Hey Sup Forums on the fence about suicide. Talk me into it or out of it, no rolls,I just am too fuckin tired to care...

Hey Sup Forums on the fence about suicide. Talk me into it or out of it, no rolls,I just am too fuckin tired to care. The pic is an unraveled hanger that will probably go through my ear tonight.

I just wanna tell my story though, make fun of me or don't I just don't care anymore.

Been through hell as a child, mom had Munchhausen by proxy, no dad, sister molested and tortured me, moms boyfriends beat me and physiologically fucked with me daily, blah blah sad boo hoo poor me childhood. met my dad at 24, hated him instantly. Garbage human being, don't know why it even caught me off guard at that point. uhhh... Live alone, have had a decent number of girlfriends, never even really cared about any. Had one girl that I opened up to. Told her why I'm always the way I am, like my life story, not the abridged "it's been rough". I opened up to her, The only other person to see me actually cry after 22. I have BPD so I fucked it up with her. That was almost a year ago. I got a hold of her again and we were catching up. Scared her off again and know I probably won't hear from her again, she's busy with her life and I'm just toxic. Not worth her time. But it bothers me. And as much of a joke my entire life is.... The punchline is after all the shit I've been through, a fuckin chick is where I draw the line. I know I'm pathetic, but please remind me cause I need to be reminded. Btw, I am in intensive therapy (outpatient psych) It isn't getting better. I just want this to stop. What do Sup Forumsros?

no one care , 4 chan included.

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kill yourself on stream faggot or gtfo

make up your own mind.

and unless youve got a gun youre talking pussy shit.

is this guy charming or what?

considering it.

Actually with enough force, the hanger would puncture the brain. Guns are the pussy way out.

usually I'd say an hero an become legend. but don't do it OP no matter how shitty life can be and get and it can get to the point where shit like what you're considering seems feasible, it will get better if you just wait it out and will get better faster if you work at bettering it. Why give the world the satisfaction of your death? You should be thinking fuck the world and I'm going to make the world my bitch, fuck what people think, fuck everything but do it while living

tbh OP , its not like you were are faggot or something .
Drop the glasses , get a beard , undercut and then you exist.
No need to forget the past but boi , its in the past so remember it when you are faping or something and then just don't give a fuck about it , when you tell it to a girl you have to feel proud of it , yes its what happened and i assume it.
End of story fag

if you really want to take a huge shit in the face of all the adversity you've been dealt. show the universe you will take it all in stride and live out your life with your head up so as to show that no matter what comes your way, you don't give a single flying fuck about any of it.

that and maybe kill your family.

Ah man no one cares. This is my best advice for you. Truly trying to help. No one cares.

just adopt a pupper, he will change your life and will make you feel loved, remember they love you more than they love themselves trust me man

You're probably just going to end up like a vegetable retard.

All I'm gonna say is if you do it, do it right

no dont

Sorry, buddy. No one will care or remember you. Nobody here can help you.

I like that last part. They do suck.
No shit Sherlock. This isn't a "feels thread" This is a thread about someone not sure if they want to anhero. And ppl care about that, either out of some self-righteousness or sick impulse every human has to at least play part in the ending of anothers life.

OP were all ganna die its much for fun to live and see wtf happens than to be dead

If you're gonna kill yourself anyways id recommend drugs friendo

You should craft your own suit and fight crime in your city.

point taken. Was considering slamming car into a brick wall at 110 no belt. would probably even make the news lol

This tbh make your suit out of the skin of fat chicks

That's not a guaranteed suicide, bud. I wouldn't try.

toaster + bath

Kill yourself. Your life isn't going to get better.

Agreed

Also if your ganna kys go out with a bang try to kill as many niggers and sandniggers and gays as possible

have,most notably downed a botle of xans, a bottle of norco, and some anti depressants and made a joke about it on fb. didn't know anyone had the persons address I was staying ats number. fuck me right?

I can't believe everyone on here is so heartless as to say to just kill yourself. This is why Sup Forums is the collective scum of the earth. I think you should continue life and look for the best in things. The most damaged people have the most experience.

don't forget you poop when you die so eat lots

Try psychedelics. And Molly.

I like the way you think user. A serial killer fighting crime in his victims body. beats possibly being a veggy.

Damn dude, what's up with your nose, eye's and fingers?

You will stop thinking about ways to kill yourself when your time on this Earth has meaning. Find that meaning. This is a very hard task, but it's worth it.

This is how people are. Normies don't care either, they just don't have an anonymous platform to say so.

>i can't believe
Are u new

Do what you want OP, but im just gonna put this here

Even I know that one isn't guaranteed. Also I don't actually own a toaster.

hasn't in 26 years. Not expecting it to.

How do you make toast?

live power cables + mouth?

considered that too. Lost contact with anyone that could get me an automatic or even a pistol.

Before you die can i have your credit card number and all your stuff

IF you feel compelled to harm others than suicide is justified.

Otherwise you should simply struggle on day by day.

Life is not fun or even often joyful but lessons are to be learned by all.

Don't give up Op there are those who will miss you.

I could get some H. How much would it take to kill me with no built tolerance?

That's good. Mental illness doesn't just go away. If - and that's a big if - you managed to get your life back into track you'll be in this exact same spot in two, three years tops.

Can you handle that? Hanger up motherfucker.

>there are those who will miss you
HAHAHA

If you can't get access to a gun then the only other reliable way is a rope. Get fucked up on drugs then just do it. You should black out in under 10 seconds.

OP here.
This

OP.. you really should seek help. and or try and speak with people you must be alone and isolated

I dunno man.
Do the fun drugs first though then figure it out.

Lol! Yeah forgot that. point taken.

Exercise can help with mental health. Life is too beautiful to throw it away. Forgiveness allows you to heal.

Why the laughter? We miss you too user, but with practice our aim should improve.

topkek user. I'm extremely self conscious so Photoshop hurts immensely.

honestly, i want to say how i think about life... whats the first thing you see bright white light.. what's the last thing same fucking thing.. so em yeah you just end up with a new shitty life anyway

Yeah, one thing ever made me lastingly happy, but she left. Tired of sifting through hoes trying to find a girl like her again.

thanks.

Sup Forums is not the place for help, quite the opposite

>Mental illness doesn't just go away. If - and that's a big if - you managed to get your life back into track you'll be in this exact same spot in two, three years tops.
You have no clue what you're talking about. I know cases of type 2 bipolar that live a good life after years (decades even) of hell. The solution is always linked to a change of scenario+mentality+finding the right dosage to the right drug.
Just shut your ignorant mouth.

I don't.

No the psychedelics are to change your perspective, not kill you and not even to have a good time. See what you have of life after lsd. I've heard you'll be thinking quite differently.

girls come and go,,, we all if not most of us have been in bad relationhshits you just require time op and you should feel better

ehhh. you can have my debt. I have a pretty sick runescape account. if you don't play you could probably get a few hundo.

Yeah life is beautiful and all the shit you want in your plate son but the truth is that this guy has mental issues that won't go away and he'll sabotage anything he builds if he goes on.

So I don't really know why are some of you advising him to go on. There's really no case here. He will be happier if he kills himself and the world will be a better place without him. It's a fucking win win situation you bunch of buffoons

op. come away from the computer and get a cold glass of water .. dont do it okay? you will just be told alot of shit to make you feel even worse .. dont do it faggot

I like to think of it as "putting a new spin on hanging yourself" hanger up is just too... uninspired.

Oh right what do I know. I just work in a psychiatric ward.

Your type 2 recovering is a mother fucking exception in a sea of perpetually depressed people hurting themselves every waking moment. Nobody gets a life after the ward.+

So shut your ignorant mouth.

Why die? Go on an adventure.

>one thing ever made me lastingly happy
At least you know you have the ability to feel happiness. It can be felt again: your brain has the capacity to do so.
>Tired of shifting through hoes
I feel you. Women today are mostly worthless. However there's a good 10% who are decent. Been there

Do

My autistic friend and the one idiot who fucked his life up so badly against everyones advice he's probably on the verge himself? Maybe my mother, butt hat's a big maybe. The girl who left probably in some small way still cares and maybe even loves me and i'm sure would feel horrible but would move on. I'd give it a month before I'm forgotten almost entirely.

Do it brother! Peace be with thee!

Here's how it stops, stop dwelling on things you cannot change. The past is gone fuckface. Live in the moment, exercise, get out of your head. Ride the rollercoaster of life until the end. No matter what you do, it will never get better until you let go and move on. We like to hold on to our past to shape ourselves. We do not like to find ourselves outside of our past experiences.

This is coming from a drug addict who fucked his life up and recovered. I know how to dwell in the past and blame everything wrong with me on others. Until I realized that right now is all I have and the past does not define who I am, I was miserable. Move on. You don't look that bad. Sure you have a shitty personality disorder that has caused trouble, I do to. Although it is pretty static compared to mood swings. I am giving you advice because I can. I know how to live better today

10 seconds you say? Hmm... I was considering stabbing my jugular or popping like 20 xanax and sleeping on train tracks but a rope could work.

This is a pretty good idea
If you're gonna kill yourself go do whatever you want before you do

All that we learned thiiiiiiis time is carried beyond thiiiis liiiiiife!

Now that should be your reason for suicide. That one is understandable

>seek help
>Btw, I am in intensive therapy (outpatient psych) It isn't getting better. I just want this to stop. What do Sup Forumsros?
>I got a job Sup Forumsro and need the money if I aint gonna kill myself. inpatient won't do.

take psychedelics, ketamine, anything but downers and stimulants.

There's nothing wrong with you psychologically, probably at least.

Drop the disgusting, money-grubbing therapists and find something that you love. Even aspiring to find something that you love with give your life perspective and meaning.

Think about the moments in life that made you happy, and if there isn't any than just off yourself. Otherwise, try and find that same happiness again by filling in the gap in your life that makes you want to commit suicide.

tl;dr OP should stop being a faggot and lose the therapy and find his passion

See this guy gets it

bored with shit post op. kbai

cyanide's a pretty good choice in your situation

I think you can see the pull up bar in my pic. I do like 10 at a time a few times a day if I'm not working. It only helps so much

Is your sister still alive? If so rape her to get payback. Take video and post it here

This. That bitch deserves hell.

Oh right what do I know. I just work as a licensed psychotherapist dealing with these problems daily.

The case I mentioned is not an exception. I experience the joy of recovery every so often. You work at a ward-- those places are for the most severe cases, your opinion is biased. Your task is paliative, not curative. The majority of bipolars and other mental diseased never wind up in a psychiatric ward, which is the case of OP. The only exception to this is schizophrenia, and this too can be handled in some cases.

I pray you are not inducing your patients into suicide like you are with OP you shit professional. Shame on you, go flip burgers!

True. Maybe I'd be some idiot who can't see how miserable and pointless life really is though. I miss the ignorance.

This, please

i dare you not to kill yourself : (

Go on a mass shooting spree with a purpose than go suicide by cops or kys, u will make the news and they will turn u into a celebrity

shit op is shit

Idk. I'm actually getting a lot of kindness. I was kinda hoping you guys would push me over the edge, but only a few faggots a re trying, and they're not even doing a good job with the insults. They're more amusing than hurtful.

Fuckin this

Your life sounds an awful lot like mine i mean a scary amount exempt i am thirty and still not met my father and don't even plan on trying..do what i did stop being a pussy just wake up tomorrow and never think our mention them this again. Pull up your panties OP brush that shit off and move on.. stop hiding behind or even saying BPD PTSD or whatever. Move on bro

Oh right what do I know. I'm just Sigmund motherfucking Freud.

I experience my release mainly from coke. You work as a psychotherapist -- I sincerely hope you're not inducing your patients to not fuck their mothers. Shame on you, go shepard goats!

Walk away. You don't need to do it, bt bear with me here. If you really need the therapy, try to stay with it. For everything else that hurts you, maybe even the entire history of your life, walk away. You past doesn't define who you are, or who you want to be. Leave your old life behind, move away, take an entirely different path. I can't say with absolute certainty you'll manage, or things will change, but it's worth trying your best shot.

Do what you will, I suppose, best of regards, - R

Never do this!
See

Sorry for the shit you went through holmes.
I have accomplished not feeling sucidal anymore, and am on track to get a decent job, and had a decent childhood.
But I still cut myself to feel something other than overwhelming depression sometimes.