriend, and more, and you think they all fucked you over?

Nice victim complex, retard.

I'll spill what i got.

>Be me
>friends with cute, short, blonde haired girl all through highschool
>she was my best friend, one i could talk to
>made me forget about the not so great stuff happening at home.
>we talk every day
>End up going to 2 different colleges
>still manage to talk and such everyday
>one day when shes going to bed i tell her I love her
>she reciprocates.
>I'm happy as can be, begin bettering myself for her
>go to gym, try harder in classes, pick up a job to get her gifts
>try to be what I think is a good BF
>when im home I spend all my time with her and such.
>gave each other our virginities
>actually become even closer and let her in to my emotions and worries and stuff
>was foreign to me because for the longest time i kept to myself
>felt safer that way
>eventually completely open up to her.
>spend a good while with her
>her parents liked me, mine liked hers, was great
>eventually the distance became an issue....
>she becomes kinda distant
>like no matter how close I hold her shes still miles away distant
>ask why, she says she feels sick and doesnt want me to catch it
>worried and skeptical, but i accept it
>if she wants to tell me she can
>out with the guys one night
>she was working late
>get a call, its her, shes in tears
>get a friend to take me to her....
>i get out and thank my pal and head towards her place
> I see her outside sitting on the porch
>I sit next to her and ask whats wrong
>she doesnt look me in the eye
>doesnt acknowledge me
>simply says that our relationship has run its course
>it was a cold dead tone
>no tears on her face
>I freeze, no idea what to say or do
>"but...I love you. I thought-"
>"well you thought wrong."
>She begins to leave and I ask why
> she tells me I was a replacement for a guy at her college she liked.
>i caught her at a low point.
>i was simply a bridge.
>she leaves as i sit there stunned, unable to cry or feel anything
>i walk home

I still think about those better days Sup Forums now im just lonely

>Hot 9/10
>Friends for a year, have mutual friends
>Takes an online personality test, thinks I am a "match"
>Friends say ask her out
>Didn't know about test
>Thought she liked me because I'm me and shit
>Date was ok
>She decides she doesn't want someone similar to her
>Dumps me night before my birthday
>Cri a little

I'm not too mad but she got me to believe she liked me. Why else would someone wanna go out right? She let me down, at a bad time too. Not too bad but still sucks

take responsibillity for your own actions, retard

bump because I'm waiting for my ex to tell our story

Yeah you know, she wanted me to have loose weight, like some fat flopping around. Idk it was her fetish or something.